sakit rindu... haaaaaaaaaaaa....... pa dia??

radiohead - karma police...

sudden realisation..

i miss him...

so much...

hahahahaha..

yeah seems pathetic..

but i was lookin at his pix..

then heard al the recordings..

then hearing his fav songs..

perghhh...

haih..

evry momnt im like wondering..

how is he?

os evrtn ok at home?

how is he wit evryone?

is he ok?

wat is he doin??

no one can answer tht kan..

so i have to wait till tomorrow..

haix...

agk buntu..

ijdk wat to do..

idk wat he wants..

idk wat he needs..

idk wat to say to him..

i mean.. i already suck big tym in cheerin ppl up n make their day...

how the hell m i gona do it to him.. n especially its him..

malina said.. i shud cheer up first..

yeah i know.. im tryin2.. thts y m kinda like mkin ntgs up.. well mmg ntgs up..

like duhhh.....

no la. but still ppl..m fine..

m still sane evntho i xmkn any sweet stuff today.. ony fruits..

n i dont do crazy n stupid things..

n i did do my hmwrk..

n thot bout exam..

im ok..

im fine..

i can do it..

:)


hmm...

i dint sob..


yettt... hmmm..


i got no idea..

1116 pm

nk tido..

goodbye world..

hopefully i can meet romeo in my dreams tonnite..

i really wish i can..

....

no huggies

no kissies

next tym..

++++++++

systematic chaos

auntys spaghty didnt brighten my day

leong wat dramatik terlebey din help up

my dad hangin out at home didnt help out either

but still..

i smiled.. n laughed n moved on.. pretend as if evrtns fine..

mmg la suma fine..

dnt wory ppl.. m ok!!!

m fine2..

jz buntu sat 4 a moment.. cant help it tho..

haih..

his voice changed

wen he laughed, it just doesnt sound like him

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

if onyl i cud do sth..

wel i knw i cant.. theres ntg i can do..

i cnt help him tht much either.. well yeah at schll. tu pun.. a bit.. coz idk wat to say n its like im at school n its school hours.. so i cant be going to him n hug him or hold his hands n say.. evrtns gona b fine.. n its ok.. m here.. altho i cant help u much.. i knw i have to b strong for u.. im tryin.. tryin to leave it behind for a moment n study.. exms next week.. nods..

life really cnt get any better..

so im dead.. i mean.. kinda like literally.. so xpa...

dm..

---- wen i have d mud.. il write bout wat hapend during the gathering.. n oso the concert.. :) ----

not now tho...

m not suppose to touch the lappy.. but since ma dads askin me to cek out the flites.. so yeah.. thank god.. but m gona b home alone tonite.. so il jz use it.. if i want to tho..


incubus - i miss u
snow patrol - you could be happy
shontelle - tshirt
soulja boy - kiss me thru the phone
yellowcard - only one


wen he ckp cm tu.. i was like.. blank... yeap.. blank... like uhhhhhhh....

there must be more to come.. just like theres more to life... uhuhhh...


dream theater - forsaken


so now.. i really3 ahve to pay mch more att to u.. more thn b4.. coz thts the only tym we have.. nods..


i love my life

i love myself

i love my parents

i love my siblings

i love my sweethearts

i love ibrahim

i love asspee

i love my life

i love my life

i love my life

its not tht i have a choice

nods

i love evrything

i love homeworks

i love exams

i love pmr

i love my school

i love my life

........

thank u god n2 ma...

so yeah evrytym pikir cm.. doi.. its his big day.. n i cant go..

yeah bgn2 terus g pg for tahlil n hang out ngn neighbours suma.. yeah.. i was trashin n cursng n all bout life to em.. hahahah.. yeah its like diorg ckp i dont have a life since its all im obsessed wit ma phne, msg2, 24/7 wit d pc, networking, fb, fs, ms... blugh3... n yeah social skills kureng n al.. but wth..

so i was like... eeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. wana go2!!!! then i was like.. yeah sweet talk wit ma mum... the most lembut suara ever wit ma mum.. hahahah.. serious shi man... puppy eys.. muka xley blah..n ckp ma..... nnti kan.. ma friend nk perform at vmall.. dia nk men piano.. so shes like ohh nk p ahh.. m like yeah.. but cnna stni ttn suma.. then trnsport.. so called la few ppl ask here n there n all.. shes cool wit it.. bgi ja... then she mcmkesian.. she ckp ok3. xpa2.. wen m done n all il come n fetch u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................. im goin ppl.. heeh

n it seems.. most probably.. i wont be seeing him play.. but ahih... wat to do.. i just p ja at least m there.. m like its his damn big day n i cnt see him play n b there with him.. what the fuck laman... lifes so unfai.r... hmmm...

ma mum sudeny cmbagi.. like serious shit... but don forget.. she baik2 tu msti ada mkna nya.. so i must watch out.. geeee

m so epyi cn go.. yeah m like smilin3!!!!.. pergghhh

actually yeah i got a lot to write.. like wat apened during the kenduri then hows ma mum like al.l.. she mcm cool ja.. ma dad pun cm ohh ok2.. so wat cn i do for u.. ohh ur goin?.. ohh ok2.. alryt.. no prob..

ma mum lak..cm.. so how.. nk p ka.cnna ka.. try la call ppl.. she mcm tah.. pelikahh.. willing bagi.. mmg ahh ada nsihat bout m worid bout the crowd.. then i ckp mgona b wit tan, sy, n sha d whole tym. so she cm bcreful, jgn amek drinks la.. tkot kenaheret la.. the crowd n all.. n m like ma... its just vmall.. a musical show.. not slipknots concert.. or evenanythin.. ntg will apen.. il b wit ma frens.. so shes like yeah gud2.. at least m not tht worid.. ur gona b wit em..

shit.. kena mandi.. then m off.. so il b writing a kinda damn long post tonite.. haih.. great..

yay! esok skola! keja xsiap... blughh.. idc man.... idc...

lotsa ppl actually expct me to get 8as.. shitzzzzzzz..

bye2..

bigXOXO..ngeeeeeeeeeee weeeeeeeeee

bubblegum , smoochies

lagi sellalu la aku tension

lagi cptla aku pekak

lagi cpt la pndgrn aku kureng

lagi slllu la aku wat muka mondom or worse thn tht

lagi sllu la aku kureng ckp

lagi sllu la aku kureng senyum

lagi sllu la aku kureng gelak if gelak pun fake ja

lagi sllu la aku headbang

lagi sllu la aku jdi xtentu hala

lagi sllu la aku p skola ngn muka xreti senyum, shit face

lagi sllu la aku dtg skola ngn keja xsiap

lagi sllu la aku xwat keja at all

and the easier i hurt myself

errkk ???


bring me the horizon - pray for plagues

close ur eyes.. pray for plagues


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWggPLXeOkU

headbang rules!!!!


airs not going into ma lungs

great

cheers!

tht ntg of urs shows sth..

hmm

haih.. esok...

pagi2 nk p pg.. then doi.. i wana go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck la man...

grrrr

- ni... i paton urhead.. -

blughhhhhhhh

im suppose to be sleepin now

1218 pm

hmmm...

eyeless - slipknot

akai aku mmg xle guna


my life cnt go on like this

n tym tension2 i tend to eat more n anythin..

benda tu xsdp gila pun i jz bantai

n i tend to take more swit stuff n crave for chocos.. n cakes.. n ice creams

like damn hell shit.. my sugar intake is so damnly gona increase..

aiman

u

so

so

so

gili....


perrrrrr????????

worried kena busted by parents

perghhh

haih..

i hate...

haih.. 1256 am -

bru ja telan 3 huge pieces, its big man og bread with raisin n cinamon.. yummy man.. damn nice.. but had tostop coz tinggai sikit ja,, u c.. i stopprd coz tinngaickit.. bukan stop coz of kenyang..

then papaya bit, grapes a bit n pears..

so.. bila aiman tension... she akn makan.. xtentu hala.. pa pun telan ja..

this means..

this is not gud..

from a damn doraemon shes gona go to a damn freakin panda

great..

my life can neva ge better

:F
geeee


i glow in the dark.. tx cyg.. ngeee.. hahahahahah

yeah2.. i glow2.. doiiii


ok3.... so kan..

gmmm...

one day nnti she will tel me evrtn i nid to know

the other day we wil hug each other witout letting ogo for 30 mins.. not bad2.. ahhahahaha..

so 2 lucky days..

masalahnya.. we barely evn talk at school.. i mean if ya pun .. doiii..

rarely la..


5sth.. wile i wanted to reply hismsg.. sth great happened to my 2nd handphone wic is my dear sony ericson k800i..

guess wat???

it fell of ma hand, of ma bed.. n poooofff...

crashh.. thud.. strait on tht damn wite floor..

then it was STUCK for 10 seconds.. then restrtd again.. i pressed the off button n ntg apends.. getaq sat for 10 secs.. i almost died.. oh well.. i was like great.. nods.. smiles.. smart.. first tym dia jatuh tht bad.. dahla strait on d floor.. pastuh mmg joystick dia.. mcm puki dah.. hmm.. xla teruk tpi teruklaa!!!!

then pa g.. yeah now the phones like loose.. i mean wen u hold it, dia xcm dulu da.. dulu mcm mampat, keras.. skang cm loose smcm.. perghhhhhhhhhhhh.. haihx.. malaih nk comment dah..

...

sobz.. i wana go...

b.. im sorry.. i xtau canna nk tell ma parents.. tht i wana go.. if i nk tumpang sha pun i tau diorang akn blek lmbt.. nma parents r gona kill me.. haih... i wana go.. if la msndkt ngn vmall.. i p dah.. ni.. haihh.. b.. !!!! hmph.. its not tht i xmau p.. i so badly wana go k.. i wna go!!! b.... :(

hmph..

geeeee

i hate..

seems like m leavin soon..

greattttttttttt

lusa no its esok skola.. n idk wat to say if i wana skip.. if at all.. doi...

i wish..

haih...

pergh..

im pathetic.. haihhh...

i kinda hate it.. ahahhaha.. like.. cam.. even the way i greet or reply him.. he'l knw wether m fine or not.. doii.. yeah.. x suka.. coz he knws me too muc.. way much.. hmm..

ntgs gona last..

yeah.. evrtn wil n must come to an end someday, somehow..hmmm

nods..


snow patrol - you could be happy

yeah..la nii.. aiman x guna desktop dah.. hahahaha.. but il go to it wen lappy ni xda.. hmmm..

haih...

hmm..

tadi2. ahahahah p la surau dgr ceramah..

yeah aiman rizal ni.. p ikut umi dia p surau laguna dgq ceramah..

keep staring in disbelief..

nods.. caya la beb..

then2.. tymbalek.. i saw this guy.. seems familiar with his bike. hahahah.. but din click my mind.. i was hoping to see spotlighted jerk.. coz i just passed his hse for the 1st tym.. yeap dari last yer g ingt alamt n num umah dia.hahahah.. taun ni tdi bru dpt lalu... ahahhahaa.. okies. then dt guykan.. i dah masuk keta.. ma mumdok t luae g.. ma mumm... mamat tu dri jauhh g.. my mum dah cm.. dia boley dok fitree3???!!! dok pangge fitree p kat dia.. doi.. dok fitree2 mai sat suma.. geee.. fitreee.. xku sangka.. ahahhaha..


haih.. yeah m wearin sggs pj shirt..

rindu.. i miss pg.. i miss the school.. i miss the hse.. i mis the field.. i miss the ppl.. i miss the compund.. i miss the air.. i miss the smell.. i miss my friends.. hmm... i miss.. evrtn.. hmmm


nak chocolate... nnti g pg.. nkli choco,, hmm.. il beg ma mum to get one for me.. so then itl keep me company sat...

yet again..anther damn long post

133 am.. hmph..

i realise.. i like to make faces.. geleng2.. have to stop.. nid to have a constant face.. dont ask me why...

drownin gpool - told u so

m igona go madd all over again.. n stay up till 4 then get up at 8.. n go thru the whole day as if i slept at 10??? errkkk???

maybe...


i wana go shopping.. new tshirts.. shoes.. make it madd.. slags.. short pants.. make it 3 of em.. 3 diff types.. baggy, normal, jeans, n funky satu, n normal.. n dk.. byk ahh nk.nt 3 its more... then skirts.. hmm jeans n normal i mean the material lupa da.. then sweaters!! hoodies.. bju wit hoodies.. spagettys.. lagi2.. yeah socks.. n watch.. n my hair.. ok2.. done.. part of it..


goo goo dolls - let love in, give a lil bit

hmm..


hmph..

+++

hmm..

nods..

geleng2...

perrrghhhhhhh

wil i survive by til d age of 20?? entahla..


we hve 2 fantastic creative brilliant ingenius brains hre - ilike.. weeeeee XD


star wars episode !!! revenge of the sith

cm tu ka nk spell.. lupa da.. yeh was obsessed wit it tym std 6 kot.. ni suma pasai anakin skywalker ah ni or we say more to hayder christensen if m not mistaken

haih paul rudd.. gahgah

ngeeeeeeeeee

suka sgt sama dia. ahahaha

sggs..

st. georges girls school.. do u knw tht il alwiz look up on u.. ntht il alwiz luv u evntho i pernah hate u.. but nw.. i hope i cn b there n serve u.. aahahahha.. craps.. keep on dreamin aiman.. with devils on..

peace!!!

nk tido ahh

erghhhhhhh

i smkin kerap headbang.. geleng2.. xbgos2..



teddy geiger - for you i will..


nods.. ly... hmm..haihh.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr..

perghhhhhhhhh..

peace!!1

smllxoxo ppl..

i wonder wen i cn giv a gigantic xoxo.. haix.. perghhh..

i hate..

hmmm

put ur chins up..

all blacks

slipknot - eyeless



eating donuts with bmth pray for plagues blasting in my ears is not called life..





doiii...



headbanging



id ont seem to care



keja xsiap



xstudy



beribu kali da ckp



tapi bukknya nk wat

perghhhhhhhhhhhh

i needto get out