B.S.

I am depressed. So, in order to ease my depression, I am fattening myself with home-made blueberry cheese cake. In the name of God ! what the hell is happening to us ? what the hell is happening to all of us ? I hope this is the only thing that I am going to see. Tomorrow is school, I hope I dont see more of us dangling by a string. If at all I do, God, give us all the strength and the courage that we need. Why cant we all just be happy for one day ? For one god damn fucking effing bloody dayy ? Yes, help. I have got some plans for help and rescue effort. I will execute it. Yea, while trying to save myself, too. How ? I dont know how the heck I am going to do it. Pandai2 aku lah. I am 17 and a big girl now. I can do it. Would somebody just tell me what is happening ? Now I am really scared of school tomorrow.