Contradictions.

I have that, and go thru that. A lot. Its always the, i see the good in it but the picture, my its ugly to me, to my eyes. Its jusy ugly, i dont go near it nor want to touch it. But by right, nothing is wrong. Logically, nothing is wrong about the things that i have second thoughts about. I think i am not open and flexible enough to be able to see the good from and in it. Or should i grow up and let it go and try to overlook the ugly thang about it and only imagine sweet things about it? I feel that is what we call lieing to ourselves. Right at our own faces. So idkk. I mean. Really ?