kinda stable..

so 1st thing i did in the mornin was dozzing off.. hahaha.. i slept like 135am..

then yest i only slept for 5 or 6 hours..

the friday was four hours...

lets see how long i'll get to sleep later..

so sis msgd me n al..

then in the car sudenly she said jap cancelled..

n i was like mother fucker bitch!!! y oh y??? i was so damn ready.. not to say ready.. i just dont care whether im stayin beck or not.. n u have to b cancelled.. just great..

then erm.. ohh yeah.. i swap my phone.. gahgah.. i don care.. as long as ic an still msg, take pix n songs.. thats all i kinda need to keep myself barely sane..

so i cant actually msg all the tym anymore.. scared if i get busted.. hahahx..

then it was history.. ok la.. yeah i didnt do my notes.. hehe.. will b doin it after this i think..

n yeah..

i didnt cry this morning.. 1st ting i said to myself was SMILE!!! and i did.. i even went down the stairs n all smiling.. eventho my eyes cud barely open.. but i smiled.. i was like its ok.. its going to b fine.. everyone has to go to school no matter wat.. ur going to meet ur friends.. ur buddies..

u must make them b happy

and i know

im selfish.. hmmphhh...

and i just realised lots of ppl idk...like ermm..

just tht theres this * aiman, ur not ok, u have lots of prob evntho u say u dont * written on my forehead with blood.. some sort of like tht..

so, they can c it in my eyes n face.. hahahah...

n lots of em...

too bad...

i'll try n hide it..

n i tend to b kinda secretive nowadays.. even to let evrythn out to my problem solver took me for a while to whether tell him or not.. n how... fuhh...

then recess...

gahgah..

i was sittin wit my buddies.. and al lof a sudden.. he came.. actually his frined.. then he sat beside his friend.. before sitting down.. we just look at each other nwas like * hmmmm... *

then he left.. so i thot ok cool hes gone..

then as i got up, i turned around n he was sittin directly behind me.. facing me.. hands on his face...hahahha.... then thats all.. i went away..

pj was okey.. played with the ball.. chated2.. chatted2..

then it was bm.. nothing happened

so as english...

so... that was my sunday, well half of my sunday..

and yeap.. im confused.. over more than one thing.. its a couple of stuff...

shitzzz....

i have to go.. eventho i feel like pouring out.. n also scream my lungs out..

( snapped back to reality )