Random ramblings. Dont ask. Thanks.
1. Money cannot buy love. Money cannot buy happiness. I know, people who doesnt know how to shop would agree with that. Yes, shopping, money, it buys me happiness. But temporary happiness. What I want and maybe long for is long lasting, genuine, honest, true love and happiness. And I know that is too much to ask for. So, skip that part. Just be happy, make people around you happy and just say WHY BOTHER ?! QUIT IT ?! and i did.
2. And so it turned out to be awesome. I should be on cloud nine by now, no, a second right after everything but I am not. Maybe because I am scared and worried and it does freak me out because of how things are. Of how I am deeply and very affected by all those. And how in any moment, in a split second, it all goes away. Like what the hell, you know. My life, my emotions, my everything, like it or not, sedikit or banyak, depends on you.
3. You and your plans. Full of excitement, surprises, happiness, well, what more can I ask for ? I am lucky. I am head over heels over you. I am into you, I am still into you. I am not bored or tired of you.
4. Original or strawberry ?
5. I wish i can say what cikgu aziz said or almost all the kids in the whole wide world would say. mind you kids who are normal. yes, I am not normal as you might have noticed. And the more you know me, the more you say I am from outer space. believe me. I know. I am sorry, but I know I am weird, I am not normal, I am very different compared to others. And by all those traits that I have, and that I am born with, I am really sorry that I am not perfect, I am not able to act or be normal like others, I am not able to satisfy you, or simply I am just not like everyone else who you candle handle easily.
6. I knew it. Now tell me, you are kidding me, right ? like totally, its a joke ? please tell me its a joke or i would just kill myself. if this were a contract, this would be a contract I wouldnt sign for the rest of my life.
7. Yeah, i just wish i could say it. I wish I am like others kids who can say it. Full heartedly, sincerely. I cant even think about it more so say yea whatever. Life is like that. Like it or hate it, its your life. Live with it.
8. To sink or to swim ?
9. Realize that we have school tomorrow ?
10. And do u effingly realize that trials is less than 100 days ? i think 99 days more to go if i were to believe the calculation made by my fellow classmates are accurate. Do u realize that I have most prolly 99 days left to study my small brain and my big fat ass out to secure a place in KDU for the first intake in 2012????? damn ! * a moment of silence * YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME ! how the hell am I going to do all this. ok fine. I can. Its just study. easy thing. JUST STUDY.
11. Are you out of your mindddd ???
12. And I dont want to go to school tomorrow !!!! yes i refuse to go.
13. I am going to ignore and pretend that nothing happened. That nothing did anything. just nada. nil. I am moving on with my oh so pathetic and sad life. No wonder you always say that to me. Please, dont be so ridiculous too often. I will shoot you right on your head and blow your pinky brain out with my invincible gun. You wouldnt want that rightt.
14. Have you done anything significant in your life that at the age of 30, and if your memory is good and that thing you have done has really gave you an impact and affected you,and while you are feeding nestum to your kid, you could tell him or her about your achievements during your younger years ? Yeah, lol, I can say I am expanding my oh so already very large arse on my couch, looking at my mother walk pass by me, my father in his towel, with the sound of the fan and clock, blogging about nothing. yea, thats what i am good at. i havent done anything with or to my life. ALL THIS WHILE i havent done anything that i can say i am proud of.or even happy about. ok i am happy having cats. i can hardly play ok fine i can play fur elise on piano. n thats it. and even an impaired person can do that. what do i have in me that totally makes me different and stand out from others. how can i be prominent instead of just one of them in the crowd. what makes me special. yeah, reminds me of sivik, since in primary school anyways, when everytime they talk about your qualities, your kelebihan. all i can see is lots of kekurangan and hardly anything that can be considered as kelebihan. and i hate it. bcuz that is a question where i cant find the appropriate answer.
15. Still, I am here, wasting my precious time, more precious than gold, and not doing anything.
!6. Who are your parents ? Who are you without them ?
* play me a song for a sing along *
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