Keep rubbing salt and lime on that open wound. I will pour acid on your face.

Tak payah balek pun tak pa.

Tau ?

You don't get it, do you ?

You can choose to drown yourself or to do something stupid and put yourself in danger and die for all I care like jumping of the 13th floor of a building. I sincerely don't care about what you do or whatever it is because it is not my concern now. You don't see it do you? I know you dont and most probably you can't see it. For me to say it to you, it would break every inch of your heart and I am so sorry for that. And by that, I still dont have an assurance to whether you will understand that part of me or not. If I have the ability to change about how I think or how I feel or most importantly of how I perceive certain things, I will be more than glad to do so eversince day one after meeting you. But the problem is I can't. As how open or how understanding I may be to various situations, I have my very own guidelines, my own likings and my own dislikings. And to have to live with those things, I don't like it. It is a give and take thing, I know but I somehow do not want to give this part. What now ? I have to change of how I think just for this ? Sometimes I stop for awhile and say to myself. You are no different than the others out there. You are the same. Nothing more nothing less. And that is a sad thing for me, what's worse is there is nothing I or you can do about it. It is like that.

If I could turn into a lion, I would maul all of you people. Bite you at your neck and puncture your main artery and drag you 10 miles and let you bleed to death.

What y'all do anyways ?

I can't do this. I can't. It is not my type. Not my picture. Never at all.

I assume you ate the whole time from the amount of time you are taking

Dont think like that. Dont say it like that. And bole plak kan. Kalo x payah sangat.

Read more. Maybe you will learn to say more.

I can't teach you how to spell, nor fill in the blanks for you or worse write a whole perfect paragraph of something. And by that I apologize for wanting you to write a whole novel about it. I should keep calm n stand on the ground now.

Here we go again.

Is it normal to force yourself to like something ? To like the nature of it ? To like something that you realy just dont like ?

Be good ? Be gooooodddd ?

Aiyoo. M sory. M not as forgiving as others. Nor i have the ability to save or delete thoughts in my head. Up til this day, i havent reached that level yet. Maybe, I say maybe, i might be there one day. For now its a no. I wont deny for a fact that I wish i could take a huge stone and throw it right at your head and say nah, feel it, get temporary brain damage. Stab you also if I can.

I hate u for so many reasons

Hope, dangles on a string.

And guess what, it happens to me all the time. So now you are talking about hopes and feelings la. bullcrap

As you grow up, as you go along. There are so many things that you dont like but you have to pretend to like and live with it. Will I then eventually like it at the end of the day? Idk. I can't say though

Wat penat ja aku p pikiaq. Ang bukan nak ingat pun.

Nuff. Bullshit la. keep ur thoughts n ur whatever to urself. I have thing to do to, much more important than urs.

Dont poke me

I will take a knife and stab you.

I never thought reading something can make my head feel so dizzy and wanting to throw up

Think before you say.

I might actually buy it or have ideas about it. It is not might but I really do do it. And when I buy, I expect my purchased item to be in my hand and I dont care about the extra charges. Firstly, I bought it, so why dont you handle the extra charges ?
Bullshit efforts. Effort my ass.

I said don't stop

He is no god. And nobody is. I hope you get that thru your brain.

Yes I am upset. Due to that small lil thing. But you know what, it aint my business, I accept that. Well I will try and accept that. I hope one day you will lick your own spit. Or can I say vomit. Gahhh. For all the things that you have caused, for all the things that other people might say or might think, or can I say for all the things thattt you have said to other people and making as if you are the right one. I tell you what, it aint gona go anywhere.

Ugly

Bullshit la I tell you.

Yes. Everything is ok. Semua ok ja. The more I keep hearing that, the more I feel like banging well either myself or you against the wall and yell, you say it is all ok? Well eff you everything is ok.

It aint gonna make me feel better.

Maybe that thing would. No it does not. Not even the uttered words.

Clearly, I am the one who is making a fool of myself right now and lately.

Happy now I am.

It is not a choice but I am obliged to do so.

Really ? Sometimes I think back. I cannot live like this. Not now, not for tomorrow, not for my life. I cant. Why ?

And that is how you put it ?

Man. That is all I can say. I mean, I would never say that. And as if i have to get up at 4 am right and have big things going on tomorrow right ? Yeah. Like i have to go see some big shot tomorrow so live or die I sleep right. Bullshit man bullshit. Wat penat ja. Penatttttt. I should have just threw it down the road whenever I had the chance to do so.

I hate it whenever i say sth, esp sth that is lke important, and then its just been treated as if i did not even say it even. U know what, i wana do that to. And yes, right at ur face !

Bosan. Word.

Cant help yourself, is it ? What more me ?

What if one day I will hate the path that I chose ?

I obviously possibly cant change it, I mean I can but a lotttt of complications would happen. And that it is realy out of the question to change it. So it means that em, I have to love what I chose ? Like it or not? Dang. How I wish I am a sponge. And I am still not willing to give you even a little part of my piece of cake. What more giving you half, or the whole give n take thing. I dont want to give coz i am tired of gving.

I am lazy. Yes it is difficult but I have been there and done that.

Like dude. Realy ? I mean, i mean really ? Like just follow those little stupid simple steps, u cant do it, right ? Why ? Oh i know why. You dont bloody need me so what is there to look out for. What is there for you to work or to make. What are feelings ? Something that makes well, makes me feel constipated almost all the time. And guess what, I am constipated and i dont give a shit.