The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

After wave, and wave and wave.

Hush already ! sigh.

So give me your sad, sad trip.

To say and admit that I have completely taken over of myself and things around me, I am lieing to you. I dont just simply sign in and sign out of things and feelings like a click with ur mouse. I dont. Im not a robot. Oh I wish I do. I wish I know how to pretend, how to fake things. I dont mind that.

But to say I am not trying, dudeee ! ur wrong. hehe. I know, its been like, almost two months now, day in and day out. I know its never to late to take a ride and catch your life back. And I am. baby steps. And it actually started just yesterday la. I am unpacking. I have started driving. I have started cooking. And I am mentally giving myself advices constantly haha. So, I hope it remains because I am sick being sick.

And I hear that patience is the key. Thattt, is a huge problem for me. I dont have patiencce. So it doesnt work on me. So rather than patience, why dont we say, Staying calm is the key. for me.

And we all know, the grass izz alwayzz greener on the other side. So what the heck. I am on th other side already. So I have to admit. I have everything here and I am grateful.

And the best girlfriend I have is my mom. =)

And so, yeah, I am in the present, by all means, its reality. I have to stop living in the pass. I know that, if I dont like the past, or might be the future, theres nothing I can do cause noooobody can change the past. So I have to face facts of the past, suka atau tidak, hurts atau tidak, I have to. So, since I cant change the past, why dont I change my attitude towards it aitee.

Yes, I quit crying my eyeballs out. I quit being a pathetic jerk, asshole, saddening, hopeless girl, anything that you can name actually. I quit caring so much and feel so much. I quit taking note of small little things that wont do me any good at all. I quit the past. All I want now is the present and the future. Period.