wel, the world IS a cruel place afterall.. :)

its not shocking. i mean not sooo shocking la 4 me. but it wasnt expected too.. wen i heard all. well its not all. but heard bout it.. i felt like finally. a light shone.. out of nowhere. showing n telling me al the reasons. the ansers.

u see. everything. n i reallllyyyyyyyyyy mean everything happens for a reason. it happens for a reason. i mean theres always the cause of it.

so now. i know. y this n tht hapened. wats the reason. how come my life went tht way n all.. suma wel not suma tpi ada la yg terjawab. at least i mean it makes sense. i can see the connection. just tht i have to well solve the puzzle. the pieces is already there i just nid to pick it up n relive again n und it n hopefuly i can solve it.

its all abou ttrust. n yeah ppl wud just do anything in order to get what they want. anything. no matter its so bad or watsoever.

come on. d fucking truth is. no ones an angel. no ones good.

i mean. ask urself.

ur not selfish?

ur not using ppl?

u dont mistreat ppl?

ur so sincere?

u dont manipulate ppl?

u dont wish for attention?

u dont wish to be popular?

u dont wish to have all the stuff to u?

u dont backstab ppl?

u dont talk bad bout other ppl?

u dont hurt ppl?

u do care bout other ppl?

u would sacrifice for other ppl?



so u see.. we cant do anything. its part of well part of life. part of urself. part of us. u have to go along.


n yeah... all of us. suma org.. have changed. all of us have changed. frankly, from bad to worse. i knw i m. its like the older get, the more messed up u get. its like a disaster. or we say systematic chaos. all of it.

so ur kinda like lost. ur not sure wat u want or wat u nid. or wat to do or say or follow. n worse to believe. u dont know whther ur doing the rite ting or not. but for surely the tings tht u do mmg aint rite. but then u jz dk. then in the end ud say..

wat have i done?

wat have i done to myself?

ys my life like this?

y must this happen?

wat is happening?

in the end. it all comes back to u. ur tryna find urself. who u really are. but we jdk..

confused. idk. m kinda blank. much more in the mood of lisenin. yeah m currently open if u need to pour anythin to me. :) at least i know.

but yeah the answers are there. finnaly. soa t least i dont feel so like tah. now it al makes sense.

learn from this. no ones good. the world is a cruel place to live in. so make the rite choice. for mankinds sake. hahahahah

if u cant make up ur mind, well u have to or just go on. well yeah ppl say go on, move on, fuck la wey.

i dont feel sad or devastated or tht some sort just yet. coz m just like ohhhhhh..

u see.. at the age of 15. the year all of us are about to be sitting for our trials n pmr, all this must come n happen to us. :) wat a life !! - british accent!.. -

perfect.. purrrrrrrrrrrrfeeeecccttttttttttttttttt..

u dont have a time machine. dont try to do tht.

can we actually solve tis??

i hate it when it involves other ppl. unlike last year or years b4 tht. if apa2 pun, i mean my ony prob was me being emo, so it doesnt dist anyone or involve others. so its much more easier. yeah. the older u r, the more complicated it gets.

now m thinkin. m i doing the rite ting?

well. idt so.. so.. great. idk...........

we are no future teller :)

what will happen mannnnnnnnn..


m sleepy la wey

tpi kan. ada gempur kan. sej n aft tht geo. geogrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

so wtf. i tink i sud sleep nw. then study tonite. no mater wat. so i soooooooooooo nid to stay awake. like seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tips anyone??

n yeah. we must be very open n accept ppl. accept themselves, respcet their decisions, respect their thoughts or opinions.

i tink kan. this kinda talk should be done at least once in two weeks. keep ourselves updated n2 help each other out. at least just hear em out.

:)

dont worry. we r not alone. :)

we wil survive !!!

:)

- i still dont have an answer. i need to talk to someone.