shandy rizal.. xD

fuhh..

so yeah.. pgi turun.. dinner suma.. xsenyum.. then she was like wat is wrong with u? y arent u smilling ? u got heartbroken is it? smile la suma.. bla3.. wateva...

then my dad he joked bout sth n i was like ohh.. n smile2 bit.. then he was like cannot lluff is it??

nope..


u see.. y can my dad und wenva im under the weather, not in the mood, he can und me n not bug me n make me feel worse n just let me b for a while or know how to approach me.. y cant u? huh? ckp jadi cg?? susah sgt ke nk phm budak cm aku ni.. ayah aku boley.. i mean my dad unds.. hes like ohh ok.. thenn also he just.. haih.. he just unds.. n wudnt bug me n push me n question me n all.. haih..

n dah tau my mood x ok, jgn la tanya byk soalan.. u think il anser or even think is it.. well u don know.. but my dad does.. haih.. then if dah tau i dah tension, xdk mood.. lemme do la wateva i wana do.. i just nak maen organ.. yang bising2 melebey sgt pasepa?? ada mslh ka aku men organ? ada ka?? asl aku nk men organ ko wat kecoh n dok bising2.. asal? pa salah aku? nk men organ ja pon.. she dok bising2.. but my dad tlg cover dtg tanya so wat song u wana play tonite.. my dad.. she dok bising2 n as usual hampir nk gaduh lagi la.. so dad came and saved the nite.. bukknya i nk p amek dadah ka, amek pisau cut myself ka.. nk merokok ka.. nk sosial terlebey ka.. x pun kan.. i nk men organ ja.. somtyms i regret tht i stopped cutting myself.. yeap..

but i wont do it.. coz it hurts big tym.. since it has been a long long tym ago.. so no.. i wont do it.. not to worry.. m still sane.. evntho i m obsessed with sharp objects especially my pen knife. i wudnt do it.. coz it hurts..

so yeah played it for one hour.. she dok pokpek2 pon. i waslike uhh?? ohh?? hu gives a fuck ehh?? memekakkan telinga.. wat muka bodo gila.. p ja men..

it wasnt tht bad.. hehe.. i still rmb my basic chords.. i can still cope with alternatin base.. ngeee.. n cud play 2 n half full songs.. hahahaha.. ok la.. satisfied.. :D

nowi feel much better.. much relaxed. rather than tym dinner tadi.. mkn pun cm nk pecah ja pinggan tu..

tpi ada ahh teruk sikit rsa.. but at least i can breathe rite now.. hmm..

n the fact that my dad is not young anymore.. of coz hes not.. hes like my granpa.. but my daddy.. haih.. i feel like cryin.. yeah watery eyes now.. my one n only daddy tht i love.. ok i have to stop.. aahahaha

pergghhhh...


few mins ago.. he was like.. aiman, hows ur work? homework? studies?
me- nods..
him - im very concern bout u

ohh shit....