afterall - deep breath

- tell me sth sweet to get me by

okeh... err.. idk wer to start.. since.. its been soooooooooooooo looooooooooonnnnnnnnnngggggggggg.. no nt coz m bz.. well was for a wile n in n out.. but.. :)

u knw.. the feeling of wanting to blog.. or u knw.. dulu.. i just sit in front of the pc.. go to new post. n there.. il just crap bout almost evrtn.. esp wat hapend to me tht day n al.. but..

i knwwwwwwww.. its called constantcraps.. but forgive me.. grrr..

soooo.. emm.. lets see.. okeh... m having sleepless nites again.. well not practically sleeples.. its err.. em.. yeah.. usuall stuf.. suka terjaga.. like xnyenyak la.. mind u.. i dont take naps at allllllll during the day time.. so yeah.. i knw act y it happens. emm.. its coz m tinkin to much.. m bothered by sth.. simply disturbed.. but.. wat can i say..

emm.. physically m ok now.. no tummy ache.. just bit of cramps.. my rite side.. i like carrying heavy stuff.. weights to be precise.. but.. height... gah.. hahahaha..

i hope i have transport tmrw to go bec.. tirahs not going.. dads working.. mum classess.. dangg..

okeh..so err.. yeah.. ahmas here.. whils tin jb.. lets see.. of cz i ate mcm pa g.. hahahaha.. sdp kowt.. til sis ckp.. aiman.. she bole mkn pa ja.. n bila la dia x lapar.. sobs.. fun.. packing.. hanging with siste.. yeah i enjoy it.. n i felt hepy since she can solve rubics.. well bru beginner la.. but yeah she can do it co zi ajar her.. weee.. bangga.. ahhaha.. thank god she cme along.. if nt.. firstly..i mite have not even reached jb.. i died halfway in the car at the bec there without my parents realizing it.. ahhahaha.. she ada at least ada org nk gelak2, ckp2, mepek2.. smpt nek swing g.. ahahhahaha.. lagi err yeah.. evry mrning b4 goin to the hse, tgk cooking shows.. sukaaa.. n yeah ipodtouchin with her.. pee monkey.. hahaha i like dt game..

oh yeah.. so i asked ma mum.. can i ask for sth if i get 8as.. she said ask ur dad.. but i said i want to hear frm u first.. n so she said yea wat? but no henfons.. wic yeah m hepy with mine rite now.. at least much more happier than hers tho its 8mp n mine is just 3.2.. i still love it.. so yeah i said how bout ipodtouch? so she slike hw mny thousand does it costs? i told her quite a lot.. but seriously i got no fcking idea hw much it costs.. so yeah its too expensive.. so err.. how bout gtr hero.. bt still its xpsive.. but mcm its jz gtr hero.. tho thts kinda like hte coolest ting eva but naahh.. or how bout tht u knw that mat slash exercise tingy slash tht kinda tingy in the arcade ? emm.. idk bout tht tho.. bt entah.. perhaps i jz end up not asking anytin again.. wic thts beta... coz if ipodtouch its like menempah maut u knw.. coz il get addiceted to it like hell... wel perhaps for awile but still la.. like eg.. if i go to somewer n had to wait, instead of me rite now like wat m doing is just music n rd or read sth, il b ipodtouching.. plyin games.. so... idt its a gud idea..

then men ngn snoopy.. ahahhaha.. its the dog anyways.. yeah i made friends with him smpai i nk msok umah pun susah.. coz wen i turn, he wants to folow.. of coz he'l kiss my ass.. pstu mmg ah.. kna tmpaq ngn rizal lu bru samak.. but yeah thank god ntg like dt hapnd.. so i had to kinda like push him away, hold him n restrain him frm cmg near me.. hes ok now.. hes not at spca.. thank god.. hes with idk who. some friends or relatives.. n the great ting is yeah he has a friend.. tis another doggy.. but yeah the aunty said snoopy byk termenung.. nods.. haih.. sedey gak ah.. so took some piccas.. i mean lama dah kan xpost gmbr.. wth.. write pun x.. so wil do lter..

then yeah.. seeeing my dad n ahma.. its tah.. nice.. n yeah.. aku serious sket ati.. aku rasa bodo gila xreti ckp cina.. muka ja cm cina.. phm pa pun x.. haram btui.. grrrrr ~

emm.. yeah had a pleasant trip.. had fun la.. :)

then emm.. yeah museum padi dah.. had fun gak.. n yeah cs... emmm.. yeah.. the question was act.. r u sure u wana go? so yeah.. i did go.. din expect anytin.. yeah was scared if it turns bad n ugly.. but i jz said to myslf.. pite is there. its ok.. jz pull his shirt like u alwiz do n jz folo him.. no la i din practically do dt.. hahaha.. but yeah.. i was poking his chiks all the way time blek.. at one point my finger ended up in his mouth, n my finger was covered with his saliva.. fuck ! ewwww ! then he ckp bau tgk.. babi gila.. of coz i din.. i dok lap2 kat bju dia n continued poking it.. i was goddarn fucking bored.. dhla azreel.. yeah it was him yg bwk keta.. lupa nk bwk lgu screamo.. suma mainstream n hiphop.. i was soooo wasnt in the mud of it.. n yeah.. ilike him.. hes like one heck of a guy.. a mad one.. serious.. dia gila punya mamat.. wat i saw in the car.. was ntg.. imgineif he was realllyyyy highhhh.. cooooooooooolllllllllllll... n the way he drives.. cooollll !

so yeah.. cs wasnt tht bd aft all.. but wsnt tht nice aft all too.. lets see.. went thre.. nganga2.. mkn pizza.. wntd 2012 but xdk tiket.. dh agk dah.. then err em yeah bowling.. okeh so evryone was plyin except me n ezza.. idk y she x men.. as for me.. i jz wasnt in the mood. n also coz i felt.. tah.. the other time i played was with tan, adam n gha.. n none of them wer there.. so i jz felt.. naahh... theyre not here.. i jz tah... but yeah then tan asked.. so m like hey okeh then.. so yeah i did.. with sy too. hey i improved at least okeh ! got er 62.. i knw.. terok.. but hey i did improve.. n did strike once. then suma shit aft tht.. ahhaha.. but yeah it was cool.. acceptable..

then em aft tht.. jln2.. oh yea not to mention we ran to go up like some kind of mad gals. hahaha.. but had fun tho.. mcm bodo gila.. then err went down.. jln2.. pitee did his cartoon version of himself.. ok lah.. nt bad2.. mkn icecream.. - yeah it was kinda like the tea concept but with another person.. too bad. hahahah - walked around.. dangg.. yeah tht was all of it..

thanks daddy.. thanks maa..

n yeah.. i need to buy bday presents.. for tht.. i wish i can go out just once more.. preferabbly of coz without mum.. coz im gona buy one for her too.. so err.. lets see how things goes..

n yeah m learning how to eat with chopsticks.. - aiman udk how to eat with chopsticks ? grrrrr

then emm.. yeah cs with malina n pitee.. okeh b4 tht.. m gona spill the beans.. dont ever ask me bout tis.. coz i dont wana hear it.. so just dont.. just tht.. ive been to cs with pitee only.. once.. err we bought some stuff.. well him.. i just teman.. but i did buy sth.. then we wanted to buy sth, it was his idea but xsmpt.. mmg time xcukup.. had kfc.. thts wen i discoverd he doesnt swallow burgers at one go like tht.. he eats the bread first then the meat.. hahahha.. dang la him.. but yeah i had funn.. like alot.. n i felt.. tah.. yeah i felt vry cmfy.. i dont even feel ashamed even if my face is smudged with sauce if im with him.. just tah.. im jsut so used to him.. yeah imagine nt being in the same class with him next year sux big time.. idk y.. but i feel mcm.. evry fcking morning next year n the next, we need to make a perhimpunan kcil of our own..hahaha.. meanin.. bfre the real prhimpunan.. we akn gather at one spot.. just to spend tht less than five mins tgther.. but yeah.. thats wat i call pure crap..n yeah he wudnt kil me evntho i almost ripped his sling bag apart.. ahhahahaha.. sory bro... n yeah.. i owe u n ur family alot.. well family tu idk y but yeah ur parents.. idk y.. i just enjoy weneva ur dad picks us up aft ttn.. drives slowly.. talk3.. its nice.. n bwk p mkn.. i enjoy it.. oh n yeah the vlge mall.. i just love it.. it tah.. tkes me away frm reality for a moment.. thank u very much.. :) il never forget that...

okeh.. so the trip.. err.. em.. i just love air hockey.. hahahha.. n the rest.. nvm...

emm.. okeh.. so im seriously being an arse again.. yes.. this is just a lil.. the starting.. i dont talk to ppl.. since.. err... em.. yeah since that.. emm.. i only talk to malina n di.. of coz nt my mum.. oh yeah few days ago.. imgine.. i was damn hungry.. yes tis ting i get frm rizal..wen we r hungry, we kinda prctically turn into lions.. huhu.. hahaha.. so mum was eatin my laksa.. m like wtf m hungry man.. dhla stni klo lapar mkn roti ja.. gahhh.. then shes like asking me these qs.. m like. yeah bengang, pissed.. so i jz said dah dont talk2, eat2.. so yeah.. thts soooooooo baddddddd.. but then yeah aft tht aft i felt so terok gila i talked to her n all.. n evrtn was okeh.. but jz nt tht much.. to dad.. he has been away.. but yeah hes home now.. so din talk much to him.. yeah wen he wasnt there.. the only ting i wished was he was at home.. he was there.. i wna talk to him.. but yeah.. wtever.. n yeah my sis a bit.. n thats all.. shit.. wtf is happening to u aiman ? but i have to say.. my communicating skills n social skills is deteriorating by the minute.. seriously.. oh yeah.. evn to ahma.. i dont really tlk to her tht much anymre.. but nah.. m gettng it beck.. nt to wory on tht... soo emm.... gah.. plg bersalah is to ahma.. i shudnt have done that.. yeah tdi bfre leavin to pg.. wen said goodbyes to her.. i rasa bersalah.. n mcm xsmpai ati tinngai dia.. nnti aku p skola cna nihhhhh.. adehhhhhhh.... grrr !

so yeah.. i have to admit tis one ting too.. m feelingless.. xberperasaan.. idk how to make ada persaan blek.. proove...

1. yes.. goodbye kembara.. hello persona se ! okeh.. firstly.. its red.. enuff said.. hahahah.. its red.. n its sporty.. n its leather.. n its all blck inside.. lawa ah..


n fuck! my stupid damn blue notepad is lost ! fuckkkkkkk ! theres like credit card nums n accs n all those. fuck ! everyones like how cn u misplace it ? how cn u improve urslf like that ? fuck.. i can if u stop touching my stuff ! fuck! if i cant find it by tonite. i might as well die.. n thats the end..

this is so not cool..........

okeh... fuhhh... dak idk wth is tht fcking stupid notepad ! so xpa.. jz cill.. lets go on blogging shallwe.. :) breatheeeee aiman breatheeeeeee - i almost pthkan rizals credit cars.. m so soryy. -

okeh.. so yeah.. the persona.. its jz.. omg.. ahahha.. its red.. sudahlah tu..

2. did my new glasses.. get it err saturday.. so em.. its black. .half frame.. wntd full - breathe aiman chilll - but dcided half.. ful nxt time i gz.. blck putside tpi dlm yellow.. i knw.. yellow.. errrr... but yeah.. the side there mcm lawa.. ada dis dsign somesort.. i like it.. so yeah.. n the power.. miracalously.. hahahha.. nek ckittttttttttt ja.. uncle jimmy said m lucky despite all those computer goin on. he says m straining my eyes too much.. g2 tke care of it.. slow it down.. il try uncle jmmy.. but u knw.. like i have other choices ??? errrr,,,,

ish........ !

grrrrr !


so yeah.. n yeah.. few days ago.. wel mum told me.. aft i jz said to myslf enuf of chnging cars.. hes tinking of camry.. i thot hes into accord.. but oh wells.. its big at least.. nice.. but nah.. he lurvesss his triton.. tht wite monster..

so okeh... emm .. yeah at lest i rmbd.. triton made me talk.. i rmbd sth apen tht period of time. n my dad ckp bout cars bru i ckp, respond sikit2.. kalo x.. as usual.. moody mcm aram gila.. n yeah.. he made.. no i tink i had yea i had to read the brochure of em.. of tritons n wtnt.. mg...

omg.. can my life get any better ? no.. heeeee ! fuck!

n esok.. skola.. double fuck.. tis is so wonderfull.. no.. i dont wish for tis..

oh my.. dah.. gime a break.. oh my god !

dad boleh tnya so hows evrtn? ok ka? m like i wish i can say la.. look at my fcking face ?! do i loook okeyyyyyyyyyyyy !:?????????????

okeh2.. m stil like exploding. bt fuhh.. m knda calm... fuhhh

n yeah ! m half sane n insane.. weeeeeeee ! adeh.. pening pala lagii..

fuh.. thank u u guys ! adam, malina, zik.. thank u very much...

n so yeah.. as u can see.. ntg pretty much excites me anymore.. evn the car.. ntgggggg... evn esok skola.. m like.. ohhh.. idk wther its a gud ting or a bad ting tht its gona be the last day..

yeah... dah.. m just.. i wna tke a break... fuhhhhhh....

so yes.. the ting is.. m not worid that u have probs.. m worid tht ur not talking.. look at ur blog.. rarely post anytin... i knwwwwwwwwww... adehh..

okeh.. dah..

so its all crapppppppp... - as usuall.. :)

n oh.. i jz so dont knw wat to do in ...... hahahaahha wanted to use the tooottssss

ok dah.. i wna go sleep now.. fuhh...

i jz cnt bliv it.. hahahhahah

ok.. oh noo.. 3a3.. ok.. i tink m gona have my period soon.. hahahah.. cz i wna cry now.. coz.. i jz realized.. thers no more 3a3.. omg.. dh.. dah.. pressure!!! hahahahah

i seriously dk wats gona apen tmrw.. n i dont wna imgine it.. n pites sick.. haih..

ni smua mepek.. i cnt evn rmb wat i wrote.. n entah.. errrrrghhh !

i hate u !

done.. :)