Maybe now you are pressing the right button, again. =)

so after all those, and trust me this aint the end of it, sebab i dont feel it is. so yeah, gawd yesss I am very fickle minded and that I change my mind and rethink things almost constantly all the time.

the thing is, i know what, no idk what i want still, haha. sometimes I want that, sometimes I wish I can throw it away. ok laa orang cakap, there is a light. aku nampak dah light tu, just macam mana nk p ja. yeah, nk p kena mau ada cara, that I lack of. I dont know whats my plan or how do I go bout this, coz if I dont have a genius plan. I am still going to be stuck in this crap.

But whats for sure is, I am not going to let all this go to waste. That is for sure.

Some, certain things, really do not change. Like the faces, the smell, the sense. Our faces might change, certain things might change or the arrangements might change, but certain things are meant to be the same. I might have not been there for over 10 years or so, but going there makes me feel like yeah, I am going back to a time where I used to be.yeap. I went to the wet market, yessss I didddd ! haha. and going back there, seeing all the aunties and uncles and the smell of it and the place. and seeing da and talking to ezzati. makes me feel happy. my point here is, it proves a point to me. its not that bad to go back to where you once were just to relive it again. And so I was searching, looking for familiar faces, and I did and I liked that. so I guess dont be afraid to take a walk in your mind and to go back to a time where you once were.

And I must admit, I avoid talking about the past. a lot i suppose. So when I offer you to talk bout it, trust me, it only will come once in ur life and especially when I am really ready to be so open.

And things that are meant or were meant to be. If they are, they will remain as it is. God willing. I wonder what happen to my effort, my wants and my dreams. I know its still in me, I think I am just too bz minding my not so important matters. And I cant seem to snap out of it, yet. I am still stuck here, not wanting to move forward or even take a step back. Yes, every body can come and give me free advice, say this and that. I am taking it. Its just whether I am or want to do it or not.

All in all I have to say, have a break, have a kit kat !