I know im not well. Fever, running nose n sore throat. I know ma, daddy, u guys want me to get weel veryy soon n be like normal again. Thank u so much, i really understand that u care for me n want the best for me. I know i shudnt exert pressure on myself like the cross country tmrw n get myself worse than this. I should rest a lottt.

But no wayy. I almost cried when i heard a no. I cannot miss this thing. My last merentas desa in ibrahim. N ive been looking forward for this since last year. At least this is sth im looking forward for coz normaly i dont. This is sth i like. N sth that i enjoy.

So think positive. I know my condition is not that bad coz ive been fighting it since few days ago n i still could study n answer my papers. I hve to fight this fever. I will be fine. Sweat it all out. I will be fine. I can do this. ^_^ tho i know im goin without my parents permission. Adehh.

*God! Would u just stop playing games already! *

Love, Gideon.