Sleepy head.

I slept for almost two hours, well, before my attempt to read sejarah, haha ! damnnnn. im damn sleepy. i wish im dead. like dead.

im tired. im worrying so much. im over-thinking everything. everything little small thing. well not to the extend of me going insane yet. n note, my hormones are like fuckers i tell u. its just hard to control everything. patience is the key. well brain is the key, too. effort, patience again, understanding, can i say everything ? patience again.

fuckk larrr. everything is quite annoying now. small littleee things. haha. i wish i have like drums or sthh. u know, when ur angry, n u feel like ur brain n ur head n ur everything is about to explode, ur temperature is rising, ur head is spinning, ur face is red, ur lips are red, u feel like throwing everything that u see including iphone, n it gets worse when u start to tremble bcuz ur so angry and that u cannot express it. in a way, if u dont express it, u feel like fuck, even if u do express it, u will feel like fuck bcuz of the guilty n foolish feeling later on. so might as well deal with the anger and let it slowly subside.

damn, yes, i lost the ability to handle my anger again. i have to restart the whole ' aiman learn how not to be angry programme ' again.