Whaat I see today is that, u need to have sth in ur head like, u need to have wants. It is like an everyday thing. For example, you get up today, set something and say today I want blaa3. Doesnt mean that you have to reach it, but better if you do, just at least, in a day, in ur life, u need to have aims so then you would feel the purpose of living. Rather than you are just going thru ur days without anything. Maybe, this is what we call, occupying ourselves ?

Puting a dead line on sth that u aim or u want to do, might presure you. I mean for me, I am not saying I will be ok by the end of this week, or by the end of this month. No, I am still taking my time but not to an extend not doing anything. I dont think we all should push ourself so much, but just push a little for a lil improvement, little by little, baby steps. But just keep in mind that, you are trying, better if asap, if not, its ok, go on with ur pace.

And I think my biggest fear is falling and failing. not the fall and fail, but the part after that where you have to start over and pick yourself up again. And what tires the most is, it happens a lot. sigh.