Pina Colada.

yeapp. masok2 keta my mums like waaa, u look so ceria.

yeap, ive found the word. that has been right in front of my god damn eyes for all this while.



WHY BOTHER ? QUIT IT !


no, like seriously, why bother ? quit it la. note to myself. awat yang dok wat trok sgt. yea, mmg seksa p skola tiap2 hari. bgn awai pagi, everyday byk aktiviti, ttn tiap2 mlm. mmg bosan, mmg boring, mmg seksa. dok tiap2 hari ulang bnda sma. esp bila otak kamu xdak dkat situ tpi jasad kamu ada kat situ n kena tunggu for two periods of agama to finish and then bare with sej for a period where the teacher cannot stop blabbing about nothing else but sejarah. awat ? trok sgt ka ? susah sgt ka ?

dak. pehtu psepa yg dok wat trok sgt. otak tuhan bgi boleh pikiaq, ada akal yg sempurna. badan sempurna n sihat. duet belambak, makanan berterabuq smpai mkn jdi gemok. yea too much fatty acid. xcukup pa g. duet ada, mak pak ada, skola ada, adek badek ada, bdak2 len mknan pun xdk, rumah pun xdak, skolah pon xdk. dpa x berpeluang utk dpt ilmu n blajaq mcm kita.

nih xlupa kpada kwn2 yg tersyg yg sgt best n awesome. yg hang boleh dok menggila, dok merapu, dok melayan, dok melawak, dok sembang, dok mnx nsihat, dok tmpat hang mengadu. nak apa lgi ? awat, xcukup g ka ?

nih paling penting parents yg tiap2 hari bgn, gerak kita, siap mknan, bg duet, hntq p skola, doa kat kita, amek dr skola, bg mkn lagi, hntq p ttn, bg mkn lagi. n bg moral support, always there fr u, nver leaving u alone, bg nsihat slalu, support, motivate, spend time to listen to ur immatured bragging about ur oh so pathetic life padahal liife yang lgsg x bersyukur dgn apa yg dh ada. teenage life la tu, sng kira. meh hbq, xckup pa g. yea mmg kdag2 dpa beletiaq, ang bygkn la, kita jd depa, mampuih, aku sniri xsggup nk pikul tggungjwb sebesaq tu.well for me la. pemikiran aku xsmpai tahap tu lagi. igt sng ka nk jdi parents. dak, xsenang. dpa pun manusia biasa. tdoq pun kna mcm kita. rhat pun kna mcm kita. n hidup dpa sma mcm kita, ada 24 jam ja.

paih tu satu g, kita minx tolong, mnx suma well goes to me la, i mnx suma dpt, tp dpa mnx tlg ckit bila i ada free time i bising. i sgt lah jhat. i should be more patient, understanding and considerate. stop being such a teenager. hahha. pls be a matured 17 year old lady.


WAKING UP. yeappp, skrg agak kronik since aku xdk member yang boleh membetulkan aku if aku gila kat skola. skg kami dua2 dok gila. n some epiphany hit me god damn hard on my head and face. it was all after recess. and idk wth i did la after recess tu. agk gila la. psepa tu aku xtau la. nk gila n desperate gak la smpai kna wat cmtu. gosh ! n its not good n i know i shouldnt do that.

tahun ni nk spm. aku kena sedar. tlg la ckit. bila nk serious. yea nk men2 pon bole tp at least half serious half maen2. plgggg trok a. ni x, 3/4 maen, xsmpai 1/4 serious. stg bsaq ang nk mkn rumput ka ? i have to focus. i keep falling in, and falling out and it goes on and on and on. this is when we say, constant motivation, patience, being there when in need. kena sma2 stay together, hold on together, n support each other.

and be aware that ur life is ur life. u ada hak. bcuz its ur life. take control of ur life. u are able to do things that u want. n if u want sth, go for it. i know what i want. i want good results for spm la. i know i can do it. jz kdg2 aku ni ghalit pehtu terpesong p mana hala aku xtau. so i need to stay on track. but i want it to be fun at the same time. nothing is stopping u from getting what u want.

and at some time, some point, if its not going to be ok, i cannot help it. i have to let it go. i dont mean to be selfish, but think about it. its true. but mean.

i am trying hard. well not reallll hard act but i can see myself trying hard as time goes by. i may be crawling on all fours, struggling for all this, and at snails pace, and i really dont know how to go about it or how to handle it. it worries me ok. its not a burden at all to me and i dont think of it that way, instead i take it as a responsibility that i have to do. butttt, i know i can do this, its just i keep on bragging about it. why brag ? i know i can do it, so why bother ? quit it. u can do it too. prove it.

hidup ni mmg xbek emo2. haha. so kenala ceria slalu. utk diri sendiri, utk hidup dn kesihatan sndri, utk parents, dn utk org2 yang tersayang.

^_^