if it seems so real and so true and so nice, but obviously, it can be near perfect, but not near at all. My point here is, what else do I want ? What else am I hiding ? Why do I think that this is just not it. Like, there must be something more than this. Why am I not letting myself to just flow and believe ?
Maybe its the fear that I have. Yes, to just sleep in a new room, in a new house, bothers me much more than the feeling of my underwear getting stuck in between my huge ass. yeap.
And to begin with, like start like telling a story. One, it will bring me to tears, again. Two, who would understand. Even I dont. idky I find this super difficult to handle or to talk about it. Where should I start ? I mean I cant just blurt out, yes, I can actually. to some people only and I only have one in mind. The thing is I might feel like nobody would understand me or might consider me as a stupid person who just cannot get a grip of things around her.
Is it because I am too bored ? Or yeah, not half but three quarter dieing of boredom. And I dont even know what I want. and for the fact that kdu is gona start 2nd april, makes me want to die more. I was hoping for second week of march if at all.
And maybe if I say this, and it goes this way, I dont want, I want to go that way. And if it does go that way, be it because it happens to be or made a few adjustment, I wouldnt want that too. I know, apa yang tak kena sangat ni.
Sigh. what should I do now. I would really appreciate to go for a drive. Maybe ok, lets look at the brighter side. Hurh ? yes, I refuse to.
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