So, the ultimate question, ok this is so obviously so not the ultimate question, but since my dad is staying in tomorrow just for that, my mother is goddamn excited since like a month ago, n she is really3~ oh so happy and excited actually, my brother is coming over tonight and in hope that justin bieber would come over and perform and have great food, i will have chocolate indulgence and western food tomorrow, amalina i can see she is excited also haha n pls dont do anything and mr bf is asking me to be happy and all those what not.
How do i feel turning sweet seventeen ?
Frankly, I am feeling worse than I thought I would and should be. haha. yeah. no, I am not excited nor neutral or anything. I feel so heartless. Tah la, I feel bad. but seeing everyone around me so excited n stuff, come on, I have to at least put everything behind, gather all the courage I have and smile and move on and be happy along kan ? i cannot be so selfish, i cannot melayan n ikut perasaan sgt, who am i to do all those, right ? * pfffft, teenage life, pms much ~ * so here I would like to say I am trying to cheer myself up and relax and to keep it together till all this thing is done and yeah it depends what will happen after that.
the worse part is, really, i dont wana bring my mother down. she is just so happy. and i should too, right ? i feel bad in that sense. really bad. and she is even asking me to go out. yeahh. she, my mother is asking me to go out with my friends today or tomorrow to celebrate it. like omg rite ? first time in 17 years. but yeah, i still dont get full freedom till im 21 heheheh. ^_^
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