And by far, I think that is the stupidest most terrible decision that you could ever make without telling me beforehand. Oh wait, it aint important anyways.

What the hell is appreciating when you do so much, or you just do it or you dont do it or you let it do it, aint being appreciated. what fish is the point when now somebody is ok with it but you cant do it. Might as well go and eff yourself. You should have realized it and done it 10 years ago, shouldnt you? Instead of seriously letting one suffer and cry and dread to this extend only you want to realize kan. Kan ? How can one be so selfish and unfair towards one. You can say as many things as you want, do whatever you want, one thing I can assure you, I cant and am not able to get back what I have wasted and what I have lost. so dont you come to me and say its the same story. It is not. At least you dont have to bloody dreaddddd3 about, coz you know why, it will never bloody happen to you. so you should be happy for that. I wish I had done something last time so then I didnt have to hope like shit this time and being crushed like this. Yes I have been waiting it since forever and guess what ? I need to continue doing so. And guess what are you doing now ? Oh boy I dont want to know. So dont come to me and say you cant do it, bloody shit you can. thank you so much for all of these unnecessary crap that I would never ever ask for in my whole life. I wish I could mould all of these and of what i am feeling right now into a huge ball and shove it down your throat and say, there, taste it, have it, live with it ! And tell me that you are the most happiest person after that. And I am not gonna be an angel and scratch and rub your back anymore. I didnt get it when I needed it anyways so you can rot away.