so lets try to sound smart.

ok, firstly, sam the pc guy will come anytime soon n take zi lappytoppy away. so im worried. id just die. hahaha. kindaaaa....

oke. so. sound smart. id just like to say, im soooo sorry as usual im being such an arse holeeee ~

its like this. when i feel well rather down and off colour, id just go well simply cranky. hahah. obviously. n then i will start thinking things that doesnt even exist. n start having the what ifsss, i hate uuusss, i dont likessss, n much more. everything would just go wrong n upside down. my mind is just filled with shits n craps. all negative thoughts. so thats y i prefer to be alone n shut up and tend to say less coz whatever is gonna come out from my mouth, may be total shit. n so i dont want that to happen. things can get worse than it already is.

what ive thought is, yes, of course, i am not matured at all. i dont see any part of me maturing anyways. nada. especially this. in the whole part of me, my weakest part is controlling my emotions. agree right ?

and so il look up on the net n yea learnnn how to control my emotions. be it yes being emotional, being down, sad, angry, desperate, depressed, any crap. when sth happens which normal, matured adults would take it as a piece of crap while its a whole urghhh thing to me, i have to learn how to overcome it. put it aside and take into consideration. like how should i take it, or react.

i mean i have to stop being this way. n oh yes i take a long time to recover. like we always hear, live must go on. hahaha ! dude, yes, i can, if only i dont keep hearing the same fucking thing all over again. and again. andddd againnnn. i wasss okay for a mo n then oh fuck.

this is so not an easy task. its worse than me trying to control my food intake. n yes, yet again im starting the three spoons of rice n lotsa lauk thingy again. coz im like five months pregnant ? hahaha. n guess what, of coz im hungry n when i sleep i keep on dreaming about food. no i am not joking and im not making this up. so u see how urgh it is. haha. but u knoww, i can see that just me controlling my food aint gona downsize my five months pregnant tummy. i have to exercise. so i dont mind going for a jog. n yeah schools kinda like gona start soon sooo well get up early perhapssss ??? n u know do the push ups thingy or whatsoever. adoii. cant i just go for liposuction ? hahah


i havent come up with any plan for my master plan yet. will i ever come out with anything actually ?