stil not helping...

i dont want much, i just want everything...

everything..

nothings perfect

live with it

OH MY GOD !

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ ! ! !

bloody hell....

marley and me

idk wat to say.. i mean the whole story.. yet to be digested..

all i knew was i sobd like so fucking damn hell shit man..

i sobd so badly.. tears was just running down..

yes.. its oh mi gawd.. gawdddddddddddddd

mg....

nn b.... imy... :( eversince kak lina told me u guys r going.. m like.. tah.. gona miss u... gahhh...

so yes.. i have to confess.. for the whole of my life.. ive neva felt jealousy bfre.. till now.. well agk lama dah.. but jz realised it.. so yeah u can call me almost human now.. ahhaha.. wen i tink back.. i dont know how to say.. i mean.. too much sorrys n thank yous tht i have to say.. hmm....

so.. tday.. bgn.. oh yeah.. helped mum.. then ate.. bit of marley.. then mums fren came.. chit chatted.. as usual.. sesi luahan.. hahaahha.. so yea i was yaddying again.. but felt wah.. ahhaha.. and i got 7 books. aahaha.. aunty rita gave me.. mums fren.. i knda like her.. n her daughter.. claire.. coollyyy..

em... then em... aha.. errr oh then cats.. then bec to nrml.. mg.. so boring..

n yeah.. mum n ahmas like ur spending way too much time with the pc.. m like... wtf ! its nt tht.. ok mcm ni la.. if i x dok dpan laptop.. n mind u i dont chat or active fb or wtsoeva so much... jz muvis n games.. so wt m tryna say is... ahhh.. its nt tht i have other better tings to do.. well i knw.. start f4...gahhh... so yeah.. nw susah la.. suma bnda aku wt ahma gtaw dady.. hahahah.. aku xmkn pun dia gtaw.. n dads like yeah thank god hes cool m with laptop.. he said i knw.. now coz u got ntg to do.. no school.. mmg ah.. if ada skola, aku nk nganga tgk muvis ka men game lama2 ka mmg xbole nya.. nk sgt3 pun xle nya.. no time la wey.. ngn homework la assignment la koku la mmg perghhhh...

mg.. i hate cryinn... gahh... ok.. next muviiiiiiiiiiiiii... or games...

toodles...

n wey...

besnya suma org beraya... blek kampung..

the end

you will find better days

sooo.. its 150 pm.. xmkn g..

nwadays the only ting i hear frm ppl is

1. aiman go to sleep.. go n get some sleep..

2. aiman go n mkn.. go n get sth to eat at least..


adeh.....

so m helping mum with cooking watnot.. man.. i was so sleepy n bord.. ahhaha.. no music... topics wer er im not really in tlking mood. so i asked her tis most craziest qs.. well no its nt actuallly.. the most craziest one perhaps can i leave the hse rite now? ahahhaha.. na thts not the craziest pun.. so mmg.. i tau pun.. n i wont pun.. i jz sja gedik nk tnya.. so mmg la.. mmg xbole pun... jz nk tgk she kt pa.. so yeah as usual.. bfre i cud say anytin pun she ckp no, cnnt... m like pungkoq ang eh, apa yg bole kat ang pun aku xtau.. wic seriously idk wts boleh for her.. but yea mmg la xbole.. jz at least.. wud u lisen to me.. gah.. wtever la.. so i bengang sat la.. not bcuz of x bole.. but i mean mcm yea coz xbole.. i jz wonder apa yg boleh nya.. coz im so bord.. gah... i want school.......
so bfre she cud cont blabbing away bout wat i jz asked her, i just went away.. n shes like aawt nk ka? m like man nk p mkn buah.. then i blah.. mls a nk dgr.. it is wrong act wat i asked her.. coz mcm xptot la an.. tpi xtau la pasepa aku bengang..

yeah now i wish school is here. n mind u 3a3 okeh... not form four next year wic i dont want to imgine..

i stoped playing organ.. n gtr.. gah... coz.. mls.. but i do feel like plyin gtr till my fingers hurt.. see la how..

n yea result pmr.. adeh... mula la aku nk wat prngai tension la apa la.. ahahaha.. yeah... 8as.. ido wna ask for sth.. but idk wert...

n yeah.. i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddddddddddddddd to exrcise.. constantlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. grrr

soooo... m gona wtch marley n me n cry my lungs out... n perhaps get the buk frm sis... then er dead silence...

weeeee...

toodless....

b... i love you b... =)

Our love has changed,
It's not the same,
And the only way to say it,
Is say it,
It's better.

I can't concede,
This way i feel,
For al the time spent, together
Forever,
Just gets better.

See what i'm trying to say is,
You make things,
Better.
And no matter what the day is,
With you here,
It's better.

I'll stand by you,
If you stand by me,
I think it's time that i reveal it,
Cause i believe it,
It's better.

See what i'm trying to say is,
You make things,
Better.
And no matter what the day is,
With you here,
It's better.

The more i talk to you,
I fall in love with
Everything you do.

See what i'm trying to say is,
You make things,
Better.
And no matter what the day is,
With you here,It's better.

Our love has changed,
It's not the same,
And the only way to say it,
Is say it,
It's better.

oh my . . .

emm.. warning.. tis wont be a good one at all..

so... i got only like 5 or less hours of sleep.. i cnt sleep okayyyy.. n no interest in fud again... got up at 10+.. yes not gud.. first ting i did was went to c ahma.. i felt very the very guilty.. i shudnt have done tht.. now even if i din get any sleep the nite before, il make sure il b down by 9+.. ever thought of sleeping during day time ? gawd... so yes.. to cover it up.. wel act i went out first since dad said if the weathers fine, go n take a walk at the garden.. which yes its not cleared for sure.. but theres a part where he threw the bamboo away n just put like mini landscape.. which id like to say to him.. y dont u do tht to all of the other part? hahahah.. so went in, got ahma.. bwk dia jln2 around the garden.. felt better tht way..

n yeah.. my voice.. ahma cud hardly hear me.. if my dads here, hes gona ask me the same qs he asked me yest.. why do u look so dead ? yeah hes not at home.. kl.. esok blek... imy dad.. n hey.. i did i mean few days ago.. italked to him.. i told him bout some stuf.. n yeah.. m glad i told him since in return he told me some stuff too.. well like how u live n all.. which he said. the world is like that... - its true...

so i find ketenangan jiwa by lying on my bed with fish n selimut n music n a book.. now m into memoirs of a geisha.. only chap two.. gah... m very slow.. well yea i tried to concentrate. cud for a mo, the ohter mo, go to hell...

emm movies tried mr bones n def maybe.. i cnt wtch em.. the ony tink i cud lyn is rfbr.. which i stil do love it.. dennis doyle.. libby.. whit.. the son wts his name.. jake was it or the snot-face.. gordon i like him the way he looks n all.. ahhaha.. em mr ghoshdashtidar.. im the assistant coach.. becoz i have the spatula ! oh n yes.. rminds me... rizals going for the star walk.. aft many years not in it, hes goin tis time.. which app he din even start training.. which yes il be accompanying him.. :) - spatula along ! hahahah

okeh.. the ting is.. yea dt ting.. yes called well the tinggy.. hahaha... okeh.. i did.. i did try ok.. yes fail trying then fail not doing anytin.. so i did.. first attempt.. i messed up.. but heck.. nvm tht.. then the other filled with rfbr of coz didnt work either.. but yeah tht its ok.. i und tht but nvm.. hahaha.. the 3rd.. ok from a failure turned into a disaster.. a total, complete disaster tht i cudnt take..

yes.. i feel so sorry for myself.. how pathetic i am.. plus.. its nothing.. its just all in my head. its a fucking small thing.. but ijdk y.. but hey.. at least now u can call me a human.. not complete.. of coz.. idt we will ever be complete actually. so yes ive felt it.. n i hate it.. big time ! i wonder how he cud cope with it.. well i can see u really managed it.. n i salute u dude ! ur one heck of a guy u survived it..

yes.. karma... no la.. not karma.. its what comes around, comes around.. u did it.. now its time for u to feel it.. i know i have... a lottt.. so its my turn now.. what goes up must come down.. yeah.. i get that..

i cudnt even snap out of it.. i cnt like get a grip of myself n collect myself.. - arrr how stupid is tht ? n yeah another warning.. tis is the oh mi gawd so fcking pathetic aiman.. pls bare with it... yeah i cudnt well seriously get up from it.. i was just there.. sitting.. doing what mostly ppl in that condition do perhaps.. i hate that.. n yes.. m a weak person.. n sth i learn.. frm my mum n tis ting.. nvm bout tht.. but its kinda true tho.. but heck.. thats how it goes..

i was so bad till i was wondering.. can i even survive thru the nite n get up in the morning ? oh no.. can i even sleep at all ? yes thank god i manage to fall asleep.. fuh.. yeah its so funny n stupid.. ahahha.. nvm that.. but yes.. wen i really want time to be like a flying arrow it moves like a snaill.. wonderfull.. i was begging to god to make it end so soon n stop it.. i dont want it.. i swear to god i regreted like hell.. wel yeah.. i din even like get it in i mean the whole part.. just few bits was enuff to make me well loose myself.. i dont want for more..

so idk wether i stil wna go on tryin or not.. but hye.. u wnt it.. u work ur ass out for it.. but idk wther i want it rite now.. i may just end up not doing anyting.. no playing games too.. just songs n books.. but hey.. ketenangan jiwa.. i do like it.. thats my only way for now..

at some point.. im hapy i did tht.. i mean hey i asked for it.. n now i got it.. so y make such a big deal out of it.. so yes at some point im hepy i did it.. n of coz the other m not at al.. but not only to one.. but to three i know.. n i bet theres lots more that i din realize.. i dont want to know.. but hey.. its all for the better rite.. wic it is.. so its ok.. :)

im no longer the aiman u used to know back then wen i just moved or till i was fourteen.. correct? perhaps.. im not that hyper, al smiley, al loud, al screamy, al that cn go mad at once anymore.. yes.. m gettin more boring, more moody, more everythin by the minute as i get older.. - ok thts so old.. haahha - i mean seriously.. i cant mke anyone luff anymore, cheer a person up, be there, make at least that person smile, make them feel better.. ntg.. seriously.. dont say oh aiman ur not bla3.. dude.. i saw it in front of my eyes.. shut it.. or yeah.. evn worse.. a friend.. like how i used to anymore... so idk.. i dont know what will bcme of me at the end of 2009.. n better how m i goin to school in 2010.. i dont dare to give it a thought.. well then all i want is to score n bury myself with books.. - its much more than that dude -


- tom baxter : better.. > .. oh my


but yes i dont blame it either.. i asked for it.. n i got it.. n that.. not it anymore.. n i was like that.. not helping.. so yeah..


sooo.. theres so much more i wna say but im just all blurry rite now.. well im not act.. but forget it.. so.. mm.. yeah.. im always like this.. dont worry.. at some point il get up again like how i used to.. i need cycling if it doesnt rain later.. i really need to..

n yes.. i beg u.. pls dont ever ask me bout this..yes u must be wondering wth m i crapping about.. nope.. m not gona tell u.. n dont ask me or push me.. i know ur being very concern n caring. thank u very much.. much appreciated. but pls i already have too much love enuff to spare me few generations more from my mum.. tis, pls be understanding n not ask me.. if at all, il tell u by myself without force..

dennis doyle says .. in life later on, ul see many tings that u dont like n u just have to face it.. worse than the ones ur goin thru rite now.. stand up n face it.. dont run away from it coz itl stil be there..

so i dont have to worry bout it anymore.. everyones oke.. everyones fine.. thats fine for me.. all i need to know is ur okay.. n i know u really are.. thats enuf for me.. let it go..

so have fun ppl..

:)

dude.... come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !

you say jump, i say how high ?

aiman, ko tolong ah aiman.. ko jgn ah dok merapu... ang toksahlah dok merepek..

I AM SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I don't wanna hear you say it

It's all about steam
It's all about dreams
It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when your fine
Cause you'll talk like a mime

You'll fall on your face
You get back up and you're doing fine
"a considerate clown, a preachy preachy machine"
Is one of the sweetest things you would say about me
But I don't have the time for your distorted esteem
Why are you toying with my mind?

I don't wanna hear you say it
Now you're messin' with my pride

You think you're smarter than me
Well everyone knows you will never be smarter than me
That's how it goes
I gained forty pounds because of you
Was there an "S" on my chest
Well I confess, you were too much stress
I'd have a heart attack at best
So now I breathe it out, I breathe it out
I spit it on the crowd cause they lift me up, they lift me up, they lift me up

When I'm feeling down
What am I spitting out? spitting out, something we never talk about
It's called my... mind

I don't wanna hear you say it
Now you're messing with my pride

I'm sick of standing in your line
So now you'll have to take it
Take this to heart
I will never let you fuck me over
Stop talking down to me your war is old
Your game is over
So here's my coldest shoulder

I don't wanna hear you say it
Now you're messing with my pride

Something we don't talk about
Something we never talk about

(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If your dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)

("Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you ware doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... And... Well...
It made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye")

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You helped me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad hard heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
For you
For you
For you



- the video is sad
- it means quite a lot to me in many ways
- hate me

they're not bad in live either..

i love blue oct..

:)

- lets see how many smileys il have.....

aiman, come on.. its ntg ok.. ntg.. its ok... be strong.. u can do it.. its no big deal.. u can..

ur a big gal..

aiman.. breathe aiman.. breathe ..! chill.. relax...

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! ! ! ! !

They keep playing sad songs on the radio
And I feel like I'm so alone
On this 15 hour drive

And all awhile I tell myself to just believe
Cause nobody can give so much
And never get anything
(never get anything)


dudeee... give it a break will ya !

aku x saket ati gak ah dengaq......

lotsa piccas frm muzium n others laterrrrrrrr.. mls ah...

so me n muffin.. sesi mendera dia.. ahahahah

thats my fishhhh... fish.. the fishh.. :) its biasa ja..

i lurveeeeeee tis oneee.. hahahha...

my life, my way, go away ...

you are praying that u make it, there is a light

well all i need.. :)

okeh.. sth seriously happend to me today.. lets start dari okeh lst nite aku gila sat.. adehh.. forget it.. il get over it.. nvm tht...

sooo.. as usual 4+ is the time il automatically get up.. so chatted with b for a wile.. then aft i manage to sleep.. fuh.. for about 1++ hours.. 730 ! ding3.. i tried to sleep again.. but guess wat ?! i cudnt.. its like well dpt la tido then dok terjga3! so at lst.. i gave up tryin to sleep.. gahhh ! so yeah.. i got up.. turun terus without evn looking at myslf at the mirror.. as usuall good morrningg ! me n ahma wud be like dt.. hahahah.. i like her.. kita mcm bersubahat.. ahhaha.. she knws ma mum. grrr ! so yeah i jz asked ma mum.. can i go cycling ? shes like now ? m like yeah.. shes like ha p lah.. m like cooolll..

so yes.. i thot of my cycling loveable bro.. he pun.. well i msgd him wen i trjga tuh.. 4sth.. he replied. shockingly. its either he din sleep or he too trjga.. so yeah tdi dia p pekan breakfsat dgn uncle malik.. nk ikuttttttttttttttttttt ! i really wish i cud one day. like reallllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy wna go out with em one day.. with pitee n uncle malik n better with aunty tgther.. itl b the highlite of the yearr !!!! naaa.. perhaps the week.. or the month.. or i tink yeah the year.. mcm bes ja.. like so damn effin cooollll..

so thot of another cycling partner.. but nahh.. he;l b mamuning non stop, or perhaps wey bro p gym.. gahh...

n ish.. evrytime i feel like swimming is the time i cant swim.. thts so shittt... grr

so dont ask me how many fucking times my dad asked me wther im seriously going cycling or not..

i knw.. first i got up extra early.. mum was totaly suprise.. then i wnted to go cycling..

bknkah itu gila ? - yes it very is..

so yeah 815 i went of...

aaaaaaaaa.. bfre i went of.. dad turun dah.. so yeah... i asked him wther i can go or not.. i act as usuall.. i lost track of time n the days.. so i thot saturday is like few days more.. pdhl.. its esok.. gahhh.. so yeah hes like how u wna go n all those stuff the tickets. byk soalan la aku bantai ja.. apa2 nntilater la.. so mums like wer r u going ? m like cs.. u knw she made tis goddamn fcking face.. omg.. i just dont know n i dont feel like interpreting that fcking face.. but my reply wud be n yes of coz yelling at her face.. wud be.. dudee !!! fuck dudee ! gime a break ! im a fucking 15 year old girl.. not 5 ! if at all i cant take care of myself - wic i kinda can okeh ? perhaps not alot, but i still do know - my friends are there.. its not then m going with some kind of lunatic strangers mind u.. theyre my friends.. the friends that ive told u about.. so wats the big.. but yeah pites not there.. she wud have some sayings about tht later.. grrr.. n yes whilst talkin n all ahma was pointing to my mum.. as for me.. i gave her the hugest smile tht i can put on.. ahhaha..coz i jz feel.. ohh.. so okeh.. even a 5 year old wud like to go n buy icecream okeh maybe thts too big, no go to the playground, play around with her buddies n build sand castles.. - sounds familiar.. ahhaha- oh yeah.. i forgot.. m not 15 nor 5. im a 5 months old baby gall.. no teeth yet.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr ! wth is the bunny tingy ~!!!!

soyes.. went cycling.. i well pretty much sweared like hell of coz.. haih.. i hate tis.. n ewwwww.. otw.. i saw tis.. ewwwww.. e ! tis kitty.. perhaps knocked down bya car.. thts okeh.. just tis freaking giant red ants were attacking it.. alll over the dead kittys body !!!!!!! omg !!!!!!!!!!!! yux~ but vry ksian la.. but its yux !

n2.. i cnt wait to wtch dead silence again n freak n ciken myself out again.. aahhaha.. its scary... seriously.. worse than doll master.. hahahah..

then blek fed the cats.. then err sidai bju.. then err cuci kasut.. tht mo yeah she said i can go.. fuhh.. reda kemarahan aku.. but ahh.. i dont want to be like rizal.. i dont wana go for anger management later on.. so i have to try to controlllllll.... so yes.. i was like yeah dirasuk setan the whole time.. i was kinda scary. wel evn aft knowing i can go i was stll grrrr ! so yeah.. simple.. make me pissed or angry... il bcme rjen.. truth is im weak.. or make me upset i hate that.. just make me angry or pissed.. thatl be good.. no m not asking u to la.. m jz sayin if im in tht cond il well be xtra rajen.. see like i did all those.. like yeah il do homewrk if i marah time skola.. like seriously.. n mmg akan abes.. ahhaha.. gila an.. but thts wat i do.. coz il jz shut up.. sng ah. it wont act compltely distract me but at least theres sth going n moving on so i wont feel like a pure setan.. i mean.. look at my songs.. the songs are bukan manusia.. hahaha.. thts wat my sis says.. wicccccccccc.. is very true.. huhu.. but yes.. m oke now.. :)

then.. yeah i cleaned the kicen.. weeheee.. then yeah.. ripped the plastic in the persona.. had fun with that.. u knw.. ripping it.. into pieces ! hahahaha.. ok dah.. then.. u knwwwwwww.. wuhuuuu ! i can drive tht car.. tarik the seat an. yes.. smpai.. my kaki smpaiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!! ahahhaha.. soi was like bole la bole la bole la ajar bwk keta.. mums like fkingly reluctant to teach me.. ahhaha.. but ahmas like xpla senang aiman can drive anytin easy la.. thank u ahma.. thank u ! n i told dad.. so hes like ahh.. thats good2.. in case emergency n all. - wen he said emergency, he emphasised it.. hahahah.. get wat i mean ? - okeh we'l tink about it.. so weeee.. yeah il make sure by end of the year.. i can say.. i can drive.. :) weeee

but persona n waja.. waja seems to be bigger.. i feel a bit squashed n compact in it. n u know.. camry is hawtttt... hahahah

ohhh capulet n montague.. capulet is juliet.. n montague is romeo.. errr leonardo.. n paul ruddddddddd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heeeee.. well yes.. clearly. i got no freakin idea about old english.. helpppppppppppppppp....

so yeah.. thts pretty much wat im doing.. n its so ckit.. i mean im not satisfied.. but at least.. i feel alive.. not like a walking corpse since the pst welll soooo long... so yeah perhaps il be like tis almost evryday.. bgn.. awal.. cycle.. do hse chores.. :) eyy.. at least i did sth insteaad of just sitting in fron of the laptop the whole fcking day ! lurking aimlessly.. mourning.. self pity.. all those.. so pathetic.. gahh.. so yeah.. i like it.. maintain aiman maintainnnnnnnnnn.... - gah !

n errr.. im suppose to be on diet.. ahhaha.. yes m cuttin my rice down. since yeah ari i lost appetite till now.. im happy wen i get hungry.. bcause few days ago aku xlapar pun.. yes spooky it is.. nno interest in food.. m ok la now.. so yes im kinda stuffing myslf with chocos.. nt good2.. n yeah latter p bank, tesco all those stuffs again.. so rd n music on !

n yes.. i slept wile huggin fish.. so yes.. fish is my mate now.. i like it.. :) i even brought it along time test drive.. dads like u brought the fish along ? m like yeahhh.. hahahaha.. okeh thts so like a kid.. me with wat i wore with fish.. dok lam keta.. press buttons n wat not.. mg ! so it goes evrywer with me now.. even wen i sleep.. i love fish.. :) n mind u.. fish is not as lwa as the tedy daddy gave.. or even cute.. it doesnt evn have bulu.. well thats beta la since its not good for me.. n its like the bean bag type.. the beans in it.. so it has a pair of black eyes.. nolips.. pink nose.. it has fins n tail.. n its black n yellow.. ahhaha. mg

nyes.. ahma said tdi.. while i was eatin.. she said ppl go to pg mkn char kuey teow, roti cnai, png laksa n the tulang babi sup dot3.. m like yeah bak kut teh.. shes like yeah bak kut teh.. i dont tink she expected me to know tht.. hahahaha.. so yea i asked her.. how do they make it> so shes like u put herbs, n some secret ingredient n yaddy3.. my mum must have heard it n must have tot ijust lost my mind. completely lost it.. wellll.. i was just wonderingg.. since wats so special bout it.. dont woryy.. i wont eat oink2.. just.. oinks2 are cuteeee !

yeah shit pnjg gila.. n hey. its not so depressing.. n at least.. m smiling at my own will .. :)

n come on.. i know u can.. of coz u can ! i know u totally can all alongggggg.. u dont have to tell me shits.. i really know u can.. esp toottttt... just be honest will ya.. just tell me straight away.. just tell me.. dont let me hear those shits.. its just.. urghh..


so... songs...

1. ravenous ravenous rhinos !

2. california waiting.. - means sth

3. atwa.. yeah sth againn

4. pieces - mum

5. there is a light that never goes out.. - i likeeee

6. pardon me.. - love it

7. nice to know you.. - :)

8. do what they told you ! - like it too. nice gtr

9. bullet in ur head ! yeahhh !

10. i hate everything about youuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


so okehh.. done.. im off neopeting.. n songss..

weee.. :)

i love my life

i love my life

i love my life..

n yeah... someone came yest.. till i was all so getaq, shaky, n yellow.. ahahahha.. okeh... the ting y i turned yeloow.. okeh it doesnt make sense but i gz its acceptble.. ahahha.. coz m too white to turn wite or pale so i turned yellow... ahahahha.. well.. :).. heee... niceyyy...

okeh2.. m offffff !!!

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

OUCH . . .

englissshhhh

my life, my way, go away ...

he really needs to go for anger management

hey i guess im not dead afterall

tho yeah i lost a cpl of most important stuff in my whole life, n theres more to come.. weeheee !

sooo.. movies.. yeah lets talk bout movies.. omg! since wen aiman watches movies.. heeee ! well yeah il be filling my time up with movies since i act well kinda dont wtch em.. but i m now.. so tis past almost idk la how long..

so errr.. space chimps.. hahaha. thts kinda cute. ilove the kilowatt? tingy.. the small body big lited head.. cute.. cant rmb much.. tht was in jb. n oso kungfu panda.. how cn a duck have a panda ? ahhahaha.. n yeah tht master who looks like goldfish. sukaaa..

emm lagi.. so i just wtchd i love u man !!!! shitttttt !its awesome.. i mean.. nice la.. sydney fife n peter klaven.. guess wat ! its paul ruddddddddddddddddddddd ! gah
! i love u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sud watch all of his mviess.. wheeeee ! so yeah.. ada values thre.. byk gak.. i dont get wat yet.. yet to process.. hahaha..

watched superbad.. its bad.. ahhahah.. dont wtch it.. but yeah.. friendship is in there.. its nice too.. i mean.. its bad n bodo.. tpi thres some stuff tht u can learn frm it.. but xpyh tgk la tuh.. bodo.. hahahha

run fat boy run ! dennis doyle n his bestie.. i like him.. cm bodo gila. he loves being half naked.. hahahaha.. yeah its more to dont give up.. he managed to finish the marathon evn with a shattered ankle.. n his coach n assistant coach.. ahhaha.. mr.goshdashtidar ? some sort.. would spank him.. its cute.. n also ntg is imposible.. yes.. ppl can change if they really want to, if they really try hard, if thres sth that can really push em to the edge.. and yeah.. dont run away from ur problemms - which i alwysssssssssss do that - evn if u run away, the prob is still thre.. face it.. the sooner u face it, the sooner ul get over it.. which is true..

yeah 300 !!!! its kickass.. like gladiator. but tis is wayyyyyyyyyyy better.. love the technique.. imean the way they fite.. work as a group.. its so cooollllllll.. sukaaaaaaaa... n err byk g ah..

so il have to dl 300 n def maybe.. errr il think of more of coz.. n yeah mor emovies to come..

sikitnya aku tgk.. tis is not enuff !

oh n yeah.. the simpsons.. nefer fail to make me luff.. sukaaaaaa... dk la apa yg besnya.. but its just hahhaha..

so im wtchin the devil wears prada again.. coolyy...

toodles...

n awal pagi.. pitee scared me to death with tis fucking shit.. serious hell.. i alomost died..

- dont tell me im gona spend my hols like this.. grrr... -

okeh... so guitar.. i may tke up lessons.. next year perhaps or idk.. n yeah i wna learn im urs n more than words from b.. not tht hard tho.. pls b............ teach meeeee... n yeah mona lisa.. n err ntg else matters.. n errr errrr ha soad ! n incubus.. n done.. weeeee...

organ ixtau lagi.. nt in the mood..fuck..

so...

the end..

take a good hard look !

well if you wanted honesty
that's all you had to say
i never want to let you down or have you go
it's better off this way
for all the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
remember when you broke your foot
from jumping out the 2nd floor

i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
you wear me out

what will it take to show you that it's not the life
it seems
i've told you time and time again
you sing the words but
don't know what it means
to be a joke and look
another line without a hook
i held you close as we both shook
for the last time-
take a good hard look !

i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
you wear me out

forget about the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
you said you read me like a book
but the pages are all torn and frayed

now i'm okay, i'm okay......
i'm okay now, i'm okay now,

what do you really want from me
because i'm telling you the truth

i'm okay, trust me

i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
i'm not o-fucking kay.....

i'm okay.. :)

afterall - deep breath

- tell me sth sweet to get me by

okeh... err.. idk wer to start.. since.. its been soooooooooooooo looooooooooonnnnnnnnnngggggggggg.. no nt coz m bz.. well was for a wile n in n out.. but.. :)

u knw.. the feeling of wanting to blog.. or u knw.. dulu.. i just sit in front of the pc.. go to new post. n there.. il just crap bout almost evrtn.. esp wat hapend to me tht day n al.. but..

i knwwwwwwww.. its called constantcraps.. but forgive me.. grrr..

soooo.. emm.. lets see.. okeh... m having sleepless nites again.. well not practically sleeples.. its err.. em.. yeah.. usuall stuf.. suka terjaga.. like xnyenyak la.. mind u.. i dont take naps at allllllll during the day time.. so yeah.. i knw act y it happens. emm.. its coz m tinkin to much.. m bothered by sth.. simply disturbed.. but.. wat can i say..

emm.. physically m ok now.. no tummy ache.. just bit of cramps.. my rite side.. i like carrying heavy stuff.. weights to be precise.. but.. height... gah.. hahahaha..

i hope i have transport tmrw to go bec.. tirahs not going.. dads working.. mum classess.. dangg..

okeh..so err.. yeah.. ahmas here.. whils tin jb.. lets see.. of cz i ate mcm pa g.. hahahaha.. sdp kowt.. til sis ckp.. aiman.. she bole mkn pa ja.. n bila la dia x lapar.. sobs.. fun.. packing.. hanging with siste.. yeah i enjoy it.. n i felt hepy since she can solve rubics.. well bru beginner la.. but yeah she can do it co zi ajar her.. weee.. bangga.. ahhaha.. thank god she cme along.. if nt.. firstly..i mite have not even reached jb.. i died halfway in the car at the bec there without my parents realizing it.. ahhahaha.. she ada at least ada org nk gelak2, ckp2, mepek2.. smpt nek swing g.. ahahhahaha.. lagi err yeah.. evry mrning b4 goin to the hse, tgk cooking shows.. sukaaa.. n yeah ipodtouchin with her.. pee monkey.. hahaha i like dt game..

oh yeah.. so i asked ma mum.. can i ask for sth if i get 8as.. she said ask ur dad.. but i said i want to hear frm u first.. n so she said yea wat? but no henfons.. wic yeah m hepy with mine rite now.. at least much more happier than hers tho its 8mp n mine is just 3.2.. i still love it.. so yeah i said how bout ipodtouch? so she slike hw mny thousand does it costs? i told her quite a lot.. but seriously i got no fcking idea hw much it costs.. so yeah its too expensive.. so err.. how bout gtr hero.. bt still its xpsive.. but mcm its jz gtr hero.. tho thts kinda like hte coolest ting eva but naahh.. or how bout tht u knw that mat slash exercise tingy slash tht kinda tingy in the arcade ? emm.. idk bout tht tho.. bt entah.. perhaps i jz end up not asking anytin again.. wic thts beta... coz if ipodtouch its like menempah maut u knw.. coz il get addiceted to it like hell... wel perhaps for awile but still la.. like eg.. if i go to somewer n had to wait, instead of me rite now like wat m doing is just music n rd or read sth, il b ipodtouching.. plyin games.. so... idt its a gud idea..

then men ngn snoopy.. ahahhaha.. its the dog anyways.. yeah i made friends with him smpai i nk msok umah pun susah.. coz wen i turn, he wants to folow.. of coz he'l kiss my ass.. pstu mmg ah.. kna tmpaq ngn rizal lu bru samak.. but yeah thank god ntg like dt hapnd.. so i had to kinda like push him away, hold him n restrain him frm cmg near me.. hes ok now.. hes not at spca.. thank god.. hes with idk who. some friends or relatives.. n the great ting is yeah he has a friend.. tis another doggy.. but yeah the aunty said snoopy byk termenung.. nods.. haih.. sedey gak ah.. so took some piccas.. i mean lama dah kan xpost gmbr.. wth.. write pun x.. so wil do lter..

then yeah.. seeeing my dad n ahma.. its tah.. nice.. n yeah.. aku serious sket ati.. aku rasa bodo gila xreti ckp cina.. muka ja cm cina.. phm pa pun x.. haram btui.. grrrrr ~

emm.. yeah had a pleasant trip.. had fun la.. :)

then emm.. yeah museum padi dah.. had fun gak.. n yeah cs... emmm.. yeah.. the question was act.. r u sure u wana go? so yeah.. i did go.. din expect anytin.. yeah was scared if it turns bad n ugly.. but i jz said to myslf.. pite is there. its ok.. jz pull his shirt like u alwiz do n jz folo him.. no la i din practically do dt.. hahaha.. but yeah.. i was poking his chiks all the way time blek.. at one point my finger ended up in his mouth, n my finger was covered with his saliva.. fuck ! ewwww ! then he ckp bau tgk.. babi gila.. of coz i din.. i dok lap2 kat bju dia n continued poking it.. i was goddarn fucking bored.. dhla azreel.. yeah it was him yg bwk keta.. lupa nk bwk lgu screamo.. suma mainstream n hiphop.. i was soooo wasnt in the mud of it.. n yeah.. ilike him.. hes like one heck of a guy.. a mad one.. serious.. dia gila punya mamat.. wat i saw in the car.. was ntg.. imgineif he was realllyyyy highhhh.. cooooooooooolllllllllllll... n the way he drives.. cooollll !

so yeah.. cs wasnt tht bd aft all.. but wsnt tht nice aft all too.. lets see.. went thre.. nganga2.. mkn pizza.. wntd 2012 but xdk tiket.. dh agk dah.. then err em yeah bowling.. okeh so evryone was plyin except me n ezza.. idk y she x men.. as for me.. i jz wasnt in the mood. n also coz i felt.. tah.. the other time i played was with tan, adam n gha.. n none of them wer there.. so i jz felt.. naahh... theyre not here.. i jz tah... but yeah then tan asked.. so m like hey okeh then.. so yeah i did.. with sy too. hey i improved at least okeh ! got er 62.. i knw.. terok.. but hey i did improve.. n did strike once. then suma shit aft tht.. ahhaha.. but yeah it was cool.. acceptable..

then em aft tht.. jln2.. oh yea not to mention we ran to go up like some kind of mad gals. hahaha.. but had fun tho.. mcm bodo gila.. then err went down.. jln2.. pitee did his cartoon version of himself.. ok lah.. nt bad2.. mkn icecream.. - yeah it was kinda like the tea concept but with another person.. too bad. hahahah - walked around.. dangg.. yeah tht was all of it..

thanks daddy.. thanks maa..

n yeah.. i need to buy bday presents.. for tht.. i wish i can go out just once more.. preferabbly of coz without mum.. coz im gona buy one for her too.. so err.. lets see how things goes..

n yeah m learning how to eat with chopsticks.. - aiman udk how to eat with chopsticks ? grrrrr

then emm.. yeah cs with malina n pitee.. okeh b4 tht.. m gona spill the beans.. dont ever ask me bout tis.. coz i dont wana hear it.. so just dont.. just tht.. ive been to cs with pitee only.. once.. err we bought some stuff.. well him.. i just teman.. but i did buy sth.. then we wanted to buy sth, it was his idea but xsmpt.. mmg time xcukup.. had kfc.. thts wen i discoverd he doesnt swallow burgers at one go like tht.. he eats the bread first then the meat.. hahahha.. dang la him.. but yeah i had funn.. like alot.. n i felt.. tah.. yeah i felt vry cmfy.. i dont even feel ashamed even if my face is smudged with sauce if im with him.. just tah.. im jsut so used to him.. yeah imagine nt being in the same class with him next year sux big time.. idk y.. but i feel mcm.. evry fcking morning next year n the next, we need to make a perhimpunan kcil of our own..hahaha.. meanin.. bfre the real prhimpunan.. we akn gather at one spot.. just to spend tht less than five mins tgther.. but yeah.. thats wat i call pure crap..n yeah he wudnt kil me evntho i almost ripped his sling bag apart.. ahhahahaha.. sory bro... n yeah.. i owe u n ur family alot.. well family tu idk y but yeah ur parents.. idk y.. i just enjoy weneva ur dad picks us up aft ttn.. drives slowly.. talk3.. its nice.. n bwk p mkn.. i enjoy it.. oh n yeah the vlge mall.. i just love it.. it tah.. tkes me away frm reality for a moment.. thank u very much.. :) il never forget that...

okeh.. so the trip.. err.. em.. i just love air hockey.. hahahha.. n the rest.. nvm...

emm.. okeh.. so im seriously being an arse again.. yes.. this is just a lil.. the starting.. i dont talk to ppl.. since.. err... em.. yeah since that.. emm.. i only talk to malina n di.. of coz nt my mum.. oh yeah few days ago.. imgine.. i was damn hungry.. yes tis ting i get frm rizal..wen we r hungry, we kinda prctically turn into lions.. huhu.. hahaha.. so mum was eatin my laksa.. m like wtf m hungry man.. dhla stni klo lapar mkn roti ja.. gahhh.. then shes like asking me these qs.. m like. yeah bengang, pissed.. so i jz said dah dont talk2, eat2.. so yeah.. thts soooooooo baddddddd.. but then yeah aft tht aft i felt so terok gila i talked to her n all.. n evrtn was okeh.. but jz nt tht much.. to dad.. he has been away.. but yeah hes home now.. so din talk much to him.. yeah wen he wasnt there.. the only ting i wished was he was at home.. he was there.. i wna talk to him.. but yeah.. wtever.. n yeah my sis a bit.. n thats all.. shit.. wtf is happening to u aiman ? but i have to say.. my communicating skills n social skills is deteriorating by the minute.. seriously.. oh yeah.. evn to ahma.. i dont really tlk to her tht much anymre.. but nah.. m gettng it beck.. nt to wory on tht... soo emm.... gah.. plg bersalah is to ahma.. i shudnt have done that.. yeah tdi bfre leavin to pg.. wen said goodbyes to her.. i rasa bersalah.. n mcm xsmpai ati tinngai dia.. nnti aku p skola cna nihhhhh.. adehhhhhhh.... grrr !

so yeah.. i have to admit tis one ting too.. m feelingless.. xberperasaan.. idk how to make ada persaan blek.. proove...

1. yes.. goodbye kembara.. hello persona se ! okeh.. firstly.. its red.. enuff said.. hahahah.. its red.. n its sporty.. n its leather.. n its all blck inside.. lawa ah..


n fuck! my stupid damn blue notepad is lost ! fuckkkkkkk ! theres like credit card nums n accs n all those. fuck ! everyones like how cn u misplace it ? how cn u improve urslf like that ? fuck.. i can if u stop touching my stuff ! fuck! if i cant find it by tonite. i might as well die.. n thats the end..

this is so not cool..........

okeh... fuhhh... dak idk wth is tht fcking stupid notepad ! so xpa.. jz cill.. lets go on blogging shallwe.. :) breatheeeee aiman breatheeeeeee - i almost pthkan rizals credit cars.. m so soryy. -

okeh.. so yeah.. the persona.. its jz.. omg.. ahahha.. its red.. sudahlah tu..

2. did my new glasses.. get it err saturday.. so em.. its black. .half frame.. wntd full - breathe aiman chilll - but dcided half.. ful nxt time i gz.. blck putside tpi dlm yellow.. i knw.. yellow.. errrr... but yeah.. the side there mcm lawa.. ada dis dsign somesort.. i like it.. so yeah.. n the power.. miracalously.. hahahha.. nek ckittttttttttt ja.. uncle jimmy said m lucky despite all those computer goin on. he says m straining my eyes too much.. g2 tke care of it.. slow it down.. il try uncle jmmy.. but u knw.. like i have other choices ??? errrr,,,,

ish........ !

grrrrr !


so yeah.. n yeah.. few days ago.. wel mum told me.. aft i jz said to myslf enuf of chnging cars.. hes tinking of camry.. i thot hes into accord.. but oh wells.. its big at least.. nice.. but nah.. he lurvesss his triton.. tht wite monster..

so okeh... emm .. yeah at lest i rmbd.. triton made me talk.. i rmbd sth apen tht period of time. n my dad ckp bout cars bru i ckp, respond sikit2.. kalo x.. as usual.. moody mcm aram gila.. n yeah.. he made.. no i tink i had yea i had to read the brochure of em.. of tritons n wtnt.. mg...

omg.. can my life get any better ? no.. heeeee ! fuck!

n esok.. skola.. double fuck.. tis is so wonderfull.. no.. i dont wish for tis..

oh my.. dah.. gime a break.. oh my god !

dad boleh tnya so hows evrtn? ok ka? m like i wish i can say la.. look at my fcking face ?! do i loook okeyyyyyyyyyyyy !:?????????????

okeh2.. m stil like exploding. bt fuhh.. m knda calm... fuhhh

n yeah ! m half sane n insane.. weeeeeeee ! adeh.. pening pala lagii..

fuh.. thank u u guys ! adam, malina, zik.. thank u very much...

n so yeah.. as u can see.. ntg pretty much excites me anymore.. evn the car.. ntgggggg... evn esok skola.. m like.. ohhh.. idk wther its a gud ting or a bad ting tht its gona be the last day..

yeah... dah.. m just.. i wna tke a break... fuhhhhhh....

so yes.. the ting is.. m not worid that u have probs.. m worid tht ur not talking.. look at ur blog.. rarely post anytin... i knwwwwwwwwww... adehh..

okeh.. dah..

so its all crapppppppp... - as usuall.. :)

n oh.. i jz so dont knw wat to do in ...... hahahaahha wanted to use the tooottssss

ok dah.. i wna go sleep now.. fuhh...

i jz cnt bliv it.. hahahhahah

ok.. oh noo.. 3a3.. ok.. i tink m gona have my period soon.. hahahah.. cz i wna cry now.. coz.. i jz realized.. thers no more 3a3.. omg.. dh.. dah.. pressure!!! hahahahah

i seriously dk wats gona apen tmrw.. n i dont wna imgine it.. n pites sick.. haih..

ni smua mepek.. i cnt evn rmb wat i wrote.. n entah.. errrrrghhh !

i hate u !

done.. :)

come on ! come on !

u know this isn't what we planned on

come on ! come on !

tell me itll be okayyy

( itll be okayy ! )

lets go back ! lets go back !

to a time where i......

oh yeah.. one more..

im sorry..

i m not !!!

n yeah aku xgeram punnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...

im so unstable..

well the whole day...

weeeeeeeeeee

:)

go away

fuck gila babi !

i hate all of tis !

dad! - m nt idk la... -

tmrws tingy! - well not really but lets just add tis in the i hate list.. -

u!!!! - aha ! -

n u!!!!! - yeah ! -

nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn u!!!!!!!!!! - sooooo yeahhhhh !!!!!! -

i hate ittttttttttt !

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

- for now i only like my bro n my sis... n yeah few buddies of cz.. - wtchn tv with raf.. tis is gud.. -

dah ! n yeah ahma. - shes cooll -

:) heee.. < seee... u see... i cn stillll smileeeeeee


- dont i sound psycho ?!? -

uncleeeeeeeeeeee malikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

iiiiiiiiii bbeeeeeeeeeeeeggggggggggggggggggg uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!!!!!

plssssssssssssssssssssssss dontttttttttttttttt dooooooooooooooooo thissssssssssssssssssss tooooooooooooo mEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yes, I'm stressed, I'm sorry I digressed ! ! !

soo..... tis will be sooooooooooo random... n lotsa toooooooooootttttttttssssssss....

so yeah m cooking again tdy.. hahaha.. carbonara again.. i totally forgot n all. i was like ah then aft tis wt to do..gahh.. n so i frgt some stuff n wtnt but its still edible.. thoo.. hahahah.. tht was the first round for ahma.. wic adeh.. ahma. il learn chinese fud instead of western.. its like.. i brdosa asking u to eat tht.. ahahahha.. m like wt if she vomits.. wt if she doesnt like it.. wt if she cnt eat it.. u knw.. al those.. i knw. tinkin so much.. grr.. il do beta!!!!!!!! in err ten mins time.. wuhu!

n u knw.. y cnt u jz toottt tooot me n toooottt tooottt her n evrtn wud b easier.. trust me.. u wudnt have teeeeeetttttttt at all since ur toott tooot tttooot is soo tttoottt of her n itl be tooott tooott cooll.. seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy.. if she tooooot toooot u also, ud surely say toooooooooooooottttttttttttttttt... n not tooooooott to me.. aite ? get meh ??????

hey i gz midnyt kerepek merepek is on again ! wuuuuu !

the very first few reactions id get frm ppl wen they hear m gona cook wud alwiz be like.. ok la.. ahma was la haaaaaa?! hahahaha.. n dis dude plak... he luffed hysterically.. hahahah then he said ang nk masak? m like yeah.. n continue luffin like a mad man again... ahhahaha.. i knw its funy..

n heyyyyyyyyyyy.. a cup of tea with me??? ahahahahhahahahah ! rmb tea rmb it... its nt like have a cup of english tea by the gardeen around 6 pm.. hahaha.. i was mre to well prhaps a walk at a park or starbux or secret recipe.. u knw.. like tht.. or even mcd.. just sit n talk.. bt yeah.. even if its cool. idt il do it.. adehhh...

errr... lyn muvi lg bes la drpd cramping ur head with lotsa shits round u... n yeah i do have a bunch of muvis to fnsh..

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!! - kaiser chiefs -

well ppl.. have fun.. alwiz be heppy..

:)

;)

m off to errr burn the kitchen down... muahahahahha...

y cant tooooooooooooot toooott like other toooootttt tooooot ttoooottt.. is it so hard ? what happnd !!!!

n oh... more muvis wen i get the cpu bec.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

its nice to know you

Better than watching Gellar
Bending silver spoons
Better than witnessing
Newborn nebulas in bloom
She who sees from up
High smiles and surely sings
Perspective pries her once
Weighty eyes and
It gives you wings

I haven't felt the way
I feel today
In so long its hard
For me to specify
I'm beginning to notice
How much this feels like
A waking limb
Pins and needles
Nice to know you
Goodbye
Nice to know you

Deeper than the deepest
Coustou would ever go
Higher than the heights of what
We often think we know
Oppressed that she who clearly
Sees the wealth of the trees
To obtain a bird's eye is to
Turn a blizzard to a breeze

I haven't felt the way
I feel today
In so long its hard
For me to specify
I'm beginning to notice
How much this feels like
A waking limb
Pins and needles
Nice to know you
Goodbye
Nice to know you
To know...you

Could it be that it had
Been there all along

I haven't felt the way
I feel today
In so long its hard
For me to specify
I'm beginning to notice
How much this feels like
A waking limb
Pins and needles
Nice to know you
Goodbye
Nice to know you
To know
You

kaiser chiefssssssssssssssss ! i lurve u !!!!!!! n tis songgggggggggg !!!!!!!!!!!111111

Everyday I love you less and less!
It's clear to see that you've become obsessed!
I've got to get this message to the press
That everyday I love you less and less!

And everyday I love you less and less!
I've got to get this feeling off my chest!
The doctor says all I need's pills and rest
Since everyday I love you less and less and less and less!

I know, I feel it in my bones
I'm sick, I'm tired of staying in control
Oh yes, I feel like a rat upon a wheel,
I've go to know what's not and what is real.
Oh yes, I'm stressed, I'm sorry I digressed
Impressed, you dressed to SOS and oooooh...

And my parents love me! (Oooh!)
And my girlfriend loves me! (Oooh!)

Everyday I love you less and less!
I can't believe once you and me had sex!
It makes me sick to think of you undressed
Since everyday I love you less and less!

And everyday I love you less and less!
You're turning into something I detest!
And everybody says that you're a mess
Since everyday I love you less and less and less and less!

I know, I feel it in my bones
I'm sick, I'm tired of staying in control
Oh yes, I feel like a rat upon a wheel
I've got, to know what;s not and what is real
Oh yes, I'm stressed, I'm sorry I digressed
Impressed, you dressed to SOS and oooooh...

And my parents love me! (Oooh!)
And my girlfriend loves me! (Oooh!/)
They keep photos of me! (Oooh!)
That's enough love for me! (Ooooh!)

read my lips, these lost words

I DONT WANT TO BE AN IDIOT ! ! !

first of all.. id like to say..

thank u daddy.. thank u maa.. for letting me go.. :) thank u very much

dad coz i know u slalu bgi.. i just need to say wer i wna go n how to go n come bck.. like seriously.. staybec pun dia jz akn tnya so how ur cmg beck.. n thts all. the end.. tdi pun sng ja aku tnya

maa ja yg byk soalan.. wic tht tdi dad tlg jwbkn.. thank u daddy.. even for muzium padi.. dad yg tlg ask.. dont ask me what he said or what not.. all i know.. its cool..

:) !

so yes.. alwiz go thru daddy dlu.. n yeah.. all i know is tht.. the only person il have issues with is my mum... like serious issues.. n mmg all the time.. muaahahha...

alsoooooo... lets talk bout stuffs.. dangyy.. wen was the last time i blogged..huhu...

so yeah by 12 nrmly i tido da.. bgn tu mcm shit stil.. il work with that..

n oh.. im 47 kg now... omg!!!!!!! yeah pls!!! n ive never had my tummy tissss big... :(( !!!!!!! gym partner... jommm... dia ok ja.. me ah... xpa2.... i have to!!! wuhu !!!

lotsa stuff happend evr since.. errr... hahahah.. nvm.. :)

so we r kinda like x tott tooott.. oh yea in tis il b using byk toot toots i gz.. weheee.. have to..

endzeit ! cooly d mooly !

so yeah.. few days ago.. ive found tht mising sth.. weheee !!!! tis two tingy.. :D yes.. i love em soo much...

muzium padi was errr.. haahhah.. but yeah tking piccas n all.. coolyyy... in the bus.. errr.. crap here there.. picas.. guitar.. tlking2..

i kesian ezza.. n scra tidak lgsg.. aku ksian dkt diri aku gak.. ada phm?

seriously. tis two dudes.. shud b left stranded at some deserted island.. without any comunication to the outer wurld.. they can survive.. seriously.. trust me in tis.. theyre alwiz rite.. theyre alwiz well suma tu a..

so i jz called up n talked to a bunch of ppl.. weee.. i like tht.. :)

yeah s u can see.. i mmg jarang gila3 baabiiii call org... n tis person said.. good.. its a good sign.. ur calling me.. hahahaha.. yeah coz slalunya dia yg cal aku.. so aku call ah... n yeah.. since thtttt.. i dont talk or sms buddies so much.. ish3.. wat happend to u mannnn....

ahmas here.. cooly.. yeah m enjyin life.. shes here.. i dont mind doing stuff..

n yeah.. the longer i sit in front of the laptop the faster i think il die.. aahhahah.. so everyday.. i need to do sth new.. of coz la.. sth with internet again.. cz toot toot.. so get sth new or a new game every fucking day.. or il jz deteriorate big time..

aiman.. go chatting.. onlining.. its jz nt like last time anymore.. wtever...

y kan.. xplah... hahahah..

cooly azim ada bandddd.. n bru dua minggu dia ada gtr tu.. cooolll... idk y.. but tah.. dia la member headbang aku.. slain zik la.. n its him..

hahahha.. at sn centre.. rineshs like aiman dont its for kids ! aiman dont its dangerous ! aiyooooo.... rock climbing.. ahahhah.. n yeah goin thru the tree trunk.. phloem wtever.. n yeah! slides.. ahhaha.. oh n gempa bumi... hahaha.. its funny..

n shitttttttttt.... oh yeah... next week perhaps il try to go everyday la.. kottt.. aku phobia p skola as u knw that.. one coz its boring.. two its coz of toottttttttttttt tottttttttttttttt... tut tut tut.. hahahha.. mstinya...

so yeah.. i nid firds n rineshs help in rubics ! i have tooo!!!!!!!!!

yeah its time for me to go.... tho see now i seriously dk wat to crap about.. cukup pnjg dh la tu.. tho i do still wna say some stuff.. but nvmmmmm..

but firsttt... id like to finish run fat boy run !!!!

trust me.. m ok.. ;)

omg that song.. its just.. omg..

- hahahaha

sooooooooo saddddddddddddd

FUCK U MAN !!!

i seriously dont know what the hell is happening . . .

sunburn

So there we were, back home
From somewhere inside my head
Well bravely I fought off monsters beneath her bed
Pillars of post-war books supported my frame of mind
While she memorized the pages that I tried to not hide behind
She took my hand in hers and whispered her love for me
The lantern died that night but we didn't need to see
Implying that she's the bees knees and I am the cats meow
It's funny how she recalls when I can't remember now

But when her smile came back
And I didn't feel half as horrible
She gave me a heart attack
Just because she looked so adorable
We both put our sunblock on
Laid on the beach and vowed that wed live and wed learn
Yeah, But she got a tan and I got a sunburn
I got a sunburn

So there we were out there
Unaware of where wed been
We kicked off our flip-flops
And swung from the rooftops again
It's awkward but I'll confess she's all I can think about
And it's funny how I recall when she can't remember now

But when her smile came back
And I didn't feel half as horrible
She gave me a heart attack
Just because she looked so adorable
We both put our sunblock on
Laid on the beach and vowed that wed live and wed learn
Yeah, But she got a tan and I got a sunburn

Oh afterglow, look out below!
Wed left a trail of dust behind
As we parted ways, she held my gaze,
And left and imprint on my mind
I tried not to cry as we said goodbye
And hung the clouds above my town
But I she'd a tear when she disappeared
Cause now I'm a stranger on the ground

But when her smile came back
And I didn't feel half as horrible
She gave me a heart attack
We both put our sunblock on
Laid on the beach and vowed that wed live and wed learn
But she got a tan and I got a sunburn
She got a tan and I got a sunburn
Yeah, but she got a tan and I got a sunburn

im being totally well not kinda me right now.. forgive me..

time machine anyone ?

incubus

heyy... so at last.. yeah m off to jb tmrw first ting in the morning,, yeah the ting is how i wish i dont have to bring the laptop.. but then yea bwk since sis soh bwk.. tgk muvis dgn dia.. n yea blst the speakers la kan.. weee

yeah.. i prefer staying at home.. i jz dont wish to go anymore..

so yeah.. thank god.. m going away from sp.. m getting out of asspeeee.. weeheee..

gime a break la man..

so yeah.. apa mslhnya..? well suma org ada mslh.. so live with it..

aku suka mepek byk sgt..

so unstable..

oh wellss.. m away.. wil b kinda bz.. maybe phone akan jarang pegang.. so

fuhhhh...

peace out !

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrawrrrrrrrrrrrr !

erghhhhhhhhhhh !

pardon me

Pardon me while I burst
Pardon me while I burst

A decade ago, I never thought I would be.
A twenty three on the verge of spontaneous combustion woe is me
But I guess that it comes with the territory.
An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.

I need you to hear. I need you to see.
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility
To me

So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games
So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me.
I'll never be the same.

Not, two days ago I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said I can relate
Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed vacation from.
The burdens of the planet earth, like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in
3-D...
And thinking so much differently.

Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Never be the same...

the lion sleeps tonight.....

stand by me......

i lurve the fcking hippo.. the expressions... to its fergheghenchhhh...

And for a minute there, i lost myself, i lost myself

what the fuck is wrong ?

I WISH

IM FUCKINGLY

NOT ME !

SO PARDON ME

WHILE I

BURST INTO FLAMES