Is there such thing as changing races ?

If there is, pls do tell me. i would be happier than ever. perhaps the happiest person even.

this is day 02 yeappp im counting it and i dont seem to get over it. not even a bit. well i managed la a bit last night but the whole thing is coming back. i think it will get worse day by day. i just dk what to do. i need to talk to ckgu aziz tonite. like seriouslyyy.

staying back on thursdays 230 till 330 and mondays till 530 for that damn thing is not making me happy. id rather get squashed or be a rugby ball for the rugby players to throw ok and at least il have some fun. getting special treatment like that is not making me happy. if i think i cannot go on like this and be ok with this, i will tarik diri. insyaAllah, God willing, if i study hard, with Gods permission, i can get 10 as or at least good results rather than goin to that fucking ****** programmee. i dont need a fucking ****** programe to ensure a bright future for me. if i want it to be bright, then i will make it bright.

i am so angry and furious today n skang smpai rasa nk gla. of how it made others feel. of how it hurt others. mind u others tu kawan saya yang saya sayang. i feel hurt, i feel sad, i feel ashamed, i feel so unfair, i feel so angry, everything. xpenah fikir ka org laen akn rasa cam na. ohhhh, xle hbq kat orgg. bullshit. serious shit. i just feel smpai idk how i am gona face others.

and fuck those guys. yes i can talk english and im talking in english. do u have a fucking problem with that? do u have a fucking problem with me ? ada? maih ckp dpan2, awat la pulak ckap belakng aku lpas aku lalu. aku tau la ang men rugby and badan ang bsaq tapi ang pkiaq ang tu bgoih sgt ka.lagi la aku rasa cam nk tukaq race. aku cam nk turn ja n ckp fuck u. well i did, just not at his face. and i was a having a good conversation rather than u, mind u. so why cant u just shut ur bloody mouth up and mind your own business and put some clothes on before i start condemning u right in front of ur f face. do that and u will get a lil extra respect from me. and i wouldnt even say fuck u in the first place. i really hate those type of ppl. tell me who i dont hate skg ni. haha

how can ppl see others based on their skin colour. their religion. their race. what is fuckingly wrong with you. i just dont get ppl like that.

and yes i have to agree to what my mom said, we are so not 1 malaysia. i say bullshit one malaysia.

i am just furious ok, furious, not plain angry anymore. well i was pun yesterday. bila aku nak ok xtau la. maybe aku xakan ok pun kot.