it filters thru..

asal lak nih??

ok2.. forget being miserable..

the day waas awesome..

yeap the mission was to be hepy2, smile2, mad2, high2.. n all la..

n no one can emo actually today.. but yeah since m at home.. so...


yeah.. ok la :D


- i need to calm myself down with headbanging tho.. -

- i hate being unstable.. i hate!!!!!!! ... -

- i just gave him two smiles.. n hes asking me how m i.. how the hell can he know tht m not ok?-

doi..


the pix il b posting it at ms.. so if u wana look at it.. cek out my ms..

agak penat ahh.. hikihik..

like otw.. liek ohh gawd.. is it far?? wer is it?? how long?? ohh god.. hottt...

then smpai2.. heaven baby!! tpi aircond dia xckup kuat.. hmm..

wteva..

pastu2.. makan.. mcd!!! fillet o fish.. ngee.. n milo.. ngee

then...

yeah adam.. im sorry.. i know i m very the very rough..

im sorry i hit u many2 tymes.. erhhhh....

cmna la i x hit u?!!! ahahhahaha

boley tanya awat xsampai ka nk cuci tgn kat sinki??

im like wtf!!!

ahahahah

kejam gila!!!

i knw la i m short.. n by the age of 16 most probbly i wont grow.. doi2..

tans like yeah round2, fat2, short2...... grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! yeler2.. i know.. hmm..

so yeah it was the hardest ive ever hit u.. im sorry if terlebey sket ok.. then ada la lagi dia tu.. haiyoo.. cmna la i dont feel like hittin u.. hahahaha.. but still.. 143 k... :) i don mind tho.. ahahha


cool down baby, tomorrow il drive u crazy again!!!! :D

yeah baby.. i cant wait.. for tomorrow may stil come.. yeah.. high2!!!!!!!


yes ppl.. m tryin to cheer maself up n put tht stupid feeling aside n ignore it n hopefully it goers away... hmm..


pastuh.. men bowling!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah 1st tym maen.. b4 diz xpena pgg.. n pnh usha org men pun dah dari taun bila tah.. so yeah now bowling is included in my fav sport.. wic is now bowling! hahaha.. swimmin, rugby, volley.. bowling is way easier then volley.. but still swimmin is nice..

yeah.. got the lowest marks.. hahaha.. 1st besa ahh the pro in almost evrytn.. - honey-
2nd.. ngn 3rd either tan or adam.. ohh god.. i forgot.. n yea malaih nk push my brain to recall.. will do it later on ma bed..
4th.. hmm.. the gal who this guy thinks shes slim but the truth is shes not.. ok???

im gona prctise.. like oh hyeah like i can.. but still.. i have adam, tan n gha to train me.. ahahahah.. my professional trainers.. ngeeee :D


esok pgkp.. treasure hunt.. hopefully itl rock like last yer wen yb was around..hmphh..


looking forward for tomorrow?? - entah la.. cm cm tu ja.. plain.. hmm.. its not a coloured paper this time..


pe g ehh.. yeah.. nx tym p.. im gona make sure m gona get shorts n a tee!!!! hahaah..

didnt spend .. less than 20 bucks.. n i thot id b blowing off my money.. hmm..


u see.. ahhaahha.. i tell u, one tayaq ok d, then jalan2.. puncit anoder tayaq.. ahahhahahahahah


slipknot - spit it out

and its demi ketenteraman 3a3, i shudnt make u high.. hahaha. ok i und tht.. ahahah

haih. can we go there again??

in my dreams..

yeah..

- nods.. headbang!! .. -

1st tym wat keja gila.. n 1st tym hung out with em... :D ngeeee

1st ting my dad said was.. so aiman.. hows evrtn? ok?

me.. yeah!!! evrtns fine..

then 2nd thing was.. u better go home n take a bath..

me- huh? i smell tht bad? how is it like? very bad? or??

dad - no la.. ur just smelly.. go home n bathe..

so honeys.. m sorry. hahahah.. coz i stink.. so.. sorry k .. errkk...


drowning pool - no more

i tink laguna dah ada 3g???

yeah.. hopefully.. aman sikit..

waitin 4 d laptop. wasting my tym n jeopardising my future again as usuall..

i tend to see.. the older i get.. the crappier il b.. the madder il b.. the less id be carring bout tings around me.. n wateva ppl say n think.. is tht suppose to help me??

hel no!!!!!!

jiwa bergelora?? - nod a bit.. maybe.. idk.. idk.. idkk..hmm.. tinkin2..

haih..

i just thot...

oh yeah.. mornin waslike g2 b high!! must smile2!!! must laugh2!! must high!!!

then i was like ohh great fitree xmai.. then all of a sudden he walked in front of me.. with only his school beg!!!! then i was like xp ahh?? he was like no....

n i was like.. ahahhahaha.. o m g.. dont blive..ask yashni. i was smiling like mad.. luffin nall.. n yashs like dont b too epy or ul cry later. but xpa.. bukan selalu u mcm ni.. its maybe one day in a month ni ur like tis.. so its ok.. ohhh.. hmm..

yeah ppl.. drink lotsa water.. n tht influenza h1n1?? cnni ka?? i have no idea.. too lazy to look up for it..

drowning pool - killin me


eva drowned? eva felt like drowing? eva felt like being drowned? wtf m i sayin.. but yeah.. drown.. intersting.. hmm..


i swear its killling me!!!!

al the shallow hopes along the dreams

i forgot d... hahahah


yeah.. memory.. hm.. my phone.. dia ada scar.. ahahha.. coz gha bagi jatuh dlm toilet cs tingkat lima.. kot.. i gz so.. hahahahah.. 1st wen i heeard tingkat 5 i was like.. ehh? ada tingkt lima?? yeah say m mad.. i m.. hmm.. so its a memory on ma phone.. the scar.. ngeee :D.. no nt angry tht my phone fell.. dah biasa dahh...

spices of life.. ehh??

hmm..comfy2.. sobz.. hmm.. hmm.. nods..


1100pm

i dont seem to care...

tomorrows another long day again..


Well everything is not OK Tomorrow's another day I'll find my perfect way out


lets go to soad.. byob..

hahahha.. when if nobody is left in d world except fr kitty n hamsty.. ahahahhaha..

:)

n yeah.. i have to stop hitting him.. hmm.. hmm2...


n yashs like y u n him terlebey romantik ka? u sikit2. tiba2.. senyum2..

hahahhahahah. lmao!!! ... hahahahahah.. dk la wey..

spices of life - laughter, happiness, togetherness

can i skip tomorrow again??


mmg ahh emo, tension xley layan.. coz if lyn, mmg satu patah aram pa pun xley blah..

but still.. how?? its still there.. its still apart of u.. part of ur life..

i just suck in managing, facing it.. haix.. but wat can i do.. its there!


xpe. tunggu dgn kesabaran...

reminds me of tans heineken.. hmm.. hahahahha...


soad - sugar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n2.. suite pee..eerk???


i tink cz u xdk companion kat umah kot
mcm at sch u go al excited
n at hme cm xdak sapa nk excited
so terjadilah istilah unstable

yeah2.. btul2.. tht theory is acceptable..


too bad.. arini kurang amek gamba.. but ohh wel.. memories in my mind.. ahahha


whos baby do u wna hve rte nw? r u serious???

iv eneva even thot of getting married.. n have a husband.. worse a child.. oh god..

so ive never fainted b4.. so not bad.. theres alwiz a first tym 4 evrtn ... :D

uhuh??

rage against the machine - bullet in ur head

they say jump, u say how high?? oke?

1133pm..

how do i feel?? much more calmer n beta rather than i cant rmb d wat time i felt shity..

so ok la.. its safe to sleep.. aajhahahaah

guitar... organ.. il try nshall go on wit it..

rage against the machine - bulls on parade

bmth r like jonas brothers.. ahahahha

so i gz il leave the pc in peace now..

hmm.. nods..

papa roach - time n time again

if only theres no school..

coz evrytym i tink bout it.. i feel like trashin.. n scream m ylungs out.. ohh wteva..

its life.. go thru it..

u dont have a choice..

as if like u alwiz do.. hmm..

rage against the machine - wake up

i dont feel like sleepin yet coz i still want n prefer to headbang still


papa roach - not listening
puddle of mudd -blurry
chevelle - the red

hmph..

so.. xoxo ppl..

small xoxo.. gudnyt.. swit dreams.. dn let d bed bugs bite. tug ur self tightly n comfortly..

kinda fair..

smiles.. thats all i can say.. haih.. :)

its 1144pm.. esok skola.. bes gila.. xsbq gila


no ppl of cz idoont mean it.. the ony reason igo to school is coz of friends.. thts al.. n to be mad n ahve fun n frens.. dtz al.. doi.........

m i sleepy??

geleng2..

wat do i want to do??

i want to blog tpi mcm xdk idea..

doi..

are u ready for tomorrow??

i guess so..

hopefully i wont forget anything..

is tomorrow a big day??

hell yeah baby!!!!!! ngeeeeeeeeeeee :D

wat prob did u face just now??

packing.. finding my bag.. n clothes to wear.. doii

what hv u decided to wear??

its this pink tshirt with a wite flower on it.. hahahaha

dont u have other tee to wear??

no.. coz i cnt find others n if at al there is, i dont feel tht comfy with it..

are u madd??

yess

y m i questioning myself and answering it.. hahahahaha

iits raining outside.. tan take care of urslf..

soulja boy - kiss me thru the phone

like again..

i havent finished my homework.. ohh well..

exams... haih..

malas ah nk blog..

ilang mood..

hahahha..

nk g tido..

hmphh..

sleepin is a waste of tym..

studying ???

i know.. for a briter future, for my parents.. hmm..

sobz tho..

idup ni..

is a joke..

if u ask me wat i want for my bday.. i wan my life to change.. to a better one.i mean perfect..no not perfect.. its i want a prob free life for my bday till i die.. no one can give me tht rite?? ahahahaha.. its imposib man.. so oh well.. lets live with it..

haih..

oinkz..

smal xoxo ppl..

till next tym..

n hamsty.. :)... thank u.. :).. :D

n tan.. thank u too.. m waitin for the letter.. :D.. winks..

chicken

so...

m ymums gone!!!!!!!!!


till tues!!!!!!!1

yeaayy!!! so the whole tym me n my dad..

tadi pun.. ok so we i mean me n my dad was fiddling around with the car for almost two hours n plus 15 mins coz i was playin around with the radio.. nice man!!!!!!!!!!! nnti nk blast the speakers with slipknt n bmth!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yayayayayyay~!!


yeah ppl just coz ma mums gone n i spent tym with my dad im like so damnly fuckingly high n typing so fast n i think tht the keyboard akn pecah.. ohhh wateva!!!!!!!1

hmm.. lets see..

my bros gone.. no tht not gud.. im gona miss him..

haix... but i got 10 bucks.. hahahah..

u nk
i like
ttak balance yet
ada faham?

hahahahah.. x.. uhhh???erk???

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. xfhm..........

fall out boys - dance, dance

tadi pagi pun dah dok pokpek2.. xpuas g ka smlm wat i rasa cm zhu.. x g ka?? pastuh pagi2 bgn dok ckp cm tu.. my dad lak boley mai ckp elok2 to me.. doi... pa kes?!!

well wteva.. if u want me to live the life u want me too.. u wana knw sth????



im fuckingly not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'
im shaking my body plus my ass like kinda with cookie jar..

hahahahahha

high baby!!!


adam faiz bin muhd rizal
noor aiman bt muhd rizal

or2

adam faiz bin isa
noor aiman bt isa

ehhhhhhhh??

hahahahah

bonggok

new word ppl!!!!!!!!!!!

new word

punkog

haahahah

m like luffin2

ngeeeeeee

ok.. so dreams nee..

ahahahha..
adala.. jsut rmbd.. yeah.. same held hands... hung out.. dk la wer..

then2 ada la i was bit moody again as usual.. then like...
:)

thts all id like to say... :)

haahahahhaha

rmb this..


if ur hapy.. im hapyy.. aton

if u have ur colur, then il have mine.. hamsty

:)

its 425

n guess wat ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

esok skola!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i m sad n devastated

coz theres tis thing called schooll

but2..

forget it..

i have my dear sweethearts at school.. so its not bad.. :D ngeeeee


ngeee.. then esok2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! monday2!!!!!!!!!! isnin2!!!!!!!!!!

wey

keja x siap

excited pa

ahahahahah

bilik cm kandang babi

beg xtau pa jadi

buku bersepah

hmwrk xsiap

baju xtau kat mana..

xtau ahh

so i jsut need to be hepy n dont hurt her..
n shel b fine.. :)

alryt.. i will.. smiles2...

y to the e to the s

swit baby!!!!!!!!

gettin spirited like squiral

hahahahahahhaha

tensionraudha
tp tak kan nak layan tension tu
nanti lagi tak ley buat
so kena la ceria kan idup


thts my sister.. yeah.. i love her.. n the way she is n all

layan beb!!!!!!geeeeeee

omg




fitree wont come for a week

i hope he changes his mind

if he mmg p

m gona cry

life witout fitree

fuck!!!

buttox ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha

so yeah ppl

fitree is gona go

zik is gona goo


fitreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!1
dah la lama gila x cycle.. but we r plannin too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ayay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then ley naek swing!!!!!!!!!!!

yaya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tears r words dt heart cant express

yes... true... n i cried again tis morning.. doi...



"and if u goo........ i wana go wif u.... and if u die...... i wana die wif u.... taaakkke my hands and walkk aawwaaaayyyyy"*****

:)

ill rmb tht.. :)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMG-LWyNcAs&feature=popular


embrace urself ppl.. or is it brace?? tah i got no idea.. i forgot.. tht video is fckinly freakinly mad.. n if anyting or sth apens to u.. dont come to me n kill me.. watch at ur own risk!!!

n2 muhd rizal or aka robin loves his car.. he loves it.. he jaga gila siyot.. so i beta too.. jgn la pulak i trash it. il seriously get killed.. oppssieee..



i want u like fucking much

god.. tersentuh.. smiles2..


ur so nice - hahahahahha.. yeah i know i m.. hahahahahah

u always cair wan
wan me freeze u up

well, will u? hahahahah
no its can u??????? muahahahah

smiles2.. well :).. i got to go.. before i seriusly get killed.. aihh...

il miss blogging..

ill miss reading blogs from malina n adam..

ill miss onlining.. getting high.. yming..

hmphh..

hmphh..

till then...

hmphh..

n its 601pm.. the end

shandy rizal.. xD

fuhh..

so yeah.. pgi turun.. dinner suma.. xsenyum.. then she was like wat is wrong with u? y arent u smilling ? u got heartbroken is it? smile la suma.. bla3.. wateva...

then my dad he joked bout sth n i was like ohh.. n smile2 bit.. then he was like cannot lluff is it??

nope..


u see.. y can my dad und wenva im under the weather, not in the mood, he can und me n not bug me n make me feel worse n just let me b for a while or know how to approach me.. y cant u? huh? ckp jadi cg?? susah sgt ke nk phm budak cm aku ni.. ayah aku boley.. i mean my dad unds.. hes like ohh ok.. thenn also he just.. haih.. he just unds.. n wudnt bug me n push me n question me n all.. haih..

n dah tau my mood x ok, jgn la tanya byk soalan.. u think il anser or even think is it.. well u don know.. but my dad does.. haih.. then if dah tau i dah tension, xdk mood.. lemme do la wateva i wana do.. i just nak maen organ.. yang bising2 melebey sgt pasepa?? ada mslh ka aku men organ? ada ka?? asl aku nk men organ ko wat kecoh n dok bising2.. asal? pa salah aku? nk men organ ja pon.. she dok bising2.. but my dad tlg cover dtg tanya so wat song u wana play tonite.. my dad.. she dok bising2 n as usual hampir nk gaduh lagi la.. so dad came and saved the nite.. bukknya i nk p amek dadah ka, amek pisau cut myself ka.. nk merokok ka.. nk sosial terlebey ka.. x pun kan.. i nk men organ ja.. somtyms i regret tht i stopped cutting myself.. yeap..

but i wont do it.. coz it hurts big tym.. since it has been a long long tym ago.. so no.. i wont do it.. not to worry.. m still sane.. evntho i m obsessed with sharp objects especially my pen knife. i wudnt do it.. coz it hurts..

so yeah played it for one hour.. she dok pokpek2 pon. i waslike uhh?? ohh?? hu gives a fuck ehh?? memekakkan telinga.. wat muka bodo gila.. p ja men..

it wasnt tht bad.. hehe.. i still rmb my basic chords.. i can still cope with alternatin base.. ngeee.. n cud play 2 n half full songs.. hahahaha.. ok la.. satisfied.. :D

nowi feel much better.. much relaxed. rather than tym dinner tadi.. mkn pun cm nk pecah ja pinggan tu..

tpi ada ahh teruk sikit rsa.. but at least i can breathe rite now.. hmm..

n the fact that my dad is not young anymore.. of coz hes not.. hes like my granpa.. but my daddy.. haih.. i feel like cryin.. yeah watery eyes now.. my one n only daddy tht i love.. ok i have to stop.. aahahaha

pergghhhh...


few mins ago.. he was like.. aiman, hows ur work? homework? studies?
me- nods..
him - im very concern bout u

ohh shit....

waitin 4 food..

ohh gawd.. as usual.. again.. i feel like tossing my phonee.

ohh n yeah.. the white triton which looks like whitey is at the porch.. i was high2 n all n excited then the other moment.. fuck it man!!! forget it!

no i dont wana talk bout wat apen coz benda kecik ja.. xdk pa2 pun.. i ja yang dok telebey tension.. but then u link it to other stuff such as my life, my future..wteva2.. yaddy2.. so yeah.. fuck!

i may end up on my bed by 11.. not surprising.. coz its shitzzz...

y m i angry for no bloody goddamn reason. wel ada la.. but its jz small tiny yiny winy matterr... but what the fuck?



I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...

Inside my shell,
i wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3d blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold,
the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way i pictured me

I can't control my shakes!
How the hell did i get here?
Something about this, so very wrong...

I have to laugh out loud, i wish i didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

Get outta my head cuz i don't need this!
Why i didn't i see this?
I'm a victim - manchurian candidate
I - have - sinned - by - just
Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

Goodbye!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain was always free

I've felt the hate rise up in me..
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, i wait and bleed...
And it waits for you!