Almost everything is quite menggeramkan skang ni. bgoih.

Truth be told.

I am a vampire.

errr????

this is deep.

Relax wey Relax

COOLLLL DOWNNNNN ~~~

Grrrrrrr !!

Macam mana aku nak susun ayat pon tak tau.

If you want more love, then why don't you say so.

1. Be it my father, my brother, my boyfriend ( you wont be mine if u were to smoke ), my guy friend, my girlfriend, my anything, if u smoke in front of me, i will kill you. what happen to me was I would call 911 and send me to the emergency ward just to get oxygen supply. no kidding. so i wais breathless and kepeningan for an hour thanks to somebody. pls, dont, just stop smoking !

2. come on, if its a yes, say its a yes. if its a no, say its a no. i am not going to kill you if u give me a no for an answer, that i can assure u. so if it is a no, say its a no, dont make me believe that it is a yes but truth is it is actually a no. haih.

3. I still cannot adapt. yeap. i am very bad at adapting to things i am not well, from ? no, ok maybe from to, because i am really not from it. thats one, two, aiyooo. idk how to go about this. i have to try. like it or not. i have to try. i wont die, thats for sure, haha.

4. My last visit at my moms long lost friends house was omg. haha. adding more reasons to why i should be in kdu.

5. Based on all the conversations ive been hearing and adding in here and there, your parents, well ok parents are not going to boost about themselves bout wtf they have been doing for the past 20 years. if diorang lost contact pon, they would be talking about zmann2 dlu and recalling who is still alive and who is not, yeah, imagine us having that conversation later. haha.

paling2 diorang akan ckp, oh, ive retired, before this i am attached to blaaa3. thats all. and then they will talk about their kids. all day long. so mcm ni la, if u fuck your life, your parents are not going to talk about u, i mean xkan la kan ur parents nk gtaw ppl about ur fucked up life, lets face it, they will just mention ur name, and itu saja. bcuz questions will come out like where is ur kid studying, where is ur kid working, who is ur kid married with, the occupation, whereabouts of that person ur kid is married with. so u see, its like a chain, so if u do good, good will come out. if u f, f will happen. so what im trying to say is, be somebody, be someone, be successful, what parents are doing are not boosting about their kids but its a sign of them being proud of us. i mean after all, what else do they have, instead of money, wealth, position, its us, kids. and for a fact i know, we are much more valuable than those other stuff. if we make it thru and be good, our parents have done well. lets think about if we fuck our life ? im not entirely blaming our parents, i know parents will try their best, it is our choice to fuck our life, but in some way, it reflects our parents somehow.

in the near future, i wouldnt want to be the daughter who is not spoken or mentioned by my father or mother to anyone during conversations like this. i want my father, my mother to have a lot of things to talk about me, to be proud of me. yes, i want to be somebody and be successful.

6. sorry, but i feel so unfair. break 10 much ? damn it.

Tak reti nak bukak fb ka ?

tu ja aku nak kata.

As possessive as I can be, I still dont feel like I have enough of you. Maybe that is the problem, I am so goddamn possessive that I am so selfish and greedy.

I think I know what's on your mind,
a couple words, a great divide.
Waiting in the wings, a sparring spite,
crawling out the foreground from behind.

Even though you're the only one I see,
it's the last catastrophe.
Place your bets on chance and apathy.

Take anything you want, it's fine.
Keep up the slow life for the night.
Don't take it back, I'll just deny
this constant noise all the time.

Even though you're the only one I see,
it's the last catastrophe.
Place your bets on chance and apathy
to the wind in front of you.

Even though you're the only one I see,
it's the last catastrophe.
Place your bets on chance and apathy
to the wind in front of you.

Even though you're the only one I see.

yeahhhh, not cool.

Except Robin would use a shot gun instead of an axe.

I must try. Yeap. Like it or not, I must.

Come on, I wont die if I do try it.

Keep it together. Lets think of all good thoughts. ^_^

Dont think of it. It just ruins the raya spirit. And im just so not up to it right now.

Try to be mild.

Raya 2011.

ok la ok. wat trok pasepa.

Lesson for today.

Be grateful. Appreciate everything that you have.

I have a family with me. My parents, most of all. And i have Azneer with me, Amalina with me, people with me. Relax. Lets make the most out of today. ok dah la. tu ja. well byk lagi. haha

I like being honest.

Actually.

Esok. Raya 2011.

Day in, day out. Every now and then. Every year. I still feel the same. I try to think of things and to think over things, but it is still the same. I fail to achieve what I really want to feel at this moment in time.

Bila nak rasa laen pon aku tak tau la. I will keep on waiting and encourage myself and say it is okay.

seriously, i feel like slapping that person when it happens.

Let me be a guy for once and say

BOSAN ! TAK DAK BENDA LEN KA !

* now that feels good. haha

Things that hurt…

Being unsure of how someone feels about you.

Feeling like they are mad at you.

Being misunderstood by people you care about.

Being judged by people you care about.

Feeling like you lost something that was never yours.

Feeling like you’re doing too much.

Thinking you aren’t doing enough.

Not knowing if you should say something.

Worried about what they’ll think if you do say it.

Feeling like you care more than they do.

Stocking does not want to stay with me moreso sleep on me. ='(

What a boyfriend.

What kind of boyfriend who, suddenly out of nowhere, sends you a text message saying,

" I got a new girlfriend, I will bring her over anytime when I go to your house, I hope you can accept her, she is cute, do not worry "

Yeah, that is my boyfriend. haha

oh yes! haha

=)

Mia smells like a baby. ^_^

Sometimes when I think back, accidentally think back mind u bcuz it really sux, things, well some things that has happened are very hurtful. Like very. Such as, Nvm. But I wonder why I never bother to stand up and say it out loud. Just to make myself clear that it was not cool or if I was not happy with something. And in the end I wonder, how I actually survive throughout the whole stupid journey eventhough it was very hurtful and shitty.

It is a strain.

A strain in the arse! Haha

Haih. Never. Mind.

>_<

haih. bkak buku lgi bgos. Yes i promised my sister i would study tonite, n yes, i will study tonite.

I am a carbon copy.

You are a carbon copy.

I would just practically shoot anyone i see right now.

Bcuz im so bored.
Bcuz i dont get to do things like how i want it to be done aka if u are not ready to live with my terms and how i do the house, dont come n live with me.
Bcuz i just want to go out.
Bcuz i miss it so much.
Bcuz i just dont understand.
Bcuz i just want things to go back to normal.
Bcuz i wish i can eat everything and anything that i want.
Bcuz i miss u so much.
Bcuz i simply dont know what to do anymore.
Bcuz all i see for this holidays is just. Me.

So to not shoot anyone, practically, i must plan my holidays wisely. I need to have new agendas everyday just to keep me sane.

Attention seeker much?

And I dont understand why I keep coming back for more just to get ur attention. Im like a lonely and lost puppy, begging u on my knees, for u to just play fetch with me. Do i need to beg just to get ur attention when I really, really and in desperate need of it? I get ur attention when i really dont need of anything at all and it makes wanting to shoo u away when it happens.

* a long, longgg ago thought that i thought of suddenly *

CECITER ~

ape yg xkene ? cube gtaw ckit. tak, bukan ape yg xkene, apa yg kene skg ni ? sume mcm xkene jer. ape msalah ? ader mslah ker ?


* peace ! haha

I feel like I do not know you.

aku bosan la.

Wont you help me out here ? ! ?

Please. Will you. Please.

And. That is all. I hear. Damn it.

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak.

I kinda miss that.

Ive been waiting for it, allmost like idk. But im really not into it and up to it right now. Just when i really want it, i dont get it. When im just tired of it, i get it. Why.

Le Explosion.

^_^

that is awesomely true.

“Whether it’s taking each other for granted or people changing over time; bottom line is, someone stops trying, and feelings aren’t as strong as before"

oh yes !

When school starts again.

• Fucked up sleeping schedule.
• Ugly handwriting forever.
• Waking up so freaking early.
• Forgot there’s homework/projects due.
• Seeing the bitches you hate.
• Stupid teachers who gives you too much work.
• Homework all day, everyday.
• Same shit, different day.

* midgetness, sighhhs *

SO SMILE ! =)

10 REASONS TO SMILE.

1. It makes you attractive.
2. It changes your mood.
3. It is contagious.
4. It relieves stress.
5. It boosts your immune system.
6. It lowers your blood pressure.
7. It releases endorphins, natural pain killers and serotonin - natural antidepressant.
8. It lifts the face and makes you look younger.
9. It makes you seem successful.
10. It helps you stay positive.

this could also work for sex lol :)

I would like that.

i would like to have one like this. haha !

THAT IS ME EATING YOU ! HAHA

OMG AI WANT FOR MY BDAY NEXT YEAR ! HAHAHA ! THIS IS OH SO ADORABLE !

Yea perangai saya sama ngan pak saya. Pasepa ? ada masalah ?

Boyfriend aku ni biaq betui ????

Why is everything so not fun ?

>_< i would like to hit the snooze button or better, hibernate.

My social life is like life by the alley, it never grows, ntg happens, n i never bother to socialize. Hence, i am still me n i like it. Xperlu bersocial n berkwan dgn smua org bagai.

Cuti skola is two weeks i guess. N yest was the last for me. Didnt even say our proper goodbyes. So here i would like to say, yea, i already miss u guys so much tx for exams,n il be missing u guys more. I hope i get to see u guys. So take care n i loveeee uuu guyss. Haha.

Adults say love after marriage. We say otherwise.

I think we all go thru it. We all go thru the same thing. Its just either we admit it or not. Or the way we go thru it, or how we do it, or how we tackle it. How we overcome it, who we find.

Damn it.

First romance, first love, is something so special to all of us, both emotionally and physically, that it touches our lives and enriches them forever.

Walking alone tonight
'Cause I've only got room for two.
Me and my burdened black heart,
It's all we know how to do.

Yet I look for a bigger bang
Than the kind I continually see.
Sick of all this inertia,
Oh, won't you mend me?

Lover, can you help me?
I'm a child lost in the woods.
A black heart pollutes me
And I think...

You're a mountain that I'd like to climb,
Not to conquer, but to share in the view.

Pulled by a false inertia,
Pushed out by circumstance.
Pistol firing at my feet
That's coercing me to dance.

Yet I look for a bigger bang
Than the kind I'm sorry to know.
Here I am, first foot of the climb.
Watch me go.

Lover, can you help me?
I'm a child lost in the woods.
A lit path eludes me
And I think...

You're a mountain that I'd like to climb,
Not to conquer, but to share in the view.
You're a bonfire and I'm gathered 'round you.
Set this old black heart inertia aflame.
Send it away...

Here we go again.

Awat dengan hang wey ?

Pasepaaaaa ??????

McD and McNeer

I would choose both. haha !

That is not how I want my life to be screwed.

No, that is not my ideal way to screw up my life. That is just not the way and not how I plan it to be. I know I am much more than this, I can give much more, I can take much more, I have a life and a future ahead of me. I am somebody. That is not it.

We are so different.

Haih. Ikan betui.

How poyo can a guy beeee?

Hahaha

Boys like this do exist.

It is the same

ok, one thing, we are sharing the same thing. been there, done that situation. weird, ironic, funny. haha. understanding, tolerating, wants. dont push it. let time heal. in time, u will see it. tho chances are always weighing to the other side that we call it as reality, yes, reality, truth, it all sucks and hurts, just hang in there. u will see it.

we dont mould bunnies. bunnies just happen like that. bunny soaps ok. we just use it to bathe. cleans u, makes u smell good, but how long can a bunny soap last ?


different ? i wish we are the same. we only share one thing only, i wish not everything but ok at least i have something.

as much as i want things to go to like how i want it to be, that will never happen. reality, right ? face it.

raya ? i would like to skip that. raya to me now is finishing trials. thats all. im not ready for the rest. yet, i suppose.

As annoying as kids can be.

I like the sound of kids playing at the playground. Those screams, laughter, craps. Everything. That sound is just not an annoying sound, some say sound pollution, no, to me it means freedom, leading a care free life, and a life where giving up or fed up or boring never exist in our vocabulary.

As kids, they never give up. Be it learning how to do things on their own like peeing in the potty or tie their shoelaces without mummy's help, they would do it until they can do it. or like remembering their parents phone numbers. they would go for sleepless nights just to learn and remember those small, little things. They are very determined and they never give up.

As kids, they do not cry for a bruised knee or somebody calling them names. well, it does happen, but truth is it does not really happen. They see no reason why they should cry, or to why they should bother about other people saying things to them. Nothing can hurt them. Nothing can bring them down. They see the world as a canvas, hand holding a pallet filled with vibrant colors and a brush in the other, ready to unleash something out of themselves. They do not see the world as a battle field, full of lies, anger, and all not nice things.

As kids, they could be playing the same game for hours and hours, get all soaked up in the public swimming pool and not worried about having frizzy hair or looking like a dried up fish. They can play with sand and mudd all day. All they know is have fun, things around them is like a candy store, everything is sweet, nothing is sour or bitter, even if it is, they make it sweet, they overlook those matters. bored. boring. those are alien words to them. Nothing can bore them. they just enjoy life as how it is. along with plus and minus points.

As kids, they are not afraid to fall, not afraid to go down the slide eventho waiting down there is a puddle of mudd. They are not afraid to laugh, to show, to express themselves. they are not afraid to let others laugh at them. they will laugh together.

As kids, we dont see obese, anorexic, black, white, curly, giraffe, panda. those difference dont exist in their life. the only difference is well, good kids and bad kids. all kids are naughty, if not they are not normal. kids share food, their lunch box together, despite of having little food left, kids can still say i am full because i shared it with other kids. kids are just friends with everyone, even with a pet hamster or tortoise. how good can life be.


As teenagers ? As we are now ?

what happened to the kid in all of us ? Did the kid die ? Or is it still there ?

Talk to you after Raya.

And it was like what is thisssss!! Hahah. All i hear is like benda yang sama, like a tape recorder playing the same ol blues.

Accounts was quite like a survival test betweeen you and money. Oh crap, i think.

Esok chemistry. InsyaAllah, i can do it. I really do not want to screw these three coming, importante papers.

I. Do. Not. Like. Getting. Up. In. The. Morning.

Enough. Said.

I have no idea why do I always think of you before I fall asleep. I just can’t find the reasons why do I love you so much. The reasons why should i miss you. The OLD you. The words you said. The things you did and we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. I’m so sorry for being so dull and boring. I’m sorry for feeling so insecure. I’m sorry that sometimes, I may get a little jealous, thinking if someone else could make you happier than I could. I’m afraid that I can mean nothing to the man who means a lot to me. I know that love takes effort and acceptance. I know It won’t always be a happy ride, because love hurts when it’s real. I know I should be grateful for having you as a lover & a best friend. And I know if we are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear us apart.

Just so you know, last night, I looked up and matched each star with one reason why I love you. I was doing great, until I ran out of stars.

deep. so sad.

Relax aiman relax.

You are not going to fail accounts. Just study like how u always do, n God willing u will make it thru tomorrow.

E.T. Super Powers.

I wonder how one can just close their eyes and find peace and sleep soundly just like that without feeling any guilt or anything by things around them. Is it an ability or a miracle from God? How ignorant can one be? How could one just sleep away from all those? I really wonder.

The main ingredient is give full attention and do not give up.

Why cant i do that for accounts and chemistry? Huarghhhh~

What am I looking for?

Go out for a swim, eat lots of icecream, chocolate, food, drink plenty of juices, watch tv, laze on the bed and couch and hang with you, hang with my parents, talk to them, play with cats. Yes, anything that is relaxing because right now i do not have any interest in books. At all. Greatttt!! Padahal i need to focus more for this weeek. *~£

Aiman, ang nak masok kdu x?

The answer is of coz, yea.

Soooo, study la aiman !

Food for thought.

Brain is hurting.

I need help. In accounts.

Aku tak boleh paham.

Please sing to me, I can see you open up to breathe
Fast words make it easier on me
Make a point to never disappoint you
Somebody's got to tell me what to do

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Either way.

In life, you have choices.

Your life, your choice. I choose to have choices.

I do not like colors.

It takes effort.

Do not tell me what I should do.

Thanks.

I would like to roll in the mud.

omg ?

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

The system.

Its screwed. I am screwed. Its to an extend to i dont know what i want or what i actually, really, honestly feel about sth, or what i need or just anything. At all. Its either i just put my foot down, listen and follow or i keep saying to myself, its ok, dont bother, everything will be alright.

Elok la macam tu.

U knoww, first things first. And it still is one of the first. No matter what. So i should do sth about it. I cannot just pretend like yeah ok. Now, i really feel it. And it will get worse as the day passes by. Haih. Yea, xsuka. Susah nk ckp. Aku pon xtau aku nak apa. Abeskan trials dlu boleh?

Haih. Konflik dalaman.

Benci aihh.

Tak ka pelik?

Johor aku bole dok p, tapi kl aku xbole p.

Frankly, I feel like s**t

Oh greattttt.

I would like to dig a huge hole again and hibernate in it for a couple of months and i dont want to be disturbed.

I don't know much,
But I know this for certain,
That is the sun,
Poking its head round the curtain.

Now please can we leave,
I'd like to go to bed now.
It's not just the sun,
That is hurting my head now.

I'm not trying to say,
That I'm smelling of roses,
But when will we tire,
Of putting shit up our noses.

I don't like staying up,
Staying up past the sunlight.
It's meant to be fun,
And this just doesn't feel right.

Why can't we all,
All just be honest,
Admit to ourselves,
That everyone's on it.

From grown politicians,
To young adolescents,
Prescribing themselves,
Anti-depressants.

How can we start to tackle the problem,
If you don't put your hands up,
And admit that you're on them.

The kids are in danger,
They're all getting habits,
Because from what I can see,
Everyone's at it.

I get involved,
But I'm not advocating.
Got an opinion,
Yeah, you're well up for slating.

So you've got a prescription,
And that makes it legal.
I find the excuses,
Overwhelmingly feeble.

You go to the doctor,
You need pills to sleep in.
Well if you can convince him,
Then I guess that's not cheating.

So your daughter's depressed,
We'll get her straight on the prozac.
But little do you know,
She already takes crack.

Why can't we all,
All just be honest,
Admit to ourselves,
That everyone's on it.

From grown politicians,
To young adolescents,
Prescribing themselves,
Anti-depressants.

How can we start to tackle the problem,
If you don't put your hands up,
And admit that you're on them.

The kids are in danger,
They're all getting habits,
Because from what I can see,
Everyone's at it.

Calm before the storm

I hear the sound of the thunder
Coming from an isolated shower nearby

I see dark clouds slowly forming
As the wind blows it together

I see the sky is getting darker and darker
Waiting for its turn to pour

I hear the sound of the rain
Every drop of it as it hits the ground

And that is all I hear above all other sounds
As I hope to find some answers in the pouring rain

But it signifies nothing
It is just the sound of the rain.
The silence within.

Ya know whatttt.

I so very the very apologise for the very depressing post. Of coz im not goin to give up in anything. Ive tried my best. Il give my best shot. Well yeaa didnt put in 100% effort tho due to some reasons. Spa soh xstudy awaii2 kan. I diddd, i jz lupa. Haha. So anyways, relax. Dont freak out. InsyaAllah, i can do this. I can make it thru. It will be ok. Just use the little time that i have rite now n just go for it later.

Second day.

Its only going to be the third day but I already feel tired and I feel like giving up. Not only in this, but also in other things. I feel tired. I wished I didnt go, at least I could do something. I do feel like yelling and screaming, but no I dont do that. I think I have to one day, just to get things right. Yes, I admit, I am not strong. I can only stay positive for only a short time, the rest I pray that I can make it thru. Sabar aiman, sabar. Its ok. Its ok. Relax.

I wish I have a system in my head and heart where I can delete unwanted things.

Damn it laaaaaaa! Gosh.

Let bygones be bygones.

Erghhhh. I really hate it when tiba2 terigt benda2 lama. Unwanted benda lama u knoww. Yea i know, i suka pendam, i never really do tell people how and what i actually feel towards something. Be it i sket hti ka, kecik hati ka, marah ka, hypersensitive ka pa ka. Il just say, ok, its fine, dont bother, lets move on. N i try to live with it. Bcuz ok, benda kecik, ok myb its not small for others n mmg its nt small but id like to think of it as small for me sbb i xmo jd mcm the trouble maker or sth. I dnt like picking up fights. Besides, ada bnda laen yg lgi bsar dlm hidup ni mcm human poverty, human traficking, animal abuse, ASSPEEAMM! Haha.

Be happy people, be happy.

Today is english and sej. InsyaAllah, we can do it. ^_^

I hate.

That damn feeling. That feeling that makes you feel you should eat tons and tons of chocolate.

Dah lima dah ni.

Lagi ?

I feel like strangling someone but I dont know who.

YEAH BABY ! READ THAT ! HAHA !

Whatttayaaa want frommm meeeeeee ~

No, like seriously, what do you want from me ? Frankly.

Kenapa lain sangat-sangat ?

Trials aiman, trials. Sabar. one subject down, nine more to go. InsyaAllah, i can make it thru, kjap ja lagi. Abes trials ni, sekolah bapa bulan saja lagi, n then spm n then abes. sekejap ja lagi.

Soooo, today, alhmadulillah, bm was ok. xdak la easy. paper two tuu at one point otak dah jam. otak xle paham bm dah. haha. so yea my head totaly said no more bm. how i survived thru both papers ? translating it to english. perfect ! so i can wait for tmrw. tmrw would be fun. its english n sej paper one. itl be fun. ^_^


* A thing for today *

Jika kamu sudah study elok-elok, kamu telah cuba study and focus, kamu ada berusaha, kamu berdoa kepada Allah, insyaAllah, dengan keredhaan Allah kamu boleh menjawab paper kamu. paling2 terok kamu xfail. Kalau kamu letak 1% effort, 1% la markah kamu. Jangan salahkan sesiapa jika kamu tak boleh menjawab paper sebab bila kamu ada paper, its between the paper, you and God. At that time, kamu seorang yang menjawab paper tu, you are left alone, at that time only God is there to help you, insyaAllah God will help you and make the questions easier for you n give you ideas. So, kalau kamu tak boleh jawab, fikir balek, kenapa saya tak boleh jawab ? of coz la jawapan dia kamu xstudy, of coz la jawapan dia sebab diri kamu sendiri, jangan kamu berani salahkn orang laen sebab kamu xboleh jawab paper kamu. sebab orang laen xdak kena mengena. the only thing is yourself, your own brain, your own effort. Come on, trials dah ni. Kejap ja lagi spm. Then everything will be long gone.

Trials! Trials! Trials!

Be happy that at last, trials is at your door step. All you have to do is take your pen and write down the answers. Yeah. Easier said than done. Haha. Anyways, be happy la. Trials is here, one down, one more to go.

ASSPEEAMMM! ^_^

awesomeee~

The Malaysian boy in London

Cut that bloody British accent of yours and speak proper English. And good to know you are doing good. I seriously dont know what I think about him.

Oh yes, to much to absorb !

And today
That was the end of it
Partly the end, I suppose
I hope I dont screw it
I hope I dont loose it
That is the only thing left
And it is with you now.
Take care of it.
Because that you have there
Is a huge amount of life
Yes, it is in your hands now.
You can twist it,
You can toss it,
You can crumple it,
That life is just at the very tip of you fingers



* esok trials bhai, esok, arini jugak, arini tak sentuh buku lgi, rilekkk2, haha, bm ja. Yes, I can do it. ^_^ God willing I can.

Dudeeeeeee! Your sex is on fireee !

Leteran oleh diri yang tidak seberapa ini.

Kenapa aku rasa macam aku study berjam2 tapi input tak cukup langsung. Input macam 10% ja. Kalau input 10%, apa nak kata lagi tentang output. Memang hancuq la output. Good aiman, good. Dah la tak start study dari bulan julai, masok august pon tak start lagi, ni pon macam alang2 menyeluk pekasam, tetap tak sampai ke pangkal lengan. Macam mana ni aiman. I wish i started earlier. Minggu ni actualy baruuu nak pulun sikittt. Bagoih aiman, bagoih sangat.

Space people, SPACE !

Ada sebab aku dok dkat hall, amek remote n tgk tv. Bkan aku sja2 nk nganga kat luaq.

Given a choice of any subject you want, preferrably your favourite subject. Given a text book, perhaps the thickness of our History text book, that is not that thick right, thats acceptable. Given two weeks to study it. You will be tested with 50 questions then after two weeks. Key point is every damn question and answer is in the text book.

So you go home, two weeks having sleepless nights, memorizing every single word in the text book, for two whole weeks.

Then you are tested, knowing that every damn question and answer is in the text book that you have been studying for two whole weeks.

Results. You can barely even get 10 out of 50.

So can it be considered as you are bloody damn stupid?

I still haven't found it yet.

Where is the button ? Which button ? What should I press ? What should I switch on in the first place ?

Where is the instruction guide for Gods sake ?!

To every bits and pieces

lol

I hate that feeling when you randomly feel depressed. There is no warning, no apparent reason. It just happens. You feel empty, and you feel hopeless. And you just feel tired. As if you never want to move again. Then when someone asks you what’s wrong, you can’t say because there is nothing that comes to mind. Then you start thinking of what it could be, and you realize just how much is wrong. You know that feeling? Yeah, it sucks.

ahaaa ? hahaha

deeeeppp ~

Pertyyyyy. lets have kids like this. hahaha

Like me righttttt... haha