I have no idea why do I always think of you before I fall asleep. I just can’t find the reasons why do I love you so much. The reasons why should i miss you. The OLD you. The words you said. The things you did and we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. I’m so sorry for being so dull and boring. I’m sorry for feeling so insecure. I’m sorry that sometimes, I may get a little jealous, thinking if someone else could make you happier than I could. I’m afraid that I can mean nothing to the man who means a lot to me. I know that love takes effort and acceptance. I know It won’t always be a happy ride, because love hurts when it’s real. I know I should be grateful for having you as a lover & a best friend. And I know if we are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear us apart.

Just so you know, last night, I looked up and matched each star with one reason why I love you. I was doing great, until I ran out of stars.

deep. so sad.