no one can get everything..

benda suma yg nk dickpkan ni xdk kaitan dgn sesiapa pun.. sis,, amalina u guys r great. just im triyn to get over it..

ok la.. pagi tu.. everything was fine

except.. i only slept for 4 hours.. first time in my life.. and i didnt sleep at all during the daytym.. even going back home.. thts maddd..

haih i feel so down..

ok the thing is.. i was happy to go home coz i want to write bout what hapened to the happy part of the day...

mana tau la kan.. my dad finished at 530... n for gods fuckin sake.. thats wen the jam starts...

so i was like great.. then in the car for sure la blegh3!!!!! aku xsuka!!! sapa suroh pindah ?!!! kalo xpindah..xyah lalui jam ni tau x??

then my mum pon dok... dot3.. but she was drama-free the whole day.. thank god.. suma cm tension ahh caught in a jam... aku apa g.. emo la kan.. dengar lagu mcm nk pecah telinga kot..
dahla fon batt mati.. chun gila beb!!

pstuh.. p la dok fikir where r we gona stay n all..

but2



the conclusion here im tryin to say is

1 sapa soh keluaq lambat sgt

2 sapa soh jual town hse or condo tu?? kalo x boley la stay gak kan..

3 whos bloody damn fucking bright idea to fuckingly MOVE!!!


pastuh p la umah minah ni.. xpala..

since ok.. so after nmpk the big jam, we turned back.. so dad wen to the office n we were off to gurney again.. okk..soo thought all ok.. so we left gurney to get him n go back.. manala tau kan.. dia call ckp bridge dok jam lagi.. i don wan go home.. go home ony at 930..

puki hang.. aku xtau nk ckp pa..

orang dah aimless.. pastuh baru kuar gurney.. la baru nk habaq?

so p la umah aunty niee..

aku dh la hot dah kan..

dia boley dok ckp

mmg la dia xtau aku hot.. so xpa..

she was like. oh this firend of mine, her daughter got gud results and got a chance to go to mrsm, but she didnt. she still stayed at st georges..

puki hang lagi..cm na aku x tension g...

then i passed the school a few tyms.. i rmbd wat malina said..

yeah the school is cool just by lookin at it by far.. its cooler wen ur part of it..

so i actually regreted going in that school eventho it was for 6 months during form 1. i felt its better i never knew that school.. coz i know if i g terus ibrahim ill just die there.. but now its like i died.. so its better to go to ibrahim yg mmg omg rather thn going to sggs ( mmg i hated tht school, but wen i went to ibrahim, sggs was heaven !! so georgians, i know u hate sggs, but u'll know if u come to ibrahim or anywer.. sggs.. haihh.. ) sobz..

then lalu that house agak byk kali.. aku dh emo.. muka mmg dah merah dah.. tinggal tunggu tears ja. . tu pun hampir..

then shes askin my mum to go and buy a house.. there in pg.. even her sis... arrrrrrrrrgvhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
tension..

yes u can say that i have a phobia of going to pg d.. its either coz scared my mum wud b dramatic again or jam or stupid fckin memories..

dahla rumah tu dekat trafic light.. bila dok depan trafic light.. lama pulak tu nk tunggu hijau..

yeah i m sleepy, but i cant sleep. my hairs still fuckin wet..

pastuh dalam keta,, bole ylak cakap i cant drive in this conditon, i hate jams..

then bole lak.. ohh sini hhospital xdk facility yang ok, no decent place to shop( im nt sure hw to spell it ), xdk tempat grand to eat or have dinner, xdk byk ahh lagi..

sapa punya soh mai... sapa? mai hbq?

yg pasti aku xkan wat benda mcm tu..

tapi kan.. benda ni kecik ja.. bukannya like my dad maki aku ka.. apa ka..

xdk pon..

n skang nih.. kalau aku emo, mulut aku cepat ja jadi laser.. pastuh marah tu jgn tanya la..

at least dulu kalo emo, underground, quiet

skang, i'll b totally rude no amtter hu u r..

yes i was in the car like tht..

walkking round gurne ylike tht..

so i jz donno wat to do..

so, this is actually for noreason. maybe to bored coz i nganga at my dads ofice for 40 mins wile i was so excited to go home n write bout it, then sudeni caught in a jam..

i sed to my mum..

i got this genes from daddy..

i cant tolerate jams..

and im sorry ur daughter is short-tempered, hot-tempered, angry, impatient, grumpy gal..

i got it from him.. so i'll b like him..

dahla sund skola.. aku syok gila siyott..

dahla stay!!! haram syok!!!

the 1st ting m gona do wen my dad wakes me up ontht very sickenin sund mornin is CRY !!

then ill go on brushing my hair n so on..


ppl ckp, the past is the pst.. jgn dikenang...

ahhh sket ati....

i really feellike i wana cry again..

i tink i will..

yeah im angry n emo coz

of movin here i still cant get over it.. shit..

yeah m mad coz im stupid.. i cant move on n get over it

i cant grow up.. but heck i hate growing up..

aku geram tau..

mmg la.. bendda ni shudnt have been an issue pon.. but tahla..

dalam keta tu mmg mcm babi ah.. tension.. xtentu pasai..

byk g yg nk ckp, but tah ahh..

yeah n i cried badly yest.. coz of missing some1 n if my life was there, things wud never b this way at all..

i had kak siti.. sayin her name made my face turn red.. im gona seriously gona cry

my bro was there eventho nothing big happened. but just felt like yeah i have my bro at home.

then the house..

im sobbing..

then the ppl i grew up with..

yeah, raudha said ari kak siti balek indon tu nanges teruk gila, tapi x call2 pun..

i did.. a couple of tyms mula.. but evrytym idid.. i cried..

badly..

i even rmbd.. i was tlkin to her using my own credit.. n like i was studyin geo since it was exam tym..

i mis sher..

this is going nower.. nothings gona change even if i rite this like till infinity.. of coz it wont.. some mite say i sud go bec to pg.. i dunt think thtll b a gud idea.. nothings d same at all.. like at all anymore.. thres no point..

im great at being pathetic like this..

this is sickening.. with pmr n all.. it should b fun..

if i call her, ill go cryin again n emo.. thats for sure...

at tyms, ill close my eyes.. n imgine i get back from school, shell open the door for me.. then i wanna go n check out wat she have for lunch but shell prevent me from doin it by dragging me n askin me to go up.. then i'll go n change n eat n all..

or i'll just trail back.. look back at the house the layout the details in the house.. i'll imagine myself walking in the house just like i used to live there..

this sux...

im hurting myself..

its not gona solve anythin..

thisis pathetic..

sickening..

n i gz i was so damn emo tht idk y la.. but evry teenage guy i see.. i see him.. wtf?!!!
so s u can see.. i ws tht bad.. every boy looks like him.. madd...

im off..

sux

i got lots more to say but i dont geel like digging deeper..