Who in the right mind of an 18 year old person with 9as in their hands and I am not saying that its the best results in the whole wide world ok would opt something like this ? I sincerely feel I chose the wrong thing and went against my wishes and odds. Yes I made my choice a year ago and here I am with it. But what I am going to do now is do some homework, buy myself a bsn pin number wat crap and register and do it and see where it will take me. So for gods sake cut me off some slack and appreciate that I actually have the brains and hearts to commit myself here. I could have gone far away if I wanted to but I did not and that I dont see what is the point of sticking around anymore. So give me some space, some voice, some ear, some mind to make up my own mind and choice. Thats all I ask for. I am already commiting a huge part here. Thank you. So forever that might seem, I hate bein tied to things. Forever I hate it. Either temporary or forever. What is it good for ?
Yes thank you for worrying. But I just dont care. I am going to fill anything up that I can and see how. You say I am such a problem, well, how nice, thank you. I frankly am tired of caring right now ok. of anything. Memang la, all I heeare is, pilih ja lah apa you nak. Up to you la apa you nak buat. sigh.
And no, I am not going to go and talk to you. What is the point, its either i will get nothing or i will get worse than what I am in right now. I am not asking you to be a judge nor a preacher. Just be good. Thats all I ask for. But what I get? Nothing.
No, I am not a puppet that has strings around me hands, legs and facial features bounded by a stick that you can get hold of and control. No, I am not. If you think I am, then you are wrong. Yes you might dislike what you get or what you see. And I tell you, you have all the rights in the whole world to behave, handle, live and do things that way. geez. What do you think I am, again ?
And what crap is this. I have been hearing good things, good stuff bout this, for like what, four months more than that ? Whattt ? why the sudden change. I dont understand. Why cant we just stick to the plan. I think it is quite simple. It is not that I am gona loose anything ka pa benda kan.
I am sorry that all I have these days are bad and negative thoughts and feedbacks but I have no choice but to say it here. No one would want to listen. More so would want to understand.
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