Megalomaniac

n omg ! i know ive been having gideon for like more than a year now but omg bru skg i guna voice control. its prettyyy cool ya knowww. haha

ok2. so this may be long. since dlm keta tdi i didnt study sej and or bio. a lot went thru my mind. i just slept and prayed to god that i could reach sp safely and meet my love ones. i was so scared till i wanted to cry. Robin Rizal xboleh bawak laju lagi kaaa ? cuba 200mph kaaa ~ gosh !

okehh. soooo, muet. wehee. at last abeh dh. whats next is my mid year. great la kan. sat ja lagi nk mid year but shit i didnt do anythg lagi. i know whts the point of blabbing about it if u dont put any effort. riteeee ??? gah ! must do now.

sooo i screwed my reading. i half screwed my writing. it was actually easy.very easy. if la before this i rajen wat essay so it wouldnt be a big prob. writing for muet is like writing like an adult. yeappp, not like our secondary level. u need to have thesis statement, topic sentence, ur inference for ur conclusion and make a nice intro and conclusion la. i mean, its more adult-ish hahha n i so dont fit to be one. oh yea n my listening was absolutely fine as the damn speaker which was as big as me was blasting right in front of my facee. yeappp. i was seated at the front roww. gosh.

what i learned today was dont judge a book by its cover. i knowwww bla3 slalu ckp benda ni but yeahh i still do judge ppl n misjudge em. n i know i shudnt. i should be more open. niwayss. i was shocked that this guy whom i always see around school, all alone and lost and i never see him talk. but when he spoke just now, not bad, he could speak, hes polite, ok i know bru first tym ckp but the way he ckp it shows hes nice la, like not bad for a person, not like those some malay guys who doesnt even know how to respect ppl. so i was really shocked.

and then pulakk. i went to baling. in hope to see my long lost cousins. its been like two years or so. yeahhh. dua tahun x jumpa. everyone grew and im the one who is shrinking ! hahha. ok la. so mmg p sana blur bcuz i bru bgn tido n im so not used with the environment n i saw gulai pucuk pisang or sth n i ate like i havent eaten for 10 years. so yea, it was a blurrr i tell you, its like it took me 10 minutes to recognize who they are n im like heyyy, i think i know uuu. haha. i thinkkk.

so yeah, i stayed there for like 30 minutes onlyy ? dang i wished i could stay there till tomorrow. i mean seriously, i dont mind skipping school bcuz i really wish i dont have to go. last week was badd mood week for me. maybe too much of tears, bad memories and anger mad me go oh so emo. haha. n yeaa mayb bcuz i didnt take my vitamins, thats y im down. thats my stupid theory, sorry, haha. so iwas like can we stay there longerrr next time. n he was like what caught ur eyes ?

the people there. they are my family members. not immediate as i only have my parents, but they are still a part of me. n i wish i can know them more. i believe that if i stayed there longer, i could have u know lepak sana, duduk n menyembang about lotsa stuff. n yeah, learnnn sthhh. and yea, i should be in places like that, u know exposing myself to the outer world. haha

ok what i also learned is how u present yourself, ok nope not by how u dress ok its does a bit n mind u i went to school with a black tudung, blue bju kurung n my pink converse n i was like i should be shot dead by the fashion police. i mean i dont have flats or sandals or anything proper or for sth formal. i have wedges but u dont expect me to be sitting for muet with wedges or flip flops riteee. and i hate that sandals that i have, its not comfy so id rather stick with dear converse. n to make it worse, i already have an appropriate blouse to wear but guess whatttt ~ i dont have the appropriate pants to go with itttt. gosh ! what do i have. yeah i need slacks. i act need em for bowlg also but yeaa i wont be going so often so no big. ^_^ so i will be buying those things. AND NOTE - THOSE ARE NOT WANTS BUT A NEED FOR ME. I NEED THEM. dangggg, rminds me of the charles and keith sandals.. aaaaa ! mind u, its black, well it comes with brown too i guess, and its studded and it fits me ! n the best thing is u dont have to pay it thru ur nose. so im so gona check it out again.

ok present urself. u. need. to. be. matured. its the matter of how u speak. how u say things. if someone happens to ask u a question or ur opinion. and the discussion goes on and on and on, and u happen to get a conclusion out of it and hence it was a fruitful discussion, then i say bravo, u know how to talk and present urself. and thats very good for u. for me, it aint easy to survive in a discussion. i could hardly finish a sentence. haha. but if u hardly could utter a word, would only reply with one word, then do sth. and one more, when u speak, speak loudly, even if it needs u to scream, just scream, let urself be heard.

but being matured rite now is not sth that i would like to think about. i have a couple of months left to fool around with gfs at high school, tho it isnt my dream high school which i never everrrr which i would end up in, but anyways. i want to enjoy what i still have now. * pls, talk to me tomorrow, u know how depressing it is to me tho i know u dont even give a f * gosh...

all in all id like to say, i loveeeee the weekends. see, im not sooo stressed up or anything. hadoi. esok skola. tau dakkkk ~

n yeahh, not even 5 minutes after meeting my that cousin who jsut got married, hes like, reti ckp bhasa melayu xxx. n im like muka aku ni nmpk mcm xreti kaaaa.

ok i do have to admit, i hardly talk bm, sometimes i tend to struggle to speak in bm. well sometimes i struggle in english too. maybe when my brain slows down for a mo.