lets try new things shall we??

shit man.i m knw usin this flexible keybard. n dangman!!!!!! so weirdddddddddddddddddd!

so tdi p pc fair. ok la. so beli earphones..then2 em2.. pd smpai 3.then em.ohh yeah.hahahha..

gz wic 1 i chose?!!!!!!!1111!!!1 yeh u gzd it wrong!!!!! i chose the pink one!!!!! hahahaha

can u jz bliv it!!!!!! i know. its so crazy man! n b4 tht pun. i bought a dress!!! perfghhh!!!

y so??? tah.. i mean after all i am a girl well minus the name. hahahaha.. then cm i felt like why dont i try new tings u know. its not a crime. n m all so like cm for 15 years d m jz macm tu jaaaa. so y dont i try new things. its fun!!!! :P!!!!! haahhahah

i jz dk how to go to school wit it n theyll b like aiman?!!!! is tht u!??????? omfg!!!!!!!!

yeah even i myself cant bliv it!!!!!!!!!!!!

n yeah.. for my face.. yeah.. thts rite.. i got to be kidding u guys!!

so lets recall back wat hapend today. p mkn, then nk bli uniform baru well the baju la kan. jarang gila. then minah tu ckp suruh pakai singlet. weyyyyyyyyy.. aku lebey rela p skola dgn bju x iron drpd nk pakai singlet n merana the whole day. i xmau! so x beli leeeee.. then p kedai kek wokman. ive heard of it. n at least now i knw wer it is. ehhe.. then the cake. i mean decoration diorng lawa gilaaaa!!!!! so i was like ma i tink wen i grow up, can i be a cake decorator?? ahahahhaahha.. aiman smkin pelik!

then the damn dress.. ish2.. then yeah this crazy idea. m gona wear a skirt esok p msn!!!!! hahahahahahahhahahah!!!!!!!!!! i know, u can faint know. i just clled 911. they re otw. hehe... or maybe the wite dress. but tu kena pakai sluar tho. my mum wud kill me if i just go out like tht. huhu.. tgk ah cnaaaa.. aku mmg.. dh gila..

then balek umah p lipat bju. hahahah.. yeah wat bek jap.

then kluar again. p english homes yang my mum spent half a k dlm kedai tu ja. n i dok nganga thp terok gila babi. then i tried the dress on la. i was like dok thn gelak lookin at the mirror. the person in it. haahhahahahah.. i mean. imgine la. a gal yg mmg tomboyish, all jeans all the time with a dress. perfg! then i dok thn smpai akak tu ckp awat nmpk cm nk gelak. then i tros gelak. ahahhah.. then she ckp nape xsuka eh? then xtau la pa g. she ckp dhla rmbut pnjg da, pkai ja dress tu ngn sandals ka mary jane, ok. then apa lagi la dia ckp .i jz dgr ja. ahahahhahah

bkn xsuka. i actually like em. but i just tah. xbiasa gila2 la. so kna la biasakan. ahahahha.. she ckp we r gals wat. so kdg2 pakai la skirt. not to say sllu, tpi kdg2 pakai ah.. nmpk len. al i cn say is i tergelak wen i nmpk. hahahahha

so wth happened to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mg!

help!

to be continued..

lemony snickets : series of unfortunate events..

xtau la pasepa. hahahaha

dingy ding

its 1243 pm.. i got up at 1030++.. nganga.. just rmbd my dads in pg. so me n my mum here. later going out to tesco, vmall, n xtau la lagiii..


called b. he bru ja bgn.. ok. m so worried ok. mcm. yeah la. i knw. wats my point of worrying. bukannya i can do anything. bukannya i can take care of him. oh wat the heck. so all i can do is pray for him n hope for the best for him. get wel soon.... tauuuuuuuuuu.. hmmmmm..


then yeah gz wat. i slept at 10 last niteeeeeee. haahaha.. gila pa.. i know. n it was so hotttt.. i suppose to get up at dk la wat time n also wake b up. but ended up he called me coz i xbgn. n seriously panas gila. i was sleepin with singlet yet i was sweatin. so came in ac!!! hehe.. bes ah sejuk2.. weeeeeeeeeeee.. then aft that tido of n on..


nk ckp ngn b.. tpi hes not well.. sleepin too.. so its ok.. :)



so act last nite.. i mean the whole day of yest la nk pulun. well did try a bit at pantai. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy


ok. il declare myself as mad first. secondly. hamster!!!!!!!!!!!! no its act a kitty. but comeyyyyyyyyyyyy gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like damn serious man. the cutest kitty ever. coz dia cm hamster then dia mmg comey la. soooooooooo.. smpai2 ja dgr la ada meow3!!! so xpa. then kuar dgr g. so usha2 tgk dia dlm drain. yeah. wteva uve guessed tu btul. mula2 the drain kan covered ngn the simen nya penutup. i tried to lift it but too heavy la man. yeah. aiman gila. naseb bek xdk org time tu outsyd. so tried to lift it but xle. so hujung tu ada the besi nya cover tau. yeah i lifted it. hahahahaha.. kinda berat too tho. then meow3!!! dkt dia n hamster came.


mg. mmg comey gila! then cm of cz la kan i was like maaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mcm hamster!!!!!!!!! maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! comeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ksian dia!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dia kecik sgt!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa dont u think its a sign?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god is tellin us sth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n byk g cm tu.. till mum was like aimannnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!! plssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stopppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we r not bringing it home ok. then i was like f la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


well cukup dhla ada 5. then hamster ni kecik gila. so mmg seems so imposib for her to blend with the 5. haix. pastuh told pitee. pitee lak ckp laaaaaaaaaaaaa ank kucin kan? awat xamek bgi kat aku. babiiiiiiiiii.. aku pun xterigt.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

n2... u know... then hamster tu lari tau. omfg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! comey gila. mcm a running hotdog. serious dia mcm hamster, dhla kecik2, pendek2, kaki dia tiny gila. mmg ah wey. cutest creature ever! n2 the fur dhla cm pnjg2 sikit. not short hair. then colour dia cm not like biasanyaa.. comeyyyyyyyyyyyy.....if i can keep her, or him, il name it hamster. ngeeeeeeeeeee :D


then2 p jakel. weeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i wana kil myselfl n die. y? my tummy. evn malina cudnt blive her eyes mannnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!! shit. so seriously. stop choco, icecream. just once a wik. then rice cut down terok gila. lunch ja rice mlm sth lite. then mkn fruit, fish, vegy. no meat, no goreng2. suma tu la. n exerciseeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kna cycle cm org gila almost everyday. n run up n down the stairs. make it 10 times a day. yeah.. so god. have mercy on me. throw the flabs away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! get rid of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sooooooooo.. now m waitin for my mum to go n have lunch, then tesco then bla3. boringgggggggg.. oh n yeah. next trip to pg. m so gona see a doctor bout those fcking dots round my body. its starting to itch. not gooddddddddddddddddd...

http://www.malaysianartistesforunity.info/

m still into it. haahhaha..

oh n yeah i heard kings of leons use smbd on fly. maddddddddddddd..

its wonderfull.. its beautiful.. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8Wl3firJQk

idk y.. hehe.. sukaaaaaaaaaaa..

b..... blaja la lagu ni in guitar.... i know.. its hard to get the tabs.. il try to get it..

here in my home :)

balek2 skola.. yeah.. miracle.. aiman on tv.. hehe.. :) then tgk la hitz.tv on the set. igt dpt tgk riffs. rupa2nya too lateeeeeeee.. sobz! tpiiiiiiiiiii.. xpaaaaaaaaaa

that song. i mean. the whole project. well b penah ckp bout tht sg. but i was like oh oh. then wen i tgk the video n the making of it. i was like.. speechless.. cm xtau nk kata pa. idk la why kan.

but.. its i tink.. for me la kan.. all of it the whole project. suma artist combine, suma tu la.. its beautiful. for me la. but i dk y. hehe

soooooo.. yest gempur sej. then tdi geo. theyre actually training us. not train la. just cm remindin us to study for trials n pmr. huhu. trials is like two weeks more?? n next week hari canteen. i wonder what will happen. one things for sure camwhoring n fooooooooooooooooddddddddddd!!!!!!!! n2 make sure ntg apens to my phone so tht the pixies are safe. unlike last yer.. pooooooooofffffffffff.. all gone. dhla suma gamba lawa2!!! babi!!!

my hair.. its daymnnnnnnnnnnn curly..

oh2. n the cats skang. theyre no longer in the cage during daytym. malam ja masok. hopefully theyll b fine.. :)

then2. em2.. actually kan. i have the pulun mode on. ahahah

so at school.. aih.. b... get wel soon. cna ley sudeny fall sick. dh la ur the type lama nak baek kan? get well soon k .tc of urself. rest tauuu.. - i dh byk kali repeat the same ting since last nite wic is drink more wter, fruits, vit c.. i know. i sound like ur mum. shut uppppppp!!!!!!!!!.. but il keep on repeatin it.. since thts the only way.. -

thennnn geo. ok la. markah pun dh dpt. cukup2 makan ja. xpa. thank god. :) tu kira bc buku. haix. well xla pulun sgt cm sej. so kenalah berusaha banyak2! lagi.. :)

i cant blive wat amalina did.. if la ternampak. il cekik u sampai u realy3!! cnt breathe for 5 seconds tau dakkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pungkoq!

but yeah.. then it lifted me up. aahahhaha.. xla rasa cm shit sgt. then2 dia tu kan. annnoooyingggggg gila2.......... dia cm mabuk tau ak. pasai dia aku kena dipanggil oleh zurina utk berdiri dan jwb tentang dugong yg mmg aku xtau pa. tu ah.. sembang g! n2.. tdi zurina trik my hand.. berbisik2 wit me. aahahhah.. well yeah.. :)

balek tdi mkn zinger burger. n minum coke.

- yeah aiman xdk idea dh nk kata pa. tu dia jdi cm tu. huhu.. -

ok la..

nk wat keja. i have like 2 keja maths. then i wana study geo. ahhaha.. xpuas ati sgt ah. huhu.

sooooooooooooo... i tink i have 3 reasons y id stay till mornaynn.. like really late mornayn!! one well yeah.. :) hahaha.. the other one.. thi sil try.. well not try. its a must.

actually kan. xsusah. xpyh mana. senang ja la nk sttudy nk cover f1,2,3. its either u want or not. n either wteva ur readin msok otak x. mostly it will.. just baca la man. at least u have some goddamn idea bout wat uve learned for the past 3 years.

soooooooooooooo.. itu sajala..

:)

till then..

suma bnda psycho !!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P!

stuttering!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been, it's been, it's been, it's been

su-su-such a long time, long time, long time

since anybody touched me, touched me, touched me

the way that you touch me

So if I stutter, stutter, stutter

and I feel so so so unsexy

so maybe I'll just keep my mouth shut

at least until you kiss me

So kiss me again

Cause only you can stop this stut-stut-stut-stuttering

Kiss me again

And ease my su-su su-su su-su su-su-su- suffering

I know I know

it's sy it's sy-sy-symbolic of everything

Everything that's wrong with me and you

So tell me what I'm supposed to do

Oh it's been ages since we've been really honest

but I can make ch-ch-ch-changes if you really want this

So kiss me again

Cause only you can stop this stut-stut-stut-stuttering

Kiss me again

And ease my su-su su-su su-su su-su-su- suffering

if it means a lot to you

Hey darling, I hope you're good tonight
And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving
Yeah, I want it but no, I don't need it
Tell me something sweet to get me by
'Cause I can't come back home 'til they're singin'


La, la la la, la la la
'Til everyone is singin'


If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear to you that we can make this last
If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow, this will all be in our past
It might be for the best


Hey sweetie, I need you here tonight
And I know that you don't wanna be leaving
Yeah, you want it but I can't help it
I just feel complete when you're by my side
But I know you can't come home 'til they're singin'


La, la la la, la la la
'Til everyone is singin'
La, la la la, la la la

If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear to you that we can make this last
If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow, this will all be in our past
It might be for the best

You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me
I can wait through everything
Is this really happening?

I swear I'll never be happy again
And don't you dare say we can just be friends
I'm not some boy that you can sway
We knew it'd happen eventually

La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin' La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'
(If you can wait 'til I get home)
La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'
(Then I swear we can make this last)
La, la la la, la la la
Now everybody's singin'

If you can wait 'til I get home
Then I swear we can make this last

so life isnt like anything u expected.

so the tings tht u want are the things ul neva get.

nothing comes for free.

nothing is fair.

wel, the world IS a cruel place afterall.. :)

its not shocking. i mean not sooo shocking la 4 me. but it wasnt expected too.. wen i heard all. well its not all. but heard bout it.. i felt like finally. a light shone.. out of nowhere. showing n telling me al the reasons. the ansers.

u see. everything. n i reallllyyyyyyyyyy mean everything happens for a reason. it happens for a reason. i mean theres always the cause of it.

so now. i know. y this n tht hapened. wats the reason. how come my life went tht way n all.. suma wel not suma tpi ada la yg terjawab. at least i mean it makes sense. i can see the connection. just tht i have to well solve the puzzle. the pieces is already there i just nid to pick it up n relive again n und it n hopefuly i can solve it.

its all abou ttrust. n yeah ppl wud just do anything in order to get what they want. anything. no matter its so bad or watsoever.

come on. d fucking truth is. no ones an angel. no ones good.

i mean. ask urself.

ur not selfish?

ur not using ppl?

u dont mistreat ppl?

ur so sincere?

u dont manipulate ppl?

u dont wish for attention?

u dont wish to be popular?

u dont wish to have all the stuff to u?

u dont backstab ppl?

u dont talk bad bout other ppl?

u dont hurt ppl?

u do care bout other ppl?

u would sacrifice for other ppl?



so u see.. we cant do anything. its part of well part of life. part of urself. part of us. u have to go along.


n yeah... all of us. suma org.. have changed. all of us have changed. frankly, from bad to worse. i knw i m. its like the older get, the more messed up u get. its like a disaster. or we say systematic chaos. all of it.

so ur kinda like lost. ur not sure wat u want or wat u nid. or wat to do or say or follow. n worse to believe. u dont know whther ur doing the rite ting or not. but for surely the tings tht u do mmg aint rite. but then u jz dk. then in the end ud say..

wat have i done?

wat have i done to myself?

ys my life like this?

y must this happen?

wat is happening?

in the end. it all comes back to u. ur tryna find urself. who u really are. but we jdk..

confused. idk. m kinda blank. much more in the mood of lisenin. yeah m currently open if u need to pour anythin to me. :) at least i know.

but yeah the answers are there. finnaly. soa t least i dont feel so like tah. now it al makes sense.

learn from this. no ones good. the world is a cruel place to live in. so make the rite choice. for mankinds sake. hahahahah

if u cant make up ur mind, well u have to or just go on. well yeah ppl say go on, move on, fuck la wey.

i dont feel sad or devastated or tht some sort just yet. coz m just like ohhhhhh..

u see.. at the age of 15. the year all of us are about to be sitting for our trials n pmr, all this must come n happen to us. :) wat a life !! - british accent!.. -

perfect.. purrrrrrrrrrrrfeeeecccttttttttttttttttt..

u dont have a time machine. dont try to do tht.

can we actually solve tis??

i hate it when it involves other ppl. unlike last year or years b4 tht. if apa2 pun, i mean my ony prob was me being emo, so it doesnt dist anyone or involve others. so its much more easier. yeah. the older u r, the more complicated it gets.

now m thinkin. m i doing the rite ting?

well. idt so.. so.. great. idk...........

we are no future teller :)

what will happen mannnnnnnnn..


m sleepy la wey

tpi kan. ada gempur kan. sej n aft tht geo. geogrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

so wtf. i tink i sud sleep nw. then study tonite. no mater wat. so i soooooooooooo nid to stay awake. like seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tips anyone??

n yeah. we must be very open n accept ppl. accept themselves, respcet their decisions, respect their thoughts or opinions.

i tink kan. this kinda talk should be done at least once in two weeks. keep ourselves updated n2 help each other out. at least just hear em out.

:)

dont worry. we r not alone. :)

we wil survive !!!

:)

- i still dont have an answer. i need to talk to someone.

substitute, cut down, get rid of it !!! - cleaning up mode

chimaira - power trip

so2.. nk dl a day to rmb, chimaira, chiodos. :)

ok............ so.. time to change.. perffgghhh

i so hate tis.. so i guess my parents knows tht im alwiz staying up so late n all n all n all..

so mums like u know. theres only 2months left. get serious. bla3..
dad.. u wana go to au rite? so study hard la.. study k..

so.. substiotute.. sugar!!! tadi i bought 3 bars of milky bar. snickers. kitkat.

- ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wont buy it anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. mums like its not gud 4 u. its sweet. it may not affect u now. but it will lter. u may get cancer. bla3.. i know.. yeah too much sugar, to much oil/ fat- cancer.. u know wat.. just by sitting down on the floor at the hall or in ur room, chances are u may get cancer too u know. since evrytings like cancer3!!! perfghh.. then even tdi kena ngn handphone. dont use it so much. radition. bla3. n said umi menyesal beli phone for u terlalu awal. dad pula ckp no its ok la. she can still eat chocos. for now. its ok at least u eat a bit a day.

wat happened??

so yeah. wil i last even til 20 ?


ok greatt.. so no phones anymoreeeeeeeeeee. just for music purposes. no more pressing the keypad. il try laaaaaaaaaa..


then the sugar. yeah its like a drugggggggg.. i kna gak amek at least once a day. like ok fine il just amek sikit ja in a day. so m givin out skittles, milky bars. n mayb nips. huhu. bye2 guyss..

actually kan. dulu b4 tis craze over sugar, i neva even trfikir. i mean i just dont tke em at all. ice cream pun x. idk la wat happen to me. i have to stop.

theres so many things tht i have to stop.

its ok. for pmr. its ok. after tht. u just do wateva u wana do. especially form 4


cut down onlining. like seriously. just cut down. on sat2 ja. n2 maybe perhaps, i just wont on. il just go n dl stuff n update blog. tu pun if i feel like doing it.

- im shutting myself up. :)

idk la how long i can lsat. i really hope i can. as for me how i'll be at school. idk. stop playing around n be crazy. yeah kill urself. i have too.. stop fooling around. so i dk la. maybe i wont b crapping tht much or talking or screamin or playing or runnin tht much d. n yeah musiccccc is so in the top list. since i just so need it.

so seriously, if u call my name, i dont respond, im sorry.


get rid of.. idk.. yeah playing around n all tu la.. get rid of myself. :)

get serious.

two more months!!!

so pmrs like 7-9 oct.. then 12 to 13 oct.

then we declare independence day!!!!!!!!!! hahahahha

ppl tanya. wat are ur plans aft pmr??

hahahahhaha.. thts all i can say. boleh ka aku keluar hang out? boley ka aku p melepak? boley ka aku p movies? boley ka aku nk p men bowling? boley ka aku nk p swimming ?? boley ka aku nk p pg??

dak kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnn..

so i dont have any plans as i know i cant do anyting. :)

so il just well clean up my room. watch tv. guitar. organ. cats. cycle.

yeahhhhhhh.. i know. plan for form four!!! grr


ohh n yeah.. dad mmg nk p keja in kl. but not thtttttttttt often as planned. so sat2 ja. but mums like wen ur dads goes to kl, u cant staybec anymore. u must come beck with atirah. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... y.................................. nvm..


- well.. its not tht i have a choice kan. its not tht i ever have a choice kan. its not tht i can ever say no kan. im always forced to do things. i just dont get it. so watever..

n i also have to stop eating. i tink kan. pasai tension tu m popping chocos, ice cream. then foooooooooooddddddddddd. then sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppp.. grr

spotlited jerk.. ur getting weirder. ahahhaha

il miss being myself. n many more..

- idk la wether il really be tht way or wat. lets see either on sunday or monday..

soooooooooooooooo.. im done.. studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..

i hate u pmr

i hate.

.

volatile

i just said at school m so not gona go for the carnival unless member2 ajak ka ngn pitee ka or watsoever. or terpaksa la..

guess wat?

i baru ja balek from it.. perffffghhh..

dari balek skola, mums like nnti kita p, tgk wateva2. m like do we have to go3!!!!!! like banyakkkkkkkk kalii. i so dont wana go..

then i was like xpala. just p ja la. il just folow.

so p la............

the ony think tht was in my mind was

get me out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont like it

i hate it

i just cant stand being there

take me home

or at least take me away from this place.

yeah aiman didnt like it. she didnt enjoy it. she wants to be away from it.

so i was like get me out3!!! lets get out3!!!

no la. of coz i didnt say tht to her. i just sumbatkan my ears n folowed everywhere my mum went. then she looked at me n luffed n she said u look so bored. m like ahaaaa.. xpala.. jalan ja la. il just folo..

shes like ur so not interestted in it ah?m like xdk pa pun. p jala jalan.

in my heart - ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. like duhhhhhhhhhhhh...

idk y la. i just mmg xsuka. m not gona go.

i dont wana go.

the ony thing tht i was interested in was the red earthworm and lionhead goldfish. ahahahha

ikan emas lionhead. so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

n the cacing merah. chunnnnnnnnnnnn.. but so kurus tho..

so yeah.. tht sums everythin.

oh yeah today.. :)..


yeah. staying alive. main point.

not hurtin urself is another point.

not doing crazy things is anotherr point.

not doing crazy things anymore is anotherrr point.

sleeping is anotherrrr point.

music is sooooooooo the point.

de touch is so gona be in the pont.

soon.

and the rest .

is still so the point....

.

stay alive, stay alive.. stay aliveeeeeeeeeeeee...

- a way.. yeah.. -

Little Mona Lisa laying by my side
"Crimson and Clover" pullin' overtime
Seem too close to be losin' touch
By givin' in, what am I givin' up
Am I losin' way too much

Hey
California waiting
Every little thing's gotta be just right
Say
While you're tryin' to save me
Can't I get back my lonely life

I'm goin' so fast that I can't slow down
It's hard to get up when you're spinnin' round and round
I'd tell you the news but nothin's changed
I'd sing you a song but they blew it away
All wrapped up in this stupid ass game

Hey
California waiting
Every little thing's gotta be just right
SayWhile you're tryin' to save me
Can't I get back my lonely life
Can't I get back my lonely life

words . . .

if u were to ask me, what do i want ? what do i wish for ?



theres no point of me telling u, even if its a zillion pages long. wana know why ?



you are no god to grant my wishes.



because all of my wishes, can never come true.



:)



oh well.. thats life isnt it. u wont get evrything that u always want.





dads going to kl tomorw. be back on friday i gz. weeeeeeeeee. thank god. i do have sth to look forward for. friday. cut my hair. well no diff pun laaa..





so todayyyyy.. xmsok klass. hahahha. bes.. elokk.. yeah the jap dance was cooolll.. then suma cool2..



can i just aiyoo..



so balek2 umah mkn chocolateeeeeeeeeeee.. yeah ive stopped for a cpl of days man. xle thn. i just g2 have it. a drugg..



then now m with dentyne. chewing tht gum away.



i just spent 10bucks of candies tadi. like again.



i got like tons of mts to do. i g2 sleep. n be able to get up tmrw. im getting darker. n i have this weird rash on my thigh. oh great. hairs so curly. weeeeeeeeeeee.. i hate it. its kinda serious man. shitttttttttttt. ! can i just not sleep tonite?





i just dont understand !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i would like to shut myself off with maths n headbanging..



the end.

floatin

ari ni............. ari selasaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. hehe.. pagi2 ok ah.. it was agama. but xdk pa. huhu.. i can msg hamsty pretty soon d. hehe.. :) then2 em2 dok headbang sikit, then em yeah rubics.. i just so dont get it. :D !

then2 em2.. recess.. then2 em2 skipped sn. ahahah... semabng, hung out ngn twity. then2 em2 siv idk. i forgot d man wat i did. then sej ok la. paham norliah dok ckp pa. then p toilet. thennnnnnnnnnnn.. pungkoq btui. ok la fair. tan ada 3 places lebam. satu perut, hand coz i bit her n paha since i cubit her coz she tried to pull my tongue out. thennnnnnnnnnnnnn. pungkoq dia btui. sket gila. ang ni kena amek kursus tmpr pungkoq ka??? haiyoo.. len kali aim la elok2. :P !

then2 em. bmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. zurina dah mai balekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.. aiyoo. xdk da la msaa nk lepak2 gila2 d. sobz... then tidoq sat. ahahha.. then2 em2. yeah ada presentation. huhu.. aku nganga.. weeeeeeeeeeeee

so pastu stay. terus pdewan bru tgk jap dance. i like2. :) then2 makan. m en da, we cnt live in a hse. sure umah tu kan roboh ka terbelah dua ka. nk mkn pun xley diam punya. hahaha.. kami.. huhu. thennnnnnnn jap dance again. dak la. b4 dat was yeah. i enjoy laying on the field with the breeze. bes gilaaaaaaaaaaa.. just baring saja and look up at the sky.. with the wind mannnnnn.. so tdi danced, sang songs, n lied on the field. :) sukaaaaaaaaaaaa... oh n yeah mstila kena tmbh ngn jerit2, lari2. ehhe..
dhla baring2 then mengantok gilaaaaaaa.. thivi. adek rinesh. i actually like her. i like. :) one things for sure, if u hug her, she'l hug u bec. :) then she dok urut2 my head. hahahha.. then2 dera hamsty. hahahah.. then2 danced with her. baring2 suma. - aku blur ah. tired kot. - then baring lagi. refuse to get up. mengantokkkkkkkkkk.. yeah like aft tht . the whole tym. my eyes cm berat gila.. sleepy head. i m. grrr..

then.. :)

then balekkk.. n2 soon kan. i lik eher. she actually baek ah. :)

serious ah. blur. geylong. so nk mkn. then tidoq. then wat keja. then nganga. then tidoq. then altogether musickkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! :D

the end.

- n2 i actually menyesal xstay awal2 4 d jap dance. i mean at least i teman didi. hanging out with em is nice. i like. :) theyre friendly. :)

mourn... day... hehe

oke2.. so m ok la now.. okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.. so yest. actually.. i had fun!!!!!!!!!!!! tasting das salty finger.. kena dera. maen2.. yeah.. i enjoy it.. idc wat ppl say. its my life mannnnnnnnnn..



then hahaha.. pijak2 mud.. then cuci our shoes ngn air hujan. pergh. then2 yeah da offered to wash my school shoes. haahah.. yeah jubli perak.. ha wey chunnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!! i got my phone d!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! :D ! we can amek gambar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeee! yeah thurs. or maybe esok la. scared thurs cant. huhu.. xpa2 il try. :)



soooooooooooo.. my jari berdarah. well sikitttttttttttt ja. sikit sgt2. but berdarah la. the kulit like chapped. hahahah.. y????????????????? da punya psai laaaaaa!!! u kan. cut ur nails la!!! so bahaya. now u know y school say cnt simpan panjang2??? ahahahhaha.. bole mnybbkan unecessary kecederaan! :P



yeah.. i suka jap dance. cutee... hehe.. then hanging out ngn form 1s.. i love em. :)



n yeha.. i am officially declaring myself as budak rambut curly/ maggy. i am no longer budak lambut luluih.



sOBZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grr.. m waitin 4 d chance to straiten it again. wic is most probably during the long hols. grr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..





- it is painful getting hit on the arse!!! hahaha



then2 erm2.. xtau.. hahahah



oke2.. cita ari niiiiiiiiii.. tidoq lmbt gak ah. then em2 bgn2 blur2.. 930 pg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! syok gilaaaaaaaaaaa.. tau ak dah lama gila x p gurney. x p lepak2.. more than over a month pa. tu another factor tht made me go hilang pertimbangan. ahhaha.. now ok la. stable.. ckittttttttttt.. phone dah ada. dah p lepak. tinggl nwz n few more matters. huuhu



sooooooooooooo... weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! beli a pair of jeans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D !!!!



wanted to buy short pants la.. tpi an. dia 3quarter. try2 i look so shortttttttt!! hahahaha i need a knee length not 3quarter so xjdi beli.. sobz. mum pun wasnt keen about it. i was like plsssssssssss.. baru dia cm oke2.. aiyoo.. so2.. i know who can buy it for me!!! raudha!!!!!!!! hehe



then2 erm yeah m back to body shop. those damn facial stuff. so kna tambah ngn toner la scrub la ngn moisturizer was it?? no idea. iif pulun gila il tke pix of it post it here. hahahah



then2.. i tink beli 5 baju!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! syok ahh.. cam it started of with my mum nmpk tis nice baju, for formal la.. then she ckp nak ahh. lwa ni. i was like ok! then mula ah. ehhe.. dah. i cant do tis for the next few months d. :)



then yeah. tu ja la..



i actually like going to pharmacies. n also like watsons ka guardian. yg jenis well stock la. if xwell stock xsuka. yg jenis well stock, byk barang, i enjoy. tah. i jz like tgk stuff. ahahhaha



i know. weird :D



n2 yeah i like going to body shop. ahhahaha..



thennnnnnnnnnnn.. p mkn at manila place.. as usual. the set. ice peach tea. mushroom sup, bun, spagety!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then ice cream!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... then2 bila dah abes mkn kan, xley jalan. hahahah.. too knyg la man. serious, cm kenyang gila.. i cant do tht anymre. i have to go green. kena mkn salad jaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! sobz.. - for my own gud, i have too..



then2 em2 p kutip phone.. then2 em pretzels.. sukaaaa.. :D tah.. mkn saja lo. heheh.. n waffles. :D



aiman. u have to stop eatin.



:)



thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn... p ah rumah uncle omar. cucu dia.. sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D.. hehe.. so one year old n 10 months. i like the one year old punya. lupa da nama dia pa. i dok dukung2 dia. buli2 dia.. hehe.. :D



thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.. bawak balek rasam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok its an indian dish. ada egg lam tu n its yellowish. thts all i knw. hehe.. sedappppppppppp gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. lama gila xmkn. but kan. ada byk pepper. so.. tkot la sorethroat. then demam. huhu

then2... em2.. yeah.. balek d lo... mcm tu la my mond yg public oliday di kedah, perlis, tganu n kelantan. huhu. spent in pg. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

ok lerr.. :P

california waiting

soooooooooooooo... aku xtau la..

neminela bout tht.. so skang.. 2 benda yg bothers me.. one tu.. no la.. both.. haix..

2day.. 455 kot.. no la.. its kinda b4.. but somesort like tht.. :)... biggggggg thingg.. sth to rmb. ahahahah

aiyoo.. act kan. malas ah nk blog.. ok2 wat apend today

i lupa.. hahahahah

oke2.. p pagi.. cm nknges. gha xmai. yash. dharsh. girls mmg byk xmai.. cm ngn babi. bgn pagi pun mcm arammmmmmmmmmm.. nk nanges tau ak.. xmo pppppppppppp!

then2 erm2 ustaz xmsok. jamil masok! :D ! then2 pj dok hang at lib. men2 ngn didi!!! hehe.. then coloured my nails with pinkkkkkkk highliters!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeee.. its stil kinda pinkish now. so its like my ledt hand its pinkish.. then my rite its like well nrml. hehe.. thennnnnn snnnnnnnnn.. mg.. aiyoo.. but yeah she slapped my face, my mouth, n pulled my tongue!!! pastuh ada la lagi cm tu.. sej was acceptble. i bole la tima pa dia ajr.. then kna tmpq g...

yeah.. overall.. i like.. no i loveeee today.. n i enjyd it..

actually kan.. byk g appen.. tpi m jz sooooooooooooooooooo lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy n not in the mood of blabbing away.. so.. bye2..

:)

dark light

Heaven ablaze in our eyes
We're standing still in time
The blood on our hands is the wine
We offer as sacrifice

Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul

This endless mercy mile
We're crawling side by side
With hell freezing over in our eyes
Gods kneel before our crime

Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul

prelude to tragedy

Can't you see my darling
That the harder i try
The more we grow apart

Please believe me
The sweeter the kiss
The colder turn your arms

And the colder grows your heart
And baby more i love you

I see it in your eyes
I feel it in your touch
I taste it from your lips

And baby more i love you

And you're in my heart my darling
The closer i get
The more you're out of love

Don't you feel it
The colder your touch
The more it turns me on
And the faster beats my heart

And baby more i love you

I see it in your eyes
I feel it in your touch
I taste it from your lips

And baby more i love you

emmm

sooooooo... yeah... tdi tido kan.. then dh la ngn aircond. fuhh.. heaven. ehhe.. then dontn ask me how many tyms my mum knowcked the door to wake m eup. i bgn2 then i was like uhh? mmg blurrrrrrr gila. then shes like mak cik n uncle omar mai. i was like ahhh?? she repeatd it 4 tyms i gz. then i was like haa.. then p tido. hahaha. i knw. so bad. then 5 mins aft that i was like ohh.. uncle omar n makcik mai. hehe.. so bgn la p tukar bju suma p turun.


mg. wen i saw makcik i was like :D !!! soooooooooooo :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe..


then bnda prtama dia ckp.. ahh.. dia ni sihat ah..


i was heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D !!!!!!!!!!!!!


then lama2 pun dok ckp.. no2 uncle omar ckp ah kuruih ah.. aihhhhhhhhhhhh.. :((.. then makcik ckp if next tym dia mai, sure il b as big as umi. i was like aiman gemuk sgt ka? dia ckp x.. tpi dok naek ah.. aihhhhhhhhhhhh.. i have to stop eatin.. i have to start exercisin!!! cycleeeeeeeee!!!


so u see.. how much i have expanded. hahahahaha..


n u know... m so glad.. m kinda into slipknot again. hehe.. headbang!! n zimmys so into wait and bleed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D


adam.. i dont even wana try to get u into screamo or slipknot or nickelback or crossfade or disturbed or i set my friends on fire or bring me the horizon or even him. y??? coz i already know the anser.. ur so not gona b into it.. :P its bgus ur into soad! hehe..


niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii... m so not epy bout it. haix. for the next 2 and a half months or so.. daddys gona b in kl.. like 4 days out of 7 in kl.. hes gona work there. idk y. i dont feel like knwin y.. hmmphh..

so kinda like weekend ja i gz he'll b at home. its not confirmed yet. but itl somesort somehow b tht way. haih. haih. haih. so pak ngah n mak ngah cmin here lo. then.. then2.. i tink. i prefer being at school then.. hmmm.. stayback.. i may come for u.. as i dont want to stay at home.. hmmm.. :(




him - i love you



him - wings of a butterfly!!!



him - vampire heart



him - burried alive by love

- his infernal majesty -

ahh.. this movie.. butterfly on a wheel if x silap.. huhu




soooooo.. yeah.. whos mak cik n uncle omar?? i igt g.. nek motor with him. heheh.. :D then2 ahh makcik.. she comes to our hse.. well in pg la kan.. hmmmm.. almost like evryday.. then she;ll pokpek3.. heheh.. she talks a lot. :D n i like it. then2.. yeah weekends she'll teach me how to cook. i actually enjyd em n kinda bole la. tpi dh lama2. haix. forget it la kan. dok umah pun. hmmm.. wteva la. so yeah. i misssssssssss her cookinggggggggg like damn much. i igt g dulu. well dulu dia mai umah masak gak ahh.. the nasi on my plate. hahahah... the kuah i letak. the dishes i mkn. mg. chunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.. n she akn marah if like my mum ka kak siti tegur if i amek makann byk ngt. ahahahha... haih.. rindu..


tadi bila dia nk blah.. sedey gak ah.. wntd to hug her. but i tink if i did, wat emo terlebey nges pa. yeah. sedey2...

ok.. suda.. xdk idea nk tulis pa dah.. nk study.. dlm bilik.. tpi nk songs.. nk on lappy tpi xdk net.. nak wat wireless tpi malas nk kena fiddle around.. apa nihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

headbang >> <<

zhuuuu

m home.. huhu.. tido kol 4. huhu.. n rizals like floating.. coz dia x cukup tido. ahahaha.. dia mmg. dok fly.. bgn at 930. mkn. balekkkkkkkkkk.. smpai2 at 12. well mula2 besa la kena p tgk kucin lu. men2 jap. msok umah. trus mkn milky bar. ahahaha.. n mum slike aiman nnti angkt kain kt blkg. ah then nek ats amek the baju. ah then give me the baju u wana wash. then xtau pa dia g dia ckp. hahaha.. i was so into the milky bar. so no point tlking to me if im desperate of sugar. i wont lisen. ok? then suruh amek ayam lak dlm fridge. i was stil with milky bar n without respond. ahhaha.. then last2 dia ckp ni.. aiman pulak yg tlg masak k.. i just luffed my ass out n went away. hahaha.. dak la then i wat la suma angkt ken suma fed the cats. mitch is mad. sths wrong with him. then em2 . yea la xmsk la of cz. hehe

today.. agk rajen. m in the mood of sortin things out n cleanin stuff out. weeeeeeeeeee

n agk rajen wat hmwrk. yessssss! :D

so yest. i mean this mrning. at 2am ++ was the first tym in my life i felt scared stayin alone. huhu. serious. i was waitin 4 my paretns. diorg ckp nk blek 1+. tunggu2 tertido. bgn2 2++ then i was like. tah. tkot smcm. ahahha.. i was like.. b.. m scared.. ahahahahha..

n balek2.. like 3 kot. daddy dok mepek god knws wat. i wasnt absorbed in it. hehe. then dia dok mkn., the was tlkin bout food n al. n he dok mkn! pergh.. now i knw y i jdi cmtu. hahahaha

ni.. kucing nek keta. ahhahaha.. ada mamat tu dri jauh dok jerit.. weyy.. tgk tu.. kucin nek keta.. ada kucin nek keta.. otak dia ah..

yo. xdk idea nk ckp pa. ohh yeah. i want mcd. again. n ice cream. n all. lapaq!

n im so gettin fatter. jeans like dh ketat. dkt my thigh. fuck. ishhhhhhhhh

exrcise tpi mls. musicccccccccccc xdk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! norliahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
end of tis month. mmg. il get it. il go n get it. well with alam along la. n yeah il say its mine. its mine! yeah its mine norliah! xpuas ati pa?!

saja wat dramatik sat.. but act. yeah. im kinda like mcm ilang pertimbangan. like seriously. dh la ada org tu kan. phne dia dh xdk. ahahahha.. no big le. tpi music. aihhh...

xdk mud dh la.

nk blah.

pergh

if i had a rocket launcher

no

wait

breathe

stil

calm

down

this

is

not

what

this

is

about

.

strip

balek2 ja umah. wel i opened the door, then setapak ja dlm umah.. haccchuuuuuuuu...
yeah... sneezeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. then non stop til its dripping. so not a gud sign. n my throat. irritating. greatttt.. m breathing thru my mouth. huhu. sobz!

then xpa.. dok sneeze2.. geylong. my mum ckp pulak. she was at the hall. me kitchen. then baju kotor nk cuci sumala. she was like ahh take of ur pants n baju now. i want to wash al the baju. u take out al now. m like huh? y? la xpala, umi nk wash, u take it off now. m like huh? ha.. then she added ahh even daddy i told him to do tht. dia xpakai pa. even underwear dia ada kt ctu. i was like biaq btui? shes like yeala p tgk. m like ohh ok2. then asked daddy mana? kt bilik. so its safe. so aku ngn bengong nya just strip at the kitchen. so i went upstairs ngn bikini shja. then boley pulak wen mkn dinner tdi my mum ngn agk excited nya told my dad u know just now she stripped here. dads like ahh.. ? so.. mum- yeah i told her to strip n she did. dads like ahh yeah so wat do u want to see? theres no diff. mums like ahh ada la diff. the size, the shape. m like yeah man. wat hapen to u man? hahhahahha. wat happen to my mum? my dad biasala xpa. mum. aiyo. haahaha

then boley la my dad dok ckp well me n dad la. tlking bout who says we dont support americans?rite???? so dok debate2 both of us. me n dad one team. mum the other team. ahahhaha.. then ckp if u dont supprt em ul die la. then my mums like ahh u sud read about this thing.. death. my dads like no i dont want to read about death. i want to stay postive. fuyooo..

- my mums ears - veryyyyyyyyy smalllllllllllllllllllllll.. dr tlh sahkan. ahahahha. serious man

- we live as if we are never going to die, and we die as if we never lived.

i like it. :)

so yeah. m not feelin tht well. m printing liriks for zimmy n m off to get ready 4 2mro. n bed. later bgn jap kot. tgh ahh cna. huhhh.. im so epy zimmys into slipknot. n htf! hehe

disturbed pun dia ok2 gak. but more to slipknot! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

norliah2.. aku cinta pdmu u tau ak ???? xpelerrrrrr...

2 minggu gggggggg... end of the month.. kena amek. i may take it myself. since dia mmg dah tau pun its mine. hmmm.. senang amek seniri suda. alam2...

so ari ni.. hmm.. pagi2. ok ja. hawtttttt.. then yeah aku syok suap azneer biskut iko. ahahahahha.. skali skala me n deena sja syok2 wat drama. sja nk cri pasai. hehe.. then2 yeah sej i lena. :) bess.. ngntok gila kot. p toilet aft that pun dok geylong. ah n gz wat me n di did>! mmg la xtau. tau kan
the mini pdg dpn toilet form 6? both of us baring ats tu jap. lie on the grass, looking at the sky. :) weeeeeeeeeeee.. ahahha.. til ada mmt cg mana tah mai. we trus bgn n lari. ahahhaha..

then2.. erm2.. yeah play here n there. :) then2. yeah men2 g. ngn headbang suma cukup. :D then camwhoring. besala. org dok xdk henfon bapa lama da. puki btuiiiiiiiiii. haix. nwz.. haix. pergh

pastu .. :)

so yeah great. m havin cold. nk p telan ubat ah. strepsils pun da ada. huhu.

n i have tis two huge pimples on my left cik. im allergic to someone. hehe..

- real evolutionary evidentiary backup

aiyo. i dont wana fall sick. god please.. i dont. kalo sick, xyah p skola. hahahah

fitree.. tergoda gila. ahahahhaha.. naa... lagi tergoda yg tht day tgk dia pakai boxers ja ngn dia nya tite jacket smbel men kucing. ahahhahaha.. crappp.. yeah i tlg koyakkan sluar dia g. since he dh wat dh. i tlg tmbh g. eehhe..

dh ahh.. tidooooooooooooo.. :)

maybe i wana cry out. hmmm.. :( imy.. n ada g i gz.. hmm.. :) hmm..

so i bru ja telan ubat, strepsils pun gone, redoxon now.

:)

haix.

im sneezin!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ishhhhhhhhhhhh

headbang2...

ohh n yeah.. well adams my bro. hes form 4. im form 3. :) . then another scene. zikris my bro. adams my cous. great2..

then2.. we have our own twinkle2 little star version. ahahhahaha..

aihh.. sleeppppp...

n my voice. ahahahhaha

m sneezin like helll!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh

n i love jamil nazri. n he thinks m from kl. n my name is some sort of fatin.. intan.. mg..

uncomfy

1. i showered less than 8 minutes. em wel its like 3 mins. then smbg 5mins. dad was calling me. to go down. mums not wel. like again. so mmg kalot. dhla ngn shampoo stil on my head. just rinse mcm org gila, pakai ja tshirt n towel n p turun. yeah cold, soaked wet. then naek, sabun badan, daddy pangge g, i went down without rinsing the soap. ish la. everytins in a mess.i dont smeel gud. my hair is like not shampood. ish!

can life get any better ?

yeah my life mmg mcm tu. after one comes another one. its a fact!

wteva la kan. b grateful. stay strong. be strong. be grateful.

yeah bakiahs so good today. n yeah. wateva she said. i like. :) for the first time i enjoyed art lesson. for today. :)

n2 no issues with bakiah

n sadly. i have issues now with norliah. perghh. y didnt u give it to fletcher? wat do u want?

sooooooooooooo... yeah. i have to sleep. erlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

mak aku dok bising pulak. dia ckp minah tu lari ngn bf dia. dia lari ngn bf dia!!! ok coz this fcking boy dok call my hse. manala aku nk tau. sapa soh xdk called id. then now shes mad. gila ka. malaih ah aku nk layan. then daddy angkat.. dia ckp bagi demam babi bagi kena u. hahahahaha.. gila ka. n he even ckp ey u stupid. bloody fool u. idiot. stop playin around. - my dad. haahha yg missing f ja. nnti dia call g. aku f dia. haahhah

ok so tdi at school after calling daddy sudeny.. i was hawt. hahahah.. sick la man. fever. like damn panas. then sudeny piteeeeee wat lawak gila bodo. i was luffin my ass out. then i ws a bit beta la. then all went ok. pitee. ahahahhah.. thank u pitee. :)

all of a sudden, 6+.. aunty norhailis binti jaafar kot xbapa igt, ahahah caled me. sayin hello, aiman, ni mak fitree ni. ni, aunty nk tnya, fitree ada ngn aiman ka? i was like errr noooooooooo.. well yea he ajak tdi nk cycle, but sinc ei wasnt feelin wel.. so haix. sobz. then tnya g, ohh xdk ka dkt area aiman? i was like noo.. y? she just ckp wonderin whther hes with me or not. weird. wth did u do pitee??

n mamat ni.. gila pa.. exactly 1157pm sharp last nite. he called me. just to say bout sth. tu ja. but his voice. mcm laki gila. hahahhaha. just his voice. i was like. waaaaaaaaaaaa.. wow. ahahha

yeah... this thing. ur neva an extra to me. its just. yes. i wish we can really be like last time again. i miss you. i miss the time being together with u. spending time with u. goofing around, going mad with u. i want to be there for u. i want to help u. but. this il explain to u. if u wer an extra to me, i wudnt actually go to u. and y wud u alwiz say like other ppl can help u, but u cant. do u knw sth? wen tht tym, well last week kot yg i was so down. u made me luff tht nite. do u knw? u mad me luff tht day. u made my day. n u know, those tyms wer i dont want to study, or tension, ul alwiz help me out. n i keep those msgs ok. i keep em. they help me ok.

yeah.. we need a talk.

so yea. i have a lot more to say. but i just want to shut up. wish i can say pekakkan my telinga. haix. sobz. byk ah benda. but its ok. :)

i miss my k8ooi

i miss my nwz

can my life get any better?

today.. idk.. several times. i just felt like cryin badly. haix.

im a bit messed up. so. i just cant pretty much think.

wteva ler..

:)

i want my bed. i want to sleep. i have work. i have to do my work. i have to study. trials. pmr.

thank u.

gula

ice cream

chocolate

candy

move ahead.. .... ... - science

wtf!! r we playin!!

dah2.. tu ja pun igt.. then bla3.. ok dah stop

sooooooooooooooo... as usual dok on of since 4... oficially bgn 11+.. turun p ke kittys. then mkn.

daddyyyyyyyyyyy.. yeah.. suara dia.. fuyooooooooooo.. sexy gilerrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dahla xdak suara, boley nk usaha ckp n jerit dok aimaaaaaaaaannnn.. aiman dia pun dok tersekat2. then dok hujan panasssssss!!!!!!!!!!! i was like wtf?! kesian ah. suara xnk kluar. then rasa cm seksa gila. reminds me of myself tym aritu. lost my voice like 2wiks?? grrrr.. tht shall not happen again. i have to tc of myself. :)

kings of leaon - california waiting

so hes having cold, sore throat since yest. body ache includin. get well soon robin rizal. :)

i miss ur voice. heeh

so yeah. he bgi lecture. bout time. n study suma. so revision n al.. each set is 1,30 or 2 hours. so kena at least do 2 sets at school. blek umah. tido. bgn. study. then 630-730 cats bla3. + the very neddddddddddddd of cyclin. then mkn, mndi. 8+ study til mlm. yeah. all planned. :) god bless me. i need musickkkkkkkkkkkkkk.........

then erm. yeah itu saja. actaully kan. xdk mud sgt ah. ahahahhaha

hadoi..

dah la..

nk blah..

x mandiiiiiiiiii

so i jz told my parents bout my masalah suka trjaga round 4 to 5 am n then on off tido.

mums respond - ohh.. tu ah.. umi pun sama. mangket ah study

- i really cant. especially skang xdk music. forget it

dads responds - ahh.. so... ohh then y did u sleep again?

so yeah.. hmm..

dont ask me wt hapened yest. al of a sudden i felt so malaih nk p 7e. then anis blah i pun ajak ah p. yeah. i was maddddddddddddddd.. beli sampai rm 29. worth of sugar!!!!!!!!! man!!!!!!!!!!!!! no la its actually rm21 since i din have enuff money. pergh.

so its 5 skittles.. 5 fascini.. 2 milky bar. last nite malam2 i p telan one milky bar. pergh. then i was like i soooooo have to stop. so the original one was i gz 7 skittles 6 fascini n 5 milky bars kot. yeah. call me madd. o lmw o .. anis ckp ah p la partay2, nnti u mati. haiyoooooo.. shes like syg, dh cukup. cukup. stop buyin. pls promise me share it with others, promise xmkn seniri. shes worrid. ahahhaha.. so il only borong 3 months once. but weekly itl either b fascini or skittles. maximum 3 packets only! sobz. n yeah la of coz dentyne. oh shitttttttttttttttttttt.. lupa. nnti sund msn. nk partay chewign gum. so i have to cycle p kedai. huhu. bli jaaaaaaaaaaa.. :)

so tdi.. 20++ skittles was in my mouth in one go. yeah i wasnt tking skittles, i was drinkin it. i tuang ja lam mulut. til penuh gila. then aft tht pening. kinda high.. huhu.. - i shall be doing it again.. -

n munching2 on fascini. yeah. i jz have to stop taking sugar til tah unless i nk diabetes. perghh..

but i cant help it. haix

so m rite here. with the air cond on. xmandi. il have to wait til my parents tdo bru ley mandi kalo x kantoi. hehe

i miss k8ooi

i miss nwz dot2 lupa..

yg the rest of wat hapened today.

hmm..

i dont feel like mentioning it.

nothing is comfy anymore.. hmm.. :(

but2

thank u yashu, dharshu, thatchu. :)

headbang2

pmr2

work2

study2

stop crappin2

hmph...............................


pointless bitching !!!
if i had a rocket launcher

no wait breathe stil calm down this is not wat this is about

is it capable of being copied
to another individuals memory
wil they tell it to others
is this noise
suppose to be a secret
a secret
i want the meanin u asshole
real evoulutinary evidentiary backup

create, cognize and recognize !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kings of leon

kings of leon - theyre very bad. hahaha.. but idk. wen i hear em, its relaxin, n i can do my work. :)


i know. its very the very unhealthy plugging my ears with songs almost 24/7. yes anything turns up, il pekakkan tlinga. the whole tym. for my health n for myself its so unhealthy. so its ok fletchers havin it. ahahha.. tho i do want it bec. hehe.. alammmmmmmmmmmmmmm... yeah il teman him to go n get it.


todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. yeah i love malinas mrng msg. ahahha.. chun gila. very brilliant.


then2 erm. yeah actually bgn2 ja blankkkkkk o blank. since no music. pergh. went almost the whole tym of the day like tht. sobz. so in the car. nganga. tryna stay awake. hahaha.. then2 erm yeah perhimpunan. stil tryna stay alive. then scienceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... ok la ntg apen pun. then2 emm recess. yeah bertekak ngn malina. ahahah.. ive yet to make a decision. huhu. or easier n better. let it be. :) no big la..


then pastuh bash3!! no la not bash3!! its bash. eheh.. then yeah lama2 malaih xdk mud. pergh. so dok move here n there. walk here n there. sat bside theva wat keja sat. mkn mihun n donut. nganga. songs. nganga. then sat with pitee, malina, zimmy, part of azneer, then alam n syed.


yeah. dont ask me y i was luffin bout my so called lost shoe. aahhahah.. tah. i was luffin kinda hard. geylong. so saw it under alams desk.


whos brilliant idea ? - malina


who carried out the brilliant idea ? - pitee


for gods sake, i din see u guys planning it or fitree tking it away. pergh.

yeah i wass too bz writing down a list of stuff to be built in my house compund. ahahaha.. n zimmys my future architect. weeeeeeee.. byk gila. n suma mepek. yg ony posib is a mini garden or large n spacious compound n house or swimming pool yg len crapppppppp... :)

n!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sth apen bitwin me n spotlited jerk!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahhahahahah.. la i forgot wat tym it was tho. but i shall rmb it. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D perghhh
ok it was he offered to carry me since i cudnt find my shoe. ahahahhaha :D!!!!!!!!!!!


dont be shocked if i say my lunch was snickers in the future. eheh.. tonite brong 7e!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D


m so thirsty. not hungry. well i m. but xdk mood sgt nk makan. so m jz swallowing plain cold water.. sobz. no juice. haix. i know. so no thealthy drinkin air sejuk. but i m. heeh

ok. off to do my work. so igz tu ja yg dok hapen. n i yeah yelling n screaming n luffin n all. eheh :)

rs cm da g. but xigt. n malaih nk recall bec. oh yeah. gha, deena come on!!!!

mmg u guys xbaca pun. just nk mention. ahahha

so yeah. itu saja la. peace.

:)

its a miracle

yeah. a miracle. aiman pegi on tv. hahaha.. so balek2 ngn baju pgkp ngn uncomfy nya i said lets on the tv. jom tgk hitz. just in case i get to watch riffs. hehe. dpt la. now music factory. n m still wit bju pgkp.

ketagih music. kesian2. hahaha.. wat to do. nwz di tgn fletcher. huhu. its ok. at least i knw its in safe hands. :)

alam.. im not mad at u. xrasa pa2 pun. dah kantoi, nk wat cna.

n malina. rilek ah. m fine ok. just bcuz m calm doesnt mean theres sth up. hahhah

yeah. calm. :)

so m dling stuff again. weeeeeeeeeee.. n lgu belambak.

n yeah ravenous, ravenous rhinous. m so not over it. yet. hehe

yes. i know. ive been such a idk la wat these past few weeks. even this week. again. byk org ckp pls be hepy. :) im tryin ok... well at least ok la kan. :)

i thank u god coz u chose jamil nazri to teach us. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D besssssssssssssss.. niceeeeeeeeeee... rindu sama dia. so at least il have huge luffs at school n i have sth to look forward. :)

n d lebam on my leg. frm a damn blue black n a slite scratch, nw its like damn red. hahaha.. yeah itl go away in a few days time. huhu..

il b home alone til god knows wen tonite. huhu.

i miss my phoneeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haix. pergh.

ok la m done. malaih ah. lack of mood. huhu.

RAVENOUS , RAVENOUS RHINOS !!!

CREATE, COGNIZE AND RECOGNIZE

walk away from the sun

seether.. back to em again. :D

ok2.. cut it short. i dont know who or wat is real and what is not. anymore. :)

greattttttttttt..


i could bleed for a smile
could die for a gun
walk away from the sun
and well kill everyone.
huhu..


who to trust. so for now. il only blive well 5 orang ja.

yeah. clearly. im confused. part of it. pissed.

yeah. everyone has problems.

:)

i just dont get it.

how i wish i can just walk strait to em n ask them straight at their faces.

wat do u want from me? if u dont want anything, well then pls leave. if ur just there to pretend, well get out n start being yourself. well who m i tlking about being urself, i myself m not. if ur so complicated, n cant make ur mind and live with wat uve done, then sit down n think about it. either u go on and swallow it or throw it away. its hard i know but it makes life easier dont u think? im not making any sense. like at allllllllllllllllllll...

so i have to stop. m off to sleep. with songs. thts al i want.

i want to get out.

if u ask me, m i ok.. well y dont u tell me. :)

i dont knw y m so mad and pissed about it, but i cant help it. u see.. i jz dont und. y must u.. well dot3............... when i start, then itl b wrong again. n itl take me for a while again if at all i want it. yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.............................

yeah. no one wil und wat m sayin. :)

lets just say its al in my head. :)

i wonder when il get tired. :)

tho i hope. itl b soon. :)

weyyyyyyyyyyyy

:)

yeha.. moody la at school.. well wasnt tht bad.. but i wasnt the normal aiman rizal. hehe.. i knw2. im sory. agak ketaralah dilema di wajah ku. perghh.. haahahha

so this may last for a week..

but ttn tdi saved me.. hehe :)

anis, joseph, justin..infront.. bsyd me gha.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

yes.. dri dulu g.. i prefer going for ttns then school.. like damn hell shit. aku rasa p ttn dh cukup nk dpt 8a.. well kena p suma 8 la. i like it more tht wayy.. oh wat the hell rite? life will never be the way u want it to be.. :)


nmpk ketarakah dilemma diwajahku?
diluarnya tenang tpi tuhan saja tahu..

;;)

excuese me.. aiman geylong.. heheh..

soooooooo.. tym ttn. dok gila2. gelak3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chewing gum.. mepek2.. heaven! weeeeeeee.. :D thennnnnn niii.. nseb bek suma org xusha. ony few ja.. since it was so damn noisy. ada semut ni.. on my paper.. i put anothe rpaper on the ant. n baaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmm!!!!!!!! i slamed the damn table. damnnnnnnnnn loud. haahha.. serious. then kna tmpq ngn gha coz it was too loud. ahahahha.. it was dmn loud man. but pheww.. nseb bek wasnt obvious. ehhee.

r u ok ????????????

idkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahhaha

next weekk we all nak partay!!!!!!!!!!!! evryone bwk bubble gum n sweets. weeeeeeeeeeeee.. sugar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah man.. so desperate need of it.. tdi for lunch i usha bounty. was tinkin to eat the small bar. but byk la. im scared il be guilty aft. then thot bout it for a moment.in the end. wtf riyt?!!! guilty pun p la. mkn dah.. life is short. who cares!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah.. wat are disturbing things to me or isit for me?? idk. ahahhaha.. byk ah wey. nk list down. nnti cm. tah.. pergh.. lot la actually. later la. thtl b later. lets put it asyd for a moment.


tpi niiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. ok la.. let me go on. since m so not in a stable state. who cares..


1. org yg ganggu idup aku. canni ah cita. if i kacau, u kacau me back. if i xwat pa2 kat u, bek ang tolong fuck diri ang sniri dan blah n jgn crik pasai. ok?? meaning if u my member nk dtg tegur2, xpa, i xkisah, maybe pissed ckit ah tpi i can accept. its ok. member wat. ni stai xkenai, xpena hang out. wat cm ngn pa. wey?? ang mslh pa? xpuas ati pa? aku ada ka ckp buruk pasai ang? wey aku bkn mcm ang la xdk keja dok p korek n carik cita org n jdi internet bergerak. tolong ah wey. i dont do tht ok. fyi. so i dont get wats ur prob. i dont get pasepa la wen i moved here byk org ada mslh tu. dhla suka usha pelik. aku tau la muka aku mcm cina n comey. xpuas ati pa? stni p la kawen ngn cina then ank ang jdik cm tu. ok?! i live my life, u live urs. dont intersect or intertwine. y sud we rite? xdk keja len??? i tink ada. byk keja kot. so lantak ah aku nk wat pa, ada aku ganggu, ada aku soh ang join. x kan. aku xckp ngn ang pun. n bknnya aku ganggu. sebok arrr..


2. lgi ang wat puki, lagi aku memberontak. mau?! ang dok wat stai aku ni xtau ah. tu kira xdk pa. ang dok wat jenih cm ni. aku wat lagi terok mau? bru btui2 ang ternganga. cnni ah. if xpuas ati. skali suda. smpai skang xok g. aku tau ah ang btui, tpi sikit2 dah ar. ang nk lagi hebat eh? xpa.. ang wat cm tu g.. tunggu ah.. maki p ah. aku maki ang balek. nk carik pasal.


3. dont stop me if i wana do anythin. yes u can. but in certain stuff only. stuff that i mmg dh mcm tu. pls dont. ok? yes that anything im not. i wana be free. tho i wana be free being myself. :)
yes its hard to be urself. n aku heran ah, cm na la aku xjadi rude. kan3??? bad words, sharp pointy middle fingers, frankly speakin, i dont like to use em nor like em. coz its bad n org xhormat n al. but i wonder how i wont use it. :) i hate it wen i cant be myself. haix.


aku tau. m not perfect. at al. n i do a lot of bad things. aku sdq diri ah wey. n aku xpena ajak org wat keja jahat tgther k. unless sma pala tu dh sama. tpi nk ajak org len x ok.


ok ilang mud.. ccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccc... serious. new prob tis weekk..

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. :D

pergh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dh ah. nk blah. esok. mud teruk g. bgos!!!!!!!!!!

theres ntg more tht i want to wish for.

if im very sincere.. mmg aku xkn ada kawan. if ada pun, kira guna jari ja. yang satu kepala. well i m a gud girl. actuallyyyyyyyyy.. ahahahahha.. jgn crik pasai wit me n accept me sudah la. coz yes i tolerate, ang nk bsg ka nk bagi aku ka nak smash nk wat bsg gila2 nk wat lawak spastik yg tramt sgt bodoh berjuta kli pun xpa.apa2 pun xpa. aku layan. xpa ah kan. aku pun cm tu. tpi pls ah.

so if u really wana knw. this is wat that can disturb me. theres lots more act.

* semua di atas ni, luahan hati ok? jgn terasa. u really wana know, there it is. im telling u. thts y i dont like telling ppl bout myself. its beta u just figure out urself n shut up. tpi sedeynya xbyk manusia dlm dunia ni cm tu. yg really und me pun stkt ni.. ada ah.. dia ja.. dia ja.. hmm :) thank u :)

actually byk g. but for now. i jz igt yg tu ja. ehehe

but yeah those stuff atas tu its me being myself, wic is a kid. not using my brain. so dont worry. i wont do things so fast actually. il sit down n think. but normally i cnt coz trganggu kan. so i wont do anything. :)

- i thought over a thousand times b4 posting this. aahaaha.. actually byk g yg nk bash. i tink its my nature. bashing!

- malina, btw, its not u ok. i told u d tht day. m not mad at u. rmb the msg. yeah tht explains evrtn. so all tis. not u ok? :)

dah. i hate tis. i hate school. i hate ibrahim.

wat can be more exciting>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you could be happy and i wont know

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

gawd..................

butterscotch

now its 1220 pm. m sweatin like hell. hawttttt.. yeah got up at 1148am.. fuhhh.. agak bahagia.. hahahha.. i dreamt bout lots of stuff.. huhu..

yeah at least fitrees going to ttn. at least i can go. yeah. the need of getting out. sudeny its killing me. hahahah.. haih.. and meeting uncle malik. i need it. :) hafiz is goneeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! sobz..

yeah.. this thing. bothers me. i miss someone. it wudnt help at al. i have to well put tht thing aside. far away. hmm.....

and im reading ps i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes im reading sth. reading sth tht im not suppose to read at tis tym. trials a month mayb? pmr 3 i gz.. great

i got no idea wat to write about. pergh.

yeah.. 1. wat will u do if i die.. ?
2. if u have a disease thtl kill u, wat wil u do?
n2 manymore

ohh shit......... yes. m sneezinnnnnnnnn..

n sweatin. hows tht suppose to be healthy..

esok skola. gud news. very gud news.

:)

so im alive

u know2.. cherry blossom girl. huhu.. its a stupid song. pergh.

oke2.. so arini got up 615 to wake b up.. he of coz xbgn. ahahaha.. yeah then kalot terigt pd 4 ma mum to print geo. yes. so i have lil bit more to go on 4 geo. yeha!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in one nite man. n even tonite. i shall fns my elemen 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4 kks la. :D ngeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. so tido late lgi tnite. hopefully i can thn. i need to. i have to. for the sake of kks. pergh! i bet tdi pagi ma mum igt i baru nk tidoq. hehe..

then2 yeah on of la aft dat. pergh. then oficial 1030 i gz. mai pc dl2 songs, muvis, usha sana sini, mandi, mkn, hac!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weyyyyyyyyyy.. boring gila thp cipan! mmg sedey. mmg dok rasa xnk p. i tink ma mum yg excited n nk p terlebey. n shes like yeah gone 4 hac. m like ma idont even tel ni one. n shes yeah into it. ahahahha.. n siap nk amek gmbq dpn tu g. oh tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x amek la kan. thank god. phew. hahah.. my dad. nseb bek xmai. i wudnt want him to come at al in the coming years unless ibrahim ada aircond. coz 1stly org2 ternama dtg lambt, ngn weather yg snowing, n ucpn n suara yg boringgggggg gila. i ksian him. he can die there. ahahah

yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my dad just whistled at me. then ckp wana go cycling?? with muka dia n his smile. yeassssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lama gila xcycle ngn dia. was it last yer or longer than that. pergh. father daughter bonding. ahahahha.. yay! cant wait2!!!
n he ckp hopefully ul get also la next year. if not malu. i know.. hmm.. :(

so yeah i did slh la kan at hac. ahahahah. b4 going up mcm omg3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so its yashni nk terkencing, theva berak n i muntah. ahahaha.. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww.. but yeah evrytin went well. :).. n theva was teachin me rubic. i was like uhh??!?! xphm. n he was like haiyooooooooo.. i knw. byk kali lak tu. almost all. ahahhaha.. im someone who is very hard to teacch. ahahah.. n adala part wat gedik .haahhahah.. shssssssssssssshhhhhhh...

so yeah tonite jz kks n music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then tidoq lmbt gila lagi l akan. nvm. so esok i have to do my hmwrk n study da. i miss pg. i miss k800i. i miss bulldog. i miss going out. the end. sobz. nvm2.. :) smile2..

hopefuly diorang wat backup for my phone. if x. il b frustrated. aihh.. eeeeeeeeeee

f la.

ok2. m off..

i dont wana b down.

:)

xoxo

again

We'll wait for this moment
When our lips collide
Almost stop the Earth
Your in my arms tonight

So I've come
To Complicate the dead
Are you with me?
I've written out all my vows again

We're almost home
To see the silence break
On New Years Eve
We're only 17

So if love exists
I will fall

And we'll wait for this moment
When our lips collide
Almost stop the Earth
Your in my arms tonight

Just one more kiss
To soothe the pain
That exists in a world of lies

Misery take my shame and life
Everything fills a violent death
A smile you gave
Visit me in hell tonight

And say..and if love exists
I will fall...

And we'll wait for this moment
When our lips collide
Almost stop the Earth
Your in my arms tonight

So Im not inlove
So Im not inlove
So Im, Im not inlove
So Im, Im not inlove
I feel so alive(I feel so alive)
I feel so alive tonight
I feel so alive

I cant stop this feeling
If love existsI will fall...

And we'll wait for this moment
When our lips collide
Almost stop the Earth
Your in my arms tonight

- yeah ive actually posted this, but wth. m into it. ahahahha..

create, cognize, recognize

ok2.tau dak!!!!!!!!!!!

i jz ate cakes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no la.. jus tlike 1 n a half. hehe.. :D its uncle ibrahims bday!! n the cake. mg. my dads like u knw its sweet, not gud ok, eat as much as u can, dont let ur mum eat. ahahha.. i lagi ah, dok kata bnda tu sweet, lagi ah lantak. yeah wers d diet plan man?! pergh! xpa2. stop sat. ahahahha.. crappppppppppppppp... then aft havin it, i was like pening2, high2.. to omuch sugar intake. hikhik. :D n yeah m addicted to kiwi. i mean the fruit. weird. n2 addicted to tis smell. noooooo.. nt ttht smel. tht smel mmg. this. its this, this so not healthy, im not suppose to touch or go near to it. but i love it. it soothes me. like helllllll.. serious. its like wen i smell, its like ahh heaven. hahahaha.. this is so wrong! mind u its not the smell of our school toilet. k ok?!

yeah. m sorry. today. idk. ahahha.. m just scared to talk. co znnti yeah yaddy3. so better not. i prefer to shut myslf out n just answer with ony a cpl of words. m sorry ok. n malinas like ee m scared. yeah since shamils being such an arse. he is irritating n annoying. like hell. i wont bash him la. hes just being irritating, not crossing my life n affecting me. yeah one thing, u can disturb me or annoy or irritate me wiceva way u want in any amount but neva eva try to cross the path of my life. get wat i mean?

good.. :)

bcoz i so dont need ppl like tht..

and aziz. he x ajar pun. he just showed slideshow n vids!!!!!!!!! mepek gila. i mean funny n very bermotivasi. ahhahah.. yeah its suppose to be a motivation for us. yes pmr. trials. i have to get up. n make sure stay awake til the lst day of pmr man! n then. yezaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! il b gone so far away frm here. then aft tht. il b well high aiman!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. :D

i gz coz of aziz n too much sugar m fine now. :)

n yeah cool cat scratch. n2 its like sticky2. god. burnol is needed. hehe.. goldfish nya pasai ah ni

n u know!!!!!!!!! my god. i dah berdosa kat stocking. potong kuku la. normal thing. neva b4 apend. well happens la but not this bad. so mula2 cut her frn legs. then back. i thot back was sharp so i p potong. then wen pufff she jumped! then i tgk. shitttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

bloooooooooooodddddddddddddddddddddddddddd...

so i thot just ckit ja the nrml blood few drops n done. niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii 5 minit dok kluar g. byk gila kotttttttttt.. i was like dady!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then he came running with ubat suma. shit la man. il neva do tht again. my god. n tpi she baek tau. she din strugle or scream or wtsoeva. god. yeah dads like shes a toughy. u dont worry. yeah coz the blood wont stop n daddys like ehhh thts a lot of blood, i ws like nk nangeh kot. ahahhaha. then hes like eh2, its ok, xpa, sikit ja, nnti ok ah. hopefuly. kena ltak ubat g. scaryyyyyyyy...

yeah actually kucing i plg sayang ialah stocking. ahahha.. n she has neva scratched me at al. yg len suma tah. but dia la yg plg bek. hehe. :) i love u stocking.

i think azizs motivasis kinda working. yeah. kena study!!!! concentrate. dont waste tym. theres stil tym. just relax, put other fcking shitz aside n fill ur brain with facts just like how u used to. :) please god, i need it. for my parents. for myself. for my future. :)


- life is hard, but its harder if u dont face it.

yeah thts true. i have to grow up. accept it. that im no longer a kid. im 15. a big gal. think like an adult wil ya? maturely. smartly. n byk lgi. ahahahah..

i read from b's blog. yeah live ur life to the max. but it seems imposib coz obstacles, spoilers.
its true. coz weneva a prob is solved, comes anther one. m not surprised wen this is over, theyl b a new one next week. lets wait n see eh?

n2. yeah. thts y theres good n evil. black n wite. n so on and so forth. theres gud times, n hard n bad times. it balances ur life. n frankly speakin, ive neva thot of tht. n its brilliant actually. its true. yeah wers the fun if ur alwiz happy? how cn u be so happy wen its time to be happy but pdhl ur alwiz hepy. get wat i mean? hahahah.. m crappin. weeeeeeeeee :D

n yeah. this guy karuna. he tol dme. he said. dont waste ur tym on revision books anymre. u cnt be a bookworm n tryna kil urslef with it. go on to revision books. questions n aswers. n if u really dk wth its about hten ony u go on to details.

aziz ckp stiap org ada bkt. just we kna cungkil then if we tau we kna usaha sungguh2. m tinkin wth do i have? errhhH???

bila ckp bab potensi, bakat, keyakinan diri. il pass. hehe.. :D

yeah m kinda high. adoi. hehe


ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!! i choked on the damn water. babiiiiiii.. saket. it went thru my nose. then my throat. then attacked my head. mcm sedut air dlm swiming pool.chun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sket pala. adoi.

ok2. dah. stop crapping. done crapping.

the end.

xoxo !

:D