I am effing tired of waiting.
I am effing tired of saying its ok, even when you are an asshole, I am tired of saying its ok.
I am effing tired of being patient.
I am effing tired of hoping one day I will get things or at least to be treated like I want to.
I am effing tired of waiting for things or people to change, even the slightest bit.
I am effing tired of finding other alternatives whereas I actually have the main thing right in front of my face but simply just because you dont bloody function.
I am effing tired of being screwed up and see things getting screwed up.
I am effing tired of putting effort in anything I do, I want to do things effortless.
I am effing tired of trying to be happy, where I cant even stand being happy for a wholeee complete night.
I am effing tired of certain things.
I am effing tired of my brain, my heart, my memory, my feelings.
I am effing tired of trying things.
I am effing tired of my constant need to talk to someone, or if failed to be fulfilled, the itch of finding somebody else to talk to.
I am effing tired of my need to actually want peoples opinion and advice especially, why cant I just make it on my own without thinking long.
I am effing tired of my need of needing someone, all the time.