you are praying that u make it, there is a light

well all i need.. :)

okeh.. sth seriously happend to me today.. lets start dari okeh lst nite aku gila sat.. adehh.. forget it.. il get over it.. nvm tht...

sooo.. as usual 4+ is the time il automatically get up.. so chatted with b for a wile.. then aft i manage to sleep.. fuh.. for about 1++ hours.. 730 ! ding3.. i tried to sleep again.. but guess wat ?! i cudnt.. its like well dpt la tido then dok terjga3! so at lst.. i gave up tryin to sleep.. gahhh ! so yeah.. i got up.. turun terus without evn looking at myslf at the mirror.. as usuall good morrningg ! me n ahma wud be like dt.. hahahah.. i like her.. kita mcm bersubahat.. ahhaha.. she knws ma mum. grrr ! so yeah i jz asked ma mum.. can i go cycling ? shes like now ? m like yeah.. shes like ha p lah.. m like cooolll..

so yes.. i thot of my cycling loveable bro.. he pun.. well i msgd him wen i trjga tuh.. 4sth.. he replied. shockingly. its either he din sleep or he too trjga.. so yeah tdi dia p pekan breakfsat dgn uncle malik.. nk ikuttttttttttttttttttt ! i really wish i cud one day. like reallllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy wna go out with em one day.. with pitee n uncle malik n better with aunty tgther.. itl b the highlite of the yearr !!!! naaa.. perhaps the week.. or the month.. or i tink yeah the year.. mcm bes ja.. like so damn effin cooollll..

so thot of another cycling partner.. but nahh.. he;l b mamuning non stop, or perhaps wey bro p gym.. gahh...

n ish.. evrytime i feel like swimming is the time i cant swim.. thts so shittt... grr

so dont ask me how many fucking times my dad asked me wther im seriously going cycling or not..

i knw.. first i got up extra early.. mum was totaly suprise.. then i wnted to go cycling..

bknkah itu gila ? - yes it very is..

so yeah 815 i went of...

aaaaaaaaa.. bfre i went of.. dad turun dah.. so yeah... i asked him wther i can go or not.. i act as usuall.. i lost track of time n the days.. so i thot saturday is like few days more.. pdhl.. its esok.. gahhh.. so yeah hes like how u wna go n all those stuff the tickets. byk soalan la aku bantai ja.. apa2 nntilater la.. so mums like wer r u going ? m like cs.. u knw she made tis goddamn fcking face.. omg.. i just dont know n i dont feel like interpreting that fcking face.. but my reply wud be n yes of coz yelling at her face.. wud be.. dudee !!! fuck dudee ! gime a break ! im a fucking 15 year old girl.. not 5 ! if at all i cant take care of myself - wic i kinda can okeh ? perhaps not alot, but i still do know - my friends are there.. its not then m going with some kind of lunatic strangers mind u.. theyre my friends.. the friends that ive told u about.. so wats the big.. but yeah pites not there.. she wud have some sayings about tht later.. grrr.. n yes whilst talkin n all ahma was pointing to my mum.. as for me.. i gave her the hugest smile tht i can put on.. ahhaha..coz i jz feel.. ohh.. so okeh.. even a 5 year old wud like to go n buy icecream okeh maybe thts too big, no go to the playground, play around with her buddies n build sand castles.. - sounds familiar.. ahhaha- oh yeah.. i forgot.. m not 15 nor 5. im a 5 months old baby gall.. no teeth yet.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr ! wth is the bunny tingy ~!!!!

soyes.. went cycling.. i well pretty much sweared like hell of coz.. haih.. i hate tis.. n ewwwww.. otw.. i saw tis.. ewwwww.. e ! tis kitty.. perhaps knocked down bya car.. thts okeh.. just tis freaking giant red ants were attacking it.. alll over the dead kittys body !!!!!!! omg !!!!!!!!!!!! yux~ but vry ksian la.. but its yux !

n2.. i cnt wait to wtch dead silence again n freak n ciken myself out again.. aahhaha.. its scary... seriously.. worse than doll master.. hahahah..

then blek fed the cats.. then err sidai bju.. then err cuci kasut.. tht mo yeah she said i can go.. fuhh.. reda kemarahan aku.. but ahh.. i dont want to be like rizal.. i dont wana go for anger management later on.. so i have to try to controlllllll.... so yes.. i was like yeah dirasuk setan the whole time.. i was kinda scary. wel evn aft knowing i can go i was stll grrrr ! so yeah.. simple.. make me pissed or angry... il bcme rjen.. truth is im weak.. or make me upset i hate that.. just make me angry or pissed.. thatl be good.. no m not asking u to la.. m jz sayin if im in tht cond il well be xtra rajen.. see like i did all those.. like yeah il do homewrk if i marah time skola.. like seriously.. n mmg akan abes.. ahhaha.. gila an.. but thts wat i do.. coz il jz shut up.. sng ah. it wont act compltely distract me but at least theres sth going n moving on so i wont feel like a pure setan.. i mean.. look at my songs.. the songs are bukan manusia.. hahaha.. thts wat my sis says.. wicccccccccc.. is very true.. huhu.. but yes.. m oke now.. :)

then.. yeah i cleaned the kicen.. weeheee.. then yeah.. ripped the plastic in the persona.. had fun with that.. u knw.. ripping it.. into pieces ! hahahaha.. ok dah.. then.. u knwwwwwww.. wuhuuuu ! i can drive tht car.. tarik the seat an. yes.. smpai.. my kaki smpaiiiiiiiii !!!!!!!!! ahahhaha.. soi was like bole la bole la bole la ajar bwk keta.. mums like fkingly reluctant to teach me.. ahhaha.. but ahmas like xpla senang aiman can drive anytin easy la.. thank u ahma.. thank u ! n i told dad.. so hes like ahh.. thats good2.. in case emergency n all. - wen he said emergency, he emphasised it.. hahahah.. get wat i mean ? - okeh we'l tink about it.. so weeee.. yeah il make sure by end of the year.. i can say.. i can drive.. :) weeee

but persona n waja.. waja seems to be bigger.. i feel a bit squashed n compact in it. n u know.. camry is hawtttt... hahahah

ohhh capulet n montague.. capulet is juliet.. n montague is romeo.. errr leonardo.. n paul ruddddddddd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heeeee.. well yes.. clearly. i got no freakin idea about old english.. helpppppppppppppppp....

so yeah.. thts pretty much wat im doing.. n its so ckit.. i mean im not satisfied.. but at least.. i feel alive.. not like a walking corpse since the pst welll soooo long... so yeah perhaps il be like tis almost evryday.. bgn.. awal.. cycle.. do hse chores.. :) eyy.. at least i did sth insteaad of just sitting in fron of the laptop the whole fcking day ! lurking aimlessly.. mourning.. self pity.. all those.. so pathetic.. gahh.. so yeah.. i like it.. maintain aiman maintainnnnnnnnnn.... - gah !

n errr.. im suppose to be on diet.. ahhaha.. yes m cuttin my rice down. since yeah ari i lost appetite till now.. im happy wen i get hungry.. bcause few days ago aku xlapar pun.. yes spooky it is.. nno interest in food.. m ok la now.. so yes im kinda stuffing myslf with chocos.. nt good2.. n yeah latter p bank, tesco all those stuffs again.. so rd n music on !

n yes.. i slept wile huggin fish.. so yes.. fish is my mate now.. i like it.. :) i even brought it along time test drive.. dads like u brought the fish along ? m like yeahhh.. hahahaha.. okeh thts so like a kid.. me with wat i wore with fish.. dok lam keta.. press buttons n wat not.. mg ! so it goes evrywer with me now.. even wen i sleep.. i love fish.. :) n mind u.. fish is not as lwa as the tedy daddy gave.. or even cute.. it doesnt evn have bulu.. well thats beta la since its not good for me.. n its like the bean bag type.. the beans in it.. so it has a pair of black eyes.. nolips.. pink nose.. it has fins n tail.. n its black n yellow.. ahhaha. mg

nyes.. ahma said tdi.. while i was eatin.. she said ppl go to pg mkn char kuey teow, roti cnai, png laksa n the tulang babi sup dot3.. m like yeah bak kut teh.. shes like yeah bak kut teh.. i dont tink she expected me to know tht.. hahahaha.. so yea i asked her.. how do they make it> so shes like u put herbs, n some secret ingredient n yaddy3.. my mum must have heard it n must have tot ijust lost my mind. completely lost it.. wellll.. i was just wonderingg.. since wats so special bout it.. dont woryy.. i wont eat oink2.. just.. oinks2 are cuteeee !

yeah shit pnjg gila.. n hey. its not so depressing.. n at least.. m smiling at my own will .. :)

n come on.. i know u can.. of coz u can ! i know u totally can all alongggggg.. u dont have to tell me shits.. i really know u can.. esp toottttt... just be honest will ya.. just tell me straight away.. just tell me.. dont let me hear those shits.. its just.. urghh..


so... songs...

1. ravenous ravenous rhinos !

2. california waiting.. - means sth

3. atwa.. yeah sth againn

4. pieces - mum

5. there is a light that never goes out.. - i likeeee

6. pardon me.. - love it

7. nice to know you.. - :)

8. do what they told you ! - like it too. nice gtr

9. bullet in ur head ! yeahhh !

10. i hate everything about youuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


so okehh.. done.. im off neopeting.. n songss..

weee.. :)

i love my life

i love my life

i love my life..

n yeah... someone came yest.. till i was all so getaq, shaky, n yellow.. ahahahha.. okeh... the ting y i turned yeloow.. okeh it doesnt make sense but i gz its acceptble.. ahahha.. coz m too white to turn wite or pale so i turned yellow... ahahahha.. well.. :).. heee... niceyyy...

okeh2.. m offffff !!!