I have a voice and I want to be heared. Everyone does. Can't I make myself any clearer ?

If seeing is believing, I think I have seen enough for now. Prove me no wrong because you have proved something that I do not want to know. I dont know why I should be put into such situations, I dislike em and dont want to be in em. If karma is doing its job and is slapping right at my face right now, I might want to accept it. But this is not karma, I am perty sure about it. If it were to be said that I did not try, I did not try to convey, I did try it out, loud. If it were to be said that it was not clear, it was not effective, I think I made a statement of my own already. What is an epiphany if it only lasted for the night. What is a thought, it is like a wind, it just passes through you. I am not ready to live by the means of not being able to nurture myself, to not fully utilize what I have in me and to not being able to gain what I never have in me. I am not ready to live by the fact that there is no ocean that I cannot conquer. They say it is suppose to bring out the best out of you. Does it ?