i cant sleep. How I feel like I'm starless.

i cant accept it. its, i am filled with anger, hatred, full of unanswered and never will be answered questions kinda feeling. and to even say it out loud, more so lettin it out, then asking questions about it, what the fucking crap. to why i am not that way, why am i not brought up that way, why did i not get it once upon a time ago, or been given the chance to feel it now if i wasnt given the chance to feel it.why me. why you. why all of these. why cant i get it. i dont think im asking for so much. those are, well, nvm. sigh. fine yeah. live with it. just dont repeat it. learn from it and so you are not condemned to be repeating it. i might have to live with a life full of unfairness but cut the crap, that is life. i might have to give somebody else something i havent even felt in my whole life. or give something that i will never get back in return. i dont hope for returns but i hope for being treated equally and fairly. i just wish i was given that chance, thats all . period. all binds with the phrase it hurts and life sucks. thanks.