Im sick to my stomach thinking where is your brain why would you do such thang u are suppose to know better yet you seem like you are trashing them. N wtf i know i am in no position to bring this matter up nor talk about it. You are suppose to know all and be the best and do the best. I cant say that i will do a better job than you but i can say that at least i wont do it like that. That i am very sure of. 

Mistakes make who we are now. Are you happy with the mistakes you did? Where did it bring you?

A conversation

It all depends. Some are the ones that can make me forget about everything. But some are the ones who make me think about everything. Then i am left with this heavy feeling of wishing that i never knew about it, that i never knew more about it, then i am actually not bothered to know about it, that i actually did not take a step further in asking about it. List goes on. I think now, why am I a part of this ? And why do I always think about this and this way only? Why is it ever an issue for me anways ? An issue that should not have arised and that this is all nonsense. But I cant seem to get over it. And til now, I cant seem to pinpoint what is the real reason to why I am feeling all of these. Erghhhh. If I ever do tell someone about this, they must think I am crazy. Well, i guess so. 

Sigh. I still dont feel it

I've fallen out of favour
And I've fallen from grace
Fallen out of trees
And I've fallen on my face
Fallen out of taxis
Out of windows too
Fell in your opinion
When I fell in love with you

Sometimes I wish for falling
Wish for the release
Wish for falling through the air
To give me some relief
Because falling's not the problem
When I'm falling I'm in peace
It's only when I hit the ground
It causes all the grief

This is a song for a scribbled out name
And my love keeps writing again and again
This is a song for a scribbled out name
And my love keeps writing again and again
And again

I'll dance myself up
Drunk myself down
Find people to love
Love people too drunk
I'm not scared to jump
I'm not scared to fall
If there was nowhere to land
I woudn't be scared
At all
All

Sometimes I wish for falling
Wish for the release
Wish for falling through the air
To give me some relief
Because falling's not the problem
When I'm falling I'm in peace
It's only when I hit the ground
It causes all the grief

Yikes ! I am asking for the moon and the stars

Is it my fault that I have high expectations and standards and you cant reach it ?

And we both go down together
We'd stay there forever
Just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
And never let go

Well i'm thinking of the worst things
That i could say to you
But a promise doesn't mean a thing anymore
And this never will be right with me
And now you're trying to desperately
But i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say

And then we both go down together
We may stay there forever
I'll just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
You never let go
But i let go

I could only sing you sad songs
And you could sing along
And you could see the melody
That's been calling out your wrongs
And this never will be right with me
And now you're trying to desperately
But i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
But i never told you everything
I'm losing hope and fading dreams
And every single memory along the way

And then we both go down together
We may stay there forever
I'll just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
You never let go
But i let go

And we both go down together
And stay there forever
Just try to get up

And then we both go down together
We may stay there forever
I'll just try to get up
And i'm sorry
This wasn't easy
When i asked you, believe me
You never let go
But i let go

The list

The list sounds very perfect. Well it is. It was. Only if you look at it on the surface. A relationship or life to be based on that list, that does not seem to be enough for me. It is muchh much more than the list. A lot more that needs to be added, weighed, looked through, everything actually. That list seems ideal but only for a period of time. If you want more than a period of time, a lot must be done.

I am not sure which one is worse. To suppose to know about something but not knowing it at all simply coz we just dont know hence not doing anything about it or knowing it like the back of your hand and pretending as if nothing happened and just let it be.

Those three words. Often uttered. But I see it is pointless at some point. You say it a lot , not that it has lost its meaning, no it still means a lot and means the same everytime you say it. What is not ok is you say it but your actions at times dont seem to reflect it.