nestle milk n cookies - milky bar i guess.. hehe :D

so wat is aiman doing.. drinking milk.. hahahah.. n2 eating chocs.. the milky bar to be exact n bru ja mkn ice cream crunch.. she seems desperate ne? hahahaha..

so baru blek frm tesco with my dear daddy.. ntg much hapend.. but ada la part getaq.. getaq my dad loose temper p tmpq budak kecik behind us.. ahahhaha.. i know he dah mcm x thn gila.. tgk dia dok wat muka cm u blody fucker, shut up u! il slap ur fucking face.. yeah he did tht face.. i mean .. tis chinese boy. mmg la comey. kecik ja. budak tadika.. - mind u, i dont like kids.. i do like em.. tpi yg jenih i mean stgh jenih tu, i xley blah..at all.. comey mana pun tpi jenih tu bole blah.. -
i mean i was ok la.. tpi dia dok jerit la dok tolak troley tu la.. diz la dt la.. aku cm nk kaleh jerit kat dia atau sng drpd nk bazir tenaga jerit kat dia tmpq ja muka dia sng.. doi.. tension tau akk.. i mean i cnt imgine how was my dad like.. i know la muka dia.. kinda scary.. but even me x ley dok thn ngn budak tu dok jerit2.. how can he? i was like getaq ahh.. mana tau mamat tu p maki hamun budak tu ka.. wat malu ja aku.. ahahhah.. drama2..

this comes to y i dont want to have kids.. nor get married.. satni aku kesian anak aku. mak dah mcm ni.. stni datuk dia pun.. my god.. x sanggup.. kesian dia.. ahahhah... so yeah.. :) m can ony handle n take care of lets see.. i know cats.. but i can try on ikan.. ikan dah.. idup gak.. tpi lama2 mati la.. dulu.. then kura2 boley.. emm dogs if can.. pig.. hahahahaha... emm yeah hamster boley(real hamster ok..) .. almost all animals boley la..snake pun ok.. but2.. anak manusia.. it wil kinda b like happy tree friends.. get wat i mean? hahahahhah...

dahla daddy jalan laju.. dia mmg ahh.. then i yg kena tolak troley.. xpala mmg thts my job.. tpi org kat tesco dh la xreti jln laju.. mcm ngn pa g.. slow gila.. wey mayb la u ada tym byk gila.. lemme tell u sth.. i xda.. ok my dad xdak time.. try walking like tht at pg.. mau kena maki ka? dahla budak2 kecik dok jln2 depan troley tu.. aku nk tolak pun ya allah.. aku ram korang mati bru tau.. haaaaaaaaa... aku sbq ja. sbq.. mmg g tesco.. cbr kesbrn btul. wel mine la.. sbq ja.. sbq aiman sbq.. then tym kuar tesco budak minah pompuan nih dok dpn aku.. dok wat gedik. my dad x thn he pushed me awy from the troley n ckp come lemme do it! x2.. dont worry.. he didnt kil the gal.. tho ... hahhaha...

satu g.. bwk keta slow. aku... mg.. aku rasa aku xbw keta kot.. cm bole sket akai tau ak.. slow gila.. cuba la blajaq tekan minyak tu byk2 skit.. haih.. mcm ayh pitee.. slow gila.. yooooooooo.. but xpala.. thankg od i x tension coz he akn wat lawak ckp2 gelak2.. so its bareable.. thank god.. n stu g.. abang dia pulakk.. bwk keta mcm nk mati siyot.. adoi.. my dad calls him hell dirver.. he drives faster thn my dad.. hafiz the hell driver. he truly is.. my god.. ngn spikey hair dia.. :D.. sukaaaaaaaaa.. ahahhaha... suka sgt2.. hehe..

then i thinkk my dad was bored.. he dok tolak troley tu pastuh dok wat bunyi pelik2.. ahahahha.. i was lufin my ass out.. dok ikkkkkkkkk.... bila turn left wat bunyi diz la dt la.. hahahaha.. cm ngn pa g..

then pa g.. hmm.. xdk dah..


m tinking...

mcm mana la my mind n myself x corrupted.. my dad..mmg no comment.. boley dok ckp ohh u faint then strip u off naked, then take pics n all. m like haaa.. yeahhh.. mum.. haahhaha.. she read tis email from my dads long lost friend.. ada dia ckp ohh wer u the small size one? my mum hahahahahaha.. paham2 je la ye.. so thts my mum.. then my dad.. then me??? ohh god..

truely.. no comment..


nightmare man..

im so in love with happy tree friends.. they r getting madder.. n funnier.. ahahhaha...

haih.. so i just bathed the cats.. tadi i bend down to hold the cat int he toilet. then my dad was like excuese me?.. i cant get in.. ur backside is getting bigger. m like.. pls.. stop it.. haahhaha.. serious shit.. it is.. f la man.. coz.. this pants.. dulu itl fall of my ass if i wear it n even with the help of a belt dia cam lebey byk la.. then nw. i dont even need a belt anymore.. itljust stick to ma ass.. omfg... but2.. the length sama.. u see.. m growing sideways.. this is so nt good.. so.. i m hepy tht i can wear tht pants.. but on the other hand, m not hepy i can wear it.. of coz m not! grrrrr.. !!

m hungry again.. ahahahahha.. this is so not gona helpp. i nid to have a master plan!

tonyt da ttn.. i dont mind tho.. :)

xoxo.. :)

ba chang - i shall try it too..

i shall try

- radiohead
- goo goo dolls
- chris cornell
- maroon five
-

ok.. i think thats enuff.. :) - for now i gz.. perghh.. -

- ayh fitree mmg gila2 perasan dia muda.. ahahhahaha.. gawd.. i love him. n his mum.. gila2 gak

:D

grrrr..

Look inside
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder

Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of
all the hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay

Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist
who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is midieval

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much

Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much

Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get
Do you get a little kick of being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you
Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
Your losing control of it and it's really distasteful

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much





Hey there Delilah
what's it like in New York City
I'm a thousand miles away but girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely,
give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh, it's what you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar

We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if
I had no other way

Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because
We know that none of them have felt this way

Delilah I can promise you that by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah you be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
And you'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to

Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

-- adam!!! i need ur metronome.. my guitar.. bunyi dia.. sucks.. ahahah.. ---





We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
begging you please don't go...

And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story,
baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.

Cause you were Romeo
I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"
but you were everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go

And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story,
baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes..

We were both young when I first saw you.





I am unwritten, can't read my mind,
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes,
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innervisions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten




Give a little bit
Give a little bit of your love to me

Give a little bit
I'll give a little bit of my love to you

See the man with the lonely eyes
Take his hand, you'll be suprised

So i'll give a little bit
I'll give a little bit of my life for you

So give a little bit
Give a little bit of your time to me

Nows the time that we need to share
So send a smile, were on our way back home

Don't you need to feel at home
you gotta feel it

Yea you gotta want to
OO you gotta sing, we've come along way tonight

So give a little bit
Give a little bit of your love to me
I'll give a little bit
I'll give a little bit of my life for you

Now's the time we need to share
So send a smile, we're on our way back home
Yea come along too
Yea we gotta feel it
Cause i need to feel at home
Come along too
Such a long ride
come a long way
Such a long ride
Come a long way

Sing it tonight



You wait, wanting this world
To let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light
In dark and empty streets

You smile hiding behind
A God-given face

But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to believe

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in

Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say

I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play
But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in

Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in


- so this songs.. i like.. ahahhaha.. but yeah la.. marilyn disturbed n slipknot will alwiz forever be in me... :D>. n can u blive it.. i actually realized there was no songs from slipknot in my mp3.. gila ka?!! -

em ah oh

sth apened to the pc.. thank god its kinda working.. hahahah..




fuuhh.. so at last.. m at home.. yeah but i shall not call it home sweet home tho.. too bad..




yeah.. i miss pg very2 mych.. ahahahha

ok so i wasnt actually looking forward for the trip evntho i cud go shopping n yaddy3.. mind u, i didnt.. hahahaha... ok2.. so starting of on a very thurs morning at 6am, the lst thurs b4 the two wiks hols.. - aiman, its just two weeks.. -

i actuallly didnt wana go.. why??? yeah.. for the very first time in my life, i felt really n very sad n devastated almost the whole tym n wanting to cry..


simply because..



theres hols...



can u ever blieve tht?

yeap.. my first tym eva being sad tht theres hols.. dulu id b the first to jump sky high n xsbr blek umah n all coz i can say bye2 ibrahim, u can go to hell for two weeks.. n nve felt sad at all.. gembira thp cipan ada.. nw.. evn nk step out of the gate i was like oohh my, great two weeks.. ahahahhahha...

but oh wteva.. i dont really feel tht bad now.. tho. but itl come.. perfgghh.. haihh..



then2.. pg!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeee........ p sana.. yeah mmg p hantar mitch for operation.. or we call it vasectomy or we call it castrate.. ahahahhah... tau dakk... ahahahhahahah... bila dia balek.. balls dia xdak bulu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahhahahah... i was luffin my ass out wen i saw it smpai daddy ckp aiman dun la luff at him.. i cant.. i jz cant.. it looks so weird. il post d pic later.. ahahahahahhaha.... aku tau.. aku teruk.. but shahahahhahah

then ok was in the car.. sudeny.. well pg kan.. mmg bwk keta.. tension.. the motorcyclists.. well.. they deserve to die.. thts wat my dad says.. my i have to agree.. they really do.. ahahha.. ok.. so she bwk la keta.. i was lisening to songs.. sudeny.. she jerit.. burit!!!! i was like huh? pa dia? then she doktu la bla3.. compllaing bout wat hapened.. motor tu bla3.. then pastuh she ckp.. fuhh.. thank god aiman ja dlm keta.. then both of dok gelak non stop.. ahahahha.. then i said.. tu la, aiman tkot tau nk bawk fren suma dlm keta.. tgk ahh.. u with ur puki n burit.. daddy ngn fuck, bastard, bloody fool, idiot.. well my dad.. sumalengkap.. haahahhaha... so both of us just cudnt stop luffing.. tgk ahh..hahahah...

n shes so into the horse show ting.. shes promoting it like hell.. hahahhaha.. n m like.. wat is wrong with u? y r u so into it?? i even forgot ada horse show n shes like all horse show- ishhy.. my god.. daddy x la dok sebok pulak.. adoi..

then... smpai2 ja hotel.. daddy mula la yaddy3 bout his daily stuf.. hahaha.. then he was like see stroking my beard three times.. im like uhh???

dad : do u think its a good idea? its for charity.. stroking my beard.. 5 times for a dollar.. - smbil dok stroke la dia nya beard.. ahhahahahha... -

me : urrhhh.. wat?? for wat??

dad : charity la later for hrse show.. they r having charity stands.. yaddy3.. - i xigt coz i was luffing my ass out n staring at him wondering wat is he tryin to do... - then he ckp.. u dont wan ahh?? come la.. come n stroke it.. come la...

me : me luffing my ass out.. p la.. ahahhahha.. p stroke2.. hahahahahha..

so idid stroke his beard.. n dok gelak3... ahahaahahaha..

ok.. my mum... sth apened to her.. like daymmm...

my dad was like... eyerrrrr.. thank god m not having sex tonite - my normal daddy.. -

my mum said niii, ppl dont have sex evrynyt k.. too tired to have sex everyday.. cuba tanya, manada evryday...

i wasnt fell from the chair.. i was luffing like hell n cm x caya my mum said it.. like helllllll...

my god... ahahahah

i just cant bliv it.. heheh...

n she was like hash brown puppies.. i was like urh??? its actually mashed potatos.. tu lah akibat drpd p pg tpi x p shopping.. fuck la wey..

well in the cr.. my mum sudeny said nii umi x bwk susu tau, jangan teriak ahh.. m like urrrhhh wat the fuck?

-- i was ripping of the icecream box.. ahahha.. til my dad mai... then he was like wat apened..? me with the icecream on my hand.. i was showing it up high n said.. im desperate !!!! .. --

- sorta like leave me alone with my icecream! dont disturb at al!!!! -

bros home.. at least ada member nk tgk tv.. n fckingly esok 9 till 11 bm.. 4 to 6 sn.. then esok kan.. eee.. aku bkn la ada issue.. tpi... wtever.. wtever... malaih aku nk lyn.. jgn ganggu idup aku dah.. if u do.. aimans gona b evil.. so accept it..

tdi... mamat tuh.. muhd rafael rizal.. g dating.. at vmal.. ahahahha.. aku menghendap dia.. ahahahahhah

serious.. ahhahaha.. cm ngn pa g..

i just realized.. my hair.. its so brownish at times.. tinkin.. i lke it lite pinkish. .or pinkish.. or blue.. or purple.. or reddd.. weeeee. :D

just to make my life *better* i got two ttns esok.. then kna g kenduri.. so i wont b at home. again.. adoi..

hw bout sund?

i dont feel like tinking bout it..

argggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh..

yeah its been awhile since i cried.. ahahahha

so yest.. i selpt at 930 pm n got up at 9 am.. great huh...

n at last.. i got a wtch.. its as usual.. plain black n lil wite.. ada ni wite n purple nya.. mmg lawa gila.. with bling2 skit.. ahahha.. but m like.. gawd.. i cant ask my mum bli both kan.. so i chose s usual of coz black.. me n blck.. mmg.. 2gdr2.. forever i gz.. ahhahaha.. but mmg purple tu lawa.. but jz.. m like. u expect me to wear tis? i know its a gazilion tyms beta than the black but its better black.. heheh..

- i not stupid is a must see.. m gona dl it... -

aiman x pena dgr lagu sekuat ni

wewe - so not . . .

1027 pm

abes dah ttn.. i thot itl b a nitemare.. actually i missed aziz.. ahahahha

ok2.. so... it was tht sajak bout wnita zmn skang was it..

n he was aiming me!

sebut ja benda tu.. he pointed to me

n ckp.. aiman sure xnk kawen kan..

aiman sure xnk bersuami kan

i was like urhhhhh... - asal mamat ni kenal aku sgt lak dah.. -

so i turned coz syed was yaddying.. n m like u shut up!

then aziz was like la aiman jgn pndg blkg.. gtaw la.. jgn pndg ur bf.. m like wtf?

grrrr...


syed pulak boley dok ohh x2.. bukan2.. sy kenai bf dia.. yaddy3..

xley tlg senyap ka??

-- my dads like ur school hold is in jb.. ony enjy at jb.. yeah hw the fuck do u expect me to enjy here dear dad?? apart from this 10 daysu better study n use ur tym wisely.. study.. study.. study.. fine.. aiman.. no life.. weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! --

headbang!

so aziz was like ohhh. ohhh.. ok2..

then he ckp pulak.. aiman ni sure kuat mrjuk kan? tgk muka pun tau... sensitif pun kan? i was like ok this tym u got me wrong.. nk mrjuk kat sapa?? kucing?? nnti diorang klprn.. my mum?????? not gona work.. dad.. he'll give me a tight slap if i do.. n mmg kena lecture like grow up will u? ur not a kid anymore.. then adala ayat pedey2.. xnk fikir.. mnykitkan ati.. so the ting is
xdk org pun nk merajuk.. n yeah i mmg hate ppl merajuk.. n over sensitif.. like my mum.. yeah.. nods.. frankly speaking.. but who cares? id just tolerate.. as lg jgn ganngu my life suda..

now ma mum sdisturbing my life

fuck la wey!

ngn study

pstuh yeah rules of chatting.. 30 minit ja..

all i can say is

my teenage life

forget it

forget it

i can never have my dream life

ohh yeah.. dreams.. neva.. come.. true.. for.. gods..sakes..


- no matter hw much u try, no matter hw positve u think, no mter hw hard u want it, no mter hw wondrful ul tink getting up evry mrning at the rite side of ur bed.. life is just like tht.. life is how it is.. just like tht.. face it aiman.. face it.. stop dreaming.. stop fooling urself n snap back to reality tht ntgs actually wonderful.. nods.. -


n this gal.. anis.. i like her.. hahahha.. not like2 for gods sake.. she cn b one of my madddd partner.. hehe.. dhla dok laguna.. then sma ttn.. so aiman wil go well dk la.. dok laguna.. il hang out wif her i gz.. dk ler.. but i gz shes ok..


i hate my life..

there..

ive said it.!

yeah.. mmg.. things tht u want.. u cant nva get it..

fuck..

if only my room is sound proof.. n i have gigantic speakers.. u know wat il do ne..

fuck

fuck

fuck

nw i wish m at school

wit ma swithearts

rather thn at home

fuck

id die if i dont say fuck

in a day

yeah

morning part dhla xterkira

yeapzzz...

facts of life..

face it..

swallow it..

sink or swim wil ya?

tho it hurts..

tho it sucks..

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..........

my life is rite now

from bad

to worse

its gona get better during the hols

- upsyd down for sure alryt ! -

i cant go on anymore..

shit la wey

fuck..

yeah now rasa cm nk tndg almari..

badly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i cant.. nti ma prents igt its either i nk suicide gntg diri dlm tu ka or2 ctau ahh..

i can die if i x sumbat earphne dlm tlinga..

so if u see me weirdly mad and unstable nnti one day at school after hols, it means tht i x bw mp3 n mcm i gelong thp cipan.. please.. tht tym i nid serious help.. nods..

i hate...

carbonate - carbon + oxygen - i gz so.. lupa dah..

i cant blive m going to ttn..

:((

rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!

keboringan, kesedihan, ketidak menetuan.. pa ku mepek nihh ??

evry mrng.. wen i get up.. at exactly 553 am.. the'l b a msg..

in it..

its my new name.. ahhahahah..

i get a new name evryday..

so a new name a day, keeps me sane.. hahahaha - so not true.. -

so its first lil monster.. then annoying lil monster.. then mama roach tis morning.. m i tht bad??

hahahahahah


grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rasa sedey cz x jadi stay.. but th.. nk stay tpi rs cm f tau akk ??? hahahahaha...

but thank god x stay.. coz im madd.. yeah like after skola tdi.. wayar putuih.. mad2.. bit la.. but on the way to pure madness.. but then chilled.. no its like.. dlm ati ni kan.. ahahhahaha.. like ada dok menjerit2.. then ada dok wat poyo dok sengap.. then ada dok mengis.. pe kes??

aiman kena g jumpa psychiatrist... hope its the correct spelling.. nods.. grrrrr ....

rrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!


yeah i have to accept the fact that for two weeks i wont be seeing my sweethearts.. ni...

x cuti pun lagi.. dah nk gila fikir canna..

- dont ask me y.. but i feel like tdi was my last day of school.. ahahahhah.. n i cnt blive im going to ttn tonite n i said yeah to my dad theres ttn so fuckingly il b going.. p kata ya pasepa..fuck! ... -


-- u sihat x dear ?

me - physically slightly coughing

- emotionally and mentally heck no...

:)



so what, gives u hell, dance dance, american sweeyheart, my life would suck without u

ohh great...

ish.. yes..

its true.

its real

i can foresee the future..

hahahaha..

n its....

yeah...

im gona b emo...

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......................



yeah.. cuti ni... yeah!!!!!!!!!! i wana go out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nk g cs. nk g muvis.. or plain going madd at the mall with em..


after getting up from a cat nap after sn, the first thing i saw wen i opened my eyes.. fitree smiling.. smcm... ahahahhaha...


american idiot!!!

n2.. its heaven to see this guy wearing shoes.. i mean.. ahahahhahah... its heaven la i mean. i was staring but then i forgot.. i mean.. i forgot about it.. n missed the oppurtunity of looking at him wearing his shoes.. ahahahhahahhaha... pergh.. once in a life time chance man.. ahahahahah


mlm ni ttn.. its so not gona help...

grrrr...

im so gona miss sitting with geeha n azim n mostly piteeeeeeee...

ohh wel.. i cant seem to alwiz have fun rite.. well today ja slight fun.. tu pun sat ja.. n ntg at all..

so yeah.. its like.. no i cant constantly go madd al the tym.. why?? coz itl b mad.. ahaaha


oldhood.. heheh..

.....

jiwa x tenteram - fingers up !

i wonder

sweet sixteen

will it b the real thing

ahhahaha

all i know is

if u see me wild n out of control n madd n almost anything u can think of rite now

when im 15

wait till im 16

i dont think id be who i m rite now

its nothing compared to who il b i guess wen im 16

- well, my thoughts la kan.. idk its really gona happpen or not... -

il b worse than what i m rite now..

well thats sth im quite sure about..

mums like.. u have to go this thurs..

im like do i look like i wana go??

i think.. il b emo again.. hahahahh.. n the high posiblity of me doing emo hair again.. ahahhaha.. well .. actually.. anything can happen.. hols just around the corner. and no one wud care and know!

peace!

pasaipan aiman rizal jiwanya x tenteram

- someone? amalinas like - rindu *** ka?

me - nods.. i think i do... grrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!! sobz... :(( maybe la i gz... arghhhhhhhhh !!

- the golden age of grotesque -

i hate...

byk benda...

mob scene

[Cheerleaders:]

Be obscene

Be,

Be obscene

Be obscene, baby

Not heard

radiohead

705 pm

radioheads kinda like sth tht i cant really go madd about unlike idsturbed or mrilyn


ohh nyeahhhhh

:D

cheers for me!!!!!!!!

my mood swings are back!!

the meter rosak thigy is back haunting me...

weeeeeeeeee... ~~~~~~~~ !!!!!!!


one minute id b like wat the fuck did i just do? ?

or wat the fuck m i doing

y m i doing this

whats the point of doing this

its not tht its gona help me or do me good

or il just do wteva i wish.. witout tinkin ... well i did.. for a moment.. then nwxt is who gives a fuck

then id b this is all useless.. shit.. stop it.. dont give a damn

then the other minute il go all calm n say no its ok.. its alryt.. evrtns fine..


the other id b like brainless.. ilang akai.. nods...


n i hear musicccc allootttt... like a lottt.. even b4 sleeping.. well i sleep with it.. perghh..

dgr lagu stai x igt dunia.. x dgr pa2..

sooooooooo....

if u see me walking around school, n u called my name, n i dont seem to turn around n respond.. do und.. heheh.. or even if ur simply bside me or few feets away.. or talking or calling me without touching me lets say.. n i dont seem to respond or realize.. then u know...


yeah.. xpuas ati dgr pelan2.. heheh...

i dont wana talk bout wt apened today.. ahhahaha.. all i know is.. yeah it has been awhile since i hug ppl a lot.. n kisses.. hols coming.. i shall do it.. haahhahahah...

KABOOM ...

shitzzzzzz...

319 pm

WILD CHILD IS THE BOMB!!!

well not the bomb i guess.. but chun gila... i was like...

nganga ahahhahah...

too bad.. so sadd.. i cant wtch it today perghhhh....

fuck l aman...

so itl b tym school hols..

but its so nice!!!!!

heheh..

m bored..

tym to sleepp..

bleep bleep..

lifes so not gud..

they said tht hells not hot

aimans tryna stabilize.. is it how to spell? m too lazy to look it up



so im headbanging.. wel not realy.. jz memekakkan telinga so tht im just in my own world..



depa ni... well i was actually luffin.. i find it funny..



nk tau pasepa..



passai



durian



ja



pun..





hhaahhahah..



wey.. even me n him la x pena cm tu.. xpena gado pun.. wel lagi la kan.. tpi durian ja pun.. dhla xsedap.. pa kes??



mum mmg xley mkn durian.. tpi dia p amek gak. then mamat tu nk mkn gak tpi she x bagi.. dia pun ckp ahh next tym amek lagi la.. xreti ckp no ka.. then xtau pasepa minah tu emo sot smcm bgn n blah cm tu ja.. mamat tu pa g.. mki elok2 ahh.. siap letak pinggn dlm sink nk pecah siyot.. serious.. then dok fuck3!! la.. serious.. aahhahah.. then dok u thinku only knw how to show temper is it? idk is it? fuck la..



im like.. gigling.. ahaaha... aku xtau la...



len kali.. dah tau perangai hmper seluruh mamat dlm dunia ni cnni, p kawen pasepa?



haaa.. kan dh ckp.. n perangai seniri tu pun cm apa ?



xpena pikkiaq ka ni hanya merosakkan idup org.. if x... mai aku dok hbq..



pa kes??



bukan la nk kata aku tau sgt dunia ni.. mmg aku xtau pa.. tpi please ahh.. lecterur.. paham2 ahh manusia sekeliling.. susah sgt ka??



so.. wteva.. its just a biggy damn joke..



n m lisenin to wat adam said.. let them be.. its their prob.. not mine.. just stay in ur own world.. yeah i prefer it tht way.. so m like kinda calm.. goin a bit high..



n i just realised.. if nk study.. mmg sat sgt.. i mean.. its simple.. ahahaha...



aimanz a lazy bum... m so dead...

n she put on some ... i mean meat.. :((
hahahahah...

pica uploadin tym- jgn tekejut.. its all aiman.. shes bored.. n upsyd down..

yeah.... im practically bored.. m waitin for a tym where i can sleep.. m gona sleep.. then study agama n geo.. actually.. i just found out tht marilyn manson is so fckingly nice.. n2 that i can headbang already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... means loud sounds wont kill me nimore... so to celbrte it.. aahhaha.. i mean.. whilst headbanging.. m uploadin old pix.. m bored.

school pix wil come soon wen im a bit rajen.. comin2...

so esok geo n ag.. so il go on with ag.. then tonite geo...

today... actually.. like after kh.. i was like.. m gona faint.. ahahaha.. kinda like serious.. cm mngtok.. then pns.. like weak2.. then faints.. ahahhaha.. but i didnt.. tho..

so today.. today.. bgn2 pagi.. i was like do i have to go to school?!!

yeah.. pulak dah... perghhh...

i can neva get up at 6am with a huge smile knowing tht ibrahim is waitin for me.. neva!

i was like.. i cant blive m goin to school

smpai skola.. i cant blive m at school.. i cnt blive m walkin in school.. perghh..

ok... soooo.. today.. english was ok.. i enjyd paper two.. if only other papers can be like tht.. my life wudnt suck this baddd.. n if ony bm paper two sama gak. yeah.. past

past..

past..

psttttttttt....

finee...

but i liked.. weeheeee

n i can die if i sit with fitree.. ahahhaha.. n pening pala gak ahh dok tpi dia. ii mean id b luffin n all.. so il go al mad n pening.. perghh. hahaha..

yeah baby! marilyn manson.. i love u.... weeeeee... :D

then lusa mths n sej.. sej il try n survive.. maths.. shrieks.. faints.. f la man..

so it seems like holidays jz aroun the corner..

n shit.. yeah thts tht horse show thingy.. so i have to be kinda like.. well instant angels for a moment.. ahhaha.. put on tht cute lil face with tht huge unsincere smile.. ahahhaha.. then say hello aunty, hello uncle,, how ru,, long time no see.. yaddy3.. then dahla nk ada dinner lagi.. great.. shitt.. fuckk.. but thank god rafael may be comin.. no its may be.. so i shudnt be epy util rafael ckp hes really2 commin.. dinnnerr... waaaaaaaa... :D... biggy smiles!!! means2.. hahahaha.. m gona blow ma parents money again.. ahhahah.. get a new outfit, if posib drag ma mum n go to detouch no matter wat since its the hols so i have lotsa time n if she ckp its a waste of tym, fine il study there as lg as i cn do my hair.. ohh n shoess... wahahah.. yeah maaa.. ahahahh...

ohh yeah.. shopping.. jb... weeeeee... idc... m jz gona spend.. nods..

ok.. master plan durin hols???

i cant believe i thot of it.. n actualy thot of considering it..

okies.. its like this..

tido mmg by 12.. get up by 8..

then gz wat m gona do???

well maybe masukkan exercising in my life.. since my tummy dah grow.. serious shit.. ciks.. no comment.. so i so have to exrcise.. well its either morning or evenin exrcising.. swiming!! weee

then do sth bout this house, or my room, or this hall.. or2.. to this pc or lappy..

then yeah baby... f... m gona study

:F

weeeeeeeeeeeeee...

m gona do essays.. then lotsa mts n sn n ag stuff... so its allllllllllllllllllllllllllll !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

warghhhhhhhhhhhhh...

no matter how much i hate this idea, i reeally hope it comes true tho drpr the normal me just sayin things but ntg happens... god willing..

i bet the first few days of hols id b like stil kinda ok.. maybe last 3 days.. then after tht.. id b emo.. coz m too bored.. stuck in this hse alone.. doin ntg.. at all.. not goin out n having the tym of my life just like almost all teenagers wud do.. wasting my teenage life n my high school life.. just like tht.. weeeeeeee.. smiles.. well :) is all i can do... but yeap.. life is what u make.. but fuck la man..

its going nowhere..

but yeah one of em is shopping.. then pg.. then wtch muvis.. at home.. ok at home.. dled movies.. watching it on the pc.. the end..

KABOOOM !!!! marilyn!!!! weeeeeeee....

407 pm...

bye2...

give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.

tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.

i love bein around you.

you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing
two do
three words
four you.

i love you.(i love you)

theres only
one way
two say those
three words and
that's what i'll do.

i love you.(i love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.

tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.

i love bein around you.

you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only
one thing
two do
three words
four you.

i love you.


- yeah malina.. thank u.. :D
- adam.. i knew the sg from malina like last month i think.. ka lama dah.. idk.. i do know the
song... :D bukn buat2 tau tau dak.. ahahahha...

lunch or dinner with my parents

hahahah...

ok2...

i was maddddddddd tadi...

hahahahha...

with my parents..

like gelak3... then batuk3... then gelak3....

mcm gila......

yeah mcm tu la wen my parents are happy..

wen suma epy, evrtns high, evrtns loud.. non stop luffin n screamin..

hahhahah..

my dad wud b well besala my daddy

like

- ur mother is a nuttttttttt

- no, i can barely recognise her.. if not, i wud have banged her

dont ask me... ahahahahahhahhaha.. i was luffin like hell...

then ma dad ngn tht stupid guy.. bloody2 dia.. ahahhha.. daddy... mcm tu la..

its jz maddddddddddd.......

hahahaha...

so2.. i did bits of agama notes.. m gona go on with it..

n m sweatin like hell..

n tkot headache mai blek..

lets pray it doesnt..

yes.. aiman actually nk study

yay!!!!!

haih...

tho ada rasa sedey..

coz of sth...

:((

pouting..

love story :D :D :D

ahahahha...

ok2.....................

aiman dah xdak headache dah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

thank god la if not id b in pantai rite now.. yeah.. beach... :D


weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

ok2............. so smlm after ckp ngn dia headache hilang sat... ahahahhaa...

yeah.. m stil jz coughin2 skit n nose2 skit2.. n my voice.. mcm tu la.. ahhahaha

but3...

i can scream... hahahahah

so m fine...

:D

my dad was like tu u can scream n all.. ur fine.. ahahahhahah

yeha i know.. m fine......

after this...........

m so gona study!!!!!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

:D

yeah... m so epy m ok...

i so dont wana get sick again

yes i know..

its tests from god...

n also god is sayin to me - aiman, next tym dont ever say u dont wna go to school again.. look wat hapened n wat u went thru n wat u missed wen u didnt go to school... u missed all of ur sweethearts, u missed everytinnnnnnnnn.... not gud2... -

:D

esok skola!!!!!!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeee.............

ppll

this is no joke

for the first tym in her life actually

aimans excited shes really gona go n stay at school till 130 tmrow!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...........

mg...

m all smiley

haahhahaha

mad3..............

but2....

gawd.. my ciks...

i have to do sth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blughhhhhhhhhhhhh

ohh well

1049am

off to study n complete my notes n clean my room n relax at the same time

lets take it ez

:D

XOXO ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

hugs n kisses

ohh dang... yeah.. cuti ni.. kinda occupied... adoiii... but ohh wel... idc!!!!!!!!

:D

i cnt stop smiling..

just like last nyt...

yeah i slept with a huge smile..

hahahahahha...

+++

a big damn joke...

ok2.. mula2. i nk ckp.. skang nih bukan my mood yg dok up n down.. its ma fucking damn temperture thts plyin around.. goin up n down.. mula2.. well mmg almost the whole day gelong.. but after bgn tido 5sth i gz.. sket pala.. then 6 tu.. mmg.. temperature goin up.. then xpa.. mcm 745 turun.. sweatin like hell.. then now.. gz wat.. hahaha.. nw its 36.8.. its like lower.. ahahhah.. dk wat to say.. im tinkin.. i tink i ptot p amek darah.. like ptot.. altho thts the last ting id like to do.. but i tink its beta.. haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. perghhhhhh.......

so2.. the big damn joke.. i was trashin to my parents bout well life.. ahahahha.. yeah pokpek sana sini xhenti2.. ngn my volume.. my mums like ckp la pelan n my dad wat bodo ja coz he tau i tgh tension.. bole siap wat muka ahh lagi3... hehe.. then i was complainin bout sth la kan to him.. n he ckp.. niii.. shes a nut case k.. shes a nutty.. i said to him.. yeah i know.. vry hard n complictd to und.. serious shitt.. then he said u jz ckp ja.. n itl masuk my ear n kluar blek.. im jz lisenin.. coz lter she'l b fine again.. ahahha.. mmg btui pown.. n he said.. jz take it as a big damn joke..

yerpz daddy.. i m....

hahaha.. hmm... yeah i was kinda tensed til i said fuck suma.. hampir suma abes kuaq.. ahhahha.. xkisah ahh pa org nk ckp.. lantak ahh.. m havin a discussion wit ma parents.. jgn ganggu.. ahahhahha... mmg ahh.. then mcm sket palaaaaaaaaaaaa.........grrrrrrrrr... m gona sleep.. perghh..


i dont get it

y mus life b so shitty

then asal stgh org kn cm xdk akai

bukn la nk ckp aku ada akai

aku tau aku pun kadang2 xdak

tpi at least kan aku pakai gak kadang2..

haahhahahha...

aku xtau ahh..

bukan nk ckp aku mature..

aku tau aku mmg x mature langsung..

at least kan..

aku xtau la..

pening pala ja pikiaq.

lantak p kat ang ahh..

idup ang. tlg fkir seniri.. dh besaq dah..

no comment..

dah2..

my flight is waitin..

n my kaki pun dah sejuk2..

perghh..

dk la.. maybe esok p amek darah..

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

- nmpk cm high posib.. shittt... coz mcm up n down... fuckkkkkkkk!! -

:((

i soo need to talk..

grrrrrrrrrr...........

lady gaga

blieve it or not.. aiman jdi budak bek sat tdi.. dia x hbq kat spa2 pun pa yg kuar at paper two.. hehehe.. sth apen to her.. ahahhaha..

aiman tgh melyn lady gaga.. n i tink.. she'l go maddddd over it.. at last.. mlm ni nk g kuar mkn.. ahahahha.. dont ask me y.. but i kinda miss going out.. haihh.. sobz..

haih....

perghhhhh.....

sobz2...

idup ni. fikir2 blek kan.. - aimans actually smilling tho.. :) thank god.. - its complictd.. xtau ahh nk wt cna..

love game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! layan!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ehhe

my hairs like loonngg again.. well nt tht lg like last months i gz.. or was it two mnths ago?? but still.. it grew.. i hve to do sth bout it.. tho. grrr..

aiman rasanya smkin normal.. kowttttttt...

:((... so sad.. i cud only sleep for an hour.. well i got up coz heard my dad screaming over dk wat.. but i was like gawd.. ic nt sleep d.. but still.. my head.. its kinda throbing.. grr.. sket pala..

haih..

ok2.. jom kmbli blogging.. ahahha..

so raudha was like ahh.. padan muka.. tgk ang wat salah g kat *dot3*.. then ang dok bercinta2 g.. ahh kan dah demam.. perghhhhhhhhhhhhhh... mana da!!! hahahah...

- sket pala.. -

just a car crash away.. hahaha..

sooo.. arini.. g skola.. gelong siyot.. ahahhaha...


eyebags.. baddddddddd...........

im bored.. i wana watch tv.. but ma mums watching.. n the only thing i can do now is blog.. n chat.. n lyn marilyn manson.. eat me, drink me.. ahahha... its his album.. yeah i kinda love marilyn.. n yeah coughin2.. smpai my blkg dok sket2.. ahahha.. then my head.. perghh.. nk tido.. but il b more gelong.. perghh..

pening pala otak aku pkr benda...

then im worried over this ting.. ahahahahha... serious bodo gila. bukn la nk kata bodo kan.. tpi kan.. xtau ahh pasepa.. cm ngn pa g...

pening........ tidoooooo..................

soad... XD.. weeeeeeee.. afresh..

soad!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok2.. so as u can see.. im much better.. i mean m on off ok.. n thn of pun slight fever n mngtowk n pening pala.. ntg serious like yest.. hehe.. for the first tym pecah rekod.. my temp was 39.5!!! hehe.. lst month plg tinggi was 38.. then this mnth like tht.. if ma mum x blek.. sah2 boley p til 40.. i was like kinda deaf.. hahaha.. like telinga bengang gila.. then ma head mcm nk xplode.. perghh.. but yeah.. last nite i was much beta.. then today .. ok gak..


ok2.. mula2 p ok la.. then lama2 tym tunggu fuziah la suma i was high aka dok pening2.. then2.. nek ats tu.. evrone was like.. dk.. hahah.. then ezza was like adala.. dot3.. m like ohh gawd.. but xpa.. tried to survive.. i was sweatin like hell.. n yet head was like crappish.. the paper one was like.. yay!! i dont know wat happen. hahaha.. i was like xpa.. im here just to do it.. finish it.. then sit for my paper two n m done!!! then blek!!!!! yay!!!!!!! yeah the paper two was easy.. but i was like too sleepy n coughin2.. too function.. so i was so badd.. mcm ada idea.. tpi idea tu kureng.. n xreti nk ellaborate.. so wat the fuck.. at one point i was like wth m i crapping?! hahaha.. b ut i didnt write much.. like mmg.. my paper two akn dpt the lowest marks.. serious shit.. i was jz like xpa.. just do it.. jz tulis ja.. as lg it looks like an essay sudah.. just buat.. ahhahah.. but il try not to think bou tit.. sket pala.. sobz.. hmph..


without u we'l b gila
my life wud suck witout u

tersentuh i...

:((

i mnysl gila jatoh sket.. mnysl gila x mai skola.. sedeyhhh..

pasai...

i miss my sweethearts.. like so2.. very2.. much2..

ezzas like yeah u sedey coz u miss dia.. im like.. yeah rindu sama dia.. tpi2.. i misss all of u guys.. rindu sama korang tau ak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:((

cant wait for sund... m so gona get well n rock on at schl man.. exam tu.. yeah baby. nods.. im gona study.. weeeeeeeeeee... after i sleep la.. then il study tonite.. :D yes2!!!


n im so gona talk n bla3!!! wit ezza..n tan lets go mad k??? hehe :D.. then jeeha then yashu... shes like see i told u.. sleep late lagi.. tgk wat apen.. adoii.. fine2.. new rule in my life.. the latest il stay is till 12.. f la man.. so aimans gona b like the old aiman wic is last yers aiman wic is keja siap ka xsiap.. but mostly aiman last yer keja akn siap ja.. but2 if x siap pun keja dia akn tidoq ngn aman by 11.. itulah aiman last yer yg xjatuh sket.. bu ti have to.. haix.. menysl gila xmai skola.. i mean i missed so mc stuf.. then cm suma.. haih.. perghhh... i mis sall of u guys.. :((.. rindu gila!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mmg serious menysl jatuh sket.. cz mcm.. idk.. but haih.. so im gona try my best to tke cre of myself n try not to get sick n come to schooll.. :)


niiiiiiii... yest ma mums like.. ahh i tink the facial wash is ok 4 u.. n ur pipi smkin lebq.. m like wtf!!!

then mlm tu pulak.. my dad... my2.. u have huge ciks.. im like dad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then tdi.. well i told ma mum m worid bout ma ciks.. ahahhah.. then she was like yeah u have to eat less rice n more veggy. m like.. ohh gawd.. n serious shit.. shes seriously doin it.. tdi for lunch she letk nsi skittttttttttt ja.. i was like dlm ati la.. nmpk d rice n was like sikit ni ja ka nasik aku.. haih.. then i asked la lm2.. maa.. so ur lessening my rice.. shes like yeah i m.. so then ur ciks wud get smaller.. m like... yeah.. faints.. ahahahha...

shit man.. i have to do something bout it!!!!!

and ada nymuk.. n she killed it.. i was like yeah umi pro.. n shes like.. yeah kan umi nyamuk buster.. ahahhahaha... pe ahh...


- soad : toxicity.. -


adam... u sudeny looked diff.. idk.. maybe lama x jumpa.. but tah.. u nmpk laen.. idk la.. maybe my head coz tdi i was high.. n2.. ma mum actually recognises u.. i mean xla ckp ohh tu adam.. but shes like ni mcm kenai ja... i was like.. ehh??really?? hhahah..


yeah.. im worried bout ezza.. shes my main point now.. i have to do sth.. i really have to.. since now.. wteva2 la.. so il have to do sth..

then bout y must ppl destroy my life.. then bout breakin n alll.. like i accept them n tke em into my life.. n i was like.. yeah.. i knw.. ohh gawd.. this is freakin me out. perghhhhhh...... xnnk fkr2!!



yeah ppl.. i have to admit.. i miss school.. ahahhahahah.. not ibrahim for gods sake.. its i miss my sweethearts.. i was like maaa.. i mnysl x p skola.. mnysl demam.. then shes like laaa.. bkn u alwiz nk pnteng xmau p ka.. m like.. no.. nt this time.. :((

i have to go n sleep..

yeah nowadays all i do is eat n sleep.. sleep#!!!!! thts all i do.. hahahha.. so at scholl i was like i want my bed!!!!!!!!!!! hehe..

ok ppl..

:)

hugs n kisses!!! weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

yeah aimans not e.. n2.. she has a mission.. not a la.. byk actually.. shes gona get well soon n get up n get back on track.. :D.. winks.. yeah yest.. i was so damn scared tht i had to be admitted.. ahhaha.. n meet my dear dr. amir again.. perghh.. then visions of sweethearts visitng me at the hosp.. ahahah.. yeah tht bd... grrr.. n m still scrd coz tkot nnti kena g amek darah.. arghhhhhh... shitz... sobz.. i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!! aihhhhhhh.......

n yash like.. go n erst tau. ur health i smore imprtnt.. ok2.. fine2.. il go n sleep.. hhehe..

xoxo ppl!!! its a big xoxo.. weeeeeeeeeeee.........

title

hari ini dan smlm.. ahhahaaha

yeah at 1216am m still awake..

i sud sleep cn so then esok at least il b kinda ok

but tah.. felt like blogging..

cm 10 years xblog.. hahahah

crapp..

so im slightly coughin.. dada agak saket.. throat mmg pedey bila batuk.. agk chunn..

dey...

now i feel lazy.. hahahhah

errrrkkk....

i got probs is it??

actually..

m tryna determine..

thts y m blogging..

haih..

how school today..

lets see.. 1st subj english literature.. part where the marriage will b held soon or wat i guess.. sad story.. ohh welll...

then ag, bm, geo hahahah... i was playig with doraemon n havin funwit it n then... tadaaa.. the most popular guy in school came.. sir alexander louis fletcher came.. hhahaha.. xpa2. .xkantoi pun.. if kantoi pun ckp.. idup ni mmg membosankan.. lemme be a kid n stupid n innocent 4 a wile.. cant i?

i have more pinks than black now..

thats sickening..

nods..

nowadays aku suka wt perangai aka moody aka emo..

perghh..

hmm..

wth m i doin.. yeah wasting my time.. increasing the rate of getting heart disease and other life threatening diseases.. ahahahah.. yeah.. thts funnn..

did i study??

nope..

i have to stop eatin byk2 till nk muntah n sleep ptg..

like il jz sleep n my ptg is just gone.. just like tht.. perghh..

pastuh mlm mmg ahh xkn wat pa sgt da.. mood merepek.. brain refuse to function.. yaddy3..

yeah........

ma mums like.. ahhh.. tmrow im going for spa..

im like i wna go!!!

dads like cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....................

not.

im like wtf??!!!

mums like yeah la its at 11..

im like.. great.. thank u..

so ma mum will b relaxin n pampered at a spa..

n me.. dieing at school as usual..

great.. just great..

yeah.. aim : facial n manicure n pedicure..

y??? saja... syok2...

so highlites for today... doraemon.. hikhik.. syg sama dia.. il tke care of it..

ahh.. bosan3.. lama gila x gila... pergh.. ahahah..

m dling albums..

yeah.. il get addicted to it.. xda keja len

lady gaga, flo rida, green day, dream theater

cant wait..

im totally gona dieeeeeeeeeeeee.....

mid year...

ok..

i wana go..

nites ppl..

sweet dreams..

with stars on..

nods..

hmm..

pening...

917pm

mata dah sepet da

hahahah

okies!!1

ma mum was like i have gud news for u

m like wat3?!!

ur dad said hes giving u permision. wether u wana go to ttn lter or not..

hehe :D

bgoih ahh.. i was also planing to wat drama or beg ma mum to tel ma dad tht m lazy to go.. what do u expect, i went to sleep at 530sth i gues.. till 6+.. then smbg tido g at hall for few mins. ahahha.. blur2... malaih gilerrrrrrrr....

sbnanya... mamat tuh.. malaih nk antaq p ttnn.. coz nmpk cm nk ujan lebat gila.. n he pun penat ahh.. so x la p!!!!!!!!!!!!


weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............

suma asking me to study hard..

my dad pagi2 buta.. ckp yuhuuuuuuuuuu.. happy bday!!!! study hard ahh..

mum mmg selalu

selalu

then he lak..

haih..

will u please at least study for me? please....

ish......

-b.. i hate it when u say like tht.. coz i mmg xley nk blah ngn ayat tu.. pwerghhh...hahahah... yeah i mcm mmg akn do tho... grrrr... -

tan lak ckp... diorang at msn nk soh mrlim nk nyanyi lagu epy bday.. n aku xp.. well ni maybe ahh..tpi cm .. tah.. cm nyesal gak...
erkkkk.. wteva la..

pa............

so i mkn till nk termuntah.. ahahha.. n pening2 coz amek too much sugar..

gee.. im already 15.. gawd... - scratching my head... -

ohh well..

wat apened today??

boringgggggggggggggggggg gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

next tym ari guru mmg xkn p da

cm mmg ntg apen la today.. ok ahh first ting smpai skola.. :).. :).. then class.. mepek2.. then dewan mepek.. suma mepek.. then balek.. balek.. mkn.. mepek2 ngn my sis.. then :)... then lagi :).. then tido.. then cats.. then now..

boring3...

but :)

yeah.. hes fine.. hes ok..

but... malaih ahh nk ckp...

haihhh...

my sis was so like la mak mentua ka........... ur bf bagi pe? pitee la kan dia ckp... then dlm card tu his name ada.. then my sis ask lima kali kot.. adam tu sapa?!!!! doi... i was luffin2... then i was like kawan ja.. then ckp la pitee bla3.. then she said.. sure pitee jeles.. i was like bla3.. adala... then she asked.. senior bapa taun? im like.. x... same form.. class atirah.. then she was like ohhhhhhhhhh... so cm na ni.. ohh dok berfoya2 la kamu nii... manakah cintamu?? i was like xdk ahhhhh... she sed.. pa yg xdk nya.. tu muka dia dokada dlm screensaver apa hal??? then dok wat bunyi2 pelik suma.. ahahhaha...

doi.....

- coldplay - yellow.. -


it is really kittyishyy... :)... thank u romeo.. :).. comey...


.. perfect strangers ...


the colour shines for u..

look at the stars..

the colour shine for u

n all the things that u do

:)

with stars on

good nyte

have sweet dreams..

932pm


incubus - i miss you


i need my teddy

ahahahha...

nods...

deep breaths...

pouting

peace out..

:D

the only ting i can do now is smile..



serious



wideeeeeeeeeeeee smile..



cm xterkata



wow...



m just like gigling



then smiling



:D



haih....



2 ja.. hehe...



xnk ahh coment.. coment len ahh.. ahahha..

okies..



so

hamsty

m yming wit ma sis..

wic shes just bside me

ahahahah

okies..

so arini...
no2...

yeah mmg ahh last nyt or we cll early hours of d mornin i was terlebey emo.. xpe2.. skli skala.. hope so la kan.. then2.. ahh b4 tht to.. adam.. adoi...

i tink his lappy n phne kena trik again i gz.. hmph.. xtau le.

so yeah.. thi sis like biggggggggg.. first tym i din talk to him today.. i mean.. last tym i chatted or heard his voice was last nite.. n ntg at all today.. since mornin.. well i usha ma phone at 1 then dk then 6,7,8,9,10 n so on til now n he xmsg.. m scrd to msg him cz jz in cse his phone withis parents.. well ada la.. at 11 sth one msg.. then thts all.. rindu sama dia... :((

sobz...

arghhhhhhhhhh

so rasa cm.. doi.......... pergh............ xtau ahh cnna nk ckp..

like the whole tym wondering how is he.. is he ok.. is he alrte.. dia tgh wat pe.. suma la..

haih..

hamsty

i miss u

m lisenin to rite round.. hmph...

then esok.. ish

dilemma.. m tinkin wther i sud p x..

tan ckp she ada fever n planin nt to go..

n me.. mmg dari the very begining ckp xna p...

then raudha g at home.. she dok ckp jgn ah p2..

then my dad pun.. yeah.. coz the ony tym he free is tmrw n mond.. then afte tht he keja till friday.. n tht he suma blek mlm.. haih...

then my sis n my dad.. i cn spend tym with em... hmm...

n fitrees like wey jgn ahh mai ahh.. ada hadiah.. aku ada.. relax ahh..

hahahaha.. mmg ahh.. u ada, mmg lawak.. eheheh

ok2.. jom cita rini..

p kendri.. mula2 tu mmg kalot gila.. bju krg tu wat babi so i jz picked this blck kurung.. ok la.. i like it.. then kalot ahh....

then dlm keta suma chill

still.

hamsty..


well i cm malaih nk cita sapa2.. hahaha.. but told tan.. m worid bout him n miss him suma..

then mmg xley nk blah till i turned to fitree n ckp i miss him suma..

hes like ala xpala.. its ok la.. dot3..

then2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yg plg chun nya

i g dating ng fitree kol 6 sampai 7 lebey at vmal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ahahhahahahha

no la.. parents dia n adek dia n muadz nk g vmall..

so lepas amek frm ttn.. terus g.. so i rmbd.. he said.. adam esok nk g vmall..

i asked y

he said tau akk at tingkt ats tu ada pa

s usual me tembak merepek.. ahahha

then he ckp gift shop

then winks

:)

:(

rindu sama dia

haihhh

azim lak ckp p la esok.. mgkin ada prkara2 best2 ka..

haih...

dilemma

so p vmall.. lepak2.. nmpk safuan.. pastuh aiman bulu..

then haaaaaaaaaaaa

i love fitree

haahhaha

took few pix
haahhaahah

yeah he made my day

cm after i told him bout my sadnesss... hahahahha

mula ahh he wat lawak.. ngn botoi dia la.. lawak dia la.. basic dia.. ahahahah

tthen amek gamba at fos.. then he tgk pastuh ckp wey pendek nya hang...

pergh

n ni my dad lak ley tanya... tym dok dlm triton

so.. how?? do u feel small in this car??

perghhhhh

patuh boley dok gelak mean.. eeeeeee.. kejammmmmmm...

then shop a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tu ahh plg chun...

ahahhahaha..

nnti mabe nk uplod at ms.. if my pge xda.. p ahh usha fitrees ms.. ahahahahha..

agk chun ahh...

ada tis part.. he n this selendang.. i took a pic of it.. then the cashier nampk.. tym his mum nk byk, the cashier tnya.. xnk beli selendang tu ka/

ahhaahhahahhaha....

then dia ckp btul la.. jarang tgk lelaki apa tah dia ckp.. ahahahahha
hebat tul...

then dok play around suma.. ahhahaah..had fun2

:D

but yeah tje whole tym i was there.. - warnin : aimans gna b pathetic.. - i was hopin to see adam there.. or even to catch a glimpse of him pun xpa.. doiii.. i hate tis.. perghhh..

but i had fun.. yeah.. i love going outing with fitrees fmly.. walaupun ni 1st.. but2 i had fun.. hehhe.. ok ahh..

was like kinda high gak ahh.. dok gelak2.. smpai muka merah.. piteee nya pasai ahh ni.. hahahha.. sayang sama dia... :)

then x cukup g.. dh ahh blek 7 lebey.. nseb xkena maki.. nii i msgd ma mum ckp late coz jam.. ahahha.. then mana tau my dad p tanya uncle malik jam terok ka? then uncle ckp x jam pun.. ahhhhhhhhhhh.. matiiiiii.. ahahah but i was like adaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! jam ckit... but adaaaaaaaaaaaaa..kahkahkah.. kantoiiiiiiiiiiii

tkot kena mki nya pasai.. hehe.. nseb bek x..

evryones cooll.. fuhhhh..

then2.. x cukup.. hahahahha
tdi dinner p vmal g.. againn....

hahahaha

so mkn at secret recipe.. li cake.. then marayau2 sat. then p melantak waffle.. yeah.. aiman dok menelan bende..

tdi after lunch daddy ckp so cake how??

nk ka?? n all..

then ma mums like no la xjdi la..

then i was like wat???????????????

i nid it man.. im devastated...

perghhh...

sooo...

i got 8gb pd... yay!!!

then this cute photo frame.. i mean with few photos in it. la.. fromma parents..

its the sweetest bdy present i pena dpt.. i tau..my bday esok.. but xsbr.. hehe.. told em i wantd at 12.. but diorg da tido.. so dpt tdi..

ok so the pix is tym me dri kecik till besar.. wel the besar was til i was 11.. but still.. its the sweeetest ting eva.. diorang g crik gmba tu...

yeah.. i ws like tersentuh.. n cm nk nges ja wen i got it..

yay!! yeah bbay.. i kissd n huggd ma parents.. x.. yg plg chun ma dad.. i cnt rmb wen was d last tym i hugd him.. n kids him..:d.. hmm..im gona do it more often tho from now on.. :).. god willing.. :)


ok2.. so m kinda addicted to the sugar sg d... gawd...

so wen for the kenduri.. yaeh the food was chun.. heehhe..

then theres an inn there.. n my dad was like.. waaaa.. ok2.. cn2.. nnti wen we r free one nite we wil come here n spend the nite here.. m like.. i so god damn knew ur gona say tht..

i tink.. esok p skola. kot..

after kenduri.. xdk pa.. p ttn then went on cm tu..

yeah.. :) i really liked going out wit fitrees femli.. ngn fitree g.. heheh..


i hope i wont regret goin to school tomorrow.. like seriously..

hishhhhh...

pa g ehh...

yeah highlites was p vmal ngn mgejut wit the maliks.. ahahahha.. his dad. man love him.. yg besnya at shop a lot.. shud take more pix.. xpe2.. if next tym jdi cm tu g.. vry 1st stop is shop a lot n pose a lot.. ahahahahh..

jom g vmal.. hahaha..

tu ja...

hmph..

:((

rindu..

hmm..

ma sis nmpk ma screen sver.. ahhahah

then she pointed to it.. mata terbeliak.. pastuhh..

eeeeeeee..........dia dah jatuh cinta..

i was like..

ahahahhaha.. nods2..

hahahahah..

then if pa2 pun.. trigt dia.. hmph... hmm..

arghhhhhhhhhhhh..............

next week!!! sat n sund!!!! yay baby!!! xda ttn.. ehh wait2.. maybe bm pun xda if nt mistaken!!!! yay!!!

elok2.. exm dkt gila.. ttn xdak.. pandai2 ahh// haih..

green day rawks man!!!!

heheh..

n2.. i got the guitar chords book!!!!!

weeeeeeeeee.... :D hehe..

ok2.. 1st person call - tan...

n shes like aiyooo 2more mins... ok2.. xpa2.. il call u in two mins tym..

ok2 so tdi at secret recipe.. dk y.. my dad xbr sgt2.. dok kalot ngt nk ni la nk tu la.. ahhaha

then2 the banana split

it splits

aahahhaha

ok2.. so 1st dharshu.. hebt tull..

then tan.. well actually tan n dharsh same tym..

then yash..

then jeeha...

ish.. now my alasan i cnt use the alasan tht m not 15 yet.. nw its... im nt 16 yet.. ahahahha..

:D

baggy pants..

935 pm



weeeeeeeeeeeee.. raudhas cmin home!!! ley ah jamin.. hehe..



n shes like.. jamming??? wey sedar ahh ckit.. lu dah form 3.. n m like.. ishhhh.. fuck ahh!!!



but wtf.. shes cmin home.. rilek ahh st.. aman idup ckit ja la.. since i cant join her wtchn lte nite muvis.. crappin tu kena kureng.. haish.. n shes gona b here sat ja.. then esok nk g dinner.. god knows wer la nk p.. if pg.. at least ada gk la some ideas.. mcm la mamat tuh nk bawak kitorg p pg.. pergh... in our dreams.. hmm.. nods..



then next day lgi chun... da skola.. n shes like jgn ahh p.. we ley p tgk citer ka pa.. she wants to bring me out.. :D.. thank u sista!! i love u.. hehe.. but still.. ill go la to school.. since evryones like p la wey.. p..

ppl.. sempena my bday.. m givin u guys cuti peristiwa.. ahahahha... bout surat nk bgi zurina tu xpa.. i cn print it for u.. n the signature tu.. tlg bgi sample then i try n forge it. k3??

ahahhahah.. cm ahh aku ni pro sgt..

okies2.. arini.. - aku cm kureng mud.. perfffggghhh... -

so bgn2.. msg2.. :D

then mandi suma.. waited cam an hour plus for ma mum.. ok la.. nseb bek la sony like no other tu tlh menemaniku.. ahahahha.. tpi cm suma lagu xkena ja... fuck..

then dia ckp ahh mula2 tu nk p cmal n tesco.. i waslike vmal??? yeah nk p mkn..

then tunggu punya tunggu.. x p!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! perghhhhh.. dia ckp ohh da lmbt dah.. kita xyah p ahh.. then i was like fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... x yh p dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

then p ja la laundry n ros.. tym laundry tu.. abang kesayangan ku call!!! he ckp cm na stni jadi x? i was like wey ur serious?? i tot it was just a joke.. ahhahaha.. so bantai la apa ada dlm my head tu ma mum n she bgi.. i was like yay!!!!!! dpt kuar!!! z dok umah!!! yezzzaaaaa!!!! hahahah.. coz its a habbit ari jumaat x dok umah.. msti at least do sth.. i was kinda like hpoin ma mum to say jom p detouch.. then bgi hint to the sisters ask to push ma mum to let me do straitenin!!! tpi x... perghh.. next tym i gz then.. haihh.. tu cm pagi2 m like wtf m i gona do today?? - cm la hmwrk n study tu xyah kan.. - so balek2.. nga2.. then kalot2.. then p clubhse..

p sana.. tah.. cm nganga.. ahahha.. cz 1st tym pa wat keja cnni.. so mula2 p chattin2.. nga2..

oh yeah my new bodyguard.. ahahahah.. azim fahmi.. waaaaaaa... aahhahah

so chattin, surf2.. then bru da akai nk wat keja.. tu lama bru boley wat..

so me, fitree, alam, azim.. ok la.. - wen ma mum fetched me.. i mean she came la.. naseb bek dri jauh g i saw her car.. if nt sure i dok mepek2 mkn craps n tym tu nk p beli g sours.. aahaha.. thank god2.. so tdi she was like how come ur d only gal?? m like.. wats wrong wit tht.. ?? --

so i was drownin maself wit nips.. sattu paket.. not gud2.. nti mula ahh.. heaty la.. n dots wud b on my face n penuh on my back n arms.. like mmg byk on ma back.. then those rashes again.. grrr.. elok2..

pastuh.. apple sourz.. ahhaha.. pastuh cloud 9 n twisties.. pastuhh the sours tuu.. hahaha.. i luv lookin at fitreess face wen he mkn tht sour tingy.. comei2.. ahhahahha

so ok la.. wat la gk geo.. x wat pendahuluan n tht 8.1 ja.. then m all set to say to azaha tht m jz doin this so tht i pass my pmr.. perghhhhhhh.. i dont give a shit..

1007pm.. nmpknya kena blah.. before il totally loose ma mud like hell.. so esok.. perghh.. p kenduri.. then ttn.. then dinner.. okies.. xpe2.. i hope i cn cope.. perghh..

- mmg tension ahh skang.. boley p mati ahh.. -

il trash later wen shes gone.. idup ni kan mmg xley aman sat ja pun.. tym2 aku nk wat keja kena ka ang dok sini. kena ka ang p on tv.. x ley ka biaq aku dok sowang2 kt hall ni tym aku msih n ada mud nk wat keja.. stni kalo aku bwk masuk laptop dlm blk kang.. kata aku melyn blue.. kata aku tgk porn..pdhl aku dgr lagu chatting2 ja pun.. tu porn ka?? i fyeala.. i do tht all the tym.. i watc porn al lthe tym.. punkoq hanh ahh.. perghhh.. geram2..

aku xtau pasepa.. evrytym niat aku bek.. sure dia dok mgta sgt.. n aku lupkn niat aku. cz aku sket ati. cm aritu.. aku nk gtqaw dah dia bout hamsty.. tpi dia dok trash2.. bla3.. wat sket ati g.. i sed to myself.. lantak p kat ang ah.h.. padan muka.. aku nkberbek2 ngn ang.. nk cita suma. ang wat cnni kt aku.. fine.. aku xkn gtaw pa2. senang.. aman idup aku. lantak p ahh..

n2.. mmg susah tul idup ngn org yg kalot.. ckit2 nk bsg. pdhl xdk pa pun.. rilek ahh man.. pa kes sikit2 nk bising.. angkat beg letak ats almari ja pun tlg my dad dok nk bsg2.. ko kecoh pa?? tu i din actaully get pissed. wel lwas abit. but my dad dok wt muka funny dia dok bgi huge n wide n funny n yet cute my daddy face like.. so i pun gelak2. senyum2 wat rilek.. kalo x tdi da maki gak ahh.. angkat beg ja pun.. len kali if me n ma dad nk wt keja.. blah ahh.. tok sah menyebok.. xdk beza pun.. wel ada la beza.. dunia x aman.. tu dt tym dia g kl.. fuhh.. aman damai idup.. tinggl me n daddy ja.. perghhhhhhhhhh.. ff..

slipknot- psychosocial

- sth apen to adam.. i even teragk2 to msg him.. wel did .. tu pun tanya bout folio geo just to cover up just in case phone dia wit his parents.. i hope evrtns fine.. --

-pandangan baru n perubahan sikap.. caughtmy eye.. idk wt m tryna say or mean tho.. il tink bout i tlter.. -

my dad.. just like tan.. he sweats like damn hel a lot.. mcm bru mandi siyot tadi.. then i was like u just bathed is it? he said. yeah u wan a hug from me..? i was like yeah y not? i dont mind.. ahhaha..

n fuck.. tym nk exam nih.. ma mums like showing signs shes gona fall sick again..

fine.. bare with it aiman.. just bare.. dah la nedt week like monday til thurs my dad wud b workin full tym n bz.. thank u god.. thank u. i so dont appreciate it.. life cnt get any better..

slipknot - the nameless

ok2.. so mmg benda nih dh lama.. last month.. but still ... i dint go for sggs carvinal.. altho i heard it wasnt as nice as last two years.. but still i cud meet em al n all n all.. perghhh..

ok2.. let me mourn sat.. cn i ??

like this.. ppl ckp yes mmg the past is wat u r.. i agree.. the past is who i m now.. but2.. wats the point of rmbing the past if it just hurts u n hurts u tht u cnt n ur nt n ul neva eva b there again.. duhh.. ur nt even near to the place.. so it hurts me coz m just nt evn there anymre.. so im forgettin it.. yes i agree.. if u ask me bout my life in pg.. probably part of it ive forgotten bout it.. so yeah no one pretty much knws hows my lifes like back in pg.. well part of it malina ja tau. she knws pretty much byk gak ahh.. then tan,yash,geeha..

i just dont want to rmb it.. mcm wats d point.. but sme may say its gud n all n part of ur life.. thts wat my mum says.. but she'l neva und.. its my life. used to..

n its no point pun if i let evrtn out.. n smpai nges suma to someone.. coz its jst not gona help me in anything.. at all..

or even tell ppl.. no point.. useless man..

well thts wat i tink.. some may say u shud rmb it n all.. its part of u rlife..

lemme tell u sth.. tht part of my life.. id like to forget bout it.. put it aside.. n try to move on.. evntho i dont pretty much seem like i cn.. ill survive

kinda like lost huh???

yeah.. to move on is to forget the past.. tho its not correct but il jz go on..

haih.. all of this part.. all the above.. is goin no where!! of cz its not!!!

wat will then?

miss..

even the word itself is mkin me teary.. -- yeah i know adam.. gals.. i cnt help it.. m still a gal tho with a boys name.. --

after pmr.. tym cuti.. im gona get out of asspee.. idc wer.. just get me out of here..

--- hahahaha.. aiman2.. u tink u actually can?? nk get out of rumah pun kira considered lucky la.. ---

yeah.. i admitt.. if dh lama gila2 x p pg.. well like 2minggu kan.. then wen ma parents ckp ok ur goin to pg tomorrw.. fuhhh.. m like.. yes.. at last.. at least m out of asspee.. itl b abonus if dpt tido pg for a nite.. mg la kat otel pun.. but at least. m like yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! il b out of asspee!!! yeah dt day i was jumping sky high. even yash was like aiman r u ok???

no m not okay..

yeah i misskak sitis food..

i miss the tym i cn go to her n hug her

i miss the tym wer i cn just go to her n yack away any fucking sht i want

i miss talking to her

i mis hugging her

i miss her scent

i miss her

- sket pala dah.. -

yeah its not tht she'l be back again

n its nt that if even she's back.. ma mums gona b cool wit it..

too baddd maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............

its not my fault i love her..

well wat is my fault actually?

in my whole life

i feel like throwin that fucking damn question straight at ur face..

its nt my fault m the ony gal u have

n plus its a gal

n plus anak tunggal

not my fault i terlebey syg daddy sejk kecik

nt my fault i rpt ngn other ppl since small

well even now..

nt my fault

nt my fault i love n make my fathers children as my own siblings..

well if u dont, do i seem like i care?? n if u already know i do, cant u und???


i know!!!! mourning over anything its so such a waste of tym..

but i cant help it.. i dont get it y must evrything b this way..

hhahaa.. will i ever knoe n figure it out in the first place..

i do envy ppl who have choices in their life.. yg thres yes or no in them..

i envy my siblings.. mmg.. they had vry hard tyms.. at a young age... then suma cm upside dwn n all.. but at least u guys.. u guys have each other.. n i have no one.. n im jealous of tht.. dri dulu g.. u guys r like 2gdr.. mmg la ada xngam n all.. but still u have each other.. n i just dont..

n il neva will.. of cz la i wont..


yeah.. life is alwiz with false hopes n dreams.. but what to do.. u have to lie rite..

perghhh..

n theres alwiz an ending in evrything..

thats life..

facts of life..

bare it..

accept it..

live with it..


i think thts enuff i gues.. evntho byk g nk ckp..

nods..

NWZ - E436F

ohhh my fucking shitttttttt............. that damn video player is in my fucking hands!!!!!!!!!!! booooooyeahhhhhhhhhhh..

the moment i saw the box.. i was like..... yeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

but2.. its balck.. n ada red2 ckit.. then... its small.. well no la.. not small i gz.. but thin.. n lite.. its like a toy... doiiiiiiiii... so its gona b hard for met o tke cre of it.. but wth.. i have too!!!!!!!!! geeeeeeeeee..

hows school today.. hmm.. lets see.. mula2 mt.. shes killin us.. hahahah.. no we kinda like kllied ourselves i gz.. like n one actually buat.. ada la buat.. tpi majority x. dont ask me wat apen tho.. then kh.. ohh yeah on the way to kh. that kitty.. doi.. i cnt bring her home.. especially shes pregnant then kittens.. my dad will kill me!!!

then2.. emm..

- adam.. i nid ur help.. erghhhhhhhh.. -

223 pm

sobz no camwhoring today.. everyones like kalott n all.. we thot boley gila2 n all today.. but fuck.. nope.. kalot ahh.. then agama okies.. then english ok.. then geo n bm. lib... pss mmg xdk lagu len nak men.. i lisen to it everyday.. try putin other songs.. other interesting n more lively songs.. darpd mcm ohh gawd........... hmm.. then.. ezza..

ikkkkkkkkkkkkkk......

thn blek suma xpa..

niiiiii........... my dad tu.. cerdiksgt.. i mean bukan his fault la.. dh biasa sellalu dok pum petrol.. nk wt cnna.. he said dia mmg nk ltk diesel.. dh nmpk dah.. but sudeny terletak petrol.. pandai2.. nods.. buat lawak tul mamat tuhh.. so esok la dpt keta tu blek.. rindu sama dia..

geleng2.. i cant believe he did tht..

arrrrrrrrrrrrr...... buntu.. agak.. hmm..

breathe in breathe outt .. tho..

coldplay - yellow

guitar2.. i need my guitar.. bye2.. oinksssss......

happy three friends.. lalalalalala....

1109pm

decided not to do my mts.. hahaha.. but2 at least mission for tonite is do some studyin or ltihn at least.. next wik exam.. yeap i have to remind myslf constantly.. tpi xberksn pun.. m still bloggin.. stil in frm of d lappy.. great.. just great..

aziz..

i love him..

hehe..

anberlin - inevitable..

nods.. bes.. lyn.. hikhik..

tx malina..

ok aziz.. zizziz.. hahahha..

okies so ziz..

eherm.. he was like if tahun ni.. skrang ni.. dah bulan 5.. if u jatuh cinta tahun ni.. dok dating2..
especially bulan lima ni.. mmg.. bukan nk kata u akn fail tpi akn terjejas.. tpi if dari form two
xpa.. go ahead.. tpi mcm if both of u study.. bgi kata2 hikmat. dok sama2 ckp u a, i a, u a, i mesti dpt a.. berusaha sma2.. xpa.. boleh..

fuh..... at least lega dgq cm tu.. i was like wtfs.. dhla dia ckp cm serious.. mulut ternganga.. mata terbeliak.. hhahah.. i seriously thot m gona b dead.. but huhu.. x2.. fuhhh.. xpa2.. :).. we can do it.. strive for excellence togther. ahahha.. ngee :D


-- i tink il b dling anberlins.. huhu.. --

ohh2.. adam dpt phne blek!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeee..... wen he msgd.. i was like... w t f ? ! ?

hahahahah.. so dok senyum x abes2.. hikhik.. now pun.. maddddddddddd..

yeah..

aziz was telling us about well.. truth about life.. i mean.. ada la.. its very shocking.. n i myself feel ashamed altho im not fully... but still.. m part of it.. n i feel ashamed.. cm sedey.. nyesal ada gak.. cm ngn pa g.. cm ish.. jdi cm ni.. cm bodo gila.. rugi.. bodo.. cm ngn pa..have to do sth.. but entah la.. tu ahh.. pepatah cina tu mmg btui gila.. nods.. geleng2..

susah ahh nk ckp.. xley wat pa.. perghhh.. terima ja la hakikat.. pergghh

future..

haih..

eternity.. :)

hopes

nods..

1127pm.. m going soon.. hmm lets see wat hapened today??

cm xjdi pa tau.. ok2.. hmm.. mula2 sej.. ok j.. then bm.. xdk pa.. then rehat.. ok2.. :). hten kh.. mmg ok.. oh yea camwhoring sat.. then ag.. cm tu ja.. xpa.. then2 seniiiiiiii... ok la.. xpa pun.. had fun ja.. dia x beletiaaq..sgt kot.. so xpa.. then blek.. then men gitar.. ohh n bju kena sirap.. thank god ckit ja.. ntg major tho.. xpntg pun.. doi ari ni mmg x exciting.. ahh then mkn.. then tried nk book flite.. then gitar3!!! tpi jari xsket g.. then video guitar lagiiiiiii.. then tidoq.. smpai my bedsheet basah coz lupa nk on aircond.. then tym nk on.. aircond tu buat perangai.. so i was cursing the damn aircond like hellllllllllll.... then bgn2.. cats.. then nmpk he msgd!!!!!! ngeeee..
then mad2.. then mndi.. then ttn.. then blek.. then now.. abes..one day gone.. just lke tht..

wers d excitement man????

ohh yeah from a goldfish i changed to a piranha.. ahhahah.. perghhh... stil.. im both tho.. ahahha

still yet.. 12 may 2009.. :) a day to remember.. hahah

my new lawyer .. - tan xin yee.. ahahaha




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51cWRrZdkwk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh0VX74alwk&feature=related

i find it.. tah.. cool ahh..


its 1226am... n m stil in frnt of the lappy.. burning my tym.. watching videos.. bout guitars so be exact... perghhh...

nites.. hmph.. hmm..

jiwa xkeruan

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone I

f I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well

Just know that these things
will never change for us at all

-mngtowk.. nk tidoq.. m ibothered?? a bit.. laa.. mcm.. imy.. then this tow other persons.. mmg xda mslh.. but i have to think bout it.. nods.. hmm.. --

nites..

with stars on ..

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.

I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."

So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know,
you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.

I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.

Cos you were all "Yellow,"
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I'd bleed myself dry for you,
I'd bleed myself dry.

It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

12th may 2009 n2.. spending tym together.. :)

:)



mula2.. big thing at 1215pm..



geleng2... i know.. its xpatot.. but wt the heck.. idup hanya skli.. n if u hv the chance n evrtn seems kinda fine.. go for it man..



then.. i tink it was at 440pm.. doi.. i was flying sky high.. hahaha



then my mum msgd ckp.. dh smpai at d gate.. perghhhhhhhhhhhh..



haix.. cm xsanggup siyott..



then pun by 5 dh da kat depan..



n i was like.. yeah sat ja.. sat ja g.. kena balek dah.. hmm.. nods...



but yeap.. i xwat keja lgsung.. perghhh..



n x gila3... perghhhh...



tpi ok la.. gelak2 suma tpi cm tah.. ahahahh



kureng spices??



maybe...



haih...



baru ja balek umah.. tpi dh rindu sma dia.. ang gila ka aiman???



xpa2... m gona use this as a pendorong 4 me.. dont ask me how it make sense but it does to me tho.. thinking back again.. i dont see how its gona b my pendorong.. but tdi... idid.. erkk??



ohhhh.. yeah.. i just rmbd.. ahhahah.. ok2.. so it mkes me sense to me.. thoo...





one more.. im just scrd.. bout tis one thing.. m i being to over?? no.. the ting is.. yes u are to over it.. but.. mcm.. thts how it goes.. no not tht its how it goes.. just cm.. idk.. tinking back again.. its wrong.. n its all gona go wrong.. idk... erkkk..... shrieks.. oxygen.. help..



xpatot ahh kan.. tpi cm.. aku pun gila.. pstuh nk wt cna.. tpi fikir future ngn benda2 len.. xley canni.. haih.. buntu.. i cnt tell tis to anyone.. hmm..

hmm..

so i have to just go on with it.. i mean think of a way.. on myown.. nods..

ni... its now exactly one month and 9 days.. hmm..

:)

so far.. ok.. hmm..

malaih ahh nk blog.. byk nk tulis.. tpi cm dilemma. ahahahah..

kiss me thru the phone..

byes..