Now that wasnt thatttt hard. I can actualy do this, but try it hard, very hard. haeh.

I have to retrain myself for this whole damn thing. Its like, I ask for milo, a perfect, nice, hot cup of milo. I might not get how I want it to be. I would have to either take it and drink it sebab dahaga sangat, or I can starve myself and not touch that milo or request for another one, and keep requesting again and again till I really get the milo that I want. But nak tunggu tu lama la. So be it too sweet, I kena la campur air sikit. Be it too cold because I have to wait for so long, boh la ayaq pnaih or boh ketul ais. be it any way my milo would be, that milo is drinkable and does not taste awful actually. it taste just fine, obviously it is not perfect as because it is not how I want it to be. I am the one who is being too picky, actually. Perhaps not having school or anything beneficial to do is really driving me crazy. orang cakap, ya, tak dak keja so aku carik kerja. most prolly. I have a very high tendency to trash almost everything and anything skang ni sebab tak dak benda nk wat. as much as I want kdu to be very far away, I think I really need it. kalo bole i wished i msok jan. at least I feel pandai sikit and otak ni ada la dipenuhi dgn ilmu yang berguna. daripada skarang ni which I feel my life literally is hanging by a string. yeap, very xstable. and that pindah cepat pon bole la. at least I can spend time cleaning, unpacking and managing the house. otak tak dak la idle sgt kan. i just need a purpose to go thru my days again. please, give me some purpose. because I can hardly find one. i just want to stop trashing everything, all over again. gah. inilah akibat bosan sangat.