keja accounts mmg bodo ckitttt ja.

aku nk p makan. tension !

that story. well boring a. tp tah. its just wow. i wont sell ppl ok ! hahaha

m bored. sleepy. kena tido. tp xmau. uhuhhuhu!

keja xwat. study x. good life ~

say it again

im sneezing, tp malaihnk pkai bju. hahahaha.

ok so ok im bored la. nk study ( like dari dlu lagi aku dok ckp ) mlas. homework ada gakkk. still accounts n mths.

booyeah ! makan3 ! heee.

n what. i dont like u. n what. i dont think ur hot. n what. i think ur hot. hahaha

i feel sickkk. lack. of. food. hik2.

xtau la rini nak wt pa.

i know, one is to really get rid of the freaking scratches !

abg rafael suda balekkkk. huhu

walk away from the sun

so a question, yet again. what will i be when i grow up ? ok. the only thing i like at school is ok english, addmaths, maths, biology, history ( coughs, but i failed for my sej tis month ! ) n accounts not bad. n im into music and animals. note that i can even barely play a full song on guitar. well except hey there delilah tu pun simplified version. bravo aiman bravo. haih. shows how pathetic n how im just not really gonna excel in anything. but i dont mind n i can for piano tho. hi hi hi. gah !

so this guy tadi came to my hse, kak dianas ( my cousin ) bf. the thing is, i like him wayyyyyyyyyy better than my so called future brother oh so not in law. even i saw him less than a minute. so ok i was mean to dad by telling him i like that guy better than him n he was yes seriously amek kaki dia n kicking my butt.. whattttt ? at least he acknowledged me n pretended as if i was there and exhisted rather than that mamat. he said hi n whatnot. padahal mamat tu, pergh ! xsuker ! 3rd day of raya is shit ! somebody come and pls oh pls save my life !!!!!

yeah once i dont like, i really dont.

someoneee just msgd me n tnya i got bendera. im sory. saya tidak patriotik. langsung.

dok kat sp mmg mengarut. pa pun xdak. good places for food, nope. decent places to shop, nope. nice cinema, not really. ( ok so i should be grateful coz my parents didnt move to kelantan or whatnot, but2 johore is goodddd )

todayy. lets see. i got bio. dang la wey ! one more rite n tada ! an a. but no m not gona ask even if norida wants to give. let it be. tomorrow bye2 school ! heee !n yeah. i come to school to study. but lets see. sej cikgu msok lmbattttt. tym er sivik mmg xdak pa. oh finish up maths homework. hee. then addmaths xdak ! haih. then mt ok a. bio n chem mmg merapu. ok so my dad n my so called idk la abang ? so not abang bt him la. let me play with fire time chem. hahahha. n no i didnt enjoy it coz xtau cana. =.= i know its just fire. lidi n bunsen burner. can i be anymore dumb? i didnt enjoy it. so u see, might as well i stay at home n just go for ttns ja an. stupid la wey !

n texting is a bit saddening for me. just look at my hands ! mcam accident oh. hahah

dont think about family. dont think about raya. dont think about being lonely. life should be perfect. oh school should die also.

ok la. brigther side. u know, hahah. me n anusha. we were talking about kindy memories and moments. do u know when u were kids, ok its just us, hahaha, when u xmo kawan dgn that someone u kinda like use ur pointy n like do sth idk la how. its just so effing funny. we luffed like hell. tah. cam bodo gla. n it went on n on.

ok so i do feel like taking the cervix prevention cancer whateve shot. since dah kena shot xla saket, so jom amek lagi. hahah. just dont hit it .

i realllyyyyy feeelllll like sleeeepingggg.

ok so tadi first time, in my whole freakinglife, i slept with a cat. (= but then my dad bising la tu pun i just said mia slept at the cornerrrr of my bed, not beside me n i was hugging her. heee. i know. i m quite worried bout the fur n whatnot but mannn. i love her okayy. n shes very sweet. heee. sukaa. n then so she slept on my hand. then i tetido dah then tergerak my hand, then of coz she meowww ! dang. hahah

but then i have to study maths trig, n phy lagi. phy ttn tadi was like teacher, ur speaking alien language. hahaha. coz last week xp an. gah.

ok suda. m off to sleep. so lazyy.

keje tau, main3 !

pastuh exam xlepas mule la bising.

ape kes ?

tgk diri sendiri dulu ar !

( =.= )

like an ocean yeah !

spagety siap. pizza siap. hahha. so my mums like aiman kalo xmo tlg p masak la, dah xmo tolng ( in an angry tone ) me dgn yea xsdap badan n after the drama an i cam dh la ngntuk ngn bebai pastu tgk rumah semak mmg la aku xbuang suma benda. so i wanted to say ma, bukan man xmo tlg, tp man nk buangggggggg sumaaaaaaa. hahha. so i was like okayh ! n i did. but i didnt do byk pun, pdeyh kot tgn kna ayaq.

ok so i got up at 10. turun2 bersihkan kucing. so time to letak mia in goldfishs cage. so i nmpk da la stocking. tym nak angkat letak dlm cage mna nk tau minah tu mai n nak gigit mia. mmg panic a. i terrlepas jap mia then tgkp balek n i was like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! hahah. satu neighbourhood dgq i gz. after thattt.... tgk2 i was shaking like hell. my tgn kena calaq. tu ja. dgn kulit ckit2 kluaq. hahah. the best part is i got anti tetanus shot. yeahhh. my mum la an.u know her. n i thot my dads gona screw me coz i took that shot, but he din. haha. n its 25bux. cheap. coz i rmbd, pg, the alcohol swab itself dah like 100. mepek an. so m just worried if ada scars. but its not severe. time injection i was like jap2, let me gelak first. n i did. hahaha. so do not hit my left hand or i will kill uuuu. hee

kelmarin, was penat. haha. p ipoh, dok jap. lepak, sembang, balek. bwk mia balek. n i cried. hahah.

n td. dang. i was like she doesnt tell me anything!! to my parents. idk la y, tu mlas nk fikir. xmo tau lgsg la. nk kata xsuka, suka, maybe entah la. malas nk ckp.

n yes. weekend ni mmg. keja rileks ja. heee. esok la start keja.

n doiii. malas. nak. fikir.

=)

- im still craving for basking robbins. hee n slurpee. nak beli lagiiii.

damn. aku tgk gambar berbuka, damn. saket ati x le p.

i learned sth.

kalau x suka something, xpa, biar, jangan disebut.

WE LOVE LIKE VAMPIRES !

booo ! baboon butt !

saya macam ular sawaaa ~

actually, im bored. hhahha. muhammad rafael ada di rumah. esok saya akan berjumpa dgn noor raudha n mi-ah. =)

n saya akan bangun awal lagiiii. n saya suka lagu itu.

saya telah mendengar cerita nya, seronoknya, saya - wish - saya telah pergi, dan boleh pergi. syok nya x terkata.

saya tidak tahu kenapa saya sedang bercakap sebegini. ( excuese my bm pleaseee )

and to talk english to my dad, u have to talk proper english or he wont understand. which i have a hugeeee problem in it. gah

wayang jom ?

shopping jom ?

baskin robbins jom !

- smacks on my forehead ! -

chupacabra - goat suckers

XD !

You move through my body like an ocean yeah
Didn't take you long to get to my heart
I stood on your porch in the commotion of
The bustling city and it's busy heart well
I sat in your room and played my six string yeah
Laid back and stared up at your ceiling well
Your hair looked so good over my shoulder now
We're getting older, time has no hold on me
But she's got
She's got control over me

Tonight has lasted long enough
The sun is coming
From dusk 'till dawn we tear it up
The sun is coming out
I just want to hear your sounds
We love like vampires
You'll be lost and never found
Dancing the underground

I think that I've lost all of my feelings
No, I think it's you that last all of the meaning
When the world turned around and around yeah
The love that we found has gone drifting away
She's always drifting
She's always drifting away

Tonight has lasted long enough
The sun is coming
From dusk 'till dawn we tear it up
The sun is coming out
I just want to hear your sounds
We love like vampires
You'll be lost and never found
Dancing the underground

You know I said you never
You know I say
Oh yes it so well
You know I said you never fight fair
You're always jumping on my back
You bite my neck like a bad habit,
Yeah now it's all coming back

Tonight has lasted long enough
The sun is coming
From dusk 'till dawn we tear it up
The sun is coming out
I just want to hear your sounds
We love like vampires
You'll be lost and never found
Dancing the underground

sparks the rescuee ~

so i said to my mum, saja ja an ( just to try my luck ) ma, later my friends akan berbuka at sp inn today. she just oh. JUST OH. so i just sengap ja la. then she tmbh g ckp fud dkat sana so so ja. haih. i wanted to say idc la sdp ka x, ( mula2 aku xsdp pun aku mkn ja as long as its eatable n telan-able ) as long as i dpt berbka with my friends. haih. mcm ni la.

but and so next year xdak dah cmni. next year last dkat ibrahim, last with u guys. for God's sake, u have to stop doing this to me ! rarrr !

muviiisss. tp cam mls lak nk tgk. n yes i m worried bout accounts folio. gah. esok ipohhhh. sangap baskin robins yg teramt sgt. hahah. n slurpeeee tho i just had it last nitee. esok wat pizza again. hahahah

- u know the visit ilman pun i tkot my parents xbagi esp tu hosp an..... ) geez.

school is urgh. xla boring but boring. get what i meannn.... yerrr. tadi boring smpai i men games on gideon kkkkk.....

n omg. jessy wong. i xcaya. ahaha.

fine. im confessing. i rindu penang ok. i rindu all of them ok. i rindu sggs ok. i rindu life there ok. but no i dont wana think about it. and no i dont wana talk bout it.

sudah.

dear gatsby hair wax,

i cannot predict you.

i cannot read your mind, unlike you.

i dont like you reading my mind btw.

i dont like this !

tho in a way, i still do.

memanggg... (= aku syg ang sgt2 !

Ps. Bila kita nk kluar berbka? N make sure kluar tym raya.

It matters not how tall you grow, but how straight you go.

- im just fascinated with the first part. Haha -

I want my dad. Thats all i want.

KalO aku xturun makan td pun xpa. Fuck betul.

N yes. Of coz. I always n still do have a feeling of going as far away as i can from here.

So mum n dad. Im so sorry.

Do you know this thing called pigg...? Yeahhh...

Sahur talk bersama muhammad rizal

Firstly. My dad bg greenlight. He said u shud have prof. Qualifications then later in life u can go somewhere else n work. The word is aiman u can go n work overseas. N in terms of studies, he said study la pandai2 since u do hv sth in ur brain, then u can decide whther u wna be here or go somewer else.

In living in somewer else, its either i work der or mary someone frm thre. So i said chances r marry someone thre. But the hes lke i thot ur nt gona get married. N iws lke oh yea i forgot. Haha.

If u do send me to mrsm dr form one, trust me dok sna 10thun pun il sy its hell. If u send me to uitm pun, trust me im not gona lke it. But i do knw if its easier if i study there n whtnot i do have to adjust instead of thnkg al those ritee. Or nottt.

So u knw the one kind group. Yeah. So my mum said maybe its me, its us. I knw we din really try but i knw i cnt. In my whole life dr kecik.I dont evn knw wht to talk about with them except for hmwrk n studies. N wth m i gona talk to them again? I dont wtch or read bout malay entertainment.i dont even know i suppose. This is bad.

See im tlkg bout sensitive issues. N i cant let it out here. Too sensitive. So itl remain in me.

Oh yea. My mum totally disagrees of cz. Hve i ever told u tht we nvr see eye to eye except fr once in a blue moon n tht i can count with my fingers hw mny tyms miracles happen bitwin us. Aku smpai kena halau dr sesi perbncgn itu. Hahan.

N m nt sleepg da. I do hope i survive later.

Lucky and being grateful is the word. You should.

Baaaaaaahhhhhhhhh......! - rayman raving rabbids

tadaaaa.... =D

ok. so harap2 dia nmpak la ckit ke-pizza-an-nya.

n2. xsabaq nk raya. coz nak pkai bju raya. muahahah.

n then. tadi i was looking kan. n then i ws like omg ur so cute(from my heart btw). tis cant be happening ! n i dont want it to happen !

i have nothing to do with you anymore.

Nocturne

Its almost 4am n im nt sleepy. Haha. But kinda tired.

Im stil not satisfied with my playlist coz thrws stil screamos n emos. Gah

guess wht i studied? Admts statistics ja. Dari kol 1. Pa kess. Gah!

Subj laen blum lagi. Ok so maths ok bole da cover. Bm ckt. English mums gona teach me. Haha. Dang wey sej kna bca. Admts
half way. Coordnte mmg rar! Phy xtau satu pa. Chem mslh gak. Agma cktttt ja. Bio another case. Acc kna wt lthn. Ha. Ok da la tu.

Im.

Dead.

im deleting byk lagu gila n replacing it with happy2 tenang2 songs. hee. =)

ok. i know. i was half way thru addmats-ing, sudenly teringat accounts ( aku xwat pun, print jarrr )

n carik2 dgr2 lagu.

music talk is niceee.

bju kelawar n etc3 is wayyy awesomeee !

hik2. (=

i love u guys. =)

Mayo boy!

I am sooooo happy that the piza didnt taste awful. Compared to lasagna last week, this is a success! Muahahah. Dad says its good. Heee

So jz kna ltak moreee ciz, oregano n pineapple perhaps. - note: diz hse is vegy haha -

ok. Marilah kita study. Im jz =') heee!

P/s. Btw. Idw talk to u at all. But i wana talk to another u. It makes me feel better.

Buat pizza pulak.

From giant to tesco, btw i jz love the new bt not new tesco.sukaa.

So im pretty tired. Dh la xstdy lgi. So m off to sleep. Mlm ni serious kna stay up n tgk aft sahur cna. Yeah mula la my sleeping tym berterabur. Bt xpla. Its knda cool.

N yes. I love my bju rya. N its my own money. I feel bad coz mum alrdy bought one fr me bt i tell u, i dont lke it evn a bit. So td p la cri n she was knda tired da i gz n even offered nk perbtulkan d bju coz its too big fr me suma so i feel realllyyyy bad.Mula2 ada purple but to big. Ada blck n purplish n vry lwa but too small. Rar. So dpt la pinkish n purplish. Ok la. I like it. =)

I still nak handbag. Hahahah. Nt lke dtttt hndbag bt sth lke tht. N crocsss. Huhu.

So sahur just now wass errr eem. A blur. Haha. Nrmly abes2 mkn il go up n sleep coz ada skola. Tu pun pyh la nk bgn an. Aku sentiasa xckp tdoq. Hik2. So my parents were like comela sit hre faw. U got ni schl. So i was lkenohh okay then duduk la.

Idk my dad dok ckp pa act. Ngantuk. Haha. I heard economy, malaysia still affordable. Oh take care of urself. He said even u have ur bros n siss, they themselves have their own probs, so if u dont tc of urself, no one is. Which is true, n scary. I mean yeah tym to be a grown up. Then i dok trbyang duduk dkat uU. haha. N he said again, dont depend on ppl. Yea2 i knw, i quite passed that part of my life on dpnding on ppl so mc kot. Kot. N btw, my mum doesnt agree to all these. Shes like so wht other kinds of moral values u wnt to instil in ur daughter. I looked at her n almost said the most saket ati ting i can say. Bt i was lke anyways la. Lantak p. Its betterto let it be n shut up.

Oh n australia. Dads lke bla3 la an. Nak p qld lagi. Hee.

So i miss those moments. Again.

So yes of coz it doesnt hurt to let ur parents know A lil bit about ur life esp the part where wen someone cant >~€|££|£{.

So know thy know, i hate £\£~!|¥|

Forsaken

One little two little three little indians. N it went on. And that killed anusha, sha i gz, muhaimin, naim n syahmie. Hahaha. I yes during maths -dont blame me okayy. I finished my test already- i sang that song. I unleashed my not so childish side hahah. It all started with syahmie singing barney or somesort n yeahh d orchestra n d irritaing hmm-ingg hahah n vivaldi! N continued with over the rainbow. I was soooo bored okayyy. N read kuso high school? Idk la wht i read n its bodo2 n i gelak. Haha. N songs. N text a bit. N urut2 mulut
coz retainerrr bt i knda lke it. =) arini xla emo sgtn wehe.

So my parents esp my dad sukaaa sgt ckp psai tooot. So he was lke wht happen to the other two teeshirt. M like bla3 la an. Then Bla3 n I jz smiled n wht muka bodo n mums like ala ^*** ja pun. M like yea u tell that ^******. N m like -@@$;&;&& ! N got up n washed d plates. Then smbg g, mums like ^^|^~^~ im like nods yes exactly. Mums lke mana bole mcm tu. M like haaaa tau xpa. N dads lkee -8;&(@(@ m like yeahh n mums lke im also like that wht. Bt i said at least -$;@;@/". N she pun owhh. Then i said /&;&&;; is the worst /&;&&;/ for now. N dads like y? Then i was jz too lazy to go further. Coz if i do start, idk how to stop.

What i find interesting.

1. A guy buying a packet of ribenna on his own n drinking it. Hahah.
2. A guy who cares so much bout his hair - conditioning xpna miss, siap pkai elseve lagi. Mmg respect-
3. I still do love spikey hair but when a guy suddenly just let his hair go normal n down, omg wow.

- mmg fuck la wey. Excuese the f, im so sory -

ok. So idl someone in my class. That person is ugh. In a way yes u deserve it, in a way nt really. Ppl like that i tell u shud be captured, tied and shipped off to a far2 away remote island n let them kill each other ya know.

Ahad sUda exam. Ididnt cover anytg mannn. Rarrr. N my throat kinda feels weirdd. Not goood.

Learn basic grammar will u?! Dhla not good, ada hati nak correct org. Tlg la weyy. Aku tau niat ang baek tp tlg la fkr cktttttt ja. Xbyk k.

The qs is. What do i want to be when i grow up? What course am i into and that suits me? Am i going local or overseas? Shud i just get credit for my bm? Yes aimless that is.

Another qs. What do u want from me? What do u expect me to do? Is it so hard for u to und? Im talking simple english btw. Yes, if so
all u told me, really, what do u expect me to do? I still have a life on my own. Thats y i say, think bfre u do anything. U know ur own ur own now.

I hate being told to do things. N tadi mum was like study aiman m lje =.=! rosak jer moooddd. No wonder n thank god dadys not that type. Hes lke kamu suda bsar, ada akal dan pemikiran yg smprna dan agk pndai walaupun xmatang, pndai2 la kamu hidup n deal with things. So pandai2 kamula nk study ka x. Coz bkan my dad yg nk keja, i yg nk keja. My life, my future.Nnti bsaq i snri gak yg kna keja, idup sniri, cari duet snri, xkan nak bergantung dkat mak bpak smpai ke tua riteeee... So fikirkanlah.

Another qs. Again. U r nice, but whats ur motiive? Do u mean sth behind it or ur just being like always? Like how u always are? how bout that ^^^? u do und me, tq i really do appreciate it. U do keep me company all the tym n fills up the lonely times n pretty much knows a lot bout me, but gah.

Jom. Study. N i dont lke kerja kursus accounts!

I didnt get up for sahur to go thru a sickening part of my life ( well not really but almosttt )

Daddyyyyyy....! Pls oh pls let me go to shanghaiiii....!!!!

Tho mmg idk wht to do there while k.raudha is working but i. D. C. !

I wana gooooo....!!

louder than thunder

u have A LOTT of time. while im here, trying to cut down my sleep n fit in studying. tu pun xterjalan. that is also including abandoning my homework. lifes great huh ?

sad thing is exam is on sunday. gahhh. y not on tuessss.

malay dramas are all crappy. i mean, dang, make sth real will u ?! esp movies gak. dang !

skola. oh yea. time balek. sometimes after the whatever the whole day, i prefer walking alone with songs on. just alone, yes walaupun jauh perjlnan, i just need some time on my own.

im eating a lot again. haha.

suka circular measures ? ka ? hahah. i just like that topic.

- who are u dating with rite now ? seriously ur not dating with anyone ? -

* what would it take *

Hang gila.

So i watched the dino cartoon just now with my parents. Haha.

How bout being a kindergarten tcer? Hahaha. Trust me, by the end of the day, all the kids in my class wud have been killed by my very own hands. Hahah

Dang! I saw u half naked againnn...!

TheRe must be more than simply being Plain lazy

why do i hate going to scholllll...?!!

Walaupun, ya benar, sya sebenarnya dalam plan menguruskan badan pada bulan ramadhan ini, tetapi nampaknya plan ini tidak berkesan langsung.

Bukan shaja saya memboolatt, tetapi saya sedang menghampiri rupa bentuk doraemon saya yang dahulu.

- smacks on my forehead -

Bikinis on!

ok. So i jz realized the baju krung that has been in my wardrobe since idk when is my baju raya for tis year.

U know wahtttt......

I rather be naked then wear that baju.

-i already dh ckp jgn beli bju rya, idw, tgk la. Gosh! Never ever buy anything esp bju rya without my knowledge. Esp when i said out loud that i dont want it..! If its stg tat i want or like xpla, ni xlgsg!! Mmg raya satni ada drama, do not force me to wear dat baju..! Im not gona wear it! If u make so much noise, u wear it! Goshhh! -

on the brighter side for raya, i am gona have good food aka p la jgak braya dkt rumah org wich initially idt they planned to go aniwer, n3 i guess it wont be a lonely raya afterall. =)

Baju raya for 2010 - BABY SUIT !

Got no reason

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time
Don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God
Amazing that we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news, all the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises, just write it into an album
Seen it straight to go
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time
Don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm ick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time
Don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time
Don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Homemade pizza much?

So later nk p tesco, buy sth n whatnot. N m lke ok cool so i cn luk thru recipes n find stuff to buy. N so m like ok cool wekeend bole wat. N mums like wat ja la evryday. I ended up saying itttt out loud. - idw go to school -

m bored. I have to study. =( dang wey dang!

Idw go to schoollll!!!

Ok so nnti nak wt bread pudding!!

Weheee. So i say it again. I rather do 50 lasagna -trial n error- smpai sempurna n sedap rather than goin to school!!

a condition u cant sweat out.

recovering from lasagna sadness. hahah

i. am. devastated.

my very first lasagna

ok. so u see. its like a disaster. n it isss !

im not happy with it. no i xlalu nak mkan. haha.

- not enuf chiz, no taste. the u know, the main ingredient seems missing. no salt n pepper perhaps ? dang. idkkk.

- this will be the last time im gona make lasagna.

mood memasak. =)

firstly. dont judge a lasagna by its look. i m honestly scared to eat it, n oso the spaghetti goreng yg i xpuas ati langsung. haha. what if i dont live to tell how it taste like. hahaha. its like poison u know.

so the lasagna i did 98%. heee. coz my mum set up the oven n put it in n oso did the chicken. the rest was me. =) yes aiman sgt syok. hahah. sooooooo. next nak pie n pizza. =) n so i was like bla3 - uknow, my excited tone, the speed of me talking - to my dad of what i did today. n he imitated. n i was like =.= hmm.

so the lasagna mmg. before baking it, my god, its a DISASTER. serious. dhla suppose to have ciz sos, beli wrong cheese, n im not really a big fan of ciz so boh p ja la. n then xcover suma atas tu thats y it kinda like exploded. hahah. but yeah i had fun.

i cant wait for esok. heeee. yes the moment of miracles. in erm an hours time. mg !

act today that was all i did. bgun dhla almost 11 plus i guess. masak. masak. mandi. nganga. ok i did try chem a bit but urghhhhhhh! so tdoq. masak. men kucing. now. how boring is that riteeee...

idk. how. to. pass. august. test. frankly. speaking.

well the prob is im just plain lazy n my mind is not threeee!

Malas nak kesah.

remembering sunday. =)

ok. so tadi wasnt so enjoyable. half way walking with mum i said now i really wished i followed uncle n came to bazar n bought food with him. instead of my dad. dia punya x sbaq tuuuu. dang. but apa pun. dia tetap daddy. saya still sayang dia. =)

im not really excited for anything.

OMG. yes. im getting worse.

x. mula2 i was ok. then after mandi, study chem. n i was like erghhhhh!

so i p tdoq. then mum gerakkan. u know how pantang kan when i tido n someone wakes me up. but thank god xla obvious ngat. so lasagna or salad or macaroni grg off today. esok la esok !

dang aiman dang. what happen to uuuuuuuuuu~

sharonnn... aiyo.

i wana go to bazar ramadhan since i dont know what to do dah.

counter seven

dari bgun roun almos 11 til now, ive been wasting my time. well minus the physical work i did. hee. =)

my dads backkk ! tho sahur td pg wasnt so enjoyable. but then i was like rasa xbek la moody. one. two, i bru ja an tdoq sejam then bgn for sahur, dh tdo dgn lampu, so i felt as if i didnt sleep. n tgk dkat pakistan -cnn- the flood, they dont have homes, food. haih. i must be grateful. wlaupun my dad dok pokpek2 td pg an. hahah.

did u hug ur dad ? no i forgot act. coz balek. sweating n he was tired. but i did sth ridiculous. hahaha

so ive been fb-ing, cafe world-ing, text-ing. haih. suma ni membazir masa !

STUDY AIMAN STUDY !

so im off to mandi, get comfy, loud music on, n i shall study.

=)

- stni kna masak lakkkk.......

be my hero !

i tell u ! thats the bestest love story ive ever watched in my life ! - i guess la, maybe coz ive been wtcg to much gore and whatnot, so jadi cm ni la -
its sooooooooooo omg man !

yeay ! esok x skola. one coz dady mls nk hnatar. two coz someone ajak xyah g skola so yeah. heee. but il be missing u guys nya oral. huhu. n saat2 membuli org. xpa. sunday ada. =)

inilah sebab y my parents xbg ada laptop sniri. rather than watching muvi la i ptot study ritee. so i did study chem. chemical bonds. ionic n covalent bond. ionic is the transfer ( donate- cation- postve or accepts- anion- negtve charge ) between metal n non-metal. covalent ada single, double, and triple bond. its the transfer of elctrons between non-metals. to achieve stable electron arrangement. duplet or octet. like noble gases. and yeah thats all coz lepas tu i mengeluhhh.

i tell u. that muvi ! ok fine. i know. i love gore. blood. horror. n i know i shudnt. i cant promise u that i wont watch it coz i do have a long list of those type of movies but il try to minimise it okayyyy. but i do know one day i will stop. perhaps.

so mmg aku dok syok nk make lasagna sudeny i was like ma i dont feel like it. coz i just wanted a time of my own plying cafe world n she dok dot3. so i was like ma can i not do it tomrw ? n then i changed my mind. i did bebai sat. yea i do see tis few days im well yea fairly ok. esp today. ramdhan, terawih, its all =) . yes mmg i hate being lonely. ihate being left alone at any time at all, no matter what. n i think its my nature. buttt since im so used to be alone n whatnot, hey ive been with my mum for the whole day n hey im happy. =) pagi tlg kmas2, masak. ptg tesco n bazar rmdhan then malam lagi. so i just needed time on my own. i do know, n rmb, if i dont love my parents now, when will i get rite ? if i dont get to be around them rite now, spend time with em, being the only small lil girl around em rite now, when will i rite ?

my granma loves me dressing that way. she was like wa cantik man. i was like heeeee. =)

yes. dua org ( bru dua org ) ckp ive grown up in *** wise. well i cant really deny it. or not ? god. i dont wna think bout it.

- i still have not recovered from the oh my god movie. -

i do hope esok xdak byk homewrk. yes. aku dicop sbagai kaki ponteng dah.

mums worried coz im always skipping school. but dont worry ma, t time U, i wont be skipping class.

its late. n im not sleepy. n i dont think im sleeping. i dont feel like sleeping.

study ? or another movie ?

- raya, im still scared of u -

again2. =.=

irritating.

there are times where i would like to be left alone.

=) yes i feel happy for well the whole day. i shall too tonite.

lasagna is so lawa !

so god willing, weekend ni i will wat lasagna. heeee !

n im so lazy. somebody make me love chem n phy.

aiman maseh buchukkkk...

=)

droplets of water on my face

selamat berpuasa people =) hee yes yet again aku syok.

n arini. yes u can clearly see it on my freaking face that i was pretty much extremely happy n quite high. n syok la of coz. i ate 4 nuggets oh plus one i curik hehe tpi org tu bg scra sukarela heeee. and then nsi of cz. then air cincau cz slalu tgk syhmie minum. chipsmore. ha tu ja i gz. balek2 umah mkn lg nsik. mlm nsik lagi. arghhh. sudah. no rice da. but yes i was like =D ! all the timeeee. mmg aku syokgila la coz mkn byk. oh n choco a bit. =D life is goooD !

thats the highlite ja act. ok n hafiz is nottttt datttttt bad. dont judge a book by its cover. tp dia mmg a kdg2.

esok a. haih mula2 dady xdak. huhu ='( ! xsukaaaaa!!!!!!! xpla. ok so esok tesco then p bazar ramadhan. heee. maybe ada org tman pun. maybe laaaa.

dah xtau dah nk kata pa. oh. kna study. n its nice to see from a lazy, doesnt care bout studies person to wey jom study person. hahah. n i rather chitchat or listen to songs in class or even eat right in front of the teacher instead of sleeping n shutting myself completely from the world. i find it the worst thing ever to do while ur teacher is teaching.

vanilla is pretty nicee.

tahap kecomeyan melebihi tahap kebuchukan !

so i came to the lappy just to see my very first class picture. n tho i look like wth in it but m like suma org happy mkn mcd ! ~ =) i sukaaaa...

alrite. so tadi. time phy. epiphany. for less than a minute ja. i was looking at anis on my left. sha tepi anis. syahmie singing idk what which i joined later i guess n dharshu n around the class. n im like, its not thattttttttt bad aft all rite ? lagipun, next year, do u know next year is the last thing of anything and everything in high school ? gah. sdeyh okayy ! eventho yes il come out with thousand n one reasons just for skipping school, n i hate it so much, n i dread like hell going but hey i atleast do get to go to school. n smki isnt that bad after all la compared to the others.

oh god. im freaked out again. a bit ja. but wth ler.

oh yes. again phy. i had the greatest laugh ever. coz of disgusting stuff. he told me sth disgusting n so did i. n then i told bout a kid n he did too. muntah-tasting ! hahahahahha. mmg. i gelak smpai my muka merah menyala. smpai sket perut. its just so stupidddd.

agma was awesome. xbljq pa. wat acc ja time tu. n yes yappeim ar-rahnu ? hahaha

esok i quite syok. coz mula2 sej dua masa then bio dua msa! weeeee! call me nuts i know. and then admt. ok tadi i mnged to do all of em. tp mula2 mmg blank thp gla. i had fun with myself. haha

so yeah. ntg much happend. oh bukak puasa i pokpek2 with mum coz balek2 skola mmg oh shit n kinda tired. so yeah. =)

daddy nnti xdak lagi. =( i so dont like it !

ok dah. tick tock, tick tock !

Ps - satni aku gemok katala aku dok mkn nsi byk la, eating junks la pdhl u guys la yg dok feeding me.

=.=

is it so hard to understand simple things ?

when i say i dont want food, i really dont want food.

and same goes to everything else.

made for u !

today i did two wrong things. satu mencabuli someones kehormatn. m sory man. n sorang g yelled. ni yg plg rsa trok. coz bebai buta admts. pdhl aku wat kat dia trok2 for all tis while dia xpna kata pa pun, but tdmmg i was like urgh ! then kena jentik kuat gak la mmg i jerit. ok bad me i know. i just felt like screaming at that time. soalan admts tu sng ja, basic, xle jwb. exam cm na ? haih.

my mum lak, she kata bulan posa she nk msok kwsn skola to pick me up. haaaaa. punya la my mum.

bio is funnnn. i suka bio compared to all. n sej. u know, td, despite the rain n the first ting in the mrng, i felt very yes very happy n syok coz ada sej. n i xrasa ngntuk at all. yes u can smack my face. ok but i did sleep when i went back home. huhu. =( x suka.

so its ok i dont get an electric piano now or later. il buy it with my own money when im all bigggg n workg n all. heee. * if im still addicted to the sound of it.

stewieeeee. sukaaaa ! i love the fmily guy/ simpsons chat with troley boy. idk y. its so pure bodo n crap n xdak mkna n wsting time but of coz we gelak.

im still opting to have sgtlah ckit rice even tym puasa i guess. but gah. my parents wud be like no aiman. no. n then also the type of food. rar. so later im havng nsi kerabu. ok la tu. ok laaaa. n only eat once. trus2 bukak puasa mkn n thats it. lps later mkn roti or yoghurt. ok stock yoghurt kna topup.

its freaking me out. that i dont like kenyang. n that i do feel guilty eating wht im not suppose to eat. omg la.

tym to kumpul movies. time rya ka melepak tgk. nk p melepak rumah orggggg with awesome foodddddd.... huhu

i felt well, despite being bebai jap which i regret big time, its ok. i got some freaking bio facts. u know ew. hahha. rodents. non- pa benda tah lupa. ruminant ? oh god lupa. rabbits.they eat their pupu at nite. coz the first time it goes in, the bacteria secretes cellulase to break down the cellulose ( plant cell wall rite ? ) then pupus at nite n its soft n sticky. its written in the notes k. then it eats it, then digest2 bru la jd pupu btui in the form of pellets during the day. mg. herbivores la.

as for cows. yes four freaking chambers. the last chamber baru stomach btui dia. n tu bru la enzyme dia sniri secrete instead of the bacteria. ok bacteria in our body secrets vitamin k? kot helps absorption for god i lupa. bt sth like that la. n the illeum. villi n stuff. i prefer all tis than meiosis. xphm ! chem n phy jgnlah tnya sya. huhu ! sej bole laaaaa. n they eat, msok, then kluar balek to chew. how eww is that ? anyways, its still kinda cool.

n small intestine kita 6 metres. n if u cut it n spread it it can be as big as a freaking football field. awesome.

restoring n updating gideon ? im still thinking. byk pulak risk n keja nk wt. huhu. nnti laaaa.


ok dah. xtau nk kata pa dah.

off to see the gemookkk cats.

Oh crap. Idw go tomrw. It just doesnt make any diff.

* ok and i suddenly, really miss sggs.


n y are most of the ppl i know are red skirts ?

dada tomey gak > tis is so cute.

menyesal la pulak x p tgk, cm bes jaaaa...

esok skola wey. esok skola. idk how m gona fall asleep tnyt. coz i know i cant. or not. idk. weeeeee. sing a lullaby for me. or tell me a story. a bedtime story !

n im super full. coz trpksaa mkn the nsi again. huhu. sedeyh. yes i dont like to feel knyg.

im act bored. m wasting time. im suppose to be studying pyh i gueess.. m freaked out coz i have to go to school tmrw. get what i mean ? na u dont...

surprisingly, im not sleepyyyy...

thank u for asking me taht, eventho idk whether u mean it or not, just thank u.

i teringin nak kena laughing gas. dont ask me y. cam syokkk jaaa. mcm high coz of laddoooo..

ok so i am a girl. aku xptot la into gore, blood, kari ngeri those tingies...

my mum xminat gerard butlerr. o. m. g. its gerard. butler.

n esok posaaaa... heee..

shit ! it talks !

i was lucky i didnt end up in school today. to some it must be very awesome n whtnot, but to me, il be crying tears of blood n dreading like hell to go back home. n wudnt let my phone out of my grip, texting, perhaps chewing my hands off. oh so sad. anywaysss..

i am hungry. n ididnt sleep ptg. n sleepy. n tired. i studied bio. tu pun ckit jaarr.. grrr. n my mum was telling me ideas form her students i was like laughing away, coz i was like if im excited, or thrilled over sth, n wna tell someone, this is how il look like. hahah. plus the oh so very annoying voice.

idw be chuubbyyy.. i dont wna get cubit by uuuuu....

raya yes haih m scared to talk bout raya. think of food aiman. think of food.

n i do see that i cannot over eat. if i mkn nsi lebey ja or mcd n whtnot il be like blughhh n nk muntah. good sign. =)

meee ahhhh is coming overrr. pls oh pls dad let me sleep with her !

im so blurr. lack of food. hahaha.

esok skola. =(

idw go to school.

omg. ok i like her. shes idk nice. sweet. n her voice. (=

one republic is awesome i tell u.

ok. so i dont have that so called blue black bruises due to hazelnut. hee. xcukup a tu. thank god. but gatai2 badan ada a.

so three bju. dua2. blueeish in clour. n white with cute cat faces. sukaaa. perfume. yes anis. its the vanila. hee. n then phone cover. i wanted like all pinky2 but i guess this is girlish enough. i waas like is tis girlish enuf? hahaha. call me nuts. still pending is crocs. xpuas ati la. tgk choices ckit. unlike in johor, the kedai from top to bottom n all over the walls penuh ngn crocs. hahah.

i miss penang. i miss the house. =) i miss the people there.

esok skola. gah! xsuka ! oh yeah. i did study bio. meiosis. i dont really get it.
i do get haploid diploid. sister chromatids. hhaha

oh yea i saw diz guy at the dentist. rusyaidi ? yeahh thattt mamattt. dlu dia chubby2 rendah2 now hes like al grown up. tinggi, kurus. i ws like omg. hahah

ok. so looie said no he asked. so wht r u not happy about ? m like my teeth are like bunnies n ur askg me wht im not happy about ? hahaha xla smpai cmtu. m like they r coming out. so for six mnths i kna pkai retainers. gud la bulan posa ada so im not eatg so il be wearing it. hee. by feb 2011 ntg happens, two choices, wat retainer bru or braces. but he said my gigi is already ok. m like haaaa ?!

so yeah. ok i did wat prangai ckit tday evntho i dpt p pg. coz y ?! bkn krana rabbid teeth aku lah aku msih terperuk dkt sp. i told my mum im sorry but i have to say idc. coz dad dok ckp i dok mnyushkn suma. i knw i m, but hey, sory to be selfish. i nk kluar cni, bkn ada pa sgt, nk kluar p umah kwn ka even hang ngn dpa kdg2 xle. i so have to be in d hse kan. so sorry la. i jz wna be in pg. n i was lke u know how long dh man xmai pg. n shes like hey even some ppl xpna mai pg. m like i was born in pg ! n now its her turn to feel how shit it is to stay at home evry freaking weknd la. so if she starts complaining, il jz say, been there, done that. haha. ive been goin thru it. so i said. xplah. nxt year i can drive, il go anywer i want. nnnnnnnnn i said i wna work at tesco aft spm. hahah. yeah. tesco much. kna ajak troli boy skli.

sory for letting out my feelings. but i think u should know.

secrets? you would tell things to a freaking stranger just like that ?

im not in the mood. thanks mum.

the person who never fail to make me smile is daddy. tadi dia ckp ckit ja n i was like =D.

hurgh !

Daddy da balek.

Ok so it has only been a few dys. Kalo sminggu aku xtsu la cnna. So yeah. I luffed, very loud. Happy. Hee. N f coz diselitkan dgn his dirty jokes. Gahh. Cna minda aku x tercemar.

N so i asked him wht to write for my orall. N my mums like im an english lecturer y din u ask me. N m like i was about to take urnpaper n do ut. Hee

so yes. Music enhances learning.

Gosh!

U called me just to tell me that?

Ur. Freaking. Me. Out. ! ! !

Jamuan relay 4sc4 2010.

Dont ask me y i dok syok sgt but m pretty m. Sampai ada smgt n mood nk wt hmwrk. Heee.

Wlaupun seriously it wsnt a hugeee blast coz er3 bt lah i did spend time with the two dudes. N nmpk naim sumbat big mc. Wt else. Oh mcflurry kna curi. N gideon calar trok. M stil nt gona chnge the cover.

Oh yeah my first class pic ever. Heeee!

I jz feel happy. N tenang. At peace. N i can smilee. =). U knowww yyyy. Bcz i ate witout tnkg bout the calories n fat n all. I had mc chic, 2 nuggets, friea abeh, mcflurry. Life is awesme when u have food. Heeee. Ok so i do miss zaman i wont n cant stop eatg. I still can turn to that mode but i havee to keep myself togeter. Hik2.

Ok. Aiman officiallly syok. N dont give me weird looks.

N i can feel that my pipi tembam balek. Haha.

(=

After writing a six- page essy, i realized that it is actually aimless. Dang!

ok. great. blurr. i dont have an idea !

3oh3! - my first kiss ! sukaaa. sbab dua mamat ini suka.

n omg. walaupun aku bnci sgt lgu tu, tpi bcz aku dok suruh syahmie nyanyi so terlekat.

i should effingly wat playlist lagu. suma lgu org gla, screamo n emo. ptot ltak mainstream yg mostly xdak makna. heee.

ok. jap. so choose one. am i bipolar or psycho ?

nnnnnnnnnnn. one factor that may be contributing to my emo-ness is coz my dad xdak. satu. i miss him. hmph. dua coz tadi. i do know y m like tis sejak balek skola. im sorry mum coz m like tis. i shudnt be behaving tis way. but man, what do u expect. i bengang satu g, but nk wt cm na. my pakngah beli kuey teow goreng n kerang. dh kerang. dh berminyak. dah 1030pm. cmna aku xbengang. ihad to eat la, coz xmkn xelok la. pkngah pnat2 beli. grrr. gone ! n im kinda planning to talk about diet for oral. mula2 ask ppl apa dpa suka. im wondering whther im allowed to do that or not. and then no m not gona blab about whts good n whts not coz we all know. but the point im trying no im gona make is we dont give a damn at all evntho we know its gona kill us one day. so the bottom line is prevention is better than cure.

nothing on u is omg. ok. m listening to mainstreamm. or on emore. maybe il be talking bout language in music. its act my mums paper. haha. so i xtau la. i do feel like nak pegi ja dpan tu n crap ja. without a piece of paper. but jacq is gona kill me if i do that.

and2, tis shows that even if i feel like shit i have to plaster a freaking fake smile coz since mum has ntg to do n is alwiz at home, so she can really sense it. im dead.

oh yeah another reason coz lack of food. no2 not lack. hahah. just dlu i eat to make me happy. now i dont really eat thattt muchh. n i dont alwiz feel hungry. hee. kinda i gz. kot. idkkk. just yeah thats one of em.

pls oh pls i hope i can. =)

n esok. i may find out the ugleh truth. not the truth is ugleh. its just sth. jgn la smpai aku kata ur ********* serious aaa weyy ?

aku sbnryna mls nk wt keja. its veryyyyyyyyyyyyy hard to pay att to the tcer. but i know songs wud really help me to concentrate. at times. susah la nk pay att without feeling bored n whtnot. grrr.

ok dah. xtau nk kata pa. i better get on with my writing. n oralll. n accounts. n nota sej. that wud be first. hahah. admt. mts. that shud be good.

esok mcd pulakkkkkkkkk. -.- mc chic btw. hee. no fillet o fishy.

oh shit !

yeah oh shit. my mum knows. coz she oveheard my conv bitwin me n raf a few days ago. if not that pun, its actually quite obvious. so she was like aiman, u seem down today ? whats wrong ?

n m like shrug. dk. so shes like ***** n ****. n i just followed the flow. n then mula la she tnya bout the rest of em. m like god ! she knows ! my parents know about it already.

- smacks on my forehead -

for a mo, i felt like telling her everything, but im thinking.

sila topupkan kredit anda dengan segera. terima kasih.

secrets.

so yeah. people do have secrets. i do too. weirdly.

okayh3. xtau psepa aku syoksgt nak blog. pdhl xddak pa pun. m just yeah fairly happy today. eventho there were times where its like ughh but im like no3! im in a good mood so i have to maintain it. i slept soundly last nite. heee. sgt bhgia.

n this wednesday. the jamuan relay. alright i did make a fuss about some of the chosen ones have to pay higher. but hey. truth is. its for my class. for our class. for us. so its affordable actually, my mum didnt even mind, so chill. after naim told me its actually for the class n m like aaaa. i havent thot of that. n i really love u guys. =) so yeah. i do wish that all of us can mix well. like 3a3. god i miss it so much man. i think i could just cry if i do watch all of the videos dari form one to three. haih. its sad. but no. dont cry over things u cannot have n think of things that u have. which is u guys.

n ok. good. now i know the type of people who i can like talk n all. gah. susah ckit.

ttn wudnt be so nice anymore.n fun. so seems like music n sms would keep me occupied. i do und better if i listen to songs. grr. not good. sybil n nurain xdak for chem. syahmie xdak for admt. thank god anis is coming or i wud just die! the rest phy idm. bm mmg ok ja. so gahh. but i dont really mind of not having anyone during bm coz aziz ada. hahah

so the english essay. alrite. im gona put my heart, mind n soul to it. its just recalling back old memories. so mmg. its gona take awhile. n i hope i have enough words to make it long n meleret to erm three pages kot. hahah.

ok dah. oh yeah. do u know instead of saying hey can i have ur number u can say misscall my number. haha

n i. have. rayman. raving. rabbids. in. my. phone. !

weeee. =)

- god oh god pls dont make it ugly tonite. -

ok. m a bit high. haha.

gosh ! do u know i have to stop talking to u !