hurgh !!!! rarrrr !!!

m lieing 0n ma bd. Typin. Wuhu. S0 i dnt hv to gt to d lpya nymre. Tday.m rudolf rizal-aiman rizal is 0n vcti0n.gr!- m nt d 0ny rudolf. Naim,ans n mayb irfan n iqbl r to0.
I died at schl tdy. At d library. Aft apr0x er 30 mins mayb, miracle0usly? Hw to spel. I resurrectd! Wehe! Cheers fr me. +witout any pr0v0cti0n okey. Ans ws lyk yay! Aimans bec! M gna tel evry0ne! Hahah.
Wt amazes me d mst is fud.haha.of cz la kan. Cni. Dt day, i gave my hawtdawg sndwic to naim n iqbl.since naim dk cm e sdpnya. N i ws ful.so ì ü o em. Sdny zayd pulak ada. He ate d mst.naim n iqbl hd a bite ja. D ting is,dpa dk usha taw,tiga2,naim dk pgg,then pnya la dk usha sndwic 2. clse up lak 2.Hahah
Then td bg la bar tu to em. Dpa dk sdp2.n iqbl ws lyk hugn his beg n ckp wey! Sdpnya!
Rmindd me of anss reacti0n wen she ate it. Haha.it freaks me out.
Tday xdk hmwrk k0t.tp adala keja yg xsiapg . Anyways dtl b tnyt,god wlg il b aiman rzl bec. Huhu. Hmph..
Dhla. Byk g nk tls -s usual- ct g2 slip.nyts

........urgh........

i say shit

louder than thunder . . .

why dont u label everyone ?

i dont think i deserve it

i have 1o mins to blog.. shit. mlm ni phy. haih

soooo.. i achieved sth.. i sumbg maata for rj muda ! gud response or shall i say very gud from ahma n dad. of coz not mum. shessshh.. wtever la.. im hepy with wat i did.. thank u to some ppl i ran. ;) wsnt planned at all.. headbang n squeezin a plastic bottle was cool.. n yeah rofiza too.. dkt fnshing shes like lari aiman lari sikit g ! n i did. :D i love merentas desa.. so yeah.. jog ptg2 ;) haih

and then i miss sooooooooooo much stufffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff !

trlalu byk la.. haih..

anis was way toooo hepy went she ate my quaker oat bar.. ahahaha.. she was like ya allah aiman, got up n wnted to hug me. ahahahah.. tht was funny n like hahahaha..

ilman pointed out our differences in height... == u seriously dont hve to do tht.. ive yet to kick u..

hafiz shahidan iz it ? in sn4 now.. mind u.. kj class is called kj class. n for future note. my name is aiman. dont call me other thn tht. i dont like it tht much.

exchange of lollies n quaker oat bars

my kaki knda sket. oh welss. i realy cnt blive it act. running man. i nvr ran in my life. kah3.. prove a point tht ntg is imposib. u can do it, jz tht u want it or not.

well.. except for some.. hmph

i was so shocked of wat anis told me.. have u lost ur mind dude !

say yeah to popcorn. no to lolly popcorn

i eat in class.. i skipped pj for sejarah n din finish it.. my name is in the bku kehadiran.. pnteng.. oh wells.. i dont like u chew. sej its knda simple act. rofiza issssssssssss ok. m jz overreacting since norliahs doesnt have to do nota. huhu. xplaaaaaa... now ur facts very well :)

how suprises can make people hepy.. maybe to an extend to be the highlite of d day ?

- i wna go to pg. :(( - i wnat a nike beg, bju bru, shor tpnts, pncil box. bday pressyis shooping perhaps... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !

lama dh aku x nges.. huah3..

new phoneeeeeeeeeeeee....

and dt tingy dt m gona by with my own money aka wen i get money frm mum.

and then.. errrmmm.. tah la.. aku png ah.. ahahha..

i hope my blue buk can help .. i mean dt one pge j ala..

- i know i could be better -

tu ja la kot..

gahhhh...

if.......

get in ur room n do ur homewrk aiman..

louder than thunder

What would it take
for things to be quiet, quiet like the snow
I know this isn't much
But I know I could, I could be better

I don't think I deserve it, selflessness
Find your way into my heart
All stars could be brighter
All hearts could be warmer

What would it take
For things to be quiet, quiet like the snow
Are we meant to be empty handed
I know I could, I could be better

I dont think i deserve it, Selflessness
Find your way into my heart
All stars could be brighter
All hearts could be warmer
What would it take, for things to be quiet

do u know what i mean.. hahaha

owh n yea.. y i like staying bec

is oso coz i get to hang with friends..

then get to luff alot..

so id like to thank b, sha, anis, malina n tan i did kacau her.. ehhehe..

yes.. laughter is the best medicine..

hee.. :)

the zephyr song

hmph.. oke... lets go nah.. ni akn bercmpur.. n pnjg.............. as usual.. so.......

one.. its so x adell.. i knw.. bru 3 wiks of school n im like crap.. n shit.. ahahha.. seriously.. its like weekend ni ppl nk hang out la tgk muvis la.. mula2 i wish i can hang out - outside with my friends- two... wen was d lst time i went to pg !? eeeeeeeeeee !

aku geram.. cm esok la for ex.. idk la wey.. idt i can ever go out .. fuckkkkkkkk ! nt to say wna go out.. i jz wnt to enjoy for awile.. evryday skola, keja, ttn. mana pun x p. m so not like dt la.. at least dlu sbln tu p pg g.. ni ?! lst time aku p pun x igt.. fuck. then aku geram.. eveytime cm mums fren ka mai sure kata ksian aiman, cuti skola x p mana pun. strokes on my back- pmr pun x bwk p celebrate ka pa ka.. ==........ bessss ! hurgh !

aku tension taw dakkkkk.. haaaaaa... its like ok mula2 dad like ah aiman esok u wter d plants all.. ok xpa.. aku dh la suka gila an wter d plnts.. ish ! then mum lak ah esok kna bgn awai nk kena p bnk la tesco la suma.. aku xterkata.. yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so x adel.. y my frens can hang with their frens p tgk muvi suma.. y can they go swimming, outing, golfing, frens hse , anything.. yyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y cant i !!!!!!!!! e la wey.. e...

fuck la.. i cnt even stybec.. worid la kan.. fuck gila ! look.. if i stay.. at least yest i did my admt n finished mymt.. if u wer to ask me to go home, like td.. i slept for 3 hrs kot.. sheeessshhhh ~

then tah.. rasa cm so much to do so lil time.. like weekdays sund til wed suma ttn.. mcm fuck ! jom drop school.. ahhahah.. i lurve ttn.. i dont get it.. xpuas ati.. psepa dkt ttn suma aku phm, i can pay 110 % attention to d tcer n wtf thyre tlking.. at school.. one.. mmg i dont get wtf theyre saying, n when it happens, i refuse to lisen to em coz itu akn mencemarkan otak aku. bek study sniri.. haiyo ! its like they are so boring, so xphm.. so suma.. mmg ttn pun boring bkn cm aziz or mr lim.. haih i miss him so much.. stil borinng but i survived.. school - barely survive.. hahaha..
adkh aku terlalu byk membuat dosa kpd ibrahim smpai cnni ?!

and then.. yes.. its true.. ada gap.. len klass suma.. theres tis gap.. no mter u sy its ok ka pa ka. we stil meet n talk.. mmg of coz xmcm dulu da.. must frget bout it.. just go along.. n its true.. my mud slalu mcm fuck.. jrg aku gud mud.. so lisen up ! WENEVER IM IN A GUD MUD, PLS APPRECIATE IT N USE IT ! COZ IT COMES ONLY ONCE IN A BLUE MOON>>

wic is very true la.. n yeah.. its not tht u can get evrtn or anyone. i mean mmg la kan.. even if u want tht person so much.. its so imposib.. i rmbd tht day.. i was so greatful tht i cud spend my time with tht person evntho it wasnt long.. i had so much fun.. n my mud from 0 went to idk la how.. jz it made me sooooooo hepy.. n tht i learn that appreciate gud tings wen u get it.. n tht fully put urself in it at tht mo.. coz its not alwiz.. (= haih...

byk g nk whine.. but nvm.. its ok.. :)

so yeah.. as usual.. me n 4sn4. as usual.. i work better with the boys..

so i found someone i can hit mcm fahmi wic is ilman.. i took my pencil box n bang ! hahaha.. hes like awat ang suka pukul org gemuk.. m like x.. its bdn besar.. hahaha..

naim n iqbal.. i lurve em.. tlk to em the most.. iqbal ah.. ok how i connect with em was with music.. naim is more to pop punk rock.. gud2.. screamo lyn gak. iqbal mmg screamo.. n he lyn sawww!!!!! weeeee ~ so hes like u knw eft. u knw diz u knw tht.. m lke yeah... he excited.. he lg excited he mcm he ask me to lisen some songs.. n jz did.. lyn... boley thn.. mcm adtr ah.. some sort.. promote2.. then he ws sying some bnds n m like wtf r u sayin.. so he cpt2 koyak kertas n kata nih ! aku excited ni nk hbq kt ang ! hahahahah.. pa lah.. n evryday dok tnya ang dgq dah ka..... n dpa mgsa dera aku.. ahahha.. baling2 kertas time boring.. now frm small balls wen to cannon balls !

hahhahah.. cnni.. time chem... bling2 cannon balls.. i bling kena zayed.. zayed pulak jdkn cannon ball tu ke wet cannon bal.. baling sikit2.. i xbrani nk wt kat syamie.. he seems grg.. ahhaha.. hes like ang baling kt aku ang mmg nk kena sepak.. i ws like urrrr ok.. ahahha.. oh yeah.. chem majority x wat report.. me n sha lari p toilet.. ahhahaha..

n mmg x puas ati tgk naim n iqbal tido.. il disturb em.. xle2.. ahahha.. but i did fall asleep time chem tho faw.. hurhhhhh

yeah... aku mmg mls nk wt hmwrk.. ni mcm like 9 hmwrks pa otw.. sheesssh ! xpa2... haihhh

i like sitting bsyd naim n iqbal.. cm naim akn wat screamo2.. well both.. n naim akn wat bunyi pelik2.. n bila dia tension lg la bunyi pelik.. ahahhaa.. mkes me luff..

zayed is ok la.. dia sikit2 adam.. sikit2 adam.. aku tau la dia bf aku.. i rmb him al the time.. ang xyah dok sebut.. n he cm tah.. kna comment nya.. x puas ati pa.. apa mslh kamooooo... i tink in a day if i dont say tht to anyone mmg xsah.. sheessshhh

n imcalled the pembuat smph since i baling2 paper.. wattttt.. i sapu blek owkeyyyy....

and then zul irfan.. mostly an.. i knw naim n iq satu band.. irfan anther band.. theyr in a band.. n zuls gtr.. stai... lawaaaa...

so yeah.. i prefer staying beck.. by 5+ la.. tp haiyooooo..............

wan yi is cool.. chang is starting to bully me.. hahaha.. nah bully in a gud way.. thennn errr.. tu ja ah... mostly with sha n anis ja..

n m fed up lisening to ppl esp mum asking me to sleep ! esp wen im on the computer ! benci !

i whine a lotttttttttttttttttttttttttt !

- n i act knw lotsa songs from rhcp ! layannnn -

dling songs..

ok dah.. i give up blogging.. idk la wt else to say.. byk g act tdi nk tulis.. dh la tu..

mlzzzzzzzzz......

- im being so not practical n mature n tinkin strait rite now.. gime a break, god willing, tmrw il get up on the rite side of the bed n shine like a star. amin.. -

grow up aiman !!!!!

thers ntg wrong with u or ur life actually..

just it isnt how u wished it.. but now.. be grateful.. it smore than enuf.. the ppl u knw r very gud.. yaddy3...

chilax.......

dream on

teringinnya aku nak...

1. p swimming

2. try golf.. + the wind blowing ur hair..

3. tennis.. lpaskan geram

4. photography

5. p cs.. suma org cm p ja.. haih.. huhu.. fuck giler

6. organ

7. drop school.. hahaha

8. p penang !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9. byk lagi

10. oh yeah bowling perhaps.. skating... skateboarding......

i have a huge problem.

1. aku sgt5 !!! thp cipan mls nk wat homewrk.. apa tah lg study..

2. aku rasa sgt2 mls nk mkn..

3. aku tgk aku sgt3 susah nk dpt mood..


others.

1. rambut aku sudah strait.

2. aku xsk admt bcz of d tcer.

3. aku xreti men guitar dah

4. organ lagi la

5. bila la aku bole wax.

6. bila la class to siap decorate n bilala environmental freaks nk active. xla aku rasa mati

7. bilala aku bole men tennis

8. bila la aku bole start blogging tiap2 ari mcm dulu lg

9. haih

= the end =

its so sad.. hmph..

! ! ! * shrieks * - cover my face with my hands - ! ! !

how should i start my post ?

is it just me , or what ?

bleep

sedeynya....

dang.. app i got byk nk tulis.. but then ada homework.. xla byk sgt.. tp ada ar..

mlm acc......


dear god, pls.. help me with all this..

awww.. tilts head..

FUCK THAT !

kalow boleh an, aku nk tumbuk2, tendang2 kamooo..

my advice to u is jgn la bgi aku bengang lagi, kalow x dpan2 suma org aku maki ko..

- im not suprised it happens anyways -

fuck i say i give up, leave me ALONE !

good.. gime more..

I

FUCKINGLY

ENJOY

IT

!

KEEP DOIN IT !

I MEAN IT !

aku tidak ada mood untuk berblog

slmat malam..

esok skola..

we just need time

:).. thank u very much kak isma.. tho it was knda like running errands but still.. :) i had fun

p hasani, pack gler, a guy saved my life... hahaha.. x la.. i beli dua plastic bag penuh buku.. hu knew clumsy me, the beg jato, n he dpt tangkp.. tq man.. :) and then p tesco.. and then makannn ngn kak isma.. then sesi brckp2.. :)

so i told her stuff, which i dont tell to a femly member.. no i mean mcm m supposes sto tel but i din.. but then i told her.. n she told me sumala.. its ok.. trial and error.. dont be afraid to fail.. TRY ! :D i will.. :)

so yeah.. i have to say.. i m hepy bout myslf.. tho its well prgressin, but in a slow pace. at least it is..

i have to say i cried last nite after looking at all the pics in my phone.. sad memories.. n hepy ones.. n i ended up luffin in the end coz its nice.. :) il post the pics in my phone lter.. tht means sth to me.. later2.. tho mmg gmbr tu dh ada.. but just for the record.. :)

- anything im not.. m so gona dl lenka soon -

pa jd smlm.. aku lupa dah. oh yeah.. emails ! :D

n yeah.. il b making phone calls every weekend.. to certain ppl.. :) i knw i dont calll ppl, but il try ok il trry.. i was so hepy to hear ur voice. n to know tht u still rmb me.. :) thank u

n maybe some of us ada a few, i wna make like a meeting.. at like tis day, tis time we have to gather aat one plce even if it 5 mins.. just to see each other.. trust me.. the smile tht it can bring.. :)

emmm... esok physics... learn to love the tings tht u dislike n hate. :) btul dennis doyle ckp, as u grow up, there will be many things tht u dont like tht u haveeee to face.. okehh :)

my love to run fat boy run has not lessen even a bit.. weeee :D

simpsons pun.. homer.. epa... tooottt... hehe

n m into dslr cameras ! yeah.. bliv it o not.. td was my first time touchin it n fiddling around with it.. n i love it. :) photography ne.. idm.. so i said to my mum.. ihave a request.. maybe wen its my bday, i want one of those.. so yeah i knda like it.. i like.. :) but yeah m not gud in tkng pics.. but oh wth.. u dont know, u learn..

i really feellike i wna accomplish sth this year.. in my 16... at least mcm really into enviromental freaks n be reall in it.. or decorate the class.. or to say i can play tennis.. or yeah photography.. or one more.. acce in school !

despite all thoswe.. u knw... in my life. i ony have two probs.. this TWO ! its a person.. so any probs tht i have in my life, msti coz of tht.. mostly la.. huhu.. wtf la.. biaq :)

so emm... oh yeha.. m suppose to sleep n mlm pulun.. i still wna pulun tnyt.. wey fuck la.. i lupa.. esok skola.. ahahha.. ok la then.. tnyt do some readin.. sleepin em yea =

and as for guiltiness n tinkin to much n worrying to much.. FUCK THAT ! i mean it.. idc anymore.. its my life.. i can only get to live it once.. m not gona waste it..

n yheah.. start studying for ur own future.. no one is gona help u pass spm... its u hus gona do it.. so.. :D

so yeah.. i tink thts all.. t ptg.. mmmm.. :)

:)

what do i see in you actually ?

tongue

i may tkq phone pulak dah.. since ipod ke iphone or that nexus one smartphone..tah la..

cz mcm sve money la.. d h ada phone dah n its like iphone all those.. so its complete..

n u knw wat dad said.. nvr ever i wna hear dt again

- next time buy nokia la.. -

mg dadd.... y nokiaaaa... tp ok gak.. ahahha.. aram.. xle2.. no nokia.. noo...

nokia.. ish.. ish...... ish2....

i dont care . . . coz u dont . . . :)

Heavier Things

This is a call to the colorblind
This is an IOU
Stranded behind a horizon line
Try to be something true

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fuse to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be
So damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
Gives me credit for

Why is it not the time?
What is there more to learn?
I've shed this skin I've been tripping in
And I've never quite returned

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fuse to dry

Maybe I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame
If the flame's what it takes to remember my name
To remember my name

Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by
All this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting
For my fuse to dry

Cause I'm bigger than my body

live your life

One of these days you'll be
Under the covers you'll be
Under the table and you'll realize

All of your days are numbered;
All of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.

So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for mall.
No no

Take every moment; you know that you own them.
It's all you can do, use what's been given to you.

Give me a reason
To fight the feeling
That there's nothing here for me.

Cause none of it's easy,
I know it wasnt meant to be.
I know it's all up to me
I know it's all up to me

So what am I gonna do with my time?

I'll take every moment, I know that I own them.
It's all up to you to do whatever you choose.
Live like you're dying and never stop trying.
It's all you can do, use what's been given to you.

All of the moments you didnt notice;
Gone in the blink of an eye.

All of the feelings you couldnt feel
No matter how you try.

Take every moment; you know that you own them.
It's all up to you,whatever you choose.
Live like you're dying and never stop trying.
It's all you can do, use what's been given to you.



come on.. dont be a stupid girl... dont waste ur time over stupid things.

grow up.. think maturely.. be mature will u..

come on2.. get up. n shine..

ur smart..

ur strong.

ur not weak..

ur not a loser..

ur a fighter..

u can do it..



i can do it

:)

coz i am me

i will.. :)

ko xpernah fikir ke ?

if xpenah, xplah.. coz aku pernah fikir bykk kali... everytym.. in anything..

by that i say..

i am so so sorry..


azfa hanani is ok lah...

asal sume bdk kj n eko bhgie jer tgk.. asal sume bdk sn ade issues ?


xadel gilerr..

issues

i think m gona have my time.. my stomach hurts.. my muds are like rollercoasters.. sorry if i sound very weird...

i do not like my mum..

the end

grrrrrrr

jz leave me alone.......

i lve locking myself up n be alone in my rum ....

its hard for me to specify - jerkss... - school...

so.. yeah.. pagi2.. errr... it was ok.. then sej.. rofiza.. xmsok.. then bm.. ada keja.. i like asking tcers actually. hahah.. rofiza recognises meee... so maybe i say maybe hari sukan aku msok kwd kaki pgkp if ada member.. xdk bye2 i dont give a fuck.

then mean time tu byk bersmbg.. ahahha.. kira kan.. the 3 of us kat blkg tuh dok wat bsg n suma diam.. maybe bit of yogeshs gang n oso shahmi n d gang. tu ja la.. suma org dok tmpt.. aku yg dok brdiri lepak.. geez... n yeah i still xbrubh.. still eat in class n sit on the floor.. buka ksut dak.. gggg... pasepalah dpa mcm tu.. geez...

and then yeah .. environmental freaks ! come ! join ! save the earth ! hahaha.. sat ah.. we r gona cek on em.. theres kelab pencinta alam.. n yashus like there ever since f2.. can msok situ n do stuf.. coolest ting bsides doin all tis.. u get kk marks.. so one point.. maybe a blog, website, flyers.. doz stuffies..

n me sha n ans are wel ajk keceriaan.. helping chang sok yee ! n tme nk blek.. aku dok temenung tunggu b.. sdny she came in frnt of my face n waved gudbye to me.. m like :D byeee !!! hahahah.. yeah ! i tink i got her name ritee.. cooly... so mcm tulah.. ever thot of gettin lockers ?

and then oh yea.. so lets igt tmpt duduk.. dpan eza n amira. then ilman n hazreen. then ain n tu lah wts her name.. anusha n dharshu. then aqidah.. i nver thot we wer in d sme class.. wen i saw her buk, i was like watttt.. then i saw her n m like laaa sma klas? hahaha. n yest.. the stupidest ever qs i had to ever ask someone, even today la.. is wey kita sma klas ka ? geez.. thts fuck i sy.. n aziz.. poh wanyi was theree.. thts y i msok2 ja bilik ttn she mcm eh??? n usha me pelik.. i jz igt oh bdk ibrahim.. mana taw bdk sn4.. bengong.. so td i went to her n was like wer u the one last nite? kah3...

and then so aqidah n shahirah hanum.. got two shahirahs.. so cal her hanum.. and then errrr errr err atirah zuhdi n err hidayah.. and then amalina n atira zul.. and then ezza n sharifah.. and then tpi tu naim n iqbal.. persad ? i tink. hes funny.. vikas is ok.. yogesh n cheah.. u knw ! anis cek buku cheah..ttgk2 dia wat ayat bm.. my name was three.. kah3.. then persad dok awat la xletak anis.. then d other minute was aiman is a boys name la.. n angkt tgn to me wile smiling. .perghh.. and then emm ahh thts wer nani is n shahira.. and then evelyn n wanyi.. evelyn is omg ! n ksian dia if x silap kna jd ajk raja muda.. pity u.. she doesnt want it too. u knw.. she dah bljq add mt till chapter 5.. yeah tx to anis sdny i rmbd diz.. i mean she mentioned it.. competition... as for me.. m like hurhh ? yeah.. geez.. btui ah.. kena pulownnnn... aft tis nk bc physics ah.. i gt no freakin idea.. n terkial2 mncri tmpat ttn.. since idw go msn.. einstein walaupun gud dh penuh.. maner g....

n yeah.. bio......... i tink boleh kot.. tah ah.. norida.. study ah.. i nid i mean not nid but yeah i tink study grup wil knda work. .tp tlg serious ah n i gz itl work.. tp member.. huhu.. eversince i saw d gmbq katak cut open into half.. m like omg ! i wna do it ! i myslf wna cut it openn ! weeee ! n then eww wtf is dt n all.. ahhaha.. n yeah seriously il tke lotsa picas of it.. hik2.. mcm aritu p giant nmpk ikan yg tlh brwrna kng n all insides came out.. coolll... ntp kan.. xbesnya we'l work in grup of 5 or sth like dt.. i wish cm we can get into pairs, idc la hu itl b, jz dt i cn cut d frog.. ahahha.. its gona b fun :D

okeh so aft evelyn is chang n shirley.. n then yi ting i tink.. n then tis gal.. geez.. she wudnt evn luk at u.. yeah.. then we sud actually expose her u knw.. sha said coz dpa suma shy. n coz xbiasa mix.. esp with malays.. so me n anis shud go n encourage them.. tke em out.. mcm mana lah tu.. we'l try.. make it a point..

and then shahmi n zul irfan.. shahmi men ketuk2 pen.. ahahha.. n hes writing i say wow for a boy. and then ilyas ah hes our class monitor.. and then zayed.. dia jd pa tah. kot lah.. xigt.. and then mamat cina tuh xpena tau nama n then ada goh sth2.. i wud like to talk to u guys..

and app me n ans got sth in common.. n sha says.. omg ! hes a jerk ! hes such a jerk ! dh la mcm jerit mode. dh la cikgu ada.. hahah.. so eyah... work on tht ? errrhhh...

so yeah.. dua ka tiga nama ja aku x igt. :D weeee.. tu ja lah.. xdk hmwrk.. cikgu xmsok.. n yeah evrytime ckgu xdk amek la chnce tu n buat bsg n kecoh n kacau org round d class.. its cool.. :D at tht mo, i felt i m me.. the normal aiman, how she used to be.. n i lurve it.. :)

then raja muda.. m not goin.. hik2.. and then emm... weyyyyy.. wen i saw bs engineering buks.. besssssssss... lukisan teknikal coolll tau dakkk.. and then they learn in englishhhh !!!!!!!!!!!! xadel gila.. n its like how cme suma bdk kj n eko are so hepy ? hahah.. n yeah wey.. kj cm bes ja..... the class pun cm kinda cooll.. hmmm... nahhh... tok sah mepek.. dok sn dah..

and thanes.. i really respect u guys.. really do.. :)

ppl claim they knw me.. but i got no idea who they are at all..


- peliknya dia pangge aku kak.. geez -

- comeynya dia kata nnti adek n mama add st g.. ahhahaha -

and thennn pj... ok la.. baling2 bola like somekind of retards.. x sweat pun.. and then recess.. all was okeh.. spt biasa.. hows hoki like ? hahaha.. n yeah..

blek2 umah.. was kinda active.. so i pokpek2 to my mum almost evrtn.. - pats on my head :) - n she did lisen to me....... :) ... so yeah.. she ckp awat x amek bowling.. bling2 ja bola aka - less injuries tht may hapen - if tennis.. reason is coz mula2 i mmg x sk cs.. tp bowling is mmg lg sng dr tennis.. and then.. idk y dah i seriously mls nk cycle.. like gila4... its not in my life anymore.. geezz.. so bila la aku nk exrcise.. so time tu lah.. teniis.. n ada coach.. n if x silap its sat n fri 8 too 10 am.. great.. bila aku nk bgn lmbt pulakk... but oh wells.. :) i nid a racquet ? is dt wt we call it ?

n yeah.. kita nih.. di malaysia..

oh n yeah.. m goin for merntas desa diz time.. gah...

oh ny eah.. aku blog tramt pnjg.. oh n yeah m suppose to study now.. :) n yeah.. sabtu nk p beli buku... weeee :D

n told mum bout sth.. n shes like la awat? awat x ckp ngn dia ? gadoh dah ka? umi risau man x ckp ngn dia.. kalo man nak umi bole tlg call ckp ngn dia.. .ahahahhaha... lol..

alrite.. :)

tink positive..

deep breaths..

itl b ok..

:)

pins and needles

so yeha.. smlm aft dk how many days, i dpt tido.. i mean i cud close my eyes n well i did terjaga... sheshh.. but wtever it is, i cud sleep wel... awatlah.. geez...

so bgn2.. ngntuk.. coz nk smbg g.. shesshh.. bgn.. as usual.. pagay was gay.. ahahah

errr... yeah.. dlm gelap aku nmpk kamu.. dan aku x kenl kamu shngga kmu tlh kata hoi ! hahaha.. opsiee.. soryyy.. patot aku tgk awat dia nihh dok senyum kt aku... aku knai ka dia.. hhahah.. knai sgt tho... so yeaha.. chat2 a bit.. i feel tah.. lm gila x ckp ngn dia.. then still rasa cm not lost.. still mcm ada sth.. unlike stgh.. sedeyh gak a aku tgk.. dok dkat2.. pa pun xdk.. tah ah.. lost communications.. hahaha.. very funny.. things change.. ntg i can do.. hmph..

and then perhimpunan.. realized im very short.. errr...

and then bio.. fuck la wey ! norida... ! xplah.. wat la study grup ka study sniri ah.. anytin laaaa....
xplah.. i accept..

bm was nooraini.. frankly.. my aim frm tadi was to stay awake in class.. ngntwk giler babenggg... td boring ah.. she dok ckp pa tah.. and the bm paper.. sng gilerrrr.. geezz.. n yeah.. td aziz.. hampeh.. abes.. pch lah rhsia aku kat dia.. shusshhh.. but hes like xpa.. its ok.. i support u.. u go on.. but just jgn over ok.. m like yeah.. nods.. yeah.. btul2.. going to aziz is act lpskan tension.... hurhh..

so had luffs today.. n make it a point to have the highlite of the day! wic hopefuly tiap2 ari itl b filled. haih.. and then yeah.. grand ceremony.. ahhaha.. dak2.. jz went round class to ask names, get to knw.. tu ja.. smpt three quarter till chew ? came.. me n sha was like pn khoo 3 !!!!!!!! sobs... i dont und chew.. cnt accpt norida in bio.. but bm is ok.. but she rmbs my name.. coz its a boys name.. hurh..

top of all this.. i can see this huge changes... like in all ways.. in many ways.. i dont wna say it out loud.. but its alwiz in my mind.. just wait n see.. huge posiblities n its ugly mind u.. partly i tink all of us will go thru it.. i mean not all.. idt all.. some unfortunate ones includin me will go thru tht.. n in dt some will be ok n some will suffer.. wic again m in the suffering part.. wtf m i saying la..

dads sdny askin me to go for physics.. wic ok la. either spektra or msn.. pls.. idw go to msn ! chem pun aku dok bg alsn fr my prents so tht i can chnge.. i knw m bad..

actually byk g aku nk tulis.. tp tah.. tiba2 aku xdk mood. m of to sleep....


MOOD PASSED THE SKY . . . .

grrrr....

its wonderful but not wonderful.....

/\ sleepy head /\

thank you daddy

so mmg mcm i ws ok2 la.. half ok.. half x ok.. so wen dad blek, i really felt like i realy got to voice it out. turns out....

sket ati, sdey gak ah.. tp btui la dia kata.. its facts of life ! face it !

so cut it short it was kinda like ( lets make it more dramatic, tht waas how i imgnd it anyways )

* slaps on my face * aiman ! ur a freakin 16 year old girl ! so what if ur good friends are not there. ur not the only one. make new friends !!! ur there to study or for ur friends ? so u just got to go on la.. its not the end of life.. grow up !!!

which wat he says is true.. tu ang x p univrsity g.. sorang member puun mcm xdk ja.. so yeah.. xmati punya la.. itl b fine.. the ony ting thts got to keep me going is spm.. sscore !!! itu sjala..

n if u dont see me around, i mean around u, it means i dont want to disturb the perfect picture.. or simply as i knw m not needed there.. so i wont buzz around n all..

so yeah. chem was fine.. i knda like it.. actually.. haahha.. m like oh i knw tis.. oh i rmb tis.. i like the periodic tble colured.. so okeh.. lets see

theres matter there dulu.. rmb it occupies space n has mass.

types of particles

1. atom ( element )
2. molecule ( compund ) ( there are 9 elements as molecules ) wich i can rmb is er nitrogen, hydrogen, oxygen, the one that has the two in the name there.. sth like dt.. kot la.. tah.. crap2
3. ions.. either positive or negatively charged. sodium chloride wich is NaCl is actully a compound. n its also an ion. coz Na is positve kot n Cl is ngtive.. somesorttt...

rmb.. compound is made up of two or more elements tht are chemically combined tgther..

element is made up of one type of atom only

matter - element, compund
particle - atom, molecule, ion

i feel like distributing the coloured periodic tble.. kah3.. i wna give one to b, mlina n cbil..

awat aku ni cm ni..

oh.. its chem.. hahaha.. i hope this will go on frever

then aft tht bljq la pulak mcm form three. the way the particles are arranged, the velocity.. solid, liquid, gas

then theres diffusion.. done with brownian smoke ? kot tah.. thts for gas.. then liquid with potassium manganete 7 n oso jelly n potassium mngnete again.. so rate of diffusion dpnds on the way the particles are tgther.. i mean if solid, its the slowest. coz there are not much space in bitwin, so not much diffusion n they dont move freely.. unlike gas.. sth like dt lahhh... the potassium is purple.. i likee..

and thenn next we wil learn about errr ah the changes of state. bljq dah f3..

n yeah.. ammonia smells like toilet yg xcuci seminggu.. seriously.. hahaha.. and it helps to prevent coagulation of latex.. aha2.. and sth is used to coagulate it.. lupa dah.. magnesium >? oh crap

n platinum is white gold.. platinum is much more xpnsive then gold.. rmb credit card ?

n yeah.. the tcer is madam goh.. shes frm bandar.. shes kinda cool.. dia akn tnjuk ah stuff.. not bad.. kinda like it.. its ok.. its chem.. :)

soo... dah la.. tu ja.. ada la lgi like tetrachloromethane wic is under er er er er lupa dah wat sub n theres a special name on top of it.. geezz.. n the name for glucose is actually vry2 like omg. xla sgt.. but like m like wtf ? hahaha

ok dah.. blurr.. sket pala ckit dr td.. nk tido..

dear god, pls, i hope i can sleep well tnyt..

well.. evrtns gona b fine.. think positive.. pay att in class... do ur work. dont waste time.. study hard.. read moreeee.. n evrtns gona b alrite n easy..

i wonder hows add maths..i wna go to mr laiiiiiiiiiii or lyeeeee ? sobs..

ok lah.. toodles..

- m act talking bout chem.. hahahaha -

its okay :)

so... yeah.. m in 4sn4.. im cosidered lucky n shud be very greatful.. cz i sill have anis n sharon.. well thres ezza there n dharshu n yogesh n cheah.. ones i knw are er vikas, dt indian guy, sharifah the kl tower, anusha, tu ja lah.. yg taw nama is ilman, iqbal, naim, zayed, evelyn, shamy, errr the gals idk.. theyre in their on world.. we cn get alng.. it wont be a nitemare aft al..geez...

so yeah... again.. i just felt like i just fell from the 13th floor, waiting to land and scatter all my body parts esp my brain al over the place.. but sdny.. it froze.. maybe on the 7th floor.. sth is stopping me to completely die.. yeah i realized in clas..and i almost cried, well kinda wen i hugged malina to say gudbye..

n hmph.. how things have changed... close ur eyes aiman.. u didnt see it...

what am i doing here actually ? am i here to mourn that oh 3a3 dr form one suma member xdk dah n m gona mis em, i have to get use to tis bla3. grow up aiman. that is how u progress. u have to leave old things bhind n try new stuff. u got to move on ! lifes like tht.. like being in a class with new ppl.. its nt gona b tht bd tho.. u have new friends.. nmore.. :) i made one tday. tht new gal frm jb. zahirah..

so yeah.. m actually there to study.. to score.. not to mourn bla2.. theres stil anis n sharon.. itl b fine.. itl b jz fine. stil.. id like to say. thank you god.. i gues this is it.. destiny calls u, u have to b strong, i may not be with u, but u have to hold on. rmb tht :) just we r still in the sme schoool.. meet em aft school activities or recess.. u cn still scream around tis n tht. its ok.. itl b fine..

norhayati.. yeah the cat issue tcer. dang shes cool.. her fkrn trbuka. she encourages u to go out there n xpand ur wings n flap it. go plces n ul learn more.. nicey.. ilike her.. fr now.. but she seems cool.. like u do ur job, shel do hers.. so yeah.. so i gz accounts wont be tht bad. it needdssss common sense.. dang.. i knw... i dont have em.. hahaha.. so its ok.. just pay att in class. cut down computer.. read more.. n start knowing about life aft spm.. those matrix blah2.. with dad.. i wna sit down n tlk to daddy.. or any of mums friends i suppose. so yeah.. :)

n if im nt mistaken, bee tin wil b our class tcer.. geezz ! azilahhhhhhhhh !!!!!! i stil love u.. n her shoes werre pinkkk today.. heheh.. n we stil din get our timtabble.. thts purrfect..

i have chem tnyt.. the reason y i wna go ttn coz at least i fill skola dh strt.. yeala ari ni bru class placement.. lessons esok.. so elow chemistry.. i hope i really do love u

so i have this page or maybe itl b two pages of gud stuff in it.. i wna add more.. as i go thru schoool, lisen to tcers.. dot3.. n yeah.. maybe at the end of the year, i hope il be able to tick em n say hey i did it. :)

just think its easy.. even if its not.. just its easy.. ntgs imposib.. if xreti ka susah ka.. bljaq !!!

n the rest is.. i really have to focus.. no thinkin craps anymmore.. il tryyyyyyyyyy.....

wtever it is..

lets enjoy form four

:)

syoknya tgk ada org brsmgt.. tp man.. m cooming !!!! esok !!! - god willing -

SAY YES MANNNN !!!!!

of nothing in particular...

3 C !

3C stands for - close ur eyes, close ur ears, close ur mind...

u didnt see anything, u didnt hear anything, u din think of anything...

soooo... lets go for shitz first..

hmm... yeah blek2 umah yeah la bertekak ckit with my mum.. wen i say i dont want, seriously, i dont want it.. dont force me. i mean it.

- dak mud aku x bp bgos kot.. lantak ah.. i got beta tings to do. -

and then... school was school.. hahaha.. errr yeah.. wen i heard it..

i was like..

DING 3 !!!! REALITY CHECK DUDE ! WTF WERE U THINKIN ALL THE TIME !!!

so yeah... i was like.. no la.. mmg la bnda tu kecik.. but.. it shows a lot.. in the near future too.. m not suprised if it happens.. frankly.. n yeah.. i realize.. wer theres me, theres tooooottt.. i mean yeah.. me, tooott,, me,,, tooot.... n then.. wat was i thinking la.. i mean seriously... the way tooott said n all... n evertn.. i thot.. yeah.. i feel so stupid to actually blive u n fall for it.. i mean seriously.. tx fr mkg me feel stupid.. so frm now on.. yeah.. face it !!!! im not tooot anymore !!!!!! n stop hoping or ever think of things wud b like last time.. coz u know wat.. it wont ! never ! ever ! be ! sso yeah... u just got to hold on n believe in well whats ever left to bliv in...

so yeah... i dont wnt to think or ever expect m the tooottt anymore.. coz i know m nt anymore.. u cn say wtever shit u want but i knw wt m saying. but.. geezzzz.... dnt let me do the same.. maybe i will.. coz il get fed up of it.. wtever..... jz dontblame me.. i wish i can do the same jz like wat ur doing. oh yeah.. gime those fcking stupid reasons again..

fuck gila ah aku ckp...

and tehn... ok.. briter side now..

bs stayinn,,,, !!!! :D!!!! weeeeee ~!!!!!

mums friend came.. aunty rita.. u see.. again.. i communicate better with mums frens rather thn her again.. even the muet wtever shes pro in it, i still wna talk to dad n ask him to xplain to me. even for the kk stuf, i wna talk to him. even ttn. HIM ! geezzzz.. so yeah i was saying bout school, ttn, kk.. those stuff.. sooo... she said to me, u dont actually need ttn.. my kids dont go for ttn n they can still score.. n i just sat there faw n gave a thot.. i dont have to go to all subjs too.. m tryin to minimize my ttn since i wna do sth fr my kk. gah ! so yeah.. in order to pass rite now, i mus be xtra rjen.. dk la.. jz rjen la.. pay mre att in class - act i dont pay att in class on mt,sn, for sure bm coz dh p ttn.. - so now tht i dont, pls, i realy have to.. then mcm tulah. study sniri. but m going for chem. tmrw, msn since i cnt go to ptni jy somesort coz its far. yes dad m being reasonble i knw. reason for chem coz idk.. i feel like going.. mcm bes.. ahahhaha.. bio i tink m cool.. pyhsics tu tgk ah.. emm mt n add mths coverd by sy.. tq bebeh.. save my monday nite.. bm azizz !!! weeee !!! dt is sesi mlpaskan tension la act.. n lepak2 sat... so yeah.. i really have too.. for my own future..

n i guess thts all..

OMFG ! guess u jz sent me a msg at fb !!!! i cnt blive me eyes !!!!! i love her ! i mean.. shes a nice lady... i cnt blive m act chatting with her ! :D

er.. soon nk cek psai add mths n physics.. n men gtr..

n shit my sleeping pattern.. ir eally have to do sth..

and then.. esok kelass... hmph.. in my mind m like oh i wish tis person n tht person akn sma.. n 2nd thot.. giler ke.. kj la...

m chatting actually.. telling baim bout amflexi.. ahahha.. wth.. iknw.. insurnce..

so yeah.. nnti2 lagi aku blog la..

..............


oh yea!!!! MALAS DOESNT EXIST ANYMORE !

quiet mind

suprisingly and shockingly i cud learn tis song.. hhaha.. n its strummin ! :) weee... yes man...

yeah.. i sleep with that song.. like everyyyyyyyyy nite.. i just love it.. it well kinda makes me sad sometimes..

so.. yes.. dreadful days of my life has just started... hmph... do i have to type it out.. i just dont want to..

m bringing hot dawg esok.. :) sory again !

haih..

mg..

so i find peace in 3 tings.. 1 playing gtr or organ. mostly gtr. 2 drawing 3 doing work

wel.. i have to say.. i did sth tday.. i sapu.. n m epy with dat..

tday was.. ok lah.. jz tht y cnt they strt orientation earlier n cut the shit out bout us bein in where n what.. geez..

geeezzzz !!!!

WHYYYYYYY !!!!!

- i still cant accept it.. -

m off to strum my bros gtr.. i like his beta.. i played my gtr for like few mins ni n my fingers hurt.. bros no.. dad says coz ur bros is like bmw n u jz ciplak one.. huhu

the string..

hmph

. . .

i love you

stop thinking aiman..

STOP THINKING !!!

gudnite everyone.. bye2 facebook.. all my games.. hopefuly sempat wen i get home..

hmph..

schooll..

mg !

dah!

aku nk err..

gila2 lam bilik pulak..

geezzzzz..........

- wey.................. i wish....... ntg.. hahahah -

yeah.. aku giler skang nih...

i need... i need..

i know wat i need !!!!

but i tell u what

i cannot have what i need...

coz...

err..

coz,,

nvm...

WHYYYYYY

Why cant i be more like you in some ways ?!!!???

fuck you man

dah

- over reacting since tmrws school.. :) heee -

fuck

dah2

wey..

skolah....

- evil mind... muahahha -

schooolll !!!!! okeh2... heee.. :)

look on the brighter side aiman..

fuck

* smacks on my forehead *

i tink i just lost my mind

muahhahahha
hahaahahahahahahah

wey.. esok skola...

n aku blurr...

fuck..

sheesh... i say i hate....

say...

caring nya kamu niiii...

I'm going to be sixteen

imagine me saying that phrase in my kiddish oh so annoying voice.. kah3...

checking emails with rizal is a fun thing.. :)

eating hash browns is cool..

counting down with a special someone is a must that needs to be done every year..

beat it trying to survive.. m oke with jumper.. i strum better without a pick.. ==



ITS NEW YEAR PPL !!!!

HAPPY NEW YEARRRR !!!!

HELLO 2010!!!!



- one more year to spm.. kah3.. -


n oh i really wish i can celebrate new year OUTSIDEEEEE the hse.. like by the beach or sth.. like my sisters are doing.. - okeh.. wait wen u grow olderr. :) -

n yeah.. dh lma xstay up.. oh wells.. :) its new year btw

n yeah.. YES MANNN !!!!!!


- jz imgne if i were to tke the principe of YES MAN in my life of 2010.. wat wil happen?? hurmmm... m not serious am i? nahh.. m just mad.. its new year ! -