Mid- Year Examination, 2011

and mind you, that would be my last mid year i will ever have in my whole life. damn man, last year in high school.

ok fine. i am depressed. hahahaha. do i sound psychotic enough ? no, i am not depressed. obviously. im fine, im ok, i still smile, i still laugh, i dont take pills tho i am yearning for my personal brand of heroine. heeeeee. like damnnn i wantttttt ! pergh. haha.

just, exam, y u so longggg ?????!!!!???? some may enjoy it, but fuck i dont anymore.

wth is wrong with my dad ? hahaha. no wth is wrong with me also. im not laughing but i was like wthhhh. haha

alright, anyways, dari mula exam lagi i felt it. now its like worse. ok fine, i have sth that i would like to admit. i miss u guys ! i miss u guys sooo much. i dont care whether u guys miss me or not, i just miss u guys. sbb at least dlu kalo xdak exam, we can still lepak2, wat kja gila2, mcm aritu maen air n stuff. we just have the time during classes. i just miss u guys. the only time we could talk skg is pagi2, itu pun kita pegang buku. we are just burying ourselves with books, well mestila, no choice, its exam, xkan kita still nk nganga n melepak n wat keja bodo lagi kan. serious la kejap. hence the no time of dulu2 punya time. ok another thing la, nevermind.

it hit me hard time study bio tdi, n i xbpa kisah la bout bio sbb it was nice. i know sometimes i study i akn blah n jalan2 so i wont be around. much. but tadi i sat with miss oh so gedik anis n lovely anusha n gelak2, teasing and making fun of each other. damn i miss it.

so here i would like to ask for sth. this may be too much, but if its ok, dgn muka xmalunya ni, i would like to spend some time with u guys. i know, incorporate study with it. trials sgtlah dekat dah. and trials is my golden ticket to kdu. if i screw that, i am screwing my life and screwing my scholarship. i just dont want and prefer not to stay at home sebab nnti kerja aku ialah membooyattt atas ktel n mengembang. yes i have the tendency to explode since i eat too much. haha. n yes mental depression since lack of human touch and people around me. haha. but seriously, no joke. i would be depressed if i were to just stay at home and not see people.

and also dear mr bf, hehehe, =) jomm na, kita study sama2. trials nk dkat. tpi enjoy tu ada la jgak. haha !

so grand plan for cuti ni, bgn tu plg lewat 9am. best is by 7 i should be up and about, moving my ass, hurmmm2, idk. study ? ok la study3. n then ptg2 kena amek fresh air. haha. i still want study in it but at the same time meluangkan masa2 dgn org yg tersayang spt my parents, mr bf, amalina, anis, sharon, n anusha. n the list goes on ? haha. n use occupy it by watching awesome movies. n hurrrm, i would like to shop. so yeah, i will spend. n spend. nnnnn spend.

my mother lost my cd player. >_< ok no big deal, its just a cd player saja, aku xguna pun, but come on, its a fucking cd player ! my fucking cd player ! aiyoooyo. what laaar.

and i want ice cream. and i want space. and i would like to be left and do anything i want to do.

rar rar rar.