I feEl like shit. Really, like shit. I feel like going down the jetty with my towel on bringing along my shampoo n body soap n bathe at the sungai. I feel like shit.

Both of my parents said "enjoy yoursel" i snorted. Haha. When i get home, if i dont feel motivated or even have bright ideas on how
to make the world a better place, id say screw this motivation programme hard ! I do hope i will enjoy this.

Edward and Jacob

at first, I questioned about how Bella felt towards both of em. Like how and why ? And how could she ? But then i realized how it really was. i realized how she really felt. and i cant totally blame her of what she feels.

Meet me on the equinox.

^_^ true that !

i think i like her hairrrrr ~ ^_^

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give

Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss,
Had your eyes wide open,
Why were they open?

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is

I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh

I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash


You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You’ d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

Talk.To.My.Ass. ^_^

idky but i feel so devastated. about tomorrow. i dont wna gooo ~ !

n all of a sudden, im so interested in finding ashril helmi. hahah. no kidding ! even my moms like xpa2, il help u track him down in fb. hahaha

n saya nak bagitau awak. saya x masok campur dan xmao tau. well sya nak tau tapi lbeyh baek saya xtau. jika apa2 terjadi kepada kamu, saya x tanggung. well obviously i have nothin to do with it. kamu dah besar. pndai2 lah kamu jaga diri sendiri.

psepala ibrahim x tutup from ahad onwards. grrrr !!!

Kantoi aaar weeeyy. Len kali wat lagi camtu. Bagi gempaq satu dunia. Baru best. Nak attention sgt an. Nak popular sgt annn. There u have it. ^_^

Bercinta untuk apa ?

If this were a contract i wouldnt sign !

U know the feeling of the "aaaaa" when u get a hot nice bath after a long day. Or u get sth that uve been yearning for like an icecream or candy or shopping or sth. U know the feeling of just when uve been waiting for it, n then u got it. No. Its not like that at all. Haha. Its wayyyyyy better than all those.Idk how to say it coz its so niceeee. Its like im at peace now. I am peacefuly happy ? Haha if that does really exist anyways. Its just yes i feel so happy n relieved. N it was like "weyyy, bole x kita ckp ? " my heart sank n i almost cried. Like this >>>>> =') haha. Well no kid la its jz the aaaa, ur talking to me n i miss u so goddamnfucking much. I know, exagerate much. Niways,

Guyss, i love u guys so much and in my whole life, i dont want to be left in a situation where i had to pick u guys over somebody else. I really dont want that. And i pray that it wont happen.

And thank u so much.

=)

If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna make you stay
Soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love.

Ha ha ha !

>__< =( ='( aarghhhhhhh !!! ~ wtf is wrongggg ?!?

With a girl like you, anything can happen. Girl, u change boyfriends like u change clothes. And u say i love u n that you would give ur life to guys like u say hi to them.

I know im no saint, obviously, but i just dont like u. Sorry.

Rainbow ice cream, I SCREAM !

School was fine. I think almost everyone was well not organized n rather insane today esp during thee morning part. God knows y. 

I have to say that I love all my gfs. Idk how I'd be without em. I like for the fact that I can just share anything with em. When i say anythin, trust me, it's anything and everything. From loose undies to bra colors oh n yes g strings. So I just like it coz we can talk just about anything. 

N then, it's, errrm. Is it me ? Or is it them ? Or Is it him ? I hope its not him. I'd kill him if its him. Just. I'm so not use to this. Well obviously. Last time, well, last week, i was inn the circle. Be it crappy things, be it disgusting, be it anything. I was apart of em. N il know everything. N now im not at all. Its like im not there anymore. I don't exist. I'm invincible. N it really tears me down n brings me down. Even if like im right in front, they just dont see me  i dont get the usual loud "hi aimannn ! " anymore.wtf?!? I'm just dead. 

If its me ? Ok let's say its me. I didnt do anything. Well i guess so. I didn't like abandon u guys or sth. I just needed time to sort things out. Since i was afterall really shocked by What happened. I'm sorry if u guys thought im gona abandon u guys but fuck no way! That will never happen. U guys r like a huge part of me if i must say n that u don't know. My form four life was fun with u guys. I don't wana go thru form five n note my last year with u guys like this. This is just stupid. I hope it's just all in my mind n that we r al bz n that this thingy here would end soon. I hate it so much. 

N not to say i didn't try to talk, i did. I called u guys. Tried to be annoying like i always am, n nothing. Nada. I was hushed n shoo shed away. Just totally ignored. N that has never happened before. Gosh. Yeah obviously I feel like shit. 

N no. Pls. Don't ask me about this bcuz i don't want to talk about it to anyone. At all. So pls just don't ask me. 

I just dont like this. >___< ! ! ! 

N i hate u too.

N pls don't come to me n create unnecessary drama. I got better things to do rather than waste my time on a person like u. 

this is cheating

i knowww2, i mean, we consider it cheating but omg !

its like totally insulting my intelligence. like totally. it hurts my ears, my soul and my brain i tell u ! how could u even click that button ? no i mean seriously, get ur brain, taste, mind and urself checked. seriouslyy. theres sth wrong with uuuu. ur so gay.

i mean im sorry for being honest. im just obviously being honest n doing u a favor n telling u that u should get a life.

( slits wrist, cuts throat )

oh goddd. fainttsss ! this girlll. she like i meann bes gilaaa. i wna go shopping ! hhaha

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

And I am short and fat. ^_^

nakkkkkk

well, sebenarnya, and obviously, almost suma yg aku nampak aku nak an. tapi jenoh la aku nak post sumaa. i want monayyyhhhh. i want shoppingggggg !

cherry chapstick

im spending wayyyy too much time on the pc. susah sgt kaaa nk transfer gmbar from iphone to laptop. yeah. susah. haha. dl bermacam2. xleh bukak la apa la. aiyoo. frust i tau xxx.

ok3. so shit. i have to like abeskan hmwrk. xla byk sgt. pastu kena study la kan. n then kena tgk2 muet. i still dont get it. niways. n my dad wont be home till monday. ( to make things worse )

yeah. id like to say sth. yes, if taken into account, ive actually lost it a longggg time ago. two years back maybe ? so yea, i have lost it. n im proud to say that ive lost it on that person, n im telling u im proud of it n i dont regret it at all. it is worth it. at least i didnt loose it to rather some psychotic, idiotic, fucking asshole guy. riteeee ?

and i could just sit there beside you all day long, looking and staring at you, listening to every word you say, and not utter a single word because the only thing i want to hear is your thoughts and only your voice.

and no, im not gona tell u that. if i do, its like as if im telling u to change ur religion. thats so wrong. so i hope i wont get tired of u bcuz i really dont want to. i have to bear with it no matter what. and, but, i so hate keeping things from you.

n im so sad that skola is like lima hari semnggu. i mean kan best kalo tiga hari semnggu ja kaaa. haha

n i miss tumblr soooo muchhhh ! gahhh !

school life is ok laa. ups n downs. kerja x la bertimbun lagi. still surviving. ( minus studying )

i want more songsssss !!!

^_^ gagagaga

=)

Just because i am an asshole, doesnt mean that im not an asshole ?

my parents are playing with talking tom cat or sth n laughing their ass off. hahaha ! n my dads so into technology he calls twin twitter ~ omg !!!!

they. are. talking. to. the. ipad. omggg ! haha

n im so bored. n i wana jailbreak kot tapi malasss...

Say hiiii to ipadddd! Yes i am very happy n grateful to god that i happen to receive it today. Aku xla rasa cam shit sgt. My laptop kan mati. So yes it really died. My c drive xleh bkak n all of my life is in it. So all my pics, docs, songs, everythinggggggggg is goneeeeee ! Xstress pon kannnnn ~

I want it to be a dream that can come true.

I was thinkin about him, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Just run away
From these lies
Back to yesterday
Safe tonight
I feel the sun creeping up like tick tock
I'm trying to keep you in my head but if not
We'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked

You fikir you malas, i lagi lah malas you tau tak ?

Need you.

Just shut the door babe and dont say a word.

Sloppy

Laptop dah mati. Haish. Oh n im about to welcome ipad. Next week smpai. ^_^ weeeeee!!!!

So im bored. N lazy. N tired ckit.

So the engagement was ok la. ^_^ things didnt reallyyytt go thatttttt baddf. But started too early than expected. =.= niways all in all it was good. Wish dpt amek gmbq byk2 g haha. Like byakkkkk. N i had make up on txto kak noran but weirdy weirdddd.

N twin is no longer under rizals clan. Huhu. =( he is bad.

Just two weird things. Ive nwver met someone lke abg lan in my wholeeeeee life. Hes jz insane. Hes nuts. But i like him
klo bole id like to sembng ngn dia shrian coz he is jz omg. Haha.

N another weird thing is seeing mr bf all over the hse. Like sitting at the hall in front of the tv. The worst was he was sitting on my study chair, in my room, sembanging dgn abg lan, lookg at evrtn in my room. I mean idk la. Its jz like idk. Haha. Idk wht to say. Yeah he went all over the hse. Weirddd.

Im hungry. Sleepy. In need of sth. N someone bside me, physically. N in need of lotsa credit. N dah. Esok il
do my work since il be by myself again.

seeing my sister after quite a long time kot, its nice. =)

lepak-ing with dad n sis n mkan2 after ttn eventho xlama sgt sgtlah best. i loikeeee !

having a bf like that is nice. ^_^ but scary for me coz i really dont know how to handle or deal with him at that kindof time.

n keeping sth away from someone where that someone should really know bout that thingy is really not good. macam cacing kepanasan. i cudnt handle ittt. like at all.

study aaaaa. on. the. way.

oh n daddy met ckgu aziz tadii ! saya suka. ^_^

sebenrnya i just dont feel like sleeping coz i just wana be awake. the enddd.

^_^

crapppyyyyy ~

btw, im like, fuck youuuuu ~

mak aiiiii. maju gila bdak nihhh. aku bkak2 dah ada in a relationship. bukan itu saja, dia sgtlah serupa dgn abang dia. i think from hair, to baju to shoes. omg. haha. n even the way they pose n smile. mg. this is freaking me out. haha

ish. tension eh. ni kira kak aku nak tunang. ni baru nk tunang. kawen aku xtau la plak. ni kalo aku lak yg tunang aku xtau la kecoh mana. aku sanggup x kawen drpd nak tension ngn suma benda cmni. haisyo !!! grrrr ~

I hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf
While jacking off listening to mozart
You bitch and moan about LA
Wishing you were in the rain reading Hemingway
You don’t eat meat
And drive electrical cars
You’re so indie rock it’s almost an art
You need SPF 45 just to stay alive

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like…

You’re so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal
You’re so skinny you should really Super Size the deal
Secretly you’re so amused
That nobody understands you
I’m so mean cause I cannot get you outta your head
I’m so angry cause you’d rather MySpace instead
I can’t believe I fell in love with someone that wears more make up than...

You walk around like you’re oh so debonair
You pull em' down and there’s really nothing there
I wish you would just be real with me

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like… PENIS!

What have I done?
Where have I come from?
When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me?

Feeling undone
What have I become?
When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself and became this machine

Thoughtlessness
(I feel)Selfishness
(I feel)Hopelessness
(I feel)Arrogant

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again

Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Shadows in the sun
Filter through us
Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child
Confession rejected
We grow up
To give up
People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back
Through the words of surrender

Emptiness
(I feel)Loneliness
(I feel)Listlessness
(I feel)Worthless

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories

Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you
Surrender to the secretes...inside
Lies within you

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can't feel you on the inside
Set down the bag and left it
Lost memory has left me
One again
Open up the inside
Admission for the cleansing
Now that I've forgotten to remember

Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past two in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny, these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads, oh he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be

I'm not coming back, (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak, (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt;
Now the rain is just (you're driving me crazy, I'm)
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
So many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds
Towering over your head

Well I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home.

Unhooking ppls bra esp certain someones bra is zi bestest thing ever. Hahaha!! My first attempt btw n it was a success!!

Im feeling so comfy right now. Like superrr comfy. Im addicted to that smell. Gah.

I have to study everyday. Doiiiii ~

Today was a nice day i guess.

N cake pisang sdaaap.

N2. Skg bff pulakkkk. Pehtu tup2 dgq kawen plakkk. Ko giler ape? Geeez !

Idk laaaahhhh ~

O M G ~ omg ~

boleh tahan jugak mulut diaaa...

gila pa weyhhhhh ?

e r g h ~ t h r o w u p . . . . .

o m g ? ? ? ang ? biaq ? btuiii ???? gilaaaaa ???

i.wana.cry.

Wish came true

i did cry.

mula2 tgk alalala, shomellll, bila dia terbalek, omg that is so omg ! haha

mmmmmmm ^_^

ok right now, im laughing at everything. hhaha. without the help of laddoo !

and this oneee ! hahah !

hahahah ! ok i just cant stop laughing. hahaha

hihihihih ^_^

PEEK A BOOO !

PON ZI !

id cry for a plushy like thisss...

Notion

hihihihi