we are listening and we are not blind.

sangat bangang. i mean aku ckup tak suka orang bangang. bukan tak suka tapi saket ati and akai dengaq, u know what i mean, otak pandai2, pa suma, aku taw ang ada masalah, ok la, call la cakap la mai habaq cita pa masalah, bukan kawan yang bagoih2 tak dak. ni nak wat merapu bagai, pe cer bhaiiii ? aku taw aku ni pon bole tahan bangang ja haha tapi aku tak la bangang sampai wat keja bodo ruin my life.

its just aku rasa, ok la, not cuti, we all separated dah kan, but since we all habes sekolah. memang kita ada haluan n hidup masing2 dah, just the thing is, bangang owkay. i wish school ada so then we can pebetuikan our brain sikit. at least once in a while we sit together in a circle and distres ourself, yes our little circle with a bottle, the person with the bottle only can talk, and the bottle is kinda like ur punch bag. by the end of the session, botoi tu mmg hancuqq dah la. haha. or2 cikgu tak dak tu, kita p visit2. sit together and share stuff or sesi luah perasaan. i seriously need that. sighh. pasepaaaaa ! i wish in kdu i do meet people mcm tu. double sigh.

ok this. dont feed me plant food. macam ni la. if u want me to be a vegan, pure vegetarian, aku tak kisah langsung taw tak. just, u suroh i jadi vegy, u pon kena la. yang u p makan ayam, eat all the meat and suroh i jadi on a strict diet with vegy, pa kes ? dont u ever feel that ur doing such a huge deal of unfairness ? and ok la, tak pa, dimaafkan disuro jadi vegan, the thing is, ang tak sedaq pon yang ur feeding me plants only. and jangan la mai kata kat aku oh aku tak taw aku dok bagi ang sayuq ja, aku tak sedaq pun ang perlu benda laen seperti ikan especially ayam. sigh. if u come to me and say that to me, il say to u, kamu sangat ta understanding.bende ni doesnt have to be told, mau kena faham sendiri, u know my life well, my time spent well, my daily thing, then? tak penah nampak ka ? aku simple ja la. kna fair. ang jangan jadi omnivore and aku kena jadi herbivore. why dont dua2 omnivore kan. kan senang. tapi pulak, to let go and tgk orang laen makan ayam, that hurts and its hard. to forgive and forget whatver that has been eaten, aint my vegy. and i have to work on that. and this goes to the past and the near future. ye, i am scared. i know my past, am trying to learn from it because I dont want to be condemened to be repeating it.