gone with the sin

can sth at least turn rite for me tonight?

sooooooo.. my dads gone to pg. tmrw kl. but he'll be back at nite. idk wat time.

m so not hapy bout it.

n yeah i was like i wana hugg to him. sobz.

n i did. titely.

n m so not happy coz my mums not well. ok so she admited yest. tdi kuar. but dont ask me y she kan kuar today. gawd!

great la. i hate it weneva im the only left to depend on. like suma aiman3!!!!!!

wat can i do?!!!!!?

nothing.. ok?!

n from ares m going to realplayer. its functioning.

thank god. m not sick anymre. but m sick in the other way. get what i mean?

n i dk y. i just miss b sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. so2 very2 much. idk y. since b4 leavin. then in the car. then at home. then evrything.

i want b..

i want daddy..

the end..


n yeah. i have to sleep early tonite i guess n ig2 sleep with my mum.

heaven. god. great. great!

oh n yeah. in my life.. do i always have a fucking choice???????!!!!!!!!!???

noooooooooooooo.. i dont have choices in my life! thts y i dont know how to say no. coz evrtn g2 b a fcking yes!

thats how my life goes. u take or u leave it..

oh n yeah great. i suppose to be studyin or just at least flipping thru science. since tmrw i have msn 830-12. nvm bout tht. i have music.

stilll

grrrrrrrrrrr


thank u b... thank u did..

thank u adam faiz isa.. thank u tan xin yee..

:)

tho yeah.. it isnt the happiest day of my life, ( oh man, of coz its not rite? ) but at least its sth tht i can rmb till i die. :)

thank u very2 much

so i owe u guys a song each ok. but m not gona guarantee u guys tht im gona sing. i may just be on the organ or guitar ok? hehe

so great. my batt. just half left. then whilst recordin, it was just dieing. greatttttttttttttttt.. then2 em2. yeah smpat gak ah record. so i was left without a phone for an hour or so.

maybe next year, hahahhahha.. yeah sweet sixteen. idkwat will happen to me. soooooooooo.. me n deena, we promised with our pinky finger, we r gona perform!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhahahhaahha.. yeah u can luff wile rolling on the floor. yes u may. :) but yeah i want didi along with gha n b.. i mean.. all of us la just rock on the stage!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

now thts at least sth i cn smile about. :)

so m actually distressing myself with well learning a new song on the guitar.

grrr..

em2.. wateva apened today, il blog bout it esok ka..

n2.. yeah.. i really have to sleep with her...

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk...

ok..

the end.

i so dont like this.

him - gone with the sin

mg!! tht damn fcking song!!!!!!!!! chun gila.. wel i act xsuka, but wen i heard azim n a guy nynyi tht song. the did the melody n suma tu la. i fel in love with it!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

soooooooooooooooooo.. now its 119pm. i wonder hows everyone at school. especially b. well yash, tan, thatchu, dharshu, deena, gha.. haix.. :((!

so now bru mkn. mkn lunch n ubat. m so gona sleep later. n everytime i kna telan 5 pills n ubat batuk i sedap gila2!!! sirap pun kalah.! grr.. my temp is kinda high rite now. tpi i need to wait 4 my food to be digested then booooooooooomm! m gona sleep! i so neeeeeed to sleeeeep!

so great.. dr ckp schools gona be off for me for a few days. n i was like uhhh!!!!!!!! can i come on thurs???? hax

so dok bla3... lakan... so if i feel fine i can go, if not. ish i cant even say it

so kluar2 my dad tnya wats so imprtnt on thurs? i was like hari canteen. then he ckp tu p restoran tu pun dh ari canteen dah. i was like naaaaa my friend is going to perform. he ckp laa suruh la record then u can tgk. m like nooooooooooo!!!!!! no la idin say anytin after tht coz i was just to devastated n too sick to say anyting. i have to go! its not just a performance. its a performance just for u! dont tell me ur gona miss it?

u got to be kidding me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i just dk. i have to get well. like by tmrow la i have to be ok!!!!!!!!!!!!! haix. f la man. at least kan. bagi la i p ari khamis. look at u perform, n m done. thts all i want. i wana see u perform. then done. then i go home. adoi....................................

then2.. em2... yeah i act get sick almost every other month. so it may be caused by stress. like againnnnnnn!!!!!!! hahaahha.. wtf!

soooooooooooooo.. my dads idea. which i think its so gona be true. b4 tht, id like to say. ijdk wat to say. his planning is tht, since i alwiz get sick, y dont i just dont go to school. so its like 2 or 3 weeks, i think its gona be 3 weeks, well maybe for trials but 100% sure for pmr, i wont go to school anymore. n its not like i skip today, esok i mai. no man. damn fucking no! its the whole stretch of 2 or 3 weeks of me not goin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just dont know what to say. haix.

so yeah. haix. i jdk xtau nk kata pa. i mean thurs. its so such a biggest day. y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now2.. just go n rest. mkn ubat. rest!!!!!!!! god willing, ul b fine n ul make it on thurs. think + !!!
u guys.. pls pray for me i can come on thurs. just p tgk b maen pun cukup da la n amek gamba n hang with u guys jap. if posib, i want the whole dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! mg! m fckinly devastated.!

n yeah. esok mmg x p skola. grr..

y laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............

i have tostop gettin sick! like daymn!!!!!!!!!!!!!! m gona get flu shots n those darn vit shots. m gona beg my mum to bring me to the hosp n shoot me with it. il pay with my very own moneyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!! dang..

ok.. so baru ja on the phon engn b.. surprisingly! no la.. its gooddddd.! m sweatin!!!!! weeeeeeeee! so. m gon rest now. so hes like u have to come. i have surprises? errhhh??? so u have to have. wtf?!

mg..

ya allah.. tlglah. bagi lah aku sihat. amin2..

i have to swaet! n rest!

n m done!

:D !

i so hate this !

bgn2 pagi.. well my dad gerakkan. so still on the bed, i said i was okay. once i stood up n tried to walk. i knew iwas no ok. at all. jln mcm pening gila. n so hot! dang. soamek thermometer n its 38.7. weeeeeeeeee.. bes gila..

so i went down, walaupun dok terhuyung-hayang, then told my mum. she dok bising2, nk bwk p hosp. allllllllllllll la. i jz cant rmb...

the thing is. instead of thinkin whther i kna h1n1, or how much more time do i have to live.. i thot of.. dang.. wat if icant come on thurs? n today hes gona play it to azman. how?

haih.. y must iget sick rite nowwwwwww?

i hope evrythins fine.. hmm.. :(

fuck la man.. grrr..

ok.. nk p mkn.. n still.. well mmg la xdak updates at school since its gempur now..

:(( !

- happy fourth-month anniversary - i know. it sounds kinda funny. hahah..

I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can



I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape


I love you till the end


I just want to tell you nothing
You dont want to hear
All I want is for you to say


Why dont you just take me
Where Ive never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath


I love you till the end


I just want to be there
When we're caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry


I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
Im lost for words dont tell me
All I can say


I love you till the end





- sooooooooooooooo.. sund morning la kan.. hes like. i have a surprise for u. i want u to hear it. oh god. im scared. im nervous. im scared u dont like it or anything. and i forced u to come online. i stole ur precious sleeping time. ( wich u really3! did. hahahah.. but it was very the very worth it. :) mind u, i slept less than 3 hours, but guess wat? i got up with the hugest smile on my face. frankly, i cudn rmb wen was the last time i was like tht. then i smiled. i was mad. i was geylong. n i cud do my work. i was just well happy. :) )



- soooooooooooooooooooooooooo... when he played it in guitar, first few chords, n m like wtf? u got to be kidding me! i think i know this song. then he started singing. then aft few lines i was like ohh great. im gona cryy.. then went on2. well i din la. hehe. then aft he dah abes maen. i was speechless. i mean. no one have ever done tht to me. it was so omg! i was smilin like :D!!!!!!!!!!! mmg very3!!!!! damn wide!!!!!!!!!!! xterkata la. hahahah.. then i was so high. dok xtau la cana. yeah.. i cudnt rmb wen was the last time i was like tht. it was the sweetest most nicest most wonderfull thing someone had done to me. i was just well speechless. all i cud do was smile like daymn!!!!!!!


thank u b. coz u made my day. n more days to come too. :)

thank u for doing that.

thank u coz u made me smile. like damn hell :)

n yeah. most of all. u made me cry. pagi2 buta. till my arm was wet. grrr. hahaha.. i just dang cried. ahahahha..


n.. dang.. r u goddamn serious ur gona perform on hari kk??? i mean mg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously. im gona cry. yeah ppl. ur wish will be granted. ur wish to see me cry. live. before ur very own eyes. y do u guys really want to see me cry? ada stgh snggup dera or do anytin just to see me cry. grr

- kitty hamsty world. haahhahahah

aihh. i just cant imagine i mean. idk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the fact tht i was just. tah. for the first time in sooooooo long. i was so happy. ntg bothered me. i wasnt bebai. i was soooooooooo in a gud mood. ntg worried me. ntg made me feel like shit. ntg at all. i was just happy. i wasnt down at all. eventho things prettty much as usual, upside down. but tah. everything was just fine. :)

- n yeah .. now just forget la kan.. nvm..

sooo. currently my brains not functioning anymore. so bye2..

chimaira - pwer trip

:P!

the last thing id like to feel is feeling sick. em sick in al ways. :)

so great.. yest started coughin. then hot2,cold2. arini.. greatttttttttttt.. + sneezin pulak..

grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!1

then2.. cool la kan. mmg la xley stay bec. mai skola pun kira ckp bagoih la.

so em2.. lets see.. ari sabtu.. yeah p kluar mkn ngn maliks again. thenem2.. kluar ngn uncle jamal, hoz, kak noran. then2 em2..

:D! thatl b later on.

so yest.. xigt la man. al i know. yeah. happiest day.. i cudnt.. naaaaaaa.. yg ni later. hahahah

arini.. mcm tu ja la.. esok gempur kh.

god, pls. i dont wana get sick.

eventho i kinda am. but plssssssss...

did i say i got nwz beck? heheh.. :D

thts all i can rmb. coz rite now i bru telan panadol n ubt selsema. then later cough mixture. il jz go omg. geylong ah. headache may hit me soon. i have to sleeeeeeeeeep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh n yeah. great. 13days more for trials. n m like this. what the fuck!

ok2. think +. its not hard to study. its not hard to score. sng ja study. just baca. wat latihan. :D weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!

i hate this.

then2 em2.. yeah.. brpa lamala aku ley bhgia? like truly bahagia?

answer : 1 hari sahaja !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haahahahha

im still with kings of leons. dang diorang teruk ah..

my nose.. its gona b dripping soooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn... aih.

ok fine. stop mourning. n sad. lets go to the happiest moment in my life. :D