thank u for making me crazy and unable to control my *****.

nestle fat free yoghurt !

habeh. my diet. haha. bfre tis pun mmg abeh. coz too much of sugar intake. now. i mean td popcorn, 100 plus. gone. then 5 cakes ok ! dak la. i amek a sppon of each tp still la. gosh.

yest mum was like aiman nk kfc. m like no3. even a bun i refuse. but i did la kan. haha

kill. me. man.

ok. off to work.

if xdak cita bes.

nicholas cageee.. heee

Exotic that is.

1. I should shushhh.

2. Dont do that.

3. Dont dream.

4. Dont have too much sugar.

5. Have to study.

gosh! dont confuse me. im already doing addmaths!

Teenage Tourettes Camp !

i just dont know what to say. its just wow? n my god.

i wna watch nitemare on elm street n miss u like crazy !

gahh!

family guyyyy!

i light my own fires now. - quite-

i talk to u dari bgn smpai tido. gosh.

rafael looks weirdly cute wearing my shorts n bju tokyo. hahaha.

dear rafael, pls get well soon, so bole la esok kita kluar tgk wyg. mind u toy story 3 xtgk g! shesh! n nitemare on elm(0) street haha dah siap. weheeee. n my season 3 howi met ur mother at last!

n hes like aku tgk apa la depa dok wt dlm khemah tu. =.=

rabu xp skola. aku sgt syok. u knw i had like nitemares bout schl. n i still find it hard to sleep. n td pg i xmo bgn n almost cried coz igt kena p skola. n terigt oh baru ari jumaat. then i smiled. i wonder la sunday mrng cna.

i actually forgot wht happened to me yest. goshhh.

oh. oke. i did study admt. hee. so i dah wt a mini jadual of wht to study for a weeekk.. heeee. so tnyt again bio n admt.

yest mlm mmg. well kena mrh ngn daddy. hahah. bengang sat n then i was like mmg ptot pun aku kna marah pdhl shud be worse than that. ive been playingggg al the time. study pa pun x. tapi at least hmwrk abeh. hee. accept bio yg my paper died n kna study n wt hmwrk acc. =D

i love the kardashians n kimora lee simmons. heee.

ok. done.

weee. yet again another not so lonely weekend. =)

when ur really messed up, do not do anything at all.

I wana go to australia again. )=

i'll come running

i need sugar. coz m hving headache. i xmakan anythign for bfast. gah. tgk la an. bgn kol bapa. heeee.

i cleaned the cats. sapu smph. squiz stocking. house chores here n there. heee.

n thennn. umah xdak ayaq pulak an.

and then. mum ajak p kluaq. n i luffd. m like kluaq? kita nk hangout kat mna ? kalo kat pg ckp cmtu xpla. ni nak ajk p cs gosh, vmal ada paaa. anywys. kluaq ja la nnti. heee. no its heeee !

actually i wanted to study admts time bgn2. hahah coz tah first ting when i bgn i igt admts equation. call me mad. mesti coz laddooo. hahah. il study tonite.

n my parents r nuts. haha. they have a day or a period of time where they cant stop getting on each others nerves. n il be like arghhhhhhhh. my dad la yg dok over.

n im confused. il have to check it out.

i have to try my best to get as many a+ as i can. gah .

ok2. think positive. n dads like in life u cannot n must not depend on ppl if u can. ur mum or me or yr siblings, anyone. cannot. but for now u have to depend on us but after tis u cant. m lik eyeahh i knowww. n he also said dont expect ppl to do things for u. if they do, thats good, they dont do it urself. m like yeaaaaa. so thats y living with him its not free. haha. but i love him. =) gosh braces.

- when im done but should i write it all off ? -

I am a yoghurt junkie. I need moreeeeee!

wtf stands for wow troli fan

theres this thing called - i reallyyyyyy dislike going to school -

my wish is for ttn to end fast. if it doesnt, i hope il get a place which allows me to listen to songs.

all i want is to go home n be in my room with songs or anything at all.

i just wana be at home.

Ok now i feel like crap oh god

It all started with a secret. Now i wish i dont know about it! Hahah

effects of getting high - im still high !

and to totally make it worse m lisening to rape me. hahahah

ok im high. wel kinda more to pening rite now. i just luff uncontrollably. so this is a must not see side of me okeeee. hahaha.

ok m slowing down. good2. when im high i just blurt out anything at all. things just come out of my mouth without me knowing it. n il luff again n again.

sbnrnya aku mai coz nak buat english article. i m determined to finish my lil homewrk. wehee. suma agk up to date la. except for bio dri minggu lpas ckp nk wat, agama =.= , sory for that and then sej wic i have to read thru. n im doneeee! n acc tgk blek. so yeah. work is under control. kna start study bulan august. heee. =)

im sorry. noor aiman maseh high. arrghh. headacheee.

powerpuff girlsss! sugar, spice n evrtn nice. hahha

goshhh.. headdddd...

remembering sunday.

Family much?

I had the nicest dream ever in my whole life. Why in my whole life? Ok now ul get the pict.
Me n my family - in the dream la- dont ask me how la i ada cousins n siblings suma. Haha just its almost 20 of us kot.Sibling,cousins uncle n aunty. Family much la kan. Huhu. N the place seems like australia/rumah pg. Its like country side. Mmg bes. Dok dkt umah ni. Very d effingly cozy man. N lawa. N then ada horses. N then yeah bwk mai kucing skli. Suma ada but weird is i can see a few more of muffin n stockings around. Hahah. They still look cute n adorable. I tink d dream was cm dok tgk D video recording or idk la wht. My dad dok tgk record. Yg d most i can rmb is us dgn plampung n all n towel suma dok pose with huge smiley faces n showing peace sign. It was haih. =')

At least i did bit of chem notes n sej lthhn abeh dah. Hee. Tq vry much fr cmg. Thnk u fr not mkg my lonely n boring wikend lonely n boring. =) hee.

Ok m act tired n vry hungry. Haha. Sat ja g nk buka posa. :)

N ive decided not to go fr hac. I mean its gona b boring n m gona sit bsyd god knws hu so naa. N tis means byk la
jgak m gona skip school for tis week. Weheee. Msk. Study. Wht hmwrk. =]

Kucing suma mnddiii. Wngiii. :)

ok dah. Just thank u very much bf. =)

Famous amos bite size cookies chocolate chip

Omg3...! Yes ppl. Its in my hands. It taste like heaven tho i do feel veryyyy guilty coz its sweet - dad reminded me that- n its fattening n i may get pimples n wht not. But goshhh. So td p tesco an, first choice was pepperidge farm soft baked choco chip gosh! Guess wht. D shelf atasssss skali. Aku tinggi an. So yea m not supppse to do diz but i jz panjat the shelf n tried to take it. Smpai tp tertolak lebey dlm. God. Yeah a kid desperate for a freaking coookie. Dhla tym tu xdk org lalu klo x msti mnx tlg. Slpas tiga minit brushannak
amek xdpttt! God. N another ting pepperdge ckt ja amount compared to famous amos but gah sedeyh xdpt. I knw i really xptot pnjt but weyy its dt freaking cookie yg sgt sdp. So dah xdpt m like no m not leavg without cookies so i stretchhheeddddd myself n p amek famous amos. Ehehh. Dream come true.

N m opting to take fat free youghrt. Idk y. N nnti bsaq i want my hse - dream big n far - to be filled with organc food. Fruit juice. Yoghurt. Enery bars. Hahaha. Yeah means byklah kaching an. Goddd.

Tis remnds me i kena wt notes blmbk n study whle doin notes hmph! I slept for four hrs td. Elok ann. Gosh.

Esok perhaps goin for a mrng walk with mum. Wehee

wey. Yeah lupa nk ckp. Yest was better thn hari sukan n hari koko. Idk y. It jz felt gooodddd. N when i sat on the grass, i looked around n thot, dangg next year dh last year dah. Being around hre, being wth u guys. Tho yes at tmes i still am angry n idt i will stop gettg angry at my prents coz we moved. Yeah im a person hu susah nk trma knyataan n adjust myself. Idl new things. No clothes n stuff i do haha just tis kindof ting. Environmwnt. Situation. Then m knda scared like wht if i cnt adjust myslf thre later. Wht if i cant find anyone close to u guys lter. Wht if i cnt survive. Ya knw al those stuff. Geezzz. M reaallllyyyyy lucky to have u guys or i might have been dead. No joke.

N raya i knw its still far away tp it just freaks me out. I knw how csn raya freak u out rite whereas almost everyone in the whole wide world cant wait for it.

Ok dahhh. M off. =)

tweeet2....

stocking is by the window, meowing, wanting to come in. haih. n m eating breakthru bread. urgh. ya know,fruits for breakfast. hee =)

im so proud of my mum. - gosh 11 nk p tesco, aku dh la mndi sat - u knw, she look thru, took out, cleaned n separated it to be given away n wat not. i mean her shoes i mean. tau dak shoes dia byk mna. hahah. next is her bju n bags. =)

n i was like bla3!!!!!!! trus2 balek rumah i was like im so ashamed to be a msian n esp a malay girl. gosh. n my dads like dont be so upset la, let la ur friends go n touch his balls or waht y r u being so upset. m like ok. okehhh.

n now stocking is knocking on the door. sian nyaaaa.

i lurve d au pics. =)

ok now stockings in. sian glaa kottt.

n so td i was like ma sponge cake mcm mna2. i wana do caramel sponge cake. u know dt caramel mum ckp 20 eggs. m like fuck my diet. mana bole. then m like ok next then il try to do oreo chis cake. ok its cheezeeee. gosh la wey! gosh ! n mums like laaa xpyh laaaa. kita p beli ja n i insist of doing it ourselves. tah. i feel wikend cam nk coook2 do stuff with mum ka. =) ahhh trigt d freaking bread making. hahah.

oh god. cinnamon breaad n raisin. n pizza. homemade okayyy.

ok yests dhal mission failed. i found d freaking indian cooking book, u knw that freaking simple dhal is just a lie ! hahaha cnni. dia ltak serbuk kunyit ja. rempah ka apa ka xboh. m like mcm mna bnda ni nak rasa ? but others tu i tgk agk btui a. that buuk shud b thrown. hahah.

n yest, yea m quite thinkg of my food intake. gah. the ting is ok yesti mkn junk food. mula2 i nmpk sha n m like ok xpa. tahan. haahah. then lma2 oh god mkn ja la. but i did share my small keropok pack with others so i dont feel sobad. heee.

yest was awesomeee.... we won 3 out of 4. weheeeeee. n anis. mg. im so proud of u. =D ! ok la ada some part x awesome tp jgn dfkrkan. aku rs syok bg org minuman n p carik ice. hahahha. punya la sedey smpai cmtu. n yeay ! no sore throat tho. ok. fine. i admit. i am attached to 4sc4 okkkkk. to well half of em. so =)

oh yea tq to trolley boy tho. dk y im thanking u. for filling ****

i wna go travelling again...................... i hope ujung tahun ni dpt la p mna.

im sleeping with lites still coz tah. cm besa ja. hahah.

n m sleeping with ac. not good.

weyyyyyyyyyy. xle ponteng skola i guess next week.... n homewrkkk. n i feel kan, maybe la maybeeeeeeeeeeeee one day i m gona confronnt my bestfriend halid n ask him do u have issues with me ? like gosh !

ok dah. i still wnacont blogging but xtau nk kata pa dah..

oh yea. 4sc4 sure win wan aaaaa..... =)

Geez. Nak kata @$&? Sat g. Teruk sgt

hotdog > wish granted. diet > omg ~ !

i just feel like saying this. or these. idk. hee. ok so i told my parents bout wht happend today. no minus the i cucuk2 org. i tarik kerusi org. i nyanyi lgu dlm klas time study bio. hee. minus al those i told him bout two tings. idk y i feel happy. =) hahah. call me nuts but hey at least better a bit rather than dulu.

i picit2 all the kucinggg ! geramm ! n i wna see jack sparrow asap ! gosh. dah bole jln dia. kalo bole nk bwk balek. huhu

tdddd. ok another ting m happy. i bukak posa, evntho sehari xmkn kan, hahahha i took like a quarter rice, a small piece of ciken n potato, bykkkk syur n tauhu n sup. sharon u shud b proud of me. haha. n oh shit. starting frm next week kena mkn wtever i bwk from home ja. n kaching money brtmbh. heeee. gosh. nuggets n scallops. gosh !

i hate my chapped lips ! licking one's lips is something that should be avoided ! i should really sapu my lips with tonnes of butter. heeee. ok my lips is sooo glossy rite now. ahaha

ok. idk wht to say dah. heee.

oh dang esok ! wtch family guy at fox ! wehe

wca waiting for !

i was like omg3!!!! i know its just a freaking burger given by aunty but she was like nah aiman amek, nnti for buka puasa. m like =D heeeeeeee5! hahahaha seriously. good food can really make me high n lift my moodddd.

have i told u lately again i hate halid ? thats one of the reasons y i don wna go to school tmrw. n coz the relay ting. n coz erm oh yea taklimat tu. i cant even utter a single word man durin his class. i was just like anis r u ok ? m worrid. n there boom anis was sent sitting in front n i was left alone at the back. but i did have the sanitizer moment.

the new dude really shud be the next chad kroeger. hahahah

yest chem was err yea knowledgeable. pluss with songs. heee

n3. gosh i wish i have a mum like sharon. or naim. he doesnt have any life probs man. except for oh no i lost my book or oh no xsiap homewrk case. n the rest ntg. nada. so good.

mendengar lgu smbel menyanyi di dalam kelas plus with a partner is good. haha

and then diet. i mean loose the weight n fats all ove. exercise mmg out aku kan rajen. wikends time aku nak p xle, naek turun tangga pranoid jatuh. hahahah. that can be done runnin up n down the stairs tp mls. so diet. act bole ja mkn byk5! as long exercise. hehh. so cut down rice. thats the main ting dlu. so wtever i mkn. il go half dlu ok. then a quarter. then no rice for a week. but oh but m considering rice i mean tht special nsi ari selasa. see la how. so more lauk aka no ciken la fish n sayur n sup. ya knw. i knw ! i shud tke sup n rice cmpur skli. n just totaly mkn ja the lauks. gosh. n kena mkn multivitamins. hurghhh.

esok relay. i feel like taking lotsa pix. if n only if i ada dslr it wud be effingly awesomeeee !

aft reading it, yes, make urself happy. if ur not gona do it, who else rite ?

esok tu. m scared to hope for anything. but at the same time, i do want to hope. i do wish esok wud b awesome n il hve a blast. gah.

n sgtlah hepy. esok xyah p skola. heeee. tp hmwrk kna la wat. n esok xposaaa. bole la mknn. weee. but the diet ting rmb !

n i was yes effingly shocked when i read the two pieces of paper from renus file. m like wtf ? i wrote not i sory we wrote stuff like tis ? no i mean its not tht bad pun. just not bad at al. just im freakingly shocked.

lets lisen to songs !

=)

Paranormal activity two

Mcm arghh. Tp y do i feel like i watched the wrong one n act the real one xkuar pun? Gah. Anywys la mlm ni mmg tdo dgn lmpu. N sty up haha. I knw a trick to get high. Seriously. Sugar.

Mood xbp baek. Over some few reasons. Cant wait to bkak posa. I needdd applee juiceeee. Feel lke bringing it to ttn. Hahah.

School tday was errrr errrrr. I have to fix tis. God.

Dads lkke when is raya? M like idc. Yes at times i wish rya xmai pun. I wish i dnt hv to go thru raya. Yea punya nk bg syok oz raya all i tink is d food. Geez. I knw ramadhan blum lg but lah since he asked me dt. Geez.

Ok dentist appoinment on. Looi is gona give me a lecture. Gahh. N dads yet to kill me.

I feel like erm2... Erm5......

fuck betul.

i am dizzy

yeah i know that italian guy, dude, xpenah tgk org ka ? tolong ar. kawal diri. jangn tunjuk mcm xpena nmpk foreigner.

n yes. dizzy. pening. high. tx to anis. =D i think ive never taken so much sugar in less than 10 mins in my whole 16 years of boring life. hahahha then on my way bck home m like oh no diabetes, obesity, blindness coz diabetes, cancer n so on. n i look down at my tummy, gosh it looks like as if im 6months pregnant. no kid.

dude ! tx ! =) krana tlah menemani saya ini.

ok. braces on. on er some freaking friday on august il be goin to louie ? orthodontist. gah. xgtaw dady g. hes gona kill me. anywyas. m gona pay it in the future. urghh he. is. gona. kill. me. not. to. mention. of. coz. the. money. n. the. monthly. visits. o.m.g... !

tapi mmg, in the car blek umah td mg i felt like screaming LEN KALI PINDAH LAGI ! mg. adala situasi yg mybbkn aku kata cmtu. i know, i shudnt be angry but god, i think i do have the rights to be angry diz time. how about me again ? p mana2 pun susah. jauh satu. xley tinggai umah satu. aku xbengang la kan. aku ngangaaaa jaaa. gosh~ anywaysss.

then, i want my makngah or anyone la ;'( hmph. food at home rn realy doesnt do the charm on me dah. like totally. but i have to eat la kn, xmkn nk mkn pa.

good thing, m gona fast. =)

ok. fine. bck to guitar. i had fun strumming. ok fine. i can strum. just i dont quite get it. ehhek.

pening. to. much. sugar. to. function. need. periaaa.

but it was awesome. =)

today was ok too. i did work. i talked3 till like hell. n dads like idt u coughed during the weekends. m like yeah seriously i talk a lot at school . hee

n im very strict from now on on people calling ~~~~~ sory if i do correct u harshly.

n maybe its a fact taht my `````` is `````. so anywys, im worried but hey =)

its good to feel useful. i need tht sometimes.

ok super pening. shit.

- i just had a bad night -

oh sleeping with long sleeves n boxers n comforter is omg la so ultimately comfyyy ! sgtlah suka !

ok. buhybye.

=)

- yeetto learn rugby n footbal.

i tried to stay clean.

fine. i ate that freaking caramel cake ( note that i do wish i can do it someday ), lots of peanut butter, miloooo, biscuits n oh yes guylian chocos.

heaven.

this will take some time.

is it me ? is it you ?

have i ever told u that i still like u so much ?
- except if i find out that u smoke tho -

mummmm.. i had all these... i wna go out.. haha

n i have tis crazy idea.. its not crazy but they r gona kill me..

aiman, homework satu apa pun xbuat, n u plan to watch tv. weeee

the only thing that can make me happy n totaly make my mood be awesome is foodddd !
they never fail me.

esok dah skola. haih.

ok dah. off to watch tv. =)

This is not good.

So after more than half an hour of staying awake cox things in me r getting wild, i say tis is not gud.

How about me? Yea smtyms i had to say it, but nt out loud cz aft tht ppl wud b lke aiman dnt b selfih or aiman ur being inconsoderate or aiman mngada2 la and mny more. Well sory for showing my actual feelings at the mo la. Sory for having a heart n feelings la kan. Smtyms, wen tings r even obvious, yeah i jz say hey idc n idw care. N i keep saying tht to myslf- note tht tis is ovr a sml stupid ting but gah ok- unless sth triggers it n yea it did. Do i really hv to act or plaster a paper on my forehead tht says hey im disapointed or hey im upset or hey u just ripped my heart out in order to let u knw how i feel. Come on la, im stl a nrml human being in the end tho i am really weird. Sory for being nrml.

So smtyms, i rather ******* bcz at least i dont *******. N gah u. Ok! Truth is i m knda lke goin thru wt u r goin thru. Bt for the fct i say hey id realy wna care so it doesnt kill me so much unless its really obvious. So soryy if im nt there coz i choose not to coz i feel better if i m not there ok. So dont get ****** if i********. I enjoy myself better that way that time.

N many more. Haha n tis is d reason why idw *******.

Yea y not letting out to smone? Tis is all me act being dramatic. Haha. I shudnt feel tis way n wtnot. But i knw itl go away soon pdhl bnda kcik ja pun.

Lastly, sory for expressing myself.

Ps. Really. Dont ask me anythng bout tis ok.

I ask, u say no. Others ask, u say yes.

and3. no matter what, thank u so much people =)

(= =)

i still dont know where i should be, but i think i know.

no one can promise it.

u got me going again !

today is so ok n not ok. ok lat tu kan. =)

not to mention i just slept like five hours or so ( oh i feel sick n coughing tx to wite dark chocolate freaking cheese =) heee its nicer when u share ) ( n2 lenguh tgn hahah) i got up, feeling effingly miserable. no joke miserable gila. p skola pagi2 pun mg. and then, hehehhe n anis was like aiman thats the biggest smile ive seen the whole day today. hee. i realize okkkk that nvm. haha. thats not ok.n theres another not ok. which is y must ....... but ..... so i assume tough cookie ya know. anyways, perkara kecik, tidak hrus difikirkan. =) but it is bothering at times. anywayss.

idk bapa org ajar me bowling. serious. erm lets see five or six. gah. xboleh2. i know. bend down. swift. relax. touch the ground. and the four steps to strike. hahah. n i said to mum we should go bowling one day n shes like yeah. - yeah i know in my dreams.- but3 i felt happy she said that. =) n shes actually yeah friendly in a scary way. haha

and i got -the hug- from dad. no i wanted to hug him last nite. i was just an inch away n hes like no2 dont hug me, push me away, i put minyak on my body alrdy. m like =.= ='( n today he spreaded his arms m like weeeee hug3 for like lama n squeeezeeee n dah agak puaih.

to take ur hand, i did.

surprising yet not so surprising info from dharshu. haih. its saddening. i myself regret actually. n u need to know the freaking linesss... n follow it.

esok spatutnya p pg, tppppppppppp dad xkeja. haih. i know. jog x kot. cycle yes.

n im addicted to the arcade car racing tingy. hahah. a bit la. but stil gah.

oh homeworkssss. no tidoq dulu. no2 pokpek dulu.

cough2. great.

ps i was extremely excited for a mo, the next mo =.=

I wish i can say that. Hmph.

Hansel and gretel.

The do not sleep of coz didnt work. So aim for tonight is to stay up til 1 or depends if ifeel like kiling myself ill stay up longer.

Homework list. Bykkk. Gah.

The genting tingy. N usc tingy. Idw cry again. Haih.

I want my dad. I want him to send me to school. I wnt him to send n pick me up from ttn. Hmph.

I can really feel myself expanding.

Time in class is good. Talk non stop is a way to release tension. Haha. N everyday bfre entering the class id say to myself. No. Disturbing. People. But gahhh. I canttttt live without doing so. Its entertainment in my daily oh so boring n im bored school life.

Have i told u lately that i hate halid? Ok now i just did.

Again. I wish i can go out. But no of coz not kan. N i hope fri ni bole p pg. I want someone to tag along perhaps. Sth i really wish i can look forward but i dare not coz yea haih.

Theres sth wrng thats happening. Idky im so boring.

Pls o pls reject shop scene again.

Roller coaster ride while hands high up in the air. [=

whatcha waiting for ? =)

oh bullshit(s).. !

why would i believe such things again ?

oh yeah, i know, cuz im stupid !

good charlotte and one republic is gooodddd

- cat squeezing

- running nose

- eating cake esp choc indulgence without guilt

- throatttt

- time really flies. tomorws schooll ?!?

- homework ?!

- i wna go out but totally cant.

- gime a piano, it will help. n a teacher


~ if u say im ok, u dont know me ~


- complicated

- overratedddd

is this a temporary dream or a realll one ?

i think im gona take up piano lessons.

money. ill kumpul n pay. kalo xmampu, ill offer half2 or make a deal with rizal. - not to mention i have to make up 200bux riteee -

orrrr.. heeee.. i got this crazy yet not crazy actually either. tis august test. its just a freaking test. i knw. but okay. i wna aimm..... 8 as ? erm idk. i think its too much. hahah. straight as i dont dare. so if i manage to score that, im gona tke up piano lessons. - it may change -

the freaking piano to practice ? erm3. il think about it later.

it is a quarter after 3

for the sake of my converse, i will try to behave. hahha. so not ! gosh.

idk how m gona get well. i just ate cakes n whatnot, its not helping my throat n sth n its not helping my nose. rarrrrr

n3 i can just like visit or stare at it every freaking minute of my life.

- ok i know i m well aware im not being a good girl. to myself, n to everyone. but u know. idw care faw [= -

i dont wana stay at homeeeeee....

n im lazy as lazy as i can be..

my mid year results are still worrying me. and no, idt il show it to rizal. he. wil. killl. meee.

theres so many things i wud like to xplain. but i say, theres no use n better not. enough said.

andd... m off to feed the hungry cats..

Grr

I -dislike- my mum faw rite now.

Aku punya penat hbq kat dia, dia ckp cmtu. Kecik ati i. Gahh

keys

- i am weak in all of my science subs. ok. awesome.

- i think i realized, or felt or idk sth. - dont ask me a thing pls - which i shudve a longggg timeee ago. it was a good idea to get into the shop btw. maybe i did realize or feel it, and i ignored it and or said sth else. but i think its clear now. it will be ok.

- rosemary red i guess. i love it. my very first.

- i stil need lotsaaa prctice.

- im still into piano. soothingg...

- i love that smell so muchhh..

- not feeling to good again.

- i may finish up all of my homework, if im capable la. huhu. sej notes first !

- i just decided to jog tomorw morning, till mum said u have to follow me to the market. i was like =.=. and then i take it back. i should not do that. at least she allowed me to go out today. n tomrw will be a day out with her. yeah i hate pasar pagi anywys la tman her, then aft tht somewer. n2 if it does work, i have a special request. hehe

- i need to increaseeeee my calcium intake like hell. no joke.

- it was weird, but wasnt really weird. i felt well tah. okey.

- ok im feeling tired.

- sneezeeee...

- ive yet to weep. itl come.

- its like tis today. =] ]'= so yeahh.. tht sums up my gah day.

U dont have to if u dont want to.

What have i been doin the wholeee dayyy..?

Bgn kol 12. Hehe. On off sleeping. But it was awesmeee.mndi. Mkn. Tgk tv. Tdo balekkk. Awesme againnn.

Im freakgly lazy as u can see, n of coz going to schl also. I dont feel lke goinnnnn. But tah. C how la esok.

I really hope i dont get sick at school so thn can have endless fun. ;) heee. Ok. I do miss u guyss.

N after school also. Gahh.


- there it goes again - Gah.

So on the brighter side, lets not be lazy and end up at school shall wee ?

Dah. Off to sleep. Nites.

Kaching2..

ogayyyy....

hurghhh....

A lot to be said.

Happy thing is just looking at my granma. :).

Dad. No. Leave meeee faw. I xsempat nak msok umah he dh ah aiman whres this, do tis tht. Cm nk ngeh tau dak. Hahaha. I was lke so tired. Skg pun mcm ugh. Physically, mentallly n of coz emotionally. Grrr. At tis time, i really wish he btui2 ada secretary mcm dluu. But eah i get paid, so dont complaint so much.

Pls excuese me for tonight n also tmrw. I wont be acting so nice. Yeah aku dok wt prngai. So if ur not keen of it, leave me faw.

But mums realy being sweet.

N for the fact tht im gona b extremely late for my first admt ttn, im not hepy even a bit. My dad br ja mndi. Gahhh! Yyyyyy

I hate depending on ppplllll. - yeah byk kali da ckp. I wonder bla la at one point i wont depend at all. Il wait for that moment.

But yea. I had fun tho. =)

Dahhh. Leave meeeeeeeee.

Aku Sikit pun xbengang.

Retainers

Mula2. Aiman akn stay up utk mghbiskan kerja rumhnya. Heee. Mt n admt. I will go for admt dlu. 

Ok. Fine. Idont lke rofiza okee. Haha

Mums like mlm ni ttn bla3. Ttn tiap2 ari. N m like if only i can drive a car. N mums like if only u dont hv to go to ttn. Well number one- drop me out of school...! Aku ttn, xbgai nak gila, tp ttn gla2 la jgak. Tgk results n kepandaian aku, xla pndai tara mna. Gah! Study aiman study. 

So on the list is yes i have a list. Converse shoes...! Nk harpkn p pg, smpai sudah spm pun xpegi. Gahhh. Anywys, next is to chop my hair off. Its so long alrdyy. N go to somewhere. 

Regreted goin to school tday..? Kindaaa. Thw wholeeee timeeeee bfre the toilet incident, i felt lke i was dead. Mula2 phone xbwk. Some ppl xmai. And then dady mmg dok mlaih nk antaq. Tmbh2 irfan pun xmai an,  mmg xptot maiiii. But then yeahh. :))! Ice creamm. Paper people. Hahaa. Gona mke moreee. I wna do one. My own version punya. Heee. 

My mum. Kdg3 dia sporting gak.tp jrgggggg. Tgk mood dia la. Mood xkena laserrr..  She does tlk bout boys. Like kaka. Hahha. I was like i like diego maradona. Hahahha! N shea lke u shudve seen kaka hes handsome la apa la n all. M like ohhh. N i was act scared to tell her bput the lesbianism tingy. But shes lke owh, yes, students wud read doz kind like homosexuality or relationships. M like owhhh okeee. N yest yes she looked thru almost all the pics in my cam album. Suma org, ada angkt fuck suma hahah she tgk ja. I ws lke oh shit3! But thank god ntg hapen. Thank god also ot din occur to her d gmbr me in d swimming pool. Klo x mati akuuu.

So i do wish nie dibuat awal instead last minit. Gah. Coz its act nice laa. Wish to turn bck time. I still hv tis moment wicc i wish i can be in it forever. Haha. 

-im in the car blogging actually- 

Esok blek lmbt lagiii. 

Ok. Blank. Heee.  

aiman raving rabbid

firstly, i have to start wearing my retainers RELIGIOUSLY if i want my teeth to be like dulu. hmph. but ada jugak rasa nk pakai braces balek. but before that, daddy akan lecture xhenti i tell u, but in the end he akn bawak gak. two utang aku kat dia akan bertambah byk la an.

so ive wasted a lotttttttt of time. on surfing the net, eating smpai i do feel myself mengembang man. awesome ne. not. m not slim anymore. hahahah. jogging mls. swimming pun tidak. gah. and oh yea sleep with the ac on. amatlah best. i know instead of doing al those three unhealthy things, i could have studied. which i wanted to. but i did not. so no point saying it.

ada posiblity if esok saya tidak diperlukan di sekolah which is of coz yeah n xdak apa2 yg penting sgt nk blaja, i wont go to school. coz rizal malas nk antar. he asked me a couple of times whether i wna go or not. so i still have time so say no. wehee

i so want to upgrade to os 4 ! n idk how to use itunes. gah

kaka is married already. hahahah. oh kaka. :P !

again. incubus rocks ! brandon boyd rocks ! tht marshall guy rocks ! i forgot his name.hahah. paul rudd rocks !

i got no idea what im saying actually.

life sux.

the end.

good nite.

- incubus -

teddy bear, i will miss you....

sleepless nights ? oh yes. tick ! i would just get up in the middle of the night, and just gah and then a tear or two and then tidoq balek. pathetic. so sorry

but then i loveee to sleeep. hahaha. tidoq smpai pening pala.

at last, yes i manage to push myself up n say hey i got a lot of work to do. perhaps. oh yeah. maths. chem notes. study phy. - aiyo, dont crack jokes with me, im not in a good mood. at al ! so leave meeee ! - n oh yeah the star tingy.

gah mum. i want my dad !

god. i dont feel like talking.

the end.

enjoy ur day.