And it feels, it feels like trading brains with an imbecile... for real

aiyooo. okeh. i feel like shit.

firstly, the smell of cigarette smoke is a hugeee turn of for me. like hell. i xle tahan langsung. i know apa guna bebai bau bnda tu pon, its just it, but i just cant take it laa. dh la memeningkan.

n thenn this, at school, i mean this thing ( note pls dont ask me tx ) its like idk. i feel torn in between ? no thats too bad n harsh n i shudnt say that but im just no im not confused, i truly understand, i truly understand the reasons and what not, but seriously ? i mean i just not to say i cant accept it, i accept, i understand, i just dont seem to be able to absorb it. i mean like hurhhh ???? gosh ! i mean, ok fine, some credit for me, i am trying to change, at a snail pace, tho i still do curse, still act like an uncivilized cat around, n i still do yell n scream. but ok niways, i know i can do it. just that thing. i just cant seem to absorb it.

n yeah, slowly, im shutting myself down bcuz im stressed out coz exams next week n i dont know a single thing ! so il just shut myself n keep quiet n do more revisions. sorryyyy... n yeah since im so tensed, il yell n get angry verghyyyy fast. haih !

everything is so wrongggg.. haha

* would you mind lending me some anti-depressant pill of yours ? im running out of mine * ~~~