School was fine. I think almost everyone was well not organized n rather insane today esp during thee morning part. God knows y.
I have to say that I love all my gfs. Idk how I'd be without em. I like for the fact that I can just share anything with em. When i say anythin, trust me, it's anything and everything. From loose undies to bra colors oh n yes g strings. So I just like it coz we can talk just about anything.
N then, it's, errrm. Is it me ? Or is it them ? Or Is it him ? I hope its not him. I'd kill him if its him. Just. I'm so not use to this. Well obviously. Last time, well, last week, i was inn the circle. Be it crappy things, be it disgusting, be it anything. I was apart of em. N il know everything. N now im not at all. Its like im not there anymore. I don't exist. I'm invincible. N it really tears me down n brings me down. Even if like im right in front, they just dont see me i dont get the usual loud "hi aimannn ! " anymore.wtf?!? I'm just dead.
If its me ? Ok let's say its me. I didnt do anything. Well i guess so. I didn't like abandon u guys or sth. I just needed time to sort things out. Since i was afterall really shocked by What happened. I'm sorry if u guys thought im gona abandon u guys but fuck no way! That will never happen. U guys r like a huge part of me if i must say n that u don't know. My form four life was fun with u guys. I don't wana go thru form five n note my last year with u guys like this. This is just stupid. I hope it's just all in my mind n that we r al bz n that this thingy here would end soon. I hate it so much.
N not to say i didn't try to talk, i did. I called u guys. Tried to be annoying like i always am, n nothing. Nada. I was hushed n shoo shed away. Just totally ignored. N that has never happened before. Gosh. Yeah obviously I feel like shit.
N no. Pls. Don't ask me about this bcuz i don't want to talk about it to anyone. At all. So pls just don't ask me.
I just dont like this. >___< ! ! !
N i hate u too.
N pls don't come to me n create unnecessary drama. I got better things to do rather than waste my time on a person like u.
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