Rant

soooo. dari tadi. no, tadi time beli lunch. i just thot. firstly, i really dont understand how people would like spend money to buy cigarettes. n not only that, finish a box while melepak-ing dekat coffee shop n waste ur bloody time just like that. no i dont say i dont waste my time, i am rite now actually even, but smoking i mean. lets say if i am getting married, id rather see my husband burry his face on the tv screen or play some games or sth rather than smoke n just melepak. n the amount of money that u spend just for it. whats the usee. itl all just turn into ashes.

so my uncle smokes. i igt smpai skg coz i serious pantang gila. ada la a few years back, i wanted to eat n then suddenly he started smoking in front of me. n it was like 8am or sth? n hes already smoking ? doihhh ! come on laaaa.. so even if he is well off, id rather marry a guy yg kurenggg money rather than a guy who is rich but smokes. i mean id be dieing first rather than him anyways.

n i cukup pantang ppl smoke dkat kdai mknan. org nk mkn la bhaiii. yg xleh blah ada sign NO SMOKING but yet depa xnmpk. smoke jaaaa. n then satu g. ttn bm. pakcik tu. aku mcm nk sound ja dia ckp, pakcik, ni tmpat ttn, kalo pakcik nk smoke, pakcik p turun bwh smoke. tension2. lagi tension bila baru cuci rmbut pstu kena asap rokok. adoiiii. aku sbaq jaaa.

ok. cut smoking. now, walaupun kamu sudah berkahwin, jgnlah kamu bergantung sepenuhnya dgn suami kamu. i mean, seriously. just imagine, x, mmg we dont hope or mmg xmintak langsung la one day ur husband cheats on u, n leaves u for another girl. i mean, mcmm u guys get married, n then u quit ur job. umah xdak, income mmg xdak lah. suma harap suami. n then u have kids with him. ok la, besa la. just, i mean seriously when u have kids, theres nothing more to urself. u wont have time for urself at all. so, imagine urself in that condition, u seem so idk. so xterurus, urself i mean. n then he goes out, meets other gals n stuff. n he leaves u. mmg anak xguarantee dia amek. so the housewife tu cna ?

so even ifffff i do wna get married, no way, i know guys r like ketua kluarga mmg. but as a source of income, errrrrm, if i have the brains, the job, il hold on to it. i still wana have my own money. just the thing is, i really dont see myself getting married, having a husband, more so kids. i mean i can barely keep myself alive, now ur asking me to take care of a guy, a totally diff, opposite individual compared to me. n it goes on and on.

i have to say no wayyyy. i know im 16 going 17. i just cant visualize myself in that kind of thingyyy.... lek luuu. spm xabeh g. lesen keta xdak g. hahah.

but just, what worries me is, this is how i think. how i take things. ok2. it will change when the time comes.

k dah, akibat PINK FEVER, saya merepek tahap terukkkk. ^_^

ok y the marriagee topiccc ? my mum dok bising psai topic ni. so it jsut got into my head wayyy tooo muchhh !