Firstly, i thank Allah for giving me this opportunity to come here and to feel all of these.

Its only like a couple of days but i already feel the strain. The strain of u knw, not gettin ur comfort food or ur bantai busuk kinda feeling. As for me, not getting into my comfort zone. Wel, ya, sth did. In the busy city of Sydney , i found comfort in the smell of my father. Yeapp. N mind u that was like less than 5 seconds but i treasure it evry bit yaww. Just ya, i need my alone time mcmtu but xdak. But id missit tho. All this. I do have half in mond of xmo balek and stay here forever and forget bout evrythg. Well, thats not forget, thats runnin away from reality and faking ur life.

To say i miss it, i would be lieing to u but to say i dont miss it, thats a lie too. Sighh.

Nowi have thefear of expressing myself freely. The fear of i wont be understood. Let alone understood, to be heard, to be treated with feelings and heart. I am scared. I would just rather be not heard than try so hard to actuallybeheard. Whats the point of expressing urself where u cant even get a sincere pair of ears and a heart to come to u ?

I cant call u, not that accessible. I cant text u too, thats so outof theqs while i am here.

It makes me sick tomy stomach when i think of it

N for the fact tht i cnteven keep a thing to myself for 10 mins, now this is like a whole week. Yeah, im like a ticking time bomb.

N read my lips. I would rather go to wildlife parks rather than shopping heheheh

Sydney aquarium was awesome. Featherdale wildlife was awesomee. Dapat tgk sharks2 n sea creatures pelik2. Then pggkoala n kangaroo hehe. N sydney opera house. I loikee.

N yeah. Mmg dlm my list. Aku ada dua org yg aku nk confront. Bukannk mrah ka apa but gtaw a pieceeeee off my mindd. Haha. Sma la jgakkot.

Sorang ni akuxtaw pasepa dok mcm, ok wait. Dua2 dok wt cm kejam n xdak akai. Dah.

N whats a family trip without a family dinner.

Dah, thanks.