crapzzizzz

malam ni u uncool la

semalam u cool gila

abg ad is like a bro.. bkn mcm adam to u ok

good charlotte -walk away ( maybe )

demi cinta yang abadi aiman

hhahahah.. abadi... gawd.. smacks on ma forehead..

bare dt in mind , demi cinta abadi

ha.. oke2.. bare in my mind.. this love is for eternity.. hopefully.. that was wat he said once..

pixies.. tunggu malina.. tni ahh.. siap nk story2.. so later la..



ok canna nk jadi jiwang.. got no idea la wey..
ok ppl.. im syin this..

i

m

actually

la

kan

i

tink

la

kan

but

kan

i

tink

kan

ya

la

kan

kot

kan

i

am


actually











jiwan... shit....

but dulu lagi teruk. skang evntho suppose to be damn hell.. but cm tah ah.. xpure

ok.. tuk pure jiwang.. sila dgr lagu jiwang2.. especially lagu yg mamat tuh suka ka both ka..

lagi...

p la carik mud..

hahah...

angau ka.. ok la..

fuck la man..

wth m i sayin..

love story - taylor swift


ok ppl.. i actually din like tht song.. at all.. til he was like yay!! i got the tabs for love story!! n m like ohh u like it?? then he played the sg n sended it to me.. so i was like LOVE STORY!!!

i tkinda sucks.. i mean .. in the end.. i mean mmg la kan.. we'l surely break up.. n get hurt.. n maybe start another new cyclea gain nehh?? or b single n mingle.. wtf la dey..

oke2.. rmb tis.. aiman igt ni! alwiz!! dont think bout the future nor the past.. think about now.. live it.. treasure now.. for what there is now.. before ur very own eyes.. remain tht way!!


ok lets talk bout him...

xdk mood la.. nk ckp pa pasai dia..

oke2.. suka menyanyi gak..

low, wkemeupwenseptends, lupa dah

hahahahha

suara dia... boleh didgri... i do... hahahahah


frankly speakin, sleeping is a waste of tym..


ppl.. keep tht in mind... alwiz rmb tht...


cinta itu perlukan pengorabanan

gawd..

gawd.. just like he always say.. god.. have mercy on us..

yeah now i do hope theres mercy..

the power of llove~hahahahahah





i made this bed
i choose to lie in it
live with my regrets
sleep with what i said
could this be the end
im standing on the edge
of every thing
i wanted now
i was afraid
i was afraid

maybe im just scared
to face the things i fear
it's easier to
walk away
from everything

separate my soul
with all the things we shared
im falling to pieces
now say a prayer for me
when you go to bed
(cuz)im in need of your faith now
i was afraid

if we could just re-setand
live in happiness
instead of our regets
we could salvage everything
we dont have to walk away

im everything i am, because u love me - celine dion...



i just wonder.. how long wil this fairytale keep me happy.? .

lo... no future.. no past.. its now baby!!!



ur a part tym lover

and a full time friend

the monkey on ur back is the latest trend

idont see what anyone can see in anyone else, but u

i kiss u on the brain in the shadow of the train

i kis su all starry eyed

my body swing from side to side

i dont see what anyone can see in anyone else, but u

here is the church and here is the chaple

we sure are cute for two ugly ppl

i dont see what anyone can see in anyone else, but u

the pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me

so y cant u forgive me

idont see what anyone can see in anyone else, but u

i will find my nitch in ur car

with my mp3,dvd, crumpled pack gtr??

idont see what anyone can see in anyone else, but u

up,up, down or left or ...


too lazy.. to b continued.. maybe..

im too lazy to cucuk the m2 reader.. il have to bend down to do it.. n this is worse.. im too lazy to get the usb hub its in ma room.. worse its far..

so to lazy to upload pix..

even myspace...

shit..

i may be going n sleeping soon..

asal nih..

i was high for a moment///

then ohh shit..

theres goes eeee again..

doi...

wana cry...

hahahhahah..

m tinkin to stay up damn late again..

tgk ahh cana..

see. im very the very unstable.. and i have to do sth out it..

soulja boy - kiss me thru d phone

I AM MADDD

never should be a must..

hes sudeny cute again...

kahkahkah

good charlotte - i just wanna live will yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my meter kan

rosak gila

hahahahaha

wt la wey

stupid mic....

i hate u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuhh...

743.pm



kis sme thru the phone



fuh.. now i seriously smell like a pig. but refuse to mandi yet.. lazy.. gahgah..





ok so ari ni.. ok la..



first ting got up n i was like.. ok2 get up smile!!! n stretch myslf!!!



then mandi all then wen to looi orthodontist!!!



so yeah ppl.. im born with this rabbids teeth.. n that i thot i seriously kena pakai braces back since my rabbids are jutting out.. slightly i gz..



the truth is, im born with abnormal teeth.. like the bottom part u suppose to have four sets of teeth or was it the top.. idk la.. but the ting is normal human beings suppose to have four of em.. n guess wat!!!! i got only three... sobz... gahgah.. n idk y... god knows y.. hehhe..



so no matter wat.. i wont have straight teeth n that it will jut out... no matter wat.. gahgah.. so looi was like waa gud2.. ur teeth is fine.. its normal.. come in six months time.. peace!!!



then went to the pharmacy.. yaddy3... had fun n all.. sp yeah from pantene i went to kerastase then pantene back then now himalayas.. gawd.. n my face from body shop to himalays again.. ahh y m i sayin this.. its coz im changin.. from all stuff to this n that.. no i dont like it...



bmth - chelsea smile..



if u dont und my silence, ul not und my words.. i like it!!!



lady gaga - poker face



ohh n my screensaver is actually his pic... gahgah..



then sudenly my mom saw well from far then guess what she said..







ohhh gambaq sapa tuh?? fitree ahh?? im like wtf!!!!



then i getaq la.. then i was like no la..



mmg la x kan... pa pulak fitree..



then i wantd to tel lher but i just said.. ma, u really think fitree is my bf?



then she was like.. no la i mean doesnt mean its ur BF.. its urBF coz its ur boy friend... and i was like ma its not my bf. its my guy friend.. but yeah importnt to me.. then she was like doesnt mean it must b ur bf... its ok to be best friends or gud friends with boys.. so adala lagi she ckp pa.. so the thing is!!!!! shes cool wit me n boys!!! gahgah.. then she was like umi xnk ahh menantu lembut.. n m like.. gawd!!! hes not my bf!!!! its some1 else...



then i wanted to tell her.. but then she dok ckp apa tah.. menykitkan ati.. so i was like GTH!!!



so xjadi la ari ni nk gtaw dia.. maybe sometym later.. maybe i wont.. but beta if i do.. gee.. idk..



radiohead - karma police...



do i think bout him constantly?? yeah i guess so.. smacks on ma forehead..



haix..



yeah like pagi2.. sometyms terjaga.. i;ll cek ma phone then there wil be a msg from him..



then pagi 6am sth dah..



then go on...



then pagi2 pon he yg soh 1st ting u do is smile n stretch urself.. ullfeel beta.. n it does.. try it!!!



n yet again i know.. this is another monkey love stry thatll go away.. it surely will..



haih..



but wat can i do.. my lifes like tht.. its fine n nice n fun for the first part..



then the rest is crash, burn, blood.. so on la...



but i do hope itl last.. though.. but it doesnt seem so.. gawd.. idk!!



dear god... ( m prayin in my heart ... .... ... ... ... .. ) amin..


ggrrrrr....

he listens to system of a down since he was in form 1.. this guys maddd... gahgah..











bmth - chelsea smile!!!

curi2 blogging.. kahkah..

waitin 4 my dad with dinner.. then il bath then check on the cats again like again and im ready 4 pg!!!

not really going to do anything.. im thinkin life witout mp3 n tht how the fuck m i gona get one like 2mro?? its sounds fckinly imposible.. but ohh well.. lifes like that.. but no.. m not gona sit n wait.. wonder.. im gona have it!!! m gona do it!!! just do it!!! nike la kata..

gona get a school bag i guess n yeap a watch.. i want it.. oinks.. haix..

what else??

byk g...

xterkata

xterhingga

n at least someone else knws bout outkast!!!!

ohh n shit...

i didnt even study...

wic i surely have to do sth bout it..

like damn hell i need..

see..

m wasting my time..

its not by blogging, sitting here... blabbing away bout not studyin..

will actually make me study or ace in my exams..

hell no baby!!

so i know..

il neva improve..





sigh....



outkast - roses...

ggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah id like to webcamwhoring now.. and tonite.. n chat3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ohh well.. itl b tomorrow nite la then... hopefully i can!!!!!!!!!!!! sobz............. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................

facts of life

ignore the pic...

hmm lets see.. today just studied agama.. wic is like i can go home n study it..

the rest...

xwat pa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

xpatot dtg skola in the first place..

n2 next wik sund...........

not sure cmin tak...

n i told adam. adams like yeah n surely the conclusion is ul surely come...

idk la... it depends....

so i have a list of stuff to buy to probably keep me sane..

1. speaker

2. laptop

3. headphone

4. handsfree

5. mp3, ipod nano ka

6. straighten my hair

7. ears.. piercings

8. sweaters... n ada la one more..

9. iphone

10. buy someone

11. buy everyone + yazid... kahkahkah

12. short pants...


so yeah... i gz thts it... byk g.. but forget it..

so tym rehat rehat wit him again.. its like yeah new routine in my life.. walk out of school n recess with him.. well we dont actually talk.. just ckp ckit2 ja..( i dont know la wther i ckp byk or ckit wit him or wat. .tahla ) its jz hanging out.. sitting beside him.... hahahahaha... this is damn funny...


lunchiou - smone ajar...


n yeah its weird like walking out witout him beside me.. like tadi.. then half way thru he was gasping for air.. kepenatan.. i think he ran... dari canteen.. not gud..
gawd..

then he suppose to stay for his friends party.. then dia ckp b4 the party even strted his mum came... mg... ok maybe u dont und the situation... cnni u nk gila2 ngn ur friends kan n bukan selalu ley wat canni coz ur paretns x bgi n tht u r so protected by em.. so u pun syok gila thp cipan ahh igt diorang btul2 bgi n cool.. then sudeny b4 nk gila2 dok eager2 u mum dtg nk amek u home.. gawd...



( makan xlena, tdo xbasah , mandi xknyang ) bukan my ayat...


haix.. n hes al emo n all... n i told him sth tht ive neva told anyone b4.. yeala... since no one pernah experience the exact damn thing... i still neva thot ada gak org cnni.. geee...
yeah all this wile im the ony one.. now him... neva thot of it..

n that... haix.. now i know its so damn fcking hard to face n help an emo person.. to help em cheer n smile again.. i mean all tis wile i yg sllu emo... now somebdy else emo.. especially him.. its hard...

( cocktail - ada gak cock yg ada tail.. not my ayat again )


n yeah tym i emo gila yg coz of the two persons prob tu. this guy.. namanya ... he made me luff like hell n all.. he was just wow... n he la yg made me happy n made my day.. eventho it was late..
i'll never forget him.. evntho we dont talk at school n all.. but geee... hes just wow.. i love his brain.. his ayat.. all... hahha.. i respect u!!! thank u vmc!!

then jeevan lak... nak wat keja gila.. if only hes in front of me.. il surely punch him n slap his face..

lifes complicated..

so i think few weeks ago.. i mean maybe last wik kot.. i told myself.. i wana make this relationship happen.

one : between me n malina.. yeah i know i m selfish.. and im trying to get it out of me.. but the thing is.. shes still my friend..wel more than that n if she needs me, il b there.. since also my aim is to b there for everyone no matter wat.. i have to b tht way..thats the only way i can do to ppl around me

yeah i want us to work out.. i mean things n all...

two : me n him.. dont ask me y.. i stil have tht phobia tho.. but its kinda going away.. but still, its stil lthere.. im just scred to bliv in him fully.. but its growing.. i jsut said ok ill try.. i wan this to happen.. i got no idea y...

three : being normal again with her.. ill work it out.. well it doesnt.. i just need to use my head n be brave n grow up n face things..



kiss me
beneath the milky twilight
lupa dah...

415 pm.. i need to get back to reality.. wat keja sikit.. clean my sanctuary aka its a pigs sty n pack for tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah m like excited coz im going out.. m out from asspee walaupun satja..

still thinkin shud i end up at school on sund??? n yeah yg ari pa tah.. i think mond.. i actually decided not to go.. but i was like eeeee if i dont go i dont get to see him... i mean my cond at tht tym wasnt tht gud n i was like its ok if i go pun ill just die at school n if i dont go i think il get worse.. coz u wana noe why? its stupid.. i sanggup bgn pagi mandi ngn air sejuk cz xdk air.. just to go to school.. thats pure crapppppp...


im lucky tht hes cool with tis prob n all.. imean hes helping me out.. n hes damnly asking me to be damn close with her again.. yeah sis.. he wants it badly.. yeap im telling u tis..

so yeah stayed on tues.. actually xnk.. didnt even realize scouts ada.. then he was like stay x? im like idk!!!!!!!! then argue.. talk2.. n all then we stayed.. he stayed coz he wat his own krs.. s 4 me is either i join his krs or go for my scouts.. n i went for my scouts.. so it was my first tym seeing the real him.. i mean him talking, smiling, luffin. mad n all.. i like it.. yeah the true him.. so it was fun.. i xmenyesal stay.. hahahah.... will i stayback next tym? kahkah..

yeah i didnt want to stay till theva n rinesh had to say ok il cal adam n ask him to stayback also.. yeah i gz i hate staying baccccck til that extend.. gee

n yeah the memo bout no phones allowed at scholl!!! gahgah.. dpt2 ja kertas tu.. malina was like smilling.. n almost everyone especially fitree was shooting me with it.. as usual..

well do i look like im going to stop bringing it?? well for one reason i kinda need it. 2nd my mums like if im in doubt of bringing the phone shell b like bawak lah2.. nnti pa2 i can call.. thats my mum.. hahahh...

so sund was ok.. yeap weeklu updates.. sund ok then ttn.. ok... mr lim is gona hammer me if he know my maths marks.. ohh lord save me...

mon.. weird2.. ok2 la.. cant actually rmb wat happened.. ntg kot.. i gz so.. ohh yeah ohh yeah sunday deena told me sth bout adam.. n i was like oms!!! wtf!!!! then mond sambung tu gak.. its freakish..

tues.. stayed.. bes2!!! ok la.. then lupa... oh yeah slept xtra early

wed.. so slept extra early malam tuh.. so i was like all sleepy the whole day.. even at lib during recess.. i just put my head on the table and tried to stay awake... gawd.. balek2 terus tidor.. then ttn.. ok la.. bought four packets of dentyne chewin gum!!!!!!!! n topup again.. again..

so today.. mula2 boring gila at scholl.. then syok terlebey sat since cg xmasok!!! then byk ahh camwhoring.. oh yeah!!! camwhoring also on tues.. oh yeah .. 1st pic with him!!!

shit la man..

now its like al bout him...

yeah

him

him

him

his infernal majesty i mean

kahkah..


yeah i never actualy like2 someone since last year... gawd.. yeah its hard.. haix..

oh heah he listens to SOAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

kewl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n he lurves mcr.. but not the genre.. but coz of the madness..

gee. i kno hes like.. gawd.. he doesnt wana talk.. so i shall leave him.. im not gona push him..

so its 441pm.. im still here.. as if i have my wholelife to spend on bloggin..

oh yeah i guess i will if i actaully do get iphone.. i mean i will neva stop blogging...


so i'll try n not to cut myself anymore.. i do at times.. but just little.. but i have to stop tho neeeh?

ohh yeah facts of life.. yash just told me stuf. n i sat back n thot of it..

just try n sit at the school canteen at 130pm.. just watch ppl walking out.. u'll see diff things.. lots of em.. n ul learn sth.. i guess so.. idk wat m tryin to say.. but just try.. sit alone.. sit back n just observe.. just watch as the world passes by, revolves around u.. maybe epiphany wud hit u..

not really in the mud to explain wat i had in mind after school tadi.. maybe some other tym..

yeah...

wait and bleed - slipknot...

guitar!!!!!!!!!