Epiphany

I think i made the hugest mistake in my life. How come ive never thot of it. Well no,of coz, i didnt know it ws like this, i knw, its jz i didnt want to knw the truth. I didnt want to knw. I didnt want to hear. I didnt want to bother. I am so naive and immature. But truth act doesnt hurt at all and its acceptable. Its understandable. How come i dont understand and see it all this while. For all this while, ive been blamming, ive been hating, ive been ignoring on sth. N tht sth that im not even sure and clear of. It ws just my own assumption which i thot it was a fact. And i dont rrally und evrythg, and i cannot bcuz ive never been in their shoes, but ive read from a persons perspective, n heard, n seen, n now puting all the pieces together, i can see the picture now, but not clearly, yet. U dont blame on it. U cannot blame on it. At certain point life, ppl will give up. Ppl will cry. Ppl will be weak. Ppl will bleed. Its a normal thing. Its not their choice, its how life made them be. After series of unfortunate events perhaps, they got nowhere to turn to hence just climb into a dark hole n stay there. N with some luck, u r aware of it, n slowly u help urself to crawl out of it. U may not be the same again as it leaves a permanent scar in u. I wish i have the chance to turn back time, to restart my life again so that i can see and understand what really went wrong. Was it the system or things around it. Or was it sth u cannot run away from. I need somebody to talk to right now.

Love, Gideon.