how m i today huh..

malaih ahh nk type...

ahahhaha

adam x mai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cm buntu gak ahh

cm tyme bi tu dok at lib.. pastuh the sgs suma.. reminded me tym recess ngn dia!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pastuh dok merepek3!!!

pastuh mud cm ngn pa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pastuh went to the pharmcy then tesco...

then ok2 la...

ok la.........................................

haix...

so

doi

i wana cry

the end

aku emoooooooooo

keja x siap g

pa punxsentuh

tpi klo nk wat tu sat ja la

dok batuk2 sikit2..

tym bgn pagi2.. mmg cm haram

xnk p skola

maybe mon pon x p

xtau la

xdk mood

tu keja x jln

crik lagu pun xjumpak

crik jokes regarding stress pon babi xdk

geram gak ahh

geram keja byk

kena tido lambat

cuaca panas

dh on air cond dah

lgi ahh...

byk g ahh!!!!!!!!!!!

alice in chains - get born again..

legak gak dpt lagu ni

its sucks, but hu gives a shit

its alredy late

few mins more my mum is gona come out n threaten me

or dad slap my face

hmm

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i may end up not doing my work

at

all

hmm

cm keja biasa ja

aku taha hhh

nk headbang gila2

tension2

aku x dk mood ah weyyyyyyyyyyyy

hate

yeah

piss

i feel like tossing my phone to the wall

and see it crash

and break into pieces

aziz said.. i looked as if ive tried smoking...

it was

pernah merokok x?

me.. geleng.. n whispered belum

aziz : ohh nmpk cm pernah ja...

belum g cg.. sabar ahh..

aku nk wat keja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tapi aku tau

mmg xkn jalan!!!!!!!!

mcm ngn puki!!!!!!!!!!11

slipknot - wait and bleed

yaa babe

aku x wat keja da

aku xdk mood

gth

im gona deaf soon

if i alwiz hilan gmud

n go all emo

ok great

now oxygen xnk msok my lungs

greatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

malaih nk layan

xdk mood

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

shudnt

ya ppl.. i cried..

eventho sikit ja.. just a tear...

but god..

i just had too..

i was so messed up again..

and worse..

to someone who i love.. yes it grew.. i dont curse him anymre..
or say stuff n all.. i cant.. cause i tink ahh..

and day by day.. hahaha.. he looks cuter... hahahaha

and yes. i cant wait 4 recess and tym abes skola especially tym stay bec.. :)

im a fool

im an idiot

thanks aiman, u have just made evrything much better.. uhh?

and tht.. things i say to him.. i do mean it now.. i mean day by day..

i ust felt so bad..

ok situation :

hung out for a wile, mkn2, then i went to lib with yash n all for star..

then xpala.. then came zikri.. . of coz i was mad wen zik came.. hehhe

but i just..

i thot mcm he was ok n all.. since theres sha n tan n jeeha..

then went n had fun n all ... mad3... ok la..

then wen we went to the front.. tht was when i realized he chnged..

( im totally writing bout him.. wtf... )

i wanna cry..

then i knew sth was up.. then jeeha was like.. dot3 la..

she was like u already have a bf.. dont do tht n all.. say sorry to him n all..

yes.. i still cnt get tht msg in my head wer i already have a bf... haih...

ok the ting is.. i was wit zik... u no me n zik... we just blend n go mad.. n close n al... it ink it was extra close kot tadi..

but still..

so he just sat there.. and started plying some songs.. when he plays songs, it means he is not ok. he is bothered by sth. n not fine. hes tryin to calm himslef.. tht moment.. everytn was damn sure.. he was bothered,disturbed,pissed n hurt

so the whole tym he was... yeah e.. lookin down, din wana talk.. n i was like.. oh shittttttttt

then sat down n all..

i was planning to say sorry n all

till he said i wana tell u sth.. buit not now.. il msg..

i knew it was it..

then he said.. ok il tell u now..

dot3 la.. n i was like..

i almost cried..

n like felt damn miserable..

n like on n off wanting to cry..

n yes i said sorry. n all..

i was such an idiot..

hes ur fuckin bf for gods sake..

treat him like he shud be.. love him like he loves u...

is tht so hard?

y u gotta hurt him?

i just didnt know wat to do..

yeah its my fault..

y did i go along with zik n just let u b...

or even if zik ajak u shud have said no or just went with him for awhile and go to him.. rather than the whole tym with him...

i was stupid..

i wanna cry

n my heads throbbing

hahhahah

eyes wattery

ohh god...

yeah.. god..

y m i crying?? hahahhaah

so ill try

i wont do it again

i wont hurt him

i wont take things for granted

and mourn when its gone

idk wat todo..

i didnt talk much

i cudnt do my work

i didnt pick up calls

i do see like im someone to him

n i cant let him down

n hurt him

and this goes to all

il try my best not to hurt u guys n let u down

no matter what..

i will alwiz love u guys

malina, tan

even went i sat beside him n new sths wrong.. i just felt like cryin

n when my dad called to go home.. i refuse to. i wana b there with him

sit beside him.. b with him..

call me jiwang

go ahead

i cant call turtle anymore..

il call his name

i wudnt think of peel fresh or soy bean

its him

hes different

i did so many things tht i dont think id do..

everytym i think of smiling

i wud wana cry

partly i m now

hes not ok, i cant b ok..

coz if im not ok, n if he is.. i can still smile n luff

n now i cant

just watery eyes

m not gona do any work

m just gona b on my bed

n try n get some sleep

still watery eyes

i got no idea

xtau ahh nk wat pa

i just cnt concentrate

or pay att at any thing at all


sno wpatrol - you could be happy

im tryin to get my colour back

haih...

after one, comes another..

it never stops..

n all of em r haih..

if it the other doesnt come, another thing wud come up

hahahaha

haih...

yeah today was actually suppose to be a day where he'd be standing beside me the whole tym.. we wud hang out together the whole tym.. n tht we r gona have fun.. n its gona b one of the bestest days.. yeah.. we talked bout it last nyt..

but just look...

wat idid...

i didnt expect.. well i shudhave...

used my brain..

i never thot..

it didnt..

buntu

i jz wana sleep

xoxo..

eyes open

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world



- yet again.. im unstable.. hahahah.. tryna cheer up.. at least ne im tryin to make myself happyy.. m off to wonderland meeting my prince charming till 5. then i shall go back to reality and face all the shit around me.. all over again.. -

express

wait and bleed - slipknot

smell like a swine.. yet to bathe...

so i did study a bit

ohh n yea wt is aiman doin

ahw ymwd for a wile n

now

shes

blogging

for a moment

theres so many things id like to write about but too little tym

im not suppose to be infrnt of the pc mind u

but i wu dlike to mention these namees

amalina, tan, adam, zikri

thank u

coz u guys changed ma life..

n tht part il be writing it later coz itl b long..

mostly la kan..

hahah

n i realized i learned lots of things n m a bit diff..

i hope its for the better

will go on to tht later..

i have to stop emoin

i have to stop being an ass n a shit

for people around me..

n mr lim almost rotan me
ahhahahah

yeap. serious.. hahahah

bye2 ppl..

till i write again..

maybe tonite if possible..

till then

xoxo

with stars on..

i cant online

i xkn online

im sory

im gona be emo

and tht

my life is for my parents

and books

and pmr

bmth - pray for plagues

im sorryy

i love u guys

dont worry i wont do anythin stupid

but i dont ting id b like normal

i guess so

i hope m jz sayin

but maybe not

it doesnt seem like its jz words

bye

love u

xoxo

.......

toott toott..

ARI NI!!!!

CHUN!!!!!!!!!

ok2.. pagi2 tu ok2 la.. xdk pa.. rehat pon xdk pa..

then tym sn tu mula gila dah!!!!!!!

haahhah
then2..

kitorang g toilet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pastuh kan........

hahahahah...

ok me, honey n cyg was like yeah 3 of us in on cubicle..

tgh dgr lagu n amek pixies!!!!!!!!!!1

haahhahaha...

lantak ahh.. but kitorang masih clean k!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha

oke2.. pastuh.. we wanted to come out..

but then ada few ppl like 3 kot outside...

then we wer like cnna nk kuar??

honey was like wey2.. kuar ja la...

n wed id!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha

u shud have seen the look on them

like mulut ternganga n blood shot eyes man!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahha....

peace!!!!

xley terima, boley blah!!!

aku xdk mau kisah..

then pastuh.. ok2 la.. high3!!!!!!!!

pastuh wel ah actaully the whole tym high..

when it happened pon
mmg ahh

lagi la aku gelak thp cipan siyot!!!!!!!!!

kena thn gelak smpai muka cm nk terbkq n tht dada nk meletup.. ati nk terkeluar beb!!!!

chun!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gelak3!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ni...

zikri mai...........

lagi la aku gelak........

he rocks man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mmg saalute sama dia..

n hes diff.. i mean.. dgr lagu headbang suma n gila2 thp cipan suma.. tpi ngn member.. mmg support.. hes a really gud guy.. respect him!! ~ mungkin akn jdi my role model!!! hahahha ~

passtuh dok gila2 kat canteen.. gila3 lagi..

so.. aim : nnti one day nk stayback with cyg, honey, fitree, zikri... !!!!!!!!! fuhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

itl b madddddddddd.... tdi dok sat pown.. dah gila.. penat.. hahahahhah

xdk idea nk ckp pa....

coz high sgt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahaha.......

yeah.. ari ni... bezzzzzzzzzzz....

walaupun ada shitnya.........

but who givves a fuck man!!!!!!!!

i had fun!!!!!!!!!!!!

n i lurve it!!!!!!!!!!!

chun!!!!!!!!!!!

stai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kita ni.......
hahahhahahah

peace.. nnti upload pixies......... :D
winks2!!!!!!
gila!!!!!!!!!!

oinkziz..

Life is too short to wake up in the mornings with regrets. So love the ones who treat you right, forget the ones who don’t. Remember that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life, then let it. No one said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it..

No guy is worth ur tears and the ones who are wont make you cry




im just thinkin...bout everything...

haih...

dk la....

im very the very in a very unstable state..

like one moment

gelak3!!!

then down3!!!!

then worid3!!!!

then senyum3!!!

then gela3!!!!!

then sedey3!!!!

then wana cry3!!!!



then2..

guess wat...

its starts all over again


like a fuckin freakin cycle

cool huh?

thinkin bout wat ahh

sadness

mourning

doiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

so is he tht is keepinme goin

partly i guess yeah..

and gfs... and everyone..

but yeah since im all serabut

and serabut

and serabut n all

and unstable

so ntg can help me out..

and i have this prob.. i have this prob

i go thru it.. i mean today la.. i went thru it for the first tym today..

till that i had to close my eyes n hugged ma school bag...tightly...

gawd.. shit... its like mieserable..

and tht its not a gud sign.....!!!!!!!!!!

nooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fuckingly freakinly hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!

so am i ok?

y dont u tell me aint...

if i have balls, mr lim wil surely get a fckin sharp knife and cut it off!!!!!!!!!

n my dad.. dont ask me wat he wudnt do..

shiutttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

ignore me...

for ur own very sake..

im just a normal boy That sank when I fell overboard My ship would leave the country But I'd rather swim ashore Without a life that's sadly stuck again Wish I was much more masculine Maybe then I could learn to swim Like 'fourteen miles away' You're floating up and down I spin, colliding into sound Like whales beneath me diving down I'm sinking to the bottom of my Everything that freaks me out The lighthouse beam has just run out I'm cold as cold as cold can be be I want to swim away but don't know how Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down Let the rain come down Where is the coastguard I keep looking each direction For a spotlight, give me something I need something for protection Maybe flotsam junk will do just fineThe jets, I'm sunk, I'm left behindI'm treading for my life believe me (How can I keep up this breathing) Not knowing how to think I scream aloud, begin to sink My legs and arms are broken down With envy for the solid ground I'm reaching for the life within me How can one man stop his ending I thought of just your face Relaxed, and floated into space I want to swim away but don't know how Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down Let the rain come down Let the rain come down Now waking to the sun I calculate what I had done Like jumping from the bow (yeah) Just to prove I knew how (yeah) It's midnight's late reminder of The loss of her, the one I love My will to quickly end it all So thought no end my need to fall

lets partay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well sth 4 sure i know is tht im gona partay!!!!!!!!!!!! tomorrow!!!!!!!!!1

oh god. .. lemme be gawd damnly high tomorrow!!!!!!!!! pleazeweeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok

rasa cnn nk blah..

haih..

bye2.........

happy high day ppl !!!!!!!!

so amalinas promotin me as tok guru jiwang

smacks on ma forehead!!!

blinking is lyk a waste of tym wen i look at ...

pasaipa ayt dia power2 more thn me...

xadil!!!!!!!!!!!!! siyot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im high!!!!!!!!!!

cuba nk angau siyot!!!!!11

ahahhhh

n m actually plannin to do work tonite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n clean up my room la kan..

then get ready for tomorrow..

then do some work..

then sleep..

may sleep bery late..

xpa2.. its ok..

n tht i may wan azim fahmi to be my bag decorator...

seriously... the bag is like shit..

idt i can go to school wit it..

dont ask me y i picked tht la can

maybe coz it s black..

but still;

its stupid

im typin so fast..

gawd!!!!!!

dumb pon dumb la asal bahagia

hahahahahahahahahha

mothafuckha

kura fucker

143444513

sweet gila beb!!!!!!!!!!!

i like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

i just thot of ma dad..

satu saat kemudia..

dia keluar..

bgi aku ceramah

yg chun gak

xpa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aku high baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mad31!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wish

i can b like this for eternity

hahahahahha

haih.. penat gak ahh high!!!

hahahahahah...

:D

im trully high..

n m planing sth..

hahaha.. wen this guy dpt lesen... n tht we stil contact each other.. hahahahahah!!!!!

orang kurang otak

amcm?

Lifebuoy

hahah

nk p tukaq ah

ahhaahhahahahha

sinusitis... ngeeeeeeeeee


haih. oxygen.. keletihan.. hahahahah...

doi.. aku hmpir nk angau dh nih..

shitzizzzzzzzzzzzzz..

haih.. ok meter smkin mernurun... fuhh...

tym nk blah

no nk mkn roti n raisin gardenia tu lu...

then msok bilik get ma brain n senses beck..

then tgk ahh

:D!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kis sme thru the phne baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


XOXOXO ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2mro app im gona end up at schooll

aiman

itll be another excting yet high n very chun day tht ur gona spend with ur loved ones..

:D

smile!!!

with stars on

kitty + hamsty ... kahkahkah...

saja nk wat e sat.. hahahah..

tu promote my purple pen knife.. ahh purple.. speaking of purple.. mr lim wanted to say purple n he was like turtle.. n everyone was like huh?! turtle?!

saja.. syok2.. hahah...

so its me n yashni.. n the book coverin her face.. haix.. yg the other wan.. hahahha.. i know im bad.. well i know i am.. peace!!

again.. me n honey.. n2.. make up!! hahhah.

amalina and yashni dancing.. erm make it buttons by pcd!! chun gilerr kan!!! hahahha.. n then me.. bored i gues..

sp now its fitree being madd... or no2.. its fitree being his very ownself.. fitree..

hes in a frame.. hes the picture.. hahah.. kesian.. sharon dera dia..

yeah, since last year i was like i wana take a pic with theva!!! still.. i cant get a perfect one.. but i didnt mean to torture him that bad.. hahah...

fitree plyin with sybils fan.. hahahahha.. n me, dharsh, thatchu!!!

me n fitree. sharons like waa u guys look like husband n wife.. gawd.. yeah hes my bf to my parents.. hahahah.. but yeah i like taking pix with him.. its like a drug.. very addictive n i enjoy it man.. hahahaha.. even tym ttn.. evntho once ni.. but i tink il do it more.. hahahah.. maddd...

back to me n honey agaon.. camwhoring!!!!! yeah so itl b like new pix every sund, tues n thurs!!! brgggghhhhhhhhhh........... hahaha!!! n i think this peace sign got stuck to me.. guess who made me got stuck to it??

me n thatchu sweneson and dharshini i forgot d.. gawd.. but still :D !!!

see.. me n peace!!! no!!! e!!! n2.. dok syok depan toilet.. hahaha

ni tym ttn.. saja.. xdk keja..

we all went madd!!!! wuuhuuuuuuhhuuu!!!!

so yeah.. just read it.. hahahahha...

jgn lupa.. bgi bday present byk2 n besaq2!!! hahahahha... remember the date man!!! hahahah...

keja seni!!!!!!!! before and after.. and the kain.. i'l upload it later.. i like2!!!!!!!!! tx to honey who paku it till 3am.. hahaha.. me n yashu tumpang gembira..

ok2.. dah2.. abes...

so its 1155 am.. planed to do sth more beneficial.. like yeah i wana finish my sn notes then do some revision.. i wil.. lemme eat then i'l do..

ni m mad.. at 115 am, i went downstairs n ate 4 pieces of bread as if i didnt take my dinner..

but2.. total bread for yest.. guess3?? its 10!!!! wtf happened to me!!! shitz..........

so yeah i was hungry n all.. then chatted.. i love styin up.. n wish i can just stay up forever n dont have to sleep.. its a waste of tym..

yeap ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! m not at school!!! i didnt end up at school today!!!!!!!!!!! buuyeahhh!!!!

utesok kena la kan.. sobz.........fgrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........

but2...

i tink i do kinda miss school. imean not smki la kan.. of cz not.. i mean 3a3,being there hangin out n all.. geeee.... sobz.. yeah i miss it.. pungkoq!!!!

so now its kiss me thru the phone - soulja boy

i think im coping with a life witout mp3!!! but wte4va it is.. im still gona get one.. first call bonuslink n ask em bout the philips thigy. then il tryn work it out.. if evertns ok then il send it for repair.. if it cant b repaired.. so itl b bye2!!! ( with our middle finger waving to my just officially died mp3 player ) so i shall get a new one.. just plain mp3.. ipod shuffle!!! ahahhah.. tahla.. sony ja la.. but if can!!! ipod!!! sth small.. damnsmall.. senang idup aku.. n thtl b like my bday or after pmr.. but wtf. ill try to survive...

gee.. we cnt msg tht much anymre.. doi.. yet again.. il try to survive.. hahahaha...

n i need memory stick 2gb for my phone.. coz i cant stuff all the songs i want in my phone!!!!!!!!!! shitzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n tht al the songs n nice2 ones or dk la wat. its in my mp3.. so i have to track back n all.. i mean.. idk la...

hahahahahah

1202pm .. ok2.. m gona eat.. then get back to reailty... haix.. sobz... sobzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

xoxo..