House arrest. With cctv every corner of the house.

Idky I want to do that.

This is how a heart breaks.

This is how when you are there but you are forced to turn back. This is you pushing me. And I feel a huge weight on me. I feel like a lost puppy, without a leash, finding its own missing teddy. Sniffing around.

You choked me with your words. You strangled me with your words.

And I felt like vomitting. Physics.

It is not easy to start again. It is not easy to let go of things

If I can snap out of it, I would be very glad to do so and i would do it without being told to do so. If i can get rid of it, i would surely do it. I am not sure whether it is a matter of choice. Or whether it is because of anger and revenge and feelings that has been kept inside for long. I understand the need to be logical and rational but i dont understand well i just cant accept it. Simple as that.

Yes is it my problem.

So you just sit there and keep filing your nails like there is no tomorrow.